My Last Thoughts

By Crystal

*Screw the disclaimers ^^;;*

As I laid there on your lap,

With blood soaking through my clothes,

I closed my eyes and reopened them.

In your eyes,

I saw the guilt, the sadness and the anger at the world.

I understood you,

For we were of the same kind.

Outside, we are emotionless, cold.

Inside, we are scared, sad and lost.

Lost in a world full of sadness.

Lost in a world full of darkness.

We understood each other perfectly,

There was no need for more words.

Words were never needed for our relationship,

All we needed was warmth.

You gave me warmth, Kenshin,

And in return, I gave you warmth.

True, you killed my fiancé,

But I had put your life in danger.

We are even, now and forever.

You unknowingly killed me,

But you gave me love.

Love that surpasses that of Kiyosato,

Love that surpasses anything.

If people were to ask me,

Why I had chosen the Hitokiri Battousai,

As my husband,

And why I have chosen my fiancé's killer,

I would not know what to say.

If they had asked me what I had loved about you,

I would have said,

You need not a reason to love,

The only reason is that,

I love him, truly.

As I laid there on your lap,

I thought of all the things we've been through.

Battles full of blood,

Rain of blood,

Snow dyed of blood...

The memories will never leave my mind,

As I hope it will not leave yours.

I love you with all my heart, Kenshin,

And I hope you love me too.

At last, I feel the weight on my eyelids,

And I knew I'd be closing my eyes one last time.

I tried to study every little detail about your beautiful face,

Your eyes, your hair, your nose, your mouth...

The tears I've never seen.

Those tears, just for me,

And I can tell you, I will never forget,

That the Hitokiri Battousai cried for me.

And then, I close my eyes, one last time.

I heard you call my name, but I was too tired.

Too tired to open my eyes and look at you,

Too tired to even say your name once more.

In the end, I had loved you.

I had truly loved you.

Unbelievable.

That one word was on my mind,

And I promise you Kenshin,

When you leave the world,

I will be there, in Heaven or Hell,

Waiting for you with opened arms

To embrace you and welcome you home.

Darkness.

Author's Notes:  This is a terrible poem.  Free poem.  No rhyme, though I might do one in rhyming and I might consider doing one in Kenshin's point of view.  I'm always writing about Tomoe's death scene, lol.  Anyways, thanks!