Chapter 9
4 September 1991
I know I haven't written in a while, but I haven't been able to do much at all lately... I can't believe I did that to Niko. It really tears me apart to see her so upset. And it really hurts when your best friend since you were first born glares at you or totally ignores you whenever you're in the same class together. I really wish I could take back what I had said, but at the time, I didn't want my new friends to find out I was muggleborn. Even though they haven't spoken to me since then. I also have a feeling Niko will get her revenge on me sometime. And I fear it will truly be bad because whatever evil you give to the world, it comes back to you threefold. I've been thinking about leaving a lot as of late. I can not bare to have all my friends ignore me, especially when one of them is your sister. But it's even worse when your sister is your twin...it's like missing the other half of you. Niko and I used to do everything together. Like causing mischief and taking our punishments with out accusing the other of the act. And we always stood up for each other, no matter what. Now, we should be learning to be witches together, not apart. I truly miss my sister, and I need to watch out for her. I've heard Draco talking about getting his own revenge on her and I fear it might cost her her life. And I swear if he hurts her, I will make sure he sorely regrets ever messing with Niko and me.
Nissa
7 September 1991
So far my sister is safe. As is my secret. Draco has not done anything to Niko...yet. And as far as I can tell, no one knows of the secret I keep. Although no one has talked to me since the train ride and I am afraid I can not concentrate on my school work. And even more lately, I have beeen thinking about ending this life for good... What's the point of living it if you don't have any friends? Or a family? Perhaps if I talk to Niko things will get batter...No, probably not. Niko wouldn't give me the time of day if I asked. So I ask again, what's the point of living a life that has no destiny? I wonder if there are any spells or potions that one can make to rid one's self of this pitiful life... I'll give this life until Christmas to get better, and if it doesn't by then, I will be determined to find something to help me painlessly... Good night. Tomorrow will be another worthless day here at Hogwarts. I knew this was all good to be true...
Nissa
4 September 1991
I know I haven't written in a while, but I haven't been able to do much at all lately... I can't believe I did that to Niko. It really tears me apart to see her so upset. And it really hurts when your best friend since you were first born glares at you or totally ignores you whenever you're in the same class together. I really wish I could take back what I had said, but at the time, I didn't want my new friends to find out I was muggleborn. Even though they haven't spoken to me since then. I also have a feeling Niko will get her revenge on me sometime. And I fear it will truly be bad because whatever evil you give to the world, it comes back to you threefold. I've been thinking about leaving a lot as of late. I can not bare to have all my friends ignore me, especially when one of them is your sister. But it's even worse when your sister is your twin...it's like missing the other half of you. Niko and I used to do everything together. Like causing mischief and taking our punishments with out accusing the other of the act. And we always stood up for each other, no matter what. Now, we should be learning to be witches together, not apart. I truly miss my sister, and I need to watch out for her. I've heard Draco talking about getting his own revenge on her and I fear it might cost her her life. And I swear if he hurts her, I will make sure he sorely regrets ever messing with Niko and me.
Nissa
7 September 1991
So far my sister is safe. As is my secret. Draco has not done anything to Niko...yet. And as far as I can tell, no one knows of the secret I keep. Although no one has talked to me since the train ride and I am afraid I can not concentrate on my school work. And even more lately, I have beeen thinking about ending this life for good... What's the point of living it if you don't have any friends? Or a family? Perhaps if I talk to Niko things will get batter...No, probably not. Niko wouldn't give me the time of day if I asked. So I ask again, what's the point of living a life that has no destiny? I wonder if there are any spells or potions that one can make to rid one's self of this pitiful life... I'll give this life until Christmas to get better, and if it doesn't by then, I will be determined to find something to help me painlessly... Good night. Tomorrow will be another worthless day here at Hogwarts. I knew this was all good to be true...
Nissa