Chapter Six: It all falls apart
When James woke again he was back in his and Jesse's bed at the cottage. He vaguely remembered the car ride back to Saffron City and could hear Jesse talking to Cally downstairs. James got up and put on some proper clothes and went out onto the landing so he could hear what they were saying. "I am so worried about him," Jesse was saying. "James isn't as strong anymore and after what happened I am terrified that one day I am going to wake up and he'll be." "Jesse he'll be ok" Cally was saying. James didn't want to hear anymore of this. He had frightened Jesse badly today and ruined her day out. No matter what Jesse said James still felt responsible. He picked up the engagement ring again and looked at it as he walked back into the bedroom. He still wanted to marry her more than anything in the world but today was not the day after all. James sighed and put the ring back in his pocket. Maybe he should tell her of the future sight. He stood in front of the big mirror in their room and tried to work out what he'd say if he did tell her. "Jesse as you know things have changed a lot over the last year but I haven't exactly been honest with you, you see I." no that wasn't right. James cleared his throat and tried again this time getting right to the point. "Jessica I've lied to you. I still have future sight and I accidentally did a viewing in my sleep today. That's what I was screaming about." James whirled round when he heard a shocked gasp from the doorway. "Jesse" he nearly choked on her name. Meowth was at her feet his eyes narrowed as he stared in hurt at his friend. Jesse's eyes were slowly filling with tears and the shocked and hurt expression on her face made James feel even worse. He hadn't known she was standing there oh why wasn't he more careful? "Is this true?" Jesse asked softly walking further into the room. "Yes" James looked at the ground. He was feeling terrible as she came over to him and put a hand on his arm. "James you should have told me" maybe there was hope. In the old days Jesse would have screamed and beat him senseless with a mallet or a paper fan. James was actually wishing that she would do this. At least then it would be over. This was ten times worse. "I was trying to protect you" James said after a few minutes of silence between them. "Trying to protect me?" Jesse demanded. "James what the hell did you need to protect me from?" "You saw what happened before" James said softly. "What it does. It ruins everything Jesse. Giovanni was not the only man that would have used me for what I can do. I thought if it was gone then no one would try to hurt us anymore" "The whole year we've been together has been nothing but a huge lie," Jesse snapped. "That's not true!" "James I just need to be alone for now ok?" "Jessica" James called as she turned to leave. "You will come back won't you?" Jesse didn't bother to reply. James turned to Meowth. "Don't yous look at me Jimmy. I'm with Jess on dis one" Meowth said but James could tell he was torn between the two of them. "I didn't mean to lie to you" James tried again. "I know yous didn't" Meowth replied as he turned to go after Jesse. "Dats why it hurts so much" "I was trying to protect you" James called. Meowth ignored him and hurried down the stairs. He found Jesse sitting outside the cottage on the steps crying. Despite the fact that she wanted to be alone Jesse seemed glad of Meowth's presence. He hadn't been lying when he told James that his lying to them hurt him. Meowth did feel hurt that his friend was not honest with them but he could see why James did it. Giovanni was not the only one who would want to use James for his ability. Jesse had nearly been killed by Giovanni whilst trying to protect James. Meowth could understand why James wanted to tell her it had all gone. Jesse loved James so much and would defend him again if needed. But they had both grown up over the last year and Meowth knew that James wanted to look after Jesse more and defend her for once.
Still there was the fact that, good intentions or not, James had lied to Jesse. That was the one thing Jesse could not handle and James knew it. Everyone used to lie to Jesse even her own mother lied to her about working for Team Rocket for a time! Jesse's old boyfriends used to lie to her and often or not Jesse would find out that they had also been cheating on her behind her back. Jesse had found it very hard to trust anyone at first and she kept secrets from James even when they were in Team Rocket. Everyone has secrets Meowth had a few as did anyone but Jesse thought James was always honest with her and she had just found out that she was wrong. Worst of all it did mean to some extent that the last year they had spent together had been built on lies. But Meowth did want them to get through this. Jesse and James were made for each other and if Meowth didn't do anything then they would throw all that away. The cat knew how Jesse's mind worked. She did love James but she would let her head rule over her heart and tell herself that he was no better than the rest of her boyfriends. Jesse would throw away her happiness because she was so stubborn. Meowth didn't believe that those two timing ratattas Jesse had dated before deserved another chance but James was not like that. When Meowth was first sent out with Jesse and James he had at one point almost believed the rumours going round the HQ that James was gay but then Meowth saw how Jesse and James acted together. There was defiantly something between them even if they couldn't see it yet. Why else would James put up with the beatings from Jesse's fan and mallet? And the temper tantrums and constant blame she put on him about the failed mission. Only someone in love would put up with all that. Meowth couldn't watch those two ruin everything like this. "Jesse" he said putting a paw on her shoulder. "Please don't be mad at him. James was trying ta look after us" "He's a liar," Jesse snapped. "Just like the rest of them" Meowth chuckled, "Now we both know dat isn't true" "Maybe" "Jess I tink he was wrong ta lie too but yous can't let what happened in da past decide this for yous. Da way I see it is dat yous love Jim and he loves yous. Yous can work dis out" "That's what I said to myself with my other boyfriends Meowth" "Jimmy isn't your other boyfriends! Deys were teenage crushes. James is da real ting here, true love if yous want ta call it dat. Are yous going to let yourself loose him other da future sight? If so den James was right and it has ruined everything". Jesse took a moment to process what Meowth was saying. She tried telling herself that she hated James but this was no good. Jesse could never hate James, Meowth was right. She was in love with him. But he had lied to her and if he did it once he would do it again. No this was James she was thinking about. He wouldn't lie to her without a very good reason would he? And it was true as Meowth said. Future sight was still ruining everything. Jesse didn't know if she could deal with this all right now. "I need some time to think" Jesse said at last. "I'm going to see Cally" "Jesse dat won't help" Meowth argued. "Look I just need some time ok" she snapped. "James is still going to be here when I come back". With that Jesse turned away and started walking in the direction of Cally's house. Meowth sighed and decided to go with her. He wasn't really that worried. Jesse wanted to come to the conclusion that she should forgive James on her own without Meowth suggesting it first. Meowth smiled this was the Jesse he knew all right, stubborn through and through. After calling to James that they were heading out for a bit Meowth ran after Jesse.
James had heard most of the conversation between Jesse and Meowth but he was still hurting. Mostly from the fact that he had lied to Jesse and hurt her. He knew she hated people lying to her and yet he still did it. James knew it was a mistake hiding future sight from her but it had messed up everything anyway. He heard that Jesse was going to Cally's and considered going over there to sort things out but then James realised that Cally witnessing a argument might embarrass her and this would only make matters worse. James sighed and suddenly longed for the company of someone. He hated being in the cottage alone. James decided to let his Pokemon out in the backyard for some fresh air. James got his coat, as it had got cold all of a sudden, and headed outside. He and Jesse were still trainers even through they had little time for battles nowadays. They often fought against each other but Jesse usually won. Weezing was strong but Victreebell had become even more disobedient since they left Team Rocket and James may as well have had one Pokemon against Jesse's Arbok and Wobbuffet. James had challenged Sabrina but Weezing was weak against her Kadabra and lost quickly. James didn't think of his Pokemon as ways to win battles anyway. He liked the Pokemon company true he had Meowth but sometimes James preferred it when the Pokemon didn't talk back. James let Weezing out of his Pokeball and it floated along happily enjoying the outside. James was reluctant to release Victreebell but it would be unfair to leave him in his Pokeball. The moment Victreebell materialised it lunged at James. He tried to dodge the mouth of the plant Pokemon but Victreebell was a lot quicker. "Let me go" James shouted struggling to free himself. Normally Jesse would have run to help him at this point but Jesse wasn't here. James remembered why she wasn't and stifled a sob. Finally he managed to get free when Victreebell spotted something better to try and eat; James' roses. "No you don't" James shouted having enough of Victreebell's disobedience for one day. He returned him and shoved the Pokeball into his coat pocket. James sighed and put his head in his hands. He was still feeling tired from the viewing and wanted to go and have another lie down. James was still frightened by the viewing. What had it meant? James now he had, had a chance to think about it couldn't think of anywhere like the lab he had been in. Maybe it was a dream again but then why did he feel so drained, both physically and emotionally. "This has got to stop" James said to himself. "When Jesse gets back I am going to tell her about the viewing and about the other problem." James knew that if he and Jesse were going to get through this then he had to tell her how he could feel people's emotions too. James still hated himself for invading the private thoughts and feelings of others even through he had no control over it. Getting up and returning Weezing he went back inside dumping his coat over the stair rail as he headed back up to his room. James took off his shoes and slipped into the bed feeling more tired by the minute. Setting Weezing's Pokeball down on the bedside cabinet he drifted off into an uneasy sleep.
"You should talk to him," Cally said handing her friend a cup of tea. "Find out what that nightmare was really about. It's the only way to go Jess. If I had a guy as gorgeous as James there is no way I'd end it all over a little tiny lie". "I know" Jesse sighed. "I'm no good at talking to people Cally" Jesse had gone round to Cally's wanting someone to talk too. Meowth had gone to the game corner probably to see if Mimi was there. Jesse had made up her mind to forgive James but she wanted to give them some space to work everything out. Jesse knew that if she went back in there straight away then there would just be another fight. Jesse hadn't told Cally everything she had just said that she found out that James had kept something from her about how he was feeling and the nightmare and that they got into a fight over it. "Well you have too Jess ok?" Cally said looking serious for a minute. "You guys are my best friends and I don't want to see you split up just because you won't talk to each other" "Back in Team Rocket everything used to be so simple that's all." "Jess I don't know exactly what you guys went through but if it drives you apart then your boss would have won after all. Go home and sort this out." Jesse nodded Cally's little talk giving her the boost of confidence that she needed. Jesse thanked her friend and then hurried home. She got in to find Meowth sitting in the front room. He had a worried look on his face but Jesse ignored him. She had to talk to James. Jesse went upstairs assuming that he was still in their room. She opened the door and found the bed had obviously been slept in. Jesse felt a wave of guilt wash over her. That accidental viewing had tired him out and she had abandoned him. "James?" Jesse called. There was no reply. Jesse hurried back down stairs. "Meowth have you seen James?" she asked. "He wasn't here when I got in" Meowth replied. "Ok" Jesse said. Maybe James had gone out to get some time alone too. But then why did she have a feeling that something else had happened?
When James woke again he was back in his and Jesse's bed at the cottage. He vaguely remembered the car ride back to Saffron City and could hear Jesse talking to Cally downstairs. James got up and put on some proper clothes and went out onto the landing so he could hear what they were saying. "I am so worried about him," Jesse was saying. "James isn't as strong anymore and after what happened I am terrified that one day I am going to wake up and he'll be." "Jesse he'll be ok" Cally was saying. James didn't want to hear anymore of this. He had frightened Jesse badly today and ruined her day out. No matter what Jesse said James still felt responsible. He picked up the engagement ring again and looked at it as he walked back into the bedroom. He still wanted to marry her more than anything in the world but today was not the day after all. James sighed and put the ring back in his pocket. Maybe he should tell her of the future sight. He stood in front of the big mirror in their room and tried to work out what he'd say if he did tell her. "Jesse as you know things have changed a lot over the last year but I haven't exactly been honest with you, you see I." no that wasn't right. James cleared his throat and tried again this time getting right to the point. "Jessica I've lied to you. I still have future sight and I accidentally did a viewing in my sleep today. That's what I was screaming about." James whirled round when he heard a shocked gasp from the doorway. "Jesse" he nearly choked on her name. Meowth was at her feet his eyes narrowed as he stared in hurt at his friend. Jesse's eyes were slowly filling with tears and the shocked and hurt expression on her face made James feel even worse. He hadn't known she was standing there oh why wasn't he more careful? "Is this true?" Jesse asked softly walking further into the room. "Yes" James looked at the ground. He was feeling terrible as she came over to him and put a hand on his arm. "James you should have told me" maybe there was hope. In the old days Jesse would have screamed and beat him senseless with a mallet or a paper fan. James was actually wishing that she would do this. At least then it would be over. This was ten times worse. "I was trying to protect you" James said after a few minutes of silence between them. "Trying to protect me?" Jesse demanded. "James what the hell did you need to protect me from?" "You saw what happened before" James said softly. "What it does. It ruins everything Jesse. Giovanni was not the only man that would have used me for what I can do. I thought if it was gone then no one would try to hurt us anymore" "The whole year we've been together has been nothing but a huge lie," Jesse snapped. "That's not true!" "James I just need to be alone for now ok?" "Jessica" James called as she turned to leave. "You will come back won't you?" Jesse didn't bother to reply. James turned to Meowth. "Don't yous look at me Jimmy. I'm with Jess on dis one" Meowth said but James could tell he was torn between the two of them. "I didn't mean to lie to you" James tried again. "I know yous didn't" Meowth replied as he turned to go after Jesse. "Dats why it hurts so much" "I was trying to protect you" James called. Meowth ignored him and hurried down the stairs. He found Jesse sitting outside the cottage on the steps crying. Despite the fact that she wanted to be alone Jesse seemed glad of Meowth's presence. He hadn't been lying when he told James that his lying to them hurt him. Meowth did feel hurt that his friend was not honest with them but he could see why James did it. Giovanni was not the only one who would want to use James for his ability. Jesse had nearly been killed by Giovanni whilst trying to protect James. Meowth could understand why James wanted to tell her it had all gone. Jesse loved James so much and would defend him again if needed. But they had both grown up over the last year and Meowth knew that James wanted to look after Jesse more and defend her for once.
Still there was the fact that, good intentions or not, James had lied to Jesse. That was the one thing Jesse could not handle and James knew it. Everyone used to lie to Jesse even her own mother lied to her about working for Team Rocket for a time! Jesse's old boyfriends used to lie to her and often or not Jesse would find out that they had also been cheating on her behind her back. Jesse had found it very hard to trust anyone at first and she kept secrets from James even when they were in Team Rocket. Everyone has secrets Meowth had a few as did anyone but Jesse thought James was always honest with her and she had just found out that she was wrong. Worst of all it did mean to some extent that the last year they had spent together had been built on lies. But Meowth did want them to get through this. Jesse and James were made for each other and if Meowth didn't do anything then they would throw all that away. The cat knew how Jesse's mind worked. She did love James but she would let her head rule over her heart and tell herself that he was no better than the rest of her boyfriends. Jesse would throw away her happiness because she was so stubborn. Meowth didn't believe that those two timing ratattas Jesse had dated before deserved another chance but James was not like that. When Meowth was first sent out with Jesse and James he had at one point almost believed the rumours going round the HQ that James was gay but then Meowth saw how Jesse and James acted together. There was defiantly something between them even if they couldn't see it yet. Why else would James put up with the beatings from Jesse's fan and mallet? And the temper tantrums and constant blame she put on him about the failed mission. Only someone in love would put up with all that. Meowth couldn't watch those two ruin everything like this. "Jesse" he said putting a paw on her shoulder. "Please don't be mad at him. James was trying ta look after us" "He's a liar," Jesse snapped. "Just like the rest of them" Meowth chuckled, "Now we both know dat isn't true" "Maybe" "Jess I tink he was wrong ta lie too but yous can't let what happened in da past decide this for yous. Da way I see it is dat yous love Jim and he loves yous. Yous can work dis out" "That's what I said to myself with my other boyfriends Meowth" "Jimmy isn't your other boyfriends! Deys were teenage crushes. James is da real ting here, true love if yous want ta call it dat. Are yous going to let yourself loose him other da future sight? If so den James was right and it has ruined everything". Jesse took a moment to process what Meowth was saying. She tried telling herself that she hated James but this was no good. Jesse could never hate James, Meowth was right. She was in love with him. But he had lied to her and if he did it once he would do it again. No this was James she was thinking about. He wouldn't lie to her without a very good reason would he? And it was true as Meowth said. Future sight was still ruining everything. Jesse didn't know if she could deal with this all right now. "I need some time to think" Jesse said at last. "I'm going to see Cally" "Jesse dat won't help" Meowth argued. "Look I just need some time ok" she snapped. "James is still going to be here when I come back". With that Jesse turned away and started walking in the direction of Cally's house. Meowth sighed and decided to go with her. He wasn't really that worried. Jesse wanted to come to the conclusion that she should forgive James on her own without Meowth suggesting it first. Meowth smiled this was the Jesse he knew all right, stubborn through and through. After calling to James that they were heading out for a bit Meowth ran after Jesse.
James had heard most of the conversation between Jesse and Meowth but he was still hurting. Mostly from the fact that he had lied to Jesse and hurt her. He knew she hated people lying to her and yet he still did it. James knew it was a mistake hiding future sight from her but it had messed up everything anyway. He heard that Jesse was going to Cally's and considered going over there to sort things out but then James realised that Cally witnessing a argument might embarrass her and this would only make matters worse. James sighed and suddenly longed for the company of someone. He hated being in the cottage alone. James decided to let his Pokemon out in the backyard for some fresh air. James got his coat, as it had got cold all of a sudden, and headed outside. He and Jesse were still trainers even through they had little time for battles nowadays. They often fought against each other but Jesse usually won. Weezing was strong but Victreebell had become even more disobedient since they left Team Rocket and James may as well have had one Pokemon against Jesse's Arbok and Wobbuffet. James had challenged Sabrina but Weezing was weak against her Kadabra and lost quickly. James didn't think of his Pokemon as ways to win battles anyway. He liked the Pokemon company true he had Meowth but sometimes James preferred it when the Pokemon didn't talk back. James let Weezing out of his Pokeball and it floated along happily enjoying the outside. James was reluctant to release Victreebell but it would be unfair to leave him in his Pokeball. The moment Victreebell materialised it lunged at James. He tried to dodge the mouth of the plant Pokemon but Victreebell was a lot quicker. "Let me go" James shouted struggling to free himself. Normally Jesse would have run to help him at this point but Jesse wasn't here. James remembered why she wasn't and stifled a sob. Finally he managed to get free when Victreebell spotted something better to try and eat; James' roses. "No you don't" James shouted having enough of Victreebell's disobedience for one day. He returned him and shoved the Pokeball into his coat pocket. James sighed and put his head in his hands. He was still feeling tired from the viewing and wanted to go and have another lie down. James was still frightened by the viewing. What had it meant? James now he had, had a chance to think about it couldn't think of anywhere like the lab he had been in. Maybe it was a dream again but then why did he feel so drained, both physically and emotionally. "This has got to stop" James said to himself. "When Jesse gets back I am going to tell her about the viewing and about the other problem." James knew that if he and Jesse were going to get through this then he had to tell her how he could feel people's emotions too. James still hated himself for invading the private thoughts and feelings of others even through he had no control over it. Getting up and returning Weezing he went back inside dumping his coat over the stair rail as he headed back up to his room. James took off his shoes and slipped into the bed feeling more tired by the minute. Setting Weezing's Pokeball down on the bedside cabinet he drifted off into an uneasy sleep.
"You should talk to him," Cally said handing her friend a cup of tea. "Find out what that nightmare was really about. It's the only way to go Jess. If I had a guy as gorgeous as James there is no way I'd end it all over a little tiny lie". "I know" Jesse sighed. "I'm no good at talking to people Cally" Jesse had gone round to Cally's wanting someone to talk too. Meowth had gone to the game corner probably to see if Mimi was there. Jesse had made up her mind to forgive James but she wanted to give them some space to work everything out. Jesse knew that if she went back in there straight away then there would just be another fight. Jesse hadn't told Cally everything she had just said that she found out that James had kept something from her about how he was feeling and the nightmare and that they got into a fight over it. "Well you have too Jess ok?" Cally said looking serious for a minute. "You guys are my best friends and I don't want to see you split up just because you won't talk to each other" "Back in Team Rocket everything used to be so simple that's all." "Jess I don't know exactly what you guys went through but if it drives you apart then your boss would have won after all. Go home and sort this out." Jesse nodded Cally's little talk giving her the boost of confidence that she needed. Jesse thanked her friend and then hurried home. She got in to find Meowth sitting in the front room. He had a worried look on his face but Jesse ignored him. She had to talk to James. Jesse went upstairs assuming that he was still in their room. She opened the door and found the bed had obviously been slept in. Jesse felt a wave of guilt wash over her. That accidental viewing had tired him out and she had abandoned him. "James?" Jesse called. There was no reply. Jesse hurried back down stairs. "Meowth have you seen James?" she asked. "He wasn't here when I got in" Meowth replied. "Ok" Jesse said. Maybe James had gone out to get some time alone too. But then why did she have a feeling that something else had happened?