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September 9
Dear Draven,
I'm in the Hospital Wing. There's this step that your foot goes through. I got caught up in thought and forgot about it. I ended up getting stuck and falling forward. Knocked myself out for a few days. I got to miss a few days of school. It's going to be hell making it up. I still have that homework from over the weekend. ARGH!!!
It's really boring here. I can't get out of bed. I can't even go get my stuff to do work. The nurse wont let me. Harry and his friends visited me. They gave me some flowers. They smell very good. Draco also visited. He got me flowers and chocolates. Such a guy thing. **Notice I roll my eyes at this** I got a kiss from him too. I decided not to wake up to every ones sympathies.
I've always hated going to the muggle schools and teachers pulling me aside to ask me questions about home life and if I'm ok. I've never liked it. I don't know why they even cared for me. I was never a jock, cheerleader, or popular. Why they cared about my well being, since I add up to nothing, I don't know.
My past boyfriends have tried that bullshit in the past. "Oh, I love you and care about you. I wish I could take you away from all of this and make you feel better." Weeks later they break up with me because they found someone better. OR they were using me because they thought I was easy or it was a bet. I've always disliked guys. Girls are more complicated though. BUT that is a different topic all together.
I must not get attached to Draco. I'm afraid he's going to do the same. But he does have a girlfriend. Or so Pansy says. I don't want him to try and get sex out of me or just to make Pansy jealous to spice up their relationship. I wonder what he wanted to talk about?
Oh, well that is the past. Time for the future. Damn… Draco is here.
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I'm back in my room. The beds in the Hospital Wing are so much more comfy. Draco walked me up to my room. Then we went to dinner together, but of course once we entered the doors he ignored me. What an ass! Why am I so interested in him anyway? I looked over at him before desert came. He motioned for me to leave first so it didn't look like I was chasing after him.
"Excuse me." I said to the table.
"Who are you going to see tonight?" George said dryly.
"No one." I gave him a half smile of hope. I know he likes me, I think. Or he just really hates Slytherin.
I got up from the table and started to head to the dungeons. It's so cold and creepy down here. It reminded me of the cellar I stayed in for ten years of my life. Always damp and drafty. Chills ran down my spine. I could feel body warmth behind me. I turned and saw Draco turn the corner.
"Good thing I didn't head to the Griffindor room." He grinned.
I knew that grin from somewhere.
"What is it that you wanted to talk about the other day?" I walked towards him.
He looked down and his shoes, which were nicely polished. Father might have showed him how and demanded it there after. "I'm sorry," he mumbled.
"What?" I could barely hear him.
"I'm sorry for the way I acted."
We walked deeper into the dungeons.
"Don't worry about it. I know what goes on between the houses."
"I bet you've already made up your mind then." He sounded like he was going to cry.
"No."
He looked up stunned. "But…"
"I don't like this whole house thing. It's childish. Causes a lot more fighting than needed."
"But it does sort out pure bloods from Mudbloods." Draco stated.
"Mudbloods? How dare you mention that in front of me!" I stopped and looked at him.
"Are you a muggle lover?" He raised his voice.
"Why does it matter?"
"I don't want to be dating someone you favors mudbloods." He was getting defensive.
"So it comes down to social status? You can't even like someone because of who they are?"
"It would ruin my reputation."
"I should have known." I turned around.
"Known what?"
"You'd be like every other guy I liked. Plus you're dating Pansy." I still faced away from him.
"I'm not dating her. She only wants me and scares all girls I like away. Be glad I don't send her after you!"
"What will she do? Duel?" I started to head back up.
"Don't walk away from me!"
I didn't respond.
"Fuck you!"
Looks like Draco and me aren't getting together.
Good night