Disclaimer: X isn't Yui's.
Deep Inside of You
By Miyamoto Yui
Chapter 23 – All of me.
I scrounged my eyes as I folded my hands in front of me.
"I must…" I said to myself as I opened my eyes again to look around the room. "I must think of something!"
Open, close. Open close.
I stuck my head inside the cupboards and my kawaii Inuki trailed behind me. I turned to him and asked, "What would you make to cheer someone up?"
He barked at me.
Smiling, I scratched his ears and squealed in delight, "Yeah! I'll make cookies for everyone!"
Then, I tilted my head and put up an index finger in the air, "But I wonder what kind of cookies do they like…"
I then sighed as I drifted off a bit. "I wonder what kind of cookies Kusanagi-san likes…"
Inuki began put his nose on my knee and then I turned to him. "Cookies! Yes, that's right. Cookies…we're making cookies."
"I'm glad there's enough stuff in this kitchen," I said as my voice was echoed upon the walls.
Then, again, this campus has everything, doesn't it? I sweatdropped.
"It's so different from home," I started to say as I flipped around a dessert book and found what I needed.
As I gathered ingredients, I sighed. "Do you miss home too, Inuki?"
He nodded his head.
I didn't even have to ask him that one. We are of one mind and of one heart. Of course we'd be feeling the same.
I then looked at his soft eyes and patted his head with nothing to say.
After washing my hands, I poured water, butter, and flour into a bowl.
I smiled at Inuki again and continued to mix the batter.
I wondered how life would be if Inuki weren't here. I'd be very lonely, I knew.
Quiet days always passed when I was at home. The usual routine of homework, school, eat, etc. became tiring.
I needed something else to do.
But all I really needed was Inuki.
"Hey you," I said as I turned to him and we touched noses. "Remember that time when we were looking around the forest and you found other dogs?"
He nodded his head.
"They couldn't see you, but they could sense you."
I remembered that very clearly.
I was ten when this happened…
Walking through the forest, we almost got lost trying to find some spot that I thought would be good to play in. No one really wanted to play with me because they thought I was crazy for talking to the air.
They were the ones that were missing out, I reasoned. They didn't see my beloved Inuki.
So there.
But there were some wild dogs wandering around for some strange reason. I didn't know how, when, or why, but they looked at me and at the place where Inuki would be.
They talked to him as best as they could.
And then, they left after licking my hand.
I wiped a tear away trying not to let it get into the batter as I mixed more ingredients together.
"I wanted someone to see you too," I said to him. "I know I've told you a million times, but I wanted someone to see you too, Inuki."
I just stopped mixing as I looked at him with a smile. "I wanted them to see how good you were to me. To see how much I love you in return."
"You're…you're my twin."
That's when the dam fell.
My tears kept on falling so I had to run to the sink to wash them away. I looked around thinking that maybe someone would see.
I hated people to see me cry, but I never could help it whenever I felt incredibly sad. To the point that my heart would break if I couldn't say anything at all.
Inuki then pushed his nose on my knee. I kneeled down as he licked my tears away. I blinked at him while smiling.
"Thank you…" I laughed. "You always tickle me whenever you do that."
Then, I put on the oven and went back to making the cookies. As I put the sheets on the pans, I made them into little balls.
"Ah!" I shouted with surprise as I glanced towards the window because of the lightning. "When will it stop raining?"
"What do you think, Inuki?"
He barked at me.
I nodded in agreement. "Yeah, this is really not good."
Then again, who was I to say this? It was the middle of the night and I couldn't go to sleep, so I here I was making chocolate chip and sugar cookies.
I shrugged my shoulders as I resumed doing the cookies. I hummed a little tune and finished the rest of them. When they were arranged perfectly on the pan, I smiled to myself and held my hands out.
As if I were casting a spell, like a little kid, I said, "I've got to put love on these as sprinkles. That's what grandma said to always do."
I turned to Inuki with my index finger over my mouth. "Shh. It's our little secret."
Putting the cookies into the oven, I clasped my hands together. "Dekita!"
Inuki barked again and I sat on the dining table as he put his head on my lap. While stroking his ear, I again looked at the rain pouring outside.
I wonder how Kamui is doing? I don't want to go there when he's not feeling too well.
And I know he's looking at that video right now and that's not good if I come in while he's looking at something from his family.
It will make me more homesick too!
So, I'll just stay put.
But how is Kusanagi-san doing? I hope he isn't getting wet. Maybe I should have bought him something more useful instead of always getting ice cream all the time.
Look at me being…as if…I was his girlfriend…
It's true though.
What I wrote in my letter to grandma.
I love him.
But was it all right to love him? I wanted to ask if that was okay…
To not be a burden to him.
For, I had learned that loving someone also meant you could be a burden to them.
Kamui and his friend…
Inuki and not being able to show him to everyone…
Sorata-san and Arashi-san for one another…
Even Subaru-san…when he looked at Kamui…
I patted Inuki's soft fur as he closed his eyes for a moment.
Was I wrong to just hug a stranger who could see Inuki?
I couldn't ever answer this.
Grandmother said that when I arrived in Tokyo, there would be others who could see you Inuki.
But all I knew was at that moment, I hugged Kusanagi-san because of not only that…
I felt the loneliness somewhat go away.
Oh, it's not that I don't love you Inuki…
I began to cry as I grabbed his neck and nuzzled my hair against his fur.
It's just that someone understood.
I knew it by the way he looked.
I just knew he could see how much I loved you.
And that he would love you just as much.
When he touched you, I could tell all of this.
Being with you all these years and loving you more as the days passed, I just knew.
Deep inside, a little voice told me, "Yes…this is the one…who would understand me."
I wasn't the crazy girl who talked to the air.
I wasn't the genki person that I always made myself out to be.
I was whole.
He could see you.
And because of that, he could see all of me.
Like waiting for these cookies to give with all my love and energy put into them, I waited so long for someone to see all of me.
For how could you love me if you couldn't see my Inuki?
"That's what that moment meant to me, Inuki…" I mumbled to his ear.
With my ears open and my eyes closed with tears, I waited for the cookies to be finished…
--
Author's note: I'm back in the game again! Yea for 'Deep Inside of You'! I couldn't really make this sad because for me, Yuzu was genki. Too genki. Yes, she's had her share of sadness, but her charm is her genkiness and positive attitude.
This chapter was actually easier to make than I had thought…
Sorry about her referring to Kamui without the formalities. @_@ I couldn't decide or find sources since my manga is still packed after moving. ^^;;;
But I hope I did her justice. I wanted her chapter to be unique as well, so I used cooking for a change.
Deep Inside of You
By Miyamoto Yui
Chapter 23 – All of me.
I scrounged my eyes as I folded my hands in front of me.
"I must…" I said to myself as I opened my eyes again to look around the room. "I must think of something!"
Open, close. Open close.
I stuck my head inside the cupboards and my kawaii Inuki trailed behind me. I turned to him and asked, "What would you make to cheer someone up?"
He barked at me.
Smiling, I scratched his ears and squealed in delight, "Yeah! I'll make cookies for everyone!"
Then, I tilted my head and put up an index finger in the air, "But I wonder what kind of cookies do they like…"
I then sighed as I drifted off a bit. "I wonder what kind of cookies Kusanagi-san likes…"
Inuki began put his nose on my knee and then I turned to him. "Cookies! Yes, that's right. Cookies…we're making cookies."
"I'm glad there's enough stuff in this kitchen," I said as my voice was echoed upon the walls.
Then, again, this campus has everything, doesn't it? I sweatdropped.
"It's so different from home," I started to say as I flipped around a dessert book and found what I needed.
As I gathered ingredients, I sighed. "Do you miss home too, Inuki?"
He nodded his head.
I didn't even have to ask him that one. We are of one mind and of one heart. Of course we'd be feeling the same.
I then looked at his soft eyes and patted his head with nothing to say.
After washing my hands, I poured water, butter, and flour into a bowl.
I smiled at Inuki again and continued to mix the batter.
I wondered how life would be if Inuki weren't here. I'd be very lonely, I knew.
Quiet days always passed when I was at home. The usual routine of homework, school, eat, etc. became tiring.
I needed something else to do.
But all I really needed was Inuki.
"Hey you," I said as I turned to him and we touched noses. "Remember that time when we were looking around the forest and you found other dogs?"
He nodded his head.
"They couldn't see you, but they could sense you."
I remembered that very clearly.
I was ten when this happened…
Walking through the forest, we almost got lost trying to find some spot that I thought would be good to play in. No one really wanted to play with me because they thought I was crazy for talking to the air.
They were the ones that were missing out, I reasoned. They didn't see my beloved Inuki.
So there.
But there were some wild dogs wandering around for some strange reason. I didn't know how, when, or why, but they looked at me and at the place where Inuki would be.
They talked to him as best as they could.
And then, they left after licking my hand.
I wiped a tear away trying not to let it get into the batter as I mixed more ingredients together.
"I wanted someone to see you too," I said to him. "I know I've told you a million times, but I wanted someone to see you too, Inuki."
I just stopped mixing as I looked at him with a smile. "I wanted them to see how good you were to me. To see how much I love you in return."
"You're…you're my twin."
That's when the dam fell.
My tears kept on falling so I had to run to the sink to wash them away. I looked around thinking that maybe someone would see.
I hated people to see me cry, but I never could help it whenever I felt incredibly sad. To the point that my heart would break if I couldn't say anything at all.
Inuki then pushed his nose on my knee. I kneeled down as he licked my tears away. I blinked at him while smiling.
"Thank you…" I laughed. "You always tickle me whenever you do that."
Then, I put on the oven and went back to making the cookies. As I put the sheets on the pans, I made them into little balls.
"Ah!" I shouted with surprise as I glanced towards the window because of the lightning. "When will it stop raining?"
"What do you think, Inuki?"
He barked at me.
I nodded in agreement. "Yeah, this is really not good."
Then again, who was I to say this? It was the middle of the night and I couldn't go to sleep, so I here I was making chocolate chip and sugar cookies.
I shrugged my shoulders as I resumed doing the cookies. I hummed a little tune and finished the rest of them. When they were arranged perfectly on the pan, I smiled to myself and held my hands out.
As if I were casting a spell, like a little kid, I said, "I've got to put love on these as sprinkles. That's what grandma said to always do."
I turned to Inuki with my index finger over my mouth. "Shh. It's our little secret."
Putting the cookies into the oven, I clasped my hands together. "Dekita!"
Inuki barked again and I sat on the dining table as he put his head on my lap. While stroking his ear, I again looked at the rain pouring outside.
I wonder how Kamui is doing? I don't want to go there when he's not feeling too well.
And I know he's looking at that video right now and that's not good if I come in while he's looking at something from his family.
It will make me more homesick too!
So, I'll just stay put.
But how is Kusanagi-san doing? I hope he isn't getting wet. Maybe I should have bought him something more useful instead of always getting ice cream all the time.
Look at me being…as if…I was his girlfriend…
It's true though.
What I wrote in my letter to grandma.
I love him.
But was it all right to love him? I wanted to ask if that was okay…
To not be a burden to him.
For, I had learned that loving someone also meant you could be a burden to them.
Kamui and his friend…
Inuki and not being able to show him to everyone…
Sorata-san and Arashi-san for one another…
Even Subaru-san…when he looked at Kamui…
I patted Inuki's soft fur as he closed his eyes for a moment.
Was I wrong to just hug a stranger who could see Inuki?
I couldn't ever answer this.
Grandmother said that when I arrived in Tokyo, there would be others who could see you Inuki.
But all I knew was at that moment, I hugged Kusanagi-san because of not only that…
I felt the loneliness somewhat go away.
Oh, it's not that I don't love you Inuki…
I began to cry as I grabbed his neck and nuzzled my hair against his fur.
It's just that someone understood.
I knew it by the way he looked.
I just knew he could see how much I loved you.
And that he would love you just as much.
When he touched you, I could tell all of this.
Being with you all these years and loving you more as the days passed, I just knew.
Deep inside, a little voice told me, "Yes…this is the one…who would understand me."
I wasn't the crazy girl who talked to the air.
I wasn't the genki person that I always made myself out to be.
I was whole.
He could see you.
And because of that, he could see all of me.
Like waiting for these cookies to give with all my love and energy put into them, I waited so long for someone to see all of me.
For how could you love me if you couldn't see my Inuki?
"That's what that moment meant to me, Inuki…" I mumbled to his ear.
With my ears open and my eyes closed with tears, I waited for the cookies to be finished…
--
Author's note: I'm back in the game again! Yea for 'Deep Inside of You'! I couldn't really make this sad because for me, Yuzu was genki. Too genki. Yes, she's had her share of sadness, but her charm is her genkiness and positive attitude.
This chapter was actually easier to make than I had thought…
Sorry about her referring to Kamui without the formalities. @_@ I couldn't decide or find sources since my manga is still packed after moving. ^^;;;
But I hope I did her justice. I wanted her chapter to be unique as well, so I used cooking for a change.