My Last Thoughts of You
By Crystal
*Screw the disclaimers ^^;;*
As you laid there on my lap,
With your blood soaking through your clothes,
I saw open your close and open you eyes.
In your eyes,
I saw the love, the pain and the regret you were feeling.
I understood you,
Did you know how much I loved you?
Did you know how much pain I'm in, watching you die by my hands?
Did you know I was feeling regret that I followed you up here?
Both of us, lost in a world,
Filled with sorrow and corruption.
We each understood each other,
No more need of words.
Yet did you know,
How much warmth you gave me even with those few words?
The happiness I felt when you became my wife,
The happiness I hoped I gave you when you became my wife.
Little did I know, I was the one who stole the thing I wanted to give.
Little did I know, I stole your happiness.
You gave me happiness, I stole yours,
And I gave you a killing blow.
I tried giving you love,
But I doubt it surpasses that of your fiancé.
I'm sure you loved him dearly.
Yet in your eyes was love,
For me, the Hitokiri Battousai,
I don't understand sometimes,
Why you came and became my wife and never took the chance to kill me.
You had plenty of chances,
That I knew well.
The days I was sleeping by the windows,
The days after my assassination.
I don't understand myself either,
You betrayed my trust, yet I still love you.
As you laid there on my lap,
I thought of all the memories of us.
The only thing I could remember for our memories was,
Your ebony eyes staring back at me,
Under the rain of blood I've caused,
And right now, the snow dyed in crimson liquid, your blood.
I wanted to tell you, that these memories will never be erased,
From my mind, not even if my life was on the line.
I loved you with all my heart, and I still do, Tomoe.
I can only hope you love me just as much.
I see you fight to get your eyes to stay open,
And I knew, the next time you closed your eyes, it would be forever,
I tried to study everything little detail about your angelic face,
Your eyes, your hair, your nose, your mouth...
A smile I've never seen.
That smile, just for me,
And I can tell you, I will never forget,
That the wife of Hitokiri Battousai, my wife, smiled for me.
And I see your close your eyes, I know for the final time.
I call your name desperately,
Hoping you would hear me just once more.
And open your eyes and say my name, even whisper it.
In the end, I had loved you.
I had truly loved you.
Unbelievable.
I had fallen for the one I killed,
I had fallen for one of my target's fiancée.
But for one, I know that when I leave this world,
You will be there, in Heaven or Hell,
Waiting for me with your opened arms,
To embrace me and welcome me,
Even if you did not love me, you would wait for me.
Spellcaster the Diamond – Thanks, I guess it was good then, I'm glad!
Chiki – Yeah, I know. And it's easier to write a free verse. I'm too lazy to get contacts, but I will soon, probably, lol. Thanks!
Author's Notes: Yay! Kenshin's point of view. Anyways, enjoy!