Dear Diary, I just got back from being with James. It was great. We just sat and looked in the sky. We made animals out of the clouds. It was perfect. We kissed more than ever and he told me he loved me at least 16 times. I laughed and cried. It was perfect. I cried forever and he just held me. I felt so safe in his arms. A good time was when we were rolling in the grass, we stopped and I was on top of him. My red hair was falling down and he told me I looked beautiful. I smiled and then we kissed. A deep passionate kiss that would've lasted forever, but Ms. Folonge came out and saw us. She told us that we were both in trouble. We tried to hold back from laughing but I accidentally let out a giggle and got us both in more trouble. James is leaving tomorrow because of what we did and I am just on probation. I am going to miss him and I already promised that I would write him in London. James is at my door so I must go so bye. Love, Satine

Dear Diary, I had to say good-bye to James because he was leaving early in the morning. He came in and immediately told me. I cried forever and even he was tearing. Why is this happening to me? I had life so good but as always dreaming has to end someday. I tell you now Diary, I will fly away someday. Just as he was leaving he told me that he felt like he was dying. I told him that I was used to it because I was dying a little everyday ever since he came in to my life and that I loved him not like crush love but I love you deeply. We kissed a long lovely kiss while crying. One last kiss. I think that I looked horrible. My hair was down and my clothes were wrinkled but I didn't care. I am still crying and my heart is hurting so bad. I don't want to talk to anyone I feel betray and unloved. Must go Emily wants to help me -Satine