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Deep Inside of You
By miyamoto yui
Beautiful eyes…
They seemed so familiar to me…
I found myself floating in the place where I had drowned. I had almost pulled her down with me in that moment of time not too long ago…
Will I be able to pull him out, I wonder…?
Chapter 20 – A mermaid's hopeful namida.
We who know our fate are stuck in time. And when we pass away, we are kept alive by the people whose memories we reside within.
That's why when I looked at you, my eyes were sad and filled with the namida that I had drowned in.
But, I had chosen this fate…because I had loved that woman.
You were floating in the depths of your own dreams. The blue-green that seemed like ocean water surrounded us and you tried your best to look around.
You looked at me and for a second, I thought you had forgotten who I was. For your eyes blinked as if they had never seen me before.
"A mermaid?" you said incredulously as you looked to the surface with the light above us.
Squinting your eyes, you shook your head in disbelief. "Mother?"
I nodded slowly as my lips began to form a half-smile. There was still hope yet inside of you.
"Fuuma…" I said as I reached out to him.
But he slapped my arms away in disgust. He turned away from me as he said, "Whoever is showing me this illusion will pay."
He shouted with all his heart, "DO YOU HEAR ME?!"
But, his words floated away in bubbles.
"You can only hear me here, Fuuma," I softly whispered while looking down. "And no, this isn't an illusion."
I then faced him as he turned towards me. "_You_ were the one who called for me. And being your mother, I came because I heard my child's voice."
"I am not Fuuma," he seriously told me. "My name is Kamui. The one called Fuuma Monou died when everyone in his life left him."
I shook my head as I suddenly grabbed his shoulders. "No, they didn't die!"
I placed my head on his chest as my hair floated in back of me. In frustration, my fingers crunched his uniform like sakura petals as I held onto him. "We are alive in here…"
"…in your broken heart." I sobbed. "Please remember who you are!"
"Your sister came to me before she died, Fuuma." I sighed sorrowfully. "I cannot lose you too!!!"
"AH!" he shouted as he turned from side to side while holding his head. I then cupped my hands over his and leaned up to kiss him on the forehead. "Deep inside, you know we still live."
"Please believe me…" I whispered lovingly. "Deep inside of me, I know my little boy still lives there."
Shaking my head, I said, "You're not dead."
Touching forehead to forehead, we closed our eyes as I said, "Keep your promise to me, Fuuma. That no matter what happens…you will still keep on living and protect the ones you love with your life."
"If you don't, I will be disappointed in you." I then lightly pushed him away and folded my hands. "You know why?"
"I fought for you, Fuuma."
He eyes pierced themselves through my own as he stared at me.
"One had told me in a dream to not have you…" I blinked at him. "But I wanted you to live."
"No matter what happens, you are still my son." I then held his hands softly.
"You are Fuuma Monou!"
And somehow, my shout echoed around us until he closed his eyes and disappeared.
He was going back to reality, where people can still change how they live their lives.
If I kept you any more, you would never go back…
I was almost tempted to…
I sighed as I looked up to the surface where the false light shone above me. For no matter how much I would love to swim up there, there would be no end. There was no surface to go back to.
That's right, you shouldn't be here.
You are alive, my son.
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Author's note: I never felt so strongly as I did when I typed, "You are Fuuma Monou!" I stopped typing.
And then when I ended the fic, I thought, "Was this stronger than Kamui's mother's chapter?" I shook my head and said, "They are the same." Kamui's was touching while this was encouraging. I believe both mothers feel this way for their sons.
Namida - tears
Deep Inside of You
By miyamoto yui
Beautiful eyes…
They seemed so familiar to me…
I found myself floating in the place where I had drowned. I had almost pulled her down with me in that moment of time not too long ago…
Will I be able to pull him out, I wonder…?
Chapter 20 – A mermaid's hopeful namida.
We who know our fate are stuck in time. And when we pass away, we are kept alive by the people whose memories we reside within.
That's why when I looked at you, my eyes were sad and filled with the namida that I had drowned in.
But, I had chosen this fate…because I had loved that woman.
You were floating in the depths of your own dreams. The blue-green that seemed like ocean water surrounded us and you tried your best to look around.
You looked at me and for a second, I thought you had forgotten who I was. For your eyes blinked as if they had never seen me before.
"A mermaid?" you said incredulously as you looked to the surface with the light above us.
Squinting your eyes, you shook your head in disbelief. "Mother?"
I nodded slowly as my lips began to form a half-smile. There was still hope yet inside of you.
"Fuuma…" I said as I reached out to him.
But he slapped my arms away in disgust. He turned away from me as he said, "Whoever is showing me this illusion will pay."
He shouted with all his heart, "DO YOU HEAR ME?!"
But, his words floated away in bubbles.
"You can only hear me here, Fuuma," I softly whispered while looking down. "And no, this isn't an illusion."
I then faced him as he turned towards me. "_You_ were the one who called for me. And being your mother, I came because I heard my child's voice."
"I am not Fuuma," he seriously told me. "My name is Kamui. The one called Fuuma Monou died when everyone in his life left him."
I shook my head as I suddenly grabbed his shoulders. "No, they didn't die!"
I placed my head on his chest as my hair floated in back of me. In frustration, my fingers crunched his uniform like sakura petals as I held onto him. "We are alive in here…"
"…in your broken heart." I sobbed. "Please remember who you are!"
"Your sister came to me before she died, Fuuma." I sighed sorrowfully. "I cannot lose you too!!!"
"AH!" he shouted as he turned from side to side while holding his head. I then cupped my hands over his and leaned up to kiss him on the forehead. "Deep inside, you know we still live."
"Please believe me…" I whispered lovingly. "Deep inside of me, I know my little boy still lives there."
Shaking my head, I said, "You're not dead."
Touching forehead to forehead, we closed our eyes as I said, "Keep your promise to me, Fuuma. That no matter what happens…you will still keep on living and protect the ones you love with your life."
"If you don't, I will be disappointed in you." I then lightly pushed him away and folded my hands. "You know why?"
"I fought for you, Fuuma."
He eyes pierced themselves through my own as he stared at me.
"One had told me in a dream to not have you…" I blinked at him. "But I wanted you to live."
"No matter what happens, you are still my son." I then held his hands softly.
"You are Fuuma Monou!"
And somehow, my shout echoed around us until he closed his eyes and disappeared.
He was going back to reality, where people can still change how they live their lives.
If I kept you any more, you would never go back…
I was almost tempted to…
I sighed as I looked up to the surface where the false light shone above me. For no matter how much I would love to swim up there, there would be no end. There was no surface to go back to.
That's right, you shouldn't be here.
You are alive, my son.
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Author's note: I never felt so strongly as I did when I typed, "You are Fuuma Monou!" I stopped typing.
And then when I ended the fic, I thought, "Was this stronger than Kamui's mother's chapter?" I shook my head and said, "They are the same." Kamui's was touching while this was encouraging. I believe both mothers feel this way for their sons.
Namida - tears