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A passage from Duo's Diary.

Date, Dec. 18

Years long past I still look to them, I never dreamt I would be what I am today, a murder pure and simple. I am an object of evil, war, and dispare.
I remember my old friends well, Hiiro and Quatre in particular... How I loath them. How I wish them to death. How I want to rip them apart bit by bit and never think of them again. They stole my soul, and condemed it to hell. Hiiro fell in love. The one person that was never suppose to have emotions...It's not fair...I can not bring myself to love anyone and he, the one who was never loved, and never knew happiness can easily love, its not fair.....
Then theres Quatre, that self rightouse blonde who thinks everything should be wonderfull and peacefull. Well screw him. More than two people in a room can create war, people are too different to have peace. there will always be fighting and hatred Quatre I can never forgive you because you would not let me end it. All I wanted to know was peace, but on countless occasions you talked me out of it. I would have succeeded once if you had not found me in the bathroom, Do you remember?...I had taken every pill I could possibly find and then i sat in a freezing bath, but you got worried about me, so you came to find me...and if it had been ten minutes later i would have died. You would not let me know peace...when we were sixteen you tried to kill himself...i saved you because I respected you then, but not anymore.
Wufei I think your worthless because you were patronising to be around, you always hinted to me that my life was worthless, where was your sence of justice towards me?
Trowa I have nothing against you. I believe we were more a-like then anyone. We had an understanding about each other, I think that i was just more out spoken then you.
And now I come to my conclusion. My whole point in writting this. Is so that you all know how I feel, so that you can find this book one day and read it, so that you can feel horrible that it was you fault that I have died...well all except Trowa who i truely love as a friend. and I have just one last question for you all. Where were you Quatre, this time when i needed you? Hiiro why werent you here to call me a fool and make me realize that you were right, Wufei why werent you here when i thought my life was worth something, and finally Trowa, why werent you here to be my friend? I love you all...no matter what I say. I'll always love you...I may not forgive you, but I'll always love you.

In Haunting, loveing memory
Duo Maxwell