Author Name: artificially flavoured
Author Email: scarred_lipgloss@hotmail.com
Category: General
Keywords: Ron Weasley
Spoilers: PS/SS, CoS, PoA, GoF [Just in case. Vague references to the Triwizard Competition, Cedric Diggory, the Chamber of Secrets, Buckbeak and Sirius's escape as well as the Philosophers Stone maybe made.]
Rating: PG-13
Summary: A selection on P.O.V's on how Ron's death affects dream team. A reflection of the past in which he was a big part, how are they to manage without him? My first fan fiction to date, please R/R!
Disclaimer: This story is based on characters and situations created by JK Rowling, various publishers including but not limited to Bloomsbury Books, Scholastic Books and Raincoast books, and Warner Brothers. No money is being made, and no copyright infringement is intended.
Authors Notes: This is Hermione's P.O.V on Ron's death. She's writing him a letter two months after his death and expressing her deepest emotions. This is part two of 'Now that you're gone'. There are time jumps, please do remember that.

Now That You're Gone
by artificially flavoured
Chapter Two: Can't Bring Back What's Lost.

Dear Ron,


I feel pretty stupid writing all this down in a letter addressed to you, when I know there is no way you'll ever read it. Unless you're my guardian angel and you're reading over my shoulder or Heaven has an Earth to Heaven postal system [which I seriously doubt].

How do I know that you are in Heaven? I know you are in Heaven because that's where you belong. I believe that with all my heart. Where else would you go Ron? If St. Peter won't let you into Heaven, then who will he let in? [It is St. Peter that lets the mortal souls in isn't it? I can't remember! So unlike me huh?]

Anyway, what I'm trying to say is [you know I've never been any good with expressing my feelings] you are such an amazing and lovely person that you deserve to be happy. Even in death. I want you to be happy Ron.

I want you to know that you were awarded the Order of Merlin, First Class. I want you to know that Ginny went up and got it for you and she cried tears of sadness that we would never see you smile and accept it and she cried tears of joy because she knew how happy you would have been. And we all cried with her.

I'm not saying this very well, am I? What I'm trying to say is Ron, I love you. I always have. And everyone else has. Not because you were Fred and George's cute kid brother. Not because you were Ginny's yummy older brother. Not because you were Harry Potter's sidekick. But because of your wit and your charm, and because, you're Ron.

You are my best friend Ron, in ways that Harry can never be. You are his best friend, in ways that I can never be. You made us laugh at the worst possible times; which looking back on; seem like some of our best together. Your sense of humor and loyalty never wavered in the face of danger or in the face of Snape for that matter. You never failed to tease me and in your own way that was your concern for me. You taught me how to relax and take it easy. You taught me that impulsive doesn't necessarily mean rash. You've taught me so many things that it's almost impossible to remember!

I remember the first time we met on the Hogwarts Train. I remember watching you and Harry pick out a coach to sit in. I remember how terribly lonely I felt. I remember wiping my sweaty hands on my robes before popping my head through the door and asking for Neville's toad. I remember the look in your eyes as I sat down and introduced myself. I remember trying not to sound so stuck up and to stop trying to talk so fast.

It seemed like yesterday, that fateful journey. Now, that you're gone, I wish I could have had just a couple of minutes with you, just to hug you and tell you how much I love you and how much you mean to me. But now it's too late.

I don't want to start on the inevitable 'I wish's' because I know I'll go on and on and on. And I know I'll start to cry again. I never thought I was capable of so many tears. I never ever thought you'd leave without saying goodbye. I never thought I'd never get to see your twinkling blue eyes again. I never thought I'd see the day when you wouldn't be there to tease me. When you won't be here for me. I always wondered how I would cope without you, you had become such an ingrained part of me, it was almost impossible for me to think of a future without you there. But, I have started to move on. I have to live my life, if not just for myself and those that I love, then for you.

It shows how much for granted I took you. It shows how much you meant to Harry and me. How much you meant to all of us.

I know this will anger you Ron, I know I'm treating this like a proper letter, but perhaps this makes me feel like your still here. Like your still around us somewhere, that this is all a huge big prank on your part and that you're likely to apparate here any second and there you'll be laughing your head off at me.

Maybe this is helping me deal with all this. Helping me deal with you not being here for me.

Ginny is busy planning her wedding to Draco. Yes, that's what I thought. Draco? And Ginny? But, really Ron, you just have to see the two of them together and you'll see how much they love each other. How much they mean to each other. Draco as you know converted to our side and helped us fight Voldie. Yes, I have started to call him Voldemort. I prefer Voldie. It's funnier. I think anyway. Draco is well, Draco. I have learnt so much about him in these two months. I had never thought that I would call him Draco. Harry and Draco are getting along well together. Harry and Draco are now both Aurour's and are rounding up all the Death Eaters and when Voldemort attacks, they'll be ready for him. Fred and Angelina had their baby 2 days ago. You're an Uncle Ron! It's a baby boy and looks exactly like you! George is still the eligible bachelor though he has been seen dating Katie Bell quiet a few times this week. You think they sorted out their problems? Bill is still with Fleur minus the earring! Charlie is still involved with his dragons and too busy to find the love of his life. Percy and Penelope, have sadly, broken up. Sad, I thought, they suited each other well. And, Lavender? She's started to pick up the pieces of her life and she has started to glue them back together and move on. She really loved you Ron, I didn't know how to tell her. I almost got Harry to tell her, but that just wouldn't have been right.

That leaves Harry. And me. You can stop smirking now Ron. Yes, we finally got it together. I have never before in my life been happier than I am now.

All I need now is my other best friend to be here for me. And unfortunately not even Harry Potter can bring back the dead.