AN- well...here's the third part! Sorry 'bout the wait...schools keeping me real busy! ^^
Disclaimer- Standard disclaimer applied here!
Dedication- To Strife21! I'm so happy u like this story! Oh, and I do recommend her stories! When your done reading mine, (*cough* and reviewing *cough*) go give 'em a try! :)
Um, enjoy please! :)
Light My Way
By beautiful_dreamer
"There is no where in the world I'd rather be, then here in my room dreaming of you and me..."
-Dreaming, Selena
Tifa woke up suddenly, her body automatically sitting up in fast motion. Her breath was coming out in hard, short gasps. She wanted to scream, wanted the light to shine in her darkness.
"Oh, god..." She moaned, her voice horse and low.
She still was having those horrible dreams of her past, dreams of losing her father to that demon with silver hair (AN- AW! Don't flame me! I luv Sephy too! It's just...he was rather mean...hehe). She hated remembering those green eyes, that corrosively ate away into her soul.
She rubbed her head, her hands moving slowly and clumsily against her temple. Her head always would ache, soon after a bad dream such as the one she had experienced. What made it all worse, was the fact she couldn't opened her eyes and greet the normal world.
She laid back down, still weary of the complete darkness that surrounded her. She sighed, her hands slowly touching Cloud Strife's face. She held his soft head in her hands, her fingers blindly touching his lips.
She sighed, a slow and sad sound she couldn't help let out. It was pathetic and weak, but Tifa only felt that way since her current blindness.
"Teef"?
She stopped touching his face, suddenly aware that his arms were wrapped around her slim waist. She could almost feel his gaze on her face, and smiled slowly. A faint smile, a shadow of the smile she would always throw his way.
"Cloud?" Her voice answered, un-certain of the reaction he would give her. She was touching him, without his permission. Would he tell her to never do it again?
"Why are you awake? It's still late at night..." He whispered, his arms gathering her closer to his warm body. She put her arms around his strong neck, hugging his body even closer to her own.
"I...had a bad-" She began, but was suddenly aware of the fact that mostly children only have bad dreams. Would he look like a baby, in his opinion?
"A bad dream?" He guessed.
She nodded her head, not trusting her voice at that very moment.
"Do you want to speak about it? Maybe it will help?"
Tifa smiled, burying her face in the crock of his neck, "It was about what happened...when Sephir-"
Cloud hugged her, kissing the top of her head softly. He knew it was hard to mention, hard to remember of the murder of her father. All those terrible memories to haunt her every sleep. It was like what he was going through, remembering every night when he closed his eyes of the angel he let escape. Of the sweet innocent flower girl her failed to protect, after promising he would be her bodyguard. Now, he had to deal with the fact he let his only best friend get blind, trying to fight a monster he should have killed instead. He should be the one to never see again, not the Tifa who kept by his side through everything.
"Tifa, I wont let anything hurt you anymore..." He whispered, his own voice horse with emotion.
She touched his face again, her eyes trying to locate the point she was feeling. She wanted to look in his eyes, and tell him how much she loved him. How much she wanted to forever be in his arms. She wanted to proclaim that she would be his for eternity, she wanted to tell him she would try to wash away all the pain she knew was in his eyes.
"Cloud, I..." She began, "I...Love..."
'Say it, Tifa! What do you have to lose?" Her mind screamed, siding with her aching heart, 'He's holding you so close! He's not pulling away in remorse!'
'JUST SAY IT!'
"Cloud...I love you..." She whispered, wondering if he even heard the words.
Cloud sighed, his eyes closing in pure ecstasy at her voice. She loved him! She loved him, and he knew this wasn't a dream! It was real! So real!
"Cloud..." She sighed, her voice so horse, "I know...you might not return that love...I have a feeling, you'd rather want someone more...appropriate to love, someone able to look into your eyes when you give them their first kiss..."
He sucked in his breath, his heart beating so hard in his chest. She thought her blindness was going to make him not love her? In fact, it made him love her more. Made him want to protect her more and more. He wanted to guide her with all his heart, through her world of shadows.
"Cloud, please say something..." She begged, tears coursing down her face. She was giving away to tears again, but she knew no one would be bale to not cry after experiencing the pain she was going through.
"How can you love me?" He asked, and Tifa sensed his voice held a puzzlement he was not known for.
He continued, "I'm nothing but a failed experiment, unable to keep on of my friends from dying...unable to stop you from getting hurt by Sephiroth's blade...and now...,"
Tifa tried to keep her eyes open, tried to make them appear as though she saw his lips move with every word.
"Now...you can't even see past the darkness I let you fall in..." He whispered, his voice full of regret and self hate.
"No..."
Cloud looked at her, his eyes meeting her own for the first time since the accident had taken place. They still were a deep ruby red, big and pretty.
"No, no, no..." She whispered again, her hands grabbing the front of his shirt.
Her eyes lost that glow though, lost that optimistic shine that brought all their hearts warmth. They appeared dull, out of focus. Almost as if he was staring at a dead Tifa, not the real live one...
And he was to blame.
"Why? Why didn't you just say you didn't want me? Why couldn't you save that stupid speech about it being your fault, and just come up to me with the hard truth?" She screamed, her heart jamming wildly in her chest.
Cloud looked surprised, and his mind shoved so many words on his lips to tell her. He had to bite his lip from telling her just why he didn't talk up. He wanted her so much, it was amazing he didn't shout it at her at the moment.
"I know I'm not Aries, I know I wont come close to the perfection that was her...but, I love you and I'm real..."
Cloud didn't answer, but felt the prick of tears in his mako eyes.
"Give me a reason why...you reject me so," She cringed, the word so heavy on her tongue.
'She doesn't deserve a failure like you...she deserves someone perfect like herself...' He thought, wanting to tell her how much he adored her.
"Answer me, damn you!" Her voice, shrill with emotion demanded.
He remained silent, and it was killing Tifa slowly. Too much pain at once was flooding into her heart, and she was sure she would die a broken heart.
"Fine." The word fell from Tifa's lips, a small whisper that sounded so final.
She got up, her legs unsteady under her weight.
"Tifa? Where are you going?" His voice was alarming, confused and it hurt her heart.
She ignored him, he was not going to hurt her more. It wasn't possible to hurt more then this...
"Look, Tifa..." He started, his hand touching her arm so lightly. It sent shock waves to her nerves, making her shiver with pleasure.
She still ignored him. Touching would only make it harder to ignore.
"Please, hear me out..." He begged, his grip tightening on her arm, "Please, just listen..."
She turned to his voice, her eyes staring dull at his face. His eyes didn't meet hers again, and he wanted to guide them to his.
"Why?"
Cloud looked confused, not understanding the bitterness she held in her voice. He was doing her a favor, giving her a chance to be with some one worth while.
"WHY? TELL ME, PLEASE? WHY?" She screamed, her tears flowing rapidly down her pale face.
Cloud's face twisted in pain, matching Tifa's. It hurt him so much, to see one tear escape her beautiful wine red eyes.
His fingers gently touched the tears, bringing them to a small stop. Finally, he brought his fingers wet with tears, to his mouth and kissed them away. His lips found her cheeks, and slowly gather the other tears also, gently gliding over the silky smooth skin on her pretty face. His lips were velvet to Tifa's.
"I...God, you know I love you..." He whispered, pressing his head to the top of hers. He inhaled her sacred smell, the smell of fresh rain.
She sighed, her arms pushing him away slowly. She turned again, and walked miserably toward the tent door. She stumbled when she reached it, her hands searching all over the cloth to find the zipper.
"Tifa, please..." He begged, "You don't understand..."
She sobbed, holding in the barrage of tears. Where was the damn zipper?
He watched her fumble, looking for the small metal zipper that would be her out. She wanted to run from him, and he knew he was doing her a favor of realizing that.
"I...I wish I was dead..." She whispered, breaking down into a kneel. She was so lost, and the pain was so unimaginably horrible. It hurt so much. So damn much.
She banged her fist against the tent door, sobs escaping her small lips. She couldn't take it anymore, not this heart ache.
"No more, please...no more..."
She closed her eyes, suffocating once again in the darkness. This time, she was welcoming it's pressence.
AN- What a depressing chapter! Argh! :( R&R, and also read my other Cloti story "I'm Real". Ja! P.S. Thanks for the reviews! More please! Hehehe!
"There's a thousend words that I could take, to make you come home..."
-Nsync, Gone (GREAAAAAAAT SONG!)
Disclaimer- Standard disclaimer applied here!
Dedication- To Strife21! I'm so happy u like this story! Oh, and I do recommend her stories! When your done reading mine, (*cough* and reviewing *cough*) go give 'em a try! :)
Um, enjoy please! :)
Light My Way
By beautiful_dreamer
"There is no where in the world I'd rather be, then here in my room dreaming of you and me..."
-Dreaming, Selena
Tifa woke up suddenly, her body automatically sitting up in fast motion. Her breath was coming out in hard, short gasps. She wanted to scream, wanted the light to shine in her darkness.
"Oh, god..." She moaned, her voice horse and low.
She still was having those horrible dreams of her past, dreams of losing her father to that demon with silver hair (AN- AW! Don't flame me! I luv Sephy too! It's just...he was rather mean...hehe). She hated remembering those green eyes, that corrosively ate away into her soul.
She rubbed her head, her hands moving slowly and clumsily against her temple. Her head always would ache, soon after a bad dream such as the one she had experienced. What made it all worse, was the fact she couldn't opened her eyes and greet the normal world.
She laid back down, still weary of the complete darkness that surrounded her. She sighed, her hands slowly touching Cloud Strife's face. She held his soft head in her hands, her fingers blindly touching his lips.
She sighed, a slow and sad sound she couldn't help let out. It was pathetic and weak, but Tifa only felt that way since her current blindness.
"Teef"?
She stopped touching his face, suddenly aware that his arms were wrapped around her slim waist. She could almost feel his gaze on her face, and smiled slowly. A faint smile, a shadow of the smile she would always throw his way.
"Cloud?" Her voice answered, un-certain of the reaction he would give her. She was touching him, without his permission. Would he tell her to never do it again?
"Why are you awake? It's still late at night..." He whispered, his arms gathering her closer to his warm body. She put her arms around his strong neck, hugging his body even closer to her own.
"I...had a bad-" She began, but was suddenly aware of the fact that mostly children only have bad dreams. Would he look like a baby, in his opinion?
"A bad dream?" He guessed.
She nodded her head, not trusting her voice at that very moment.
"Do you want to speak about it? Maybe it will help?"
Tifa smiled, burying her face in the crock of his neck, "It was about what happened...when Sephir-"
Cloud hugged her, kissing the top of her head softly. He knew it was hard to mention, hard to remember of the murder of her father. All those terrible memories to haunt her every sleep. It was like what he was going through, remembering every night when he closed his eyes of the angel he let escape. Of the sweet innocent flower girl her failed to protect, after promising he would be her bodyguard. Now, he had to deal with the fact he let his only best friend get blind, trying to fight a monster he should have killed instead. He should be the one to never see again, not the Tifa who kept by his side through everything.
"Tifa, I wont let anything hurt you anymore..." He whispered, his own voice horse with emotion.
She touched his face again, her eyes trying to locate the point she was feeling. She wanted to look in his eyes, and tell him how much she loved him. How much she wanted to forever be in his arms. She wanted to proclaim that she would be his for eternity, she wanted to tell him she would try to wash away all the pain she knew was in his eyes.
"Cloud, I..." She began, "I...Love..."
'Say it, Tifa! What do you have to lose?" Her mind screamed, siding with her aching heart, 'He's holding you so close! He's not pulling away in remorse!'
'JUST SAY IT!'
"Cloud...I love you..." She whispered, wondering if he even heard the words.
Cloud sighed, his eyes closing in pure ecstasy at her voice. She loved him! She loved him, and he knew this wasn't a dream! It was real! So real!
"Cloud..." She sighed, her voice so horse, "I know...you might not return that love...I have a feeling, you'd rather want someone more...appropriate to love, someone able to look into your eyes when you give them their first kiss..."
He sucked in his breath, his heart beating so hard in his chest. She thought her blindness was going to make him not love her? In fact, it made him love her more. Made him want to protect her more and more. He wanted to guide her with all his heart, through her world of shadows.
"Cloud, please say something..." She begged, tears coursing down her face. She was giving away to tears again, but she knew no one would be bale to not cry after experiencing the pain she was going through.
"How can you love me?" He asked, and Tifa sensed his voice held a puzzlement he was not known for.
He continued, "I'm nothing but a failed experiment, unable to keep on of my friends from dying...unable to stop you from getting hurt by Sephiroth's blade...and now...,"
Tifa tried to keep her eyes open, tried to make them appear as though she saw his lips move with every word.
"Now...you can't even see past the darkness I let you fall in..." He whispered, his voice full of regret and self hate.
"No..."
Cloud looked at her, his eyes meeting her own for the first time since the accident had taken place. They still were a deep ruby red, big and pretty.
"No, no, no..." She whispered again, her hands grabbing the front of his shirt.
Her eyes lost that glow though, lost that optimistic shine that brought all their hearts warmth. They appeared dull, out of focus. Almost as if he was staring at a dead Tifa, not the real live one...
And he was to blame.
"Why? Why didn't you just say you didn't want me? Why couldn't you save that stupid speech about it being your fault, and just come up to me with the hard truth?" She screamed, her heart jamming wildly in her chest.
Cloud looked surprised, and his mind shoved so many words on his lips to tell her. He had to bite his lip from telling her just why he didn't talk up. He wanted her so much, it was amazing he didn't shout it at her at the moment.
"I know I'm not Aries, I know I wont come close to the perfection that was her...but, I love you and I'm real..."
Cloud didn't answer, but felt the prick of tears in his mako eyes.
"Give me a reason why...you reject me so," She cringed, the word so heavy on her tongue.
'She doesn't deserve a failure like you...she deserves someone perfect like herself...' He thought, wanting to tell her how much he adored her.
"Answer me, damn you!" Her voice, shrill with emotion demanded.
He remained silent, and it was killing Tifa slowly. Too much pain at once was flooding into her heart, and she was sure she would die a broken heart.
"Fine." The word fell from Tifa's lips, a small whisper that sounded so final.
She got up, her legs unsteady under her weight.
"Tifa? Where are you going?" His voice was alarming, confused and it hurt her heart.
She ignored him, he was not going to hurt her more. It wasn't possible to hurt more then this...
"Look, Tifa..." He started, his hand touching her arm so lightly. It sent shock waves to her nerves, making her shiver with pleasure.
She still ignored him. Touching would only make it harder to ignore.
"Please, hear me out..." He begged, his grip tightening on her arm, "Please, just listen..."
She turned to his voice, her eyes staring dull at his face. His eyes didn't meet hers again, and he wanted to guide them to his.
"Why?"
Cloud looked confused, not understanding the bitterness she held in her voice. He was doing her a favor, giving her a chance to be with some one worth while.
"WHY? TELL ME, PLEASE? WHY?" She screamed, her tears flowing rapidly down her pale face.
Cloud's face twisted in pain, matching Tifa's. It hurt him so much, to see one tear escape her beautiful wine red eyes.
His fingers gently touched the tears, bringing them to a small stop. Finally, he brought his fingers wet with tears, to his mouth and kissed them away. His lips found her cheeks, and slowly gather the other tears also, gently gliding over the silky smooth skin on her pretty face. His lips were velvet to Tifa's.
"I...God, you know I love you..." He whispered, pressing his head to the top of hers. He inhaled her sacred smell, the smell of fresh rain.
She sighed, her arms pushing him away slowly. She turned again, and walked miserably toward the tent door. She stumbled when she reached it, her hands searching all over the cloth to find the zipper.
"Tifa, please..." He begged, "You don't understand..."
She sobbed, holding in the barrage of tears. Where was the damn zipper?
He watched her fumble, looking for the small metal zipper that would be her out. She wanted to run from him, and he knew he was doing her a favor of realizing that.
"I...I wish I was dead..." She whispered, breaking down into a kneel. She was so lost, and the pain was so unimaginably horrible. It hurt so much. So damn much.
She banged her fist against the tent door, sobs escaping her small lips. She couldn't take it anymore, not this heart ache.
"No more, please...no more..."
She closed her eyes, suffocating once again in the darkness. This time, she was welcoming it's pressence.
AN- What a depressing chapter! Argh! :( R&R, and also read my other Cloti story "I'm Real". Ja! P.S. Thanks for the reviews! More please! Hehehe!
"There's a thousend words that I could take, to make you come home..."
-Nsync, Gone (GREAAAAAAAT SONG!)