Deny Thy Father And Refuse Thy Name Chapter 11: Revealed Truths, a harry potter fanfic

~~Deny Thy Father And Refuse Thy Name....~~

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So you all know, this chapter will pick up from the place Remus walked in on Draco and Viridian, time frame wise that is. Roughly Draco and Viri have been 'missing' for nearly a month and half now. As for Harry....well...you'll find out soon enough! :smiles sweetly:

~~Chapter Eleven: Revealed Truths~~

"Merlin I'm bored, I wish I could just go out for a bit!" Harry grumbled and flopped down onto the bed in his well hidden room deep inside the hospital wing.

"I know, it is rather annoying having to be so secretive. Wanna play some chess maybe?" Ron said with a yawn.

"Nah, maybe next time. We don't have the time right now, it's almost seven and you two have to get back in a few," Harry said dejectedly.

"Oh, Harry, you know this is for your own good. Just have to make the best of it is all. At least Ron and I can visit, can you imagine how much worse it would be if we couldn't?" Hermione said giving Harry a sympathetic smile.

Harry weakly smiled back and nodded. "Yeah, hell would actually look good. Still...being 'dead' is downright boooooring. I haven't been out of this room in weeks now 'cept for the hour of flying time 'he' gives me nightly," he said sighing.

"Hey at least you can do that mate, surprised 'he' even lets you though. I mean, it is a bit risky," Ron said.

"Cripes, Ron, I think Hermione's been rubbing off on you lately. Since when have things been too risky for us eh?" Harry said with a grin and winked at Hermione.

Hermione laughed and nodded her head in affirmation. "So true! Look at all we've been through together by now. Personally though I think it's good Ron's having a more positive influence on things. He's far less reckless nowadays," she said impishly.

"Oi, I am not! I just...er...toned it down a bit. 'Sides, without Malfoy here to annoy it's downright unbearable I tell you!" Ron joked.

Harry wasn't going to admit it but that comment struck a nerve with him, an admission that he still hadn't told Ron and Hermione...or anyone else for that matter. "Err...yeah...I can see that. Must be awful not having anyone to pick on, Ron," he joked back though his heart really wasn't in it.

"He's probably dead by now...or in Azkaban and just no one's told us. Far as I see it good riddance either way, just another death eater who won't be round to take over the world and all," Ron said almost cheerily.

"Ronald Weasley that's so mean to say! I mean really...Malfoy's a bad seed yeah, but he's still human you know. He has feelings....somewhere's in there anyway...I think..." Hermione said huffily.

"Oh right, and this is coming from the girl who slapped Malfoy in the face more than a few times because the kid is such a stupid git? Puh-lease!" Ron said rolling his eyes and getting a pillow throw at him for the effort.

"Give it up you two, let's not have a row on this all right? We've only got a few more minutes before you have to go. So, anything good in the gossip today?" Harry muttered trying in vain to get off the topic of one Draco Malfoy.

"Hmm...oh yeah, forgot to tell you! Get this...me dad told me that they're actually going to open a section in the Wizarding Museum...and it's all on you! Can you believe that tripe? Honestly it's a bloody nightmare!" Ron groaned.

"Whaaat? A museum area...for me? What on earth for?" Harry asked stunned.

"Oh come on, Harry, it's like a compliment really. It's supposed to be some sort of memorial tribute to the "Boy Who Lived". Remember I told you that before Dumbledore could get all your stuff out of the dorm something odd happened? Well what really happened was that err...someone...broken into the dorm room and..." Hermione said sheepishly whilst gazing down at some imaginary fluff on her robes.

"And what? What are you trying to say, Hermione?" Harry asked still dazed.

"Oh, Harry, your school trunk wasn't 'lost' or anything...it was flat out stolen. What they didn't physically take they made copies of somehow." Ron said sadly.

"Copies? Of what?" Harry asked.

"Well...of your parent's photo album mainly. Remember the book had gone missing for a few days? Seems someone had taken it and then returned it, but not before making copies of every single photo...even the recent ones with us in it," Hermione grumbled, not at all happy at having her face plastered in a museum for all to see.

"Oh no, you mean...all the photos? Even the ones of us as animagi?" Harry groaned.

"Oh, not those...thankfully no! I had those remember? Good thing too, we'd have been in a heapload of trouble if those photos had gotten out!" Hermione said with a groan herself. "Thankfully it was just the 'normal' photos of your pa-err....well of James, Lily, Remus, Sirius and the lot. Nothing too bad anyway I don't think, mainly they just took your old junk, clothes, books, etc. Dumbledore didn't want you to know so he sort of replicated back anything they did take," Hermione said.

"Oh man, this is just unbelievable! They really think people will want to see a pair of my trainers or school robes or Dudley's hand-me-downs?" Harry asked.

Hermione and Ron actually grinned at that and nodded their heads. "You kidding, Harry? Me dad says they can't get the museum wing opened fast enough...tourists already want to see it all," Ron chuckled then quickly stood up on the bed and with a bow he cupped his hands like a microphone and said in a flowery, fake voice, "Step right up wizards and witches of all ages...for only seven Sickles you can see the entire world of Harry James Potter unfold before you eyes!"

Harry and Hermione couldn't help but laugh at that, it was pretty funny actually to hear it put that way. "Oi, Ron, you'd make a spot on carny that's for sure!" Harry grinned.

"Thank you, thank you...and for me next trick..." Ron began but was cut off before he could get any further.

"For your next 'trick', Mr. Weasley, that would have to be your 'disappearance' from this room. Understood?" a voice said from the doorway, though harsh in words, the voice was more amused than angry.

Ron however blushed and climbed down off the bed sheepishly. "Err....sorry 'bout that, professor. Was just telling Harry 'bout the new museum thing."

"Amusing and enlightening as it may be, Mr. Weasley, it will have to wait until tomorrow at six o'clock in the evening. You two are already running ten minutes late if you hadn't noticed," Severus said stepping into the room now and giving both Hermione and Ron strict glances.

"Oh no! Professor, we're really sorry, just lost track of time is all," Hermione said jumping up from the chair she'd been sitting in and pulled Ron towards the door. "We'll see you tomorrow then, Harry!" she called.

"Yeah tomorrow, Harry! Keep your chin up!" Ron called out, though he was halfway out the door at that point since he was being dragged by Hermione.

"Tomorrow guys!" Harry yelled back, hoping they would still hear him. He then went over and sat back down on his bed with a long, saddened sigh.

Severus sat down in the chair just occupied by Hermione, and gave Harry a soft look with his coal black eyes. "I am sorry it has to be this way, Harry, you do understand right?"

Harry nodded and sighed again. "I know, it's just so boring here all alone. Do you know that I've helped Ron die four different ways this week for Divinations...including stoning, plague, being burnt at the stake and hanging...and I actually miss that?" he groaned.

Severus's lips twitched at the statement finding it actually a bit funny. "Well, leaves him still time to die from other things yet hmm?" he said mockingly.

"Oh very funny, ha ha. At least he's doing something...all I get to do is sit here, pace the room, fly for a bit at night...and be bored. Was this really all worth it?" Harry asked sullenly.

"Would you prefer to have died for real, Harry? I can always arraign that you know," Severus said nonchalantly.

Harry looked up and gave Severus a dark look, then realised he was only joking. "You're really no help what-so-ever you know," he muttered back. "Least you can do for me is tell Dobby to stop sending me bloody chicken for supper. I'd like something a bit more than that for a change," he grumbled.

Severus did laugh then and nodded his head. "I will, I promise. It's a good thing Dobby is so loyal to you and Albus or we'd be in a lot of trouble."

"Why's that?" Harry asked.

"Oh...it's nothing really. It's just good to know that Dobby is the one house-elf in this castle I know we can trust with your life. That's all," Severus said looking away for a moment.

"I get the feeling there's a lot more behind that then your telling me, Severus, however I won't push it right now," Harry said accusingly. He had started calling Severus by his first name simply because he wasn't sure he could call him by anything else yet. He did sort of want to call him 'father' or 'dad' or something, but both of them needed time on that issue. As for professor, it seemed just too formal at this point, not when he knew Severus was his father now, so Severus worked out nicely in the end.

"There are some things that you don't know yet for your own benefit, Harry, that's all I can say to you. Sometimes knowing everything isn't always the best thing," Severus said.

"Perhaps, but at least it beats being in the dark all the time as to what's going on with me," Harry said exasperated. "How long are we going to have to keep up this pretense anyway? When can I go back to school for real instead of hiding up here in a hidden wing of hospital? And have you seen Sirius and Remus lately?" Harry demanded.

"By Salazar you are so much like me at that age sometimes it's unnerving," Severus muttered. "No, we're not trying to keep you in the dark, Harry, you know that. I wish there was another way, but it's too dangerous yet. Remus, Black, Albus and I all felt this was the right thing to do. 'Harry Potter' died, so you can be saved," Severus said quietly.

Harry sighed. "I know, I know...it's just so unfair is all."

"Life is unfair, Harry, no question there. We get over it though, we have to move on. Do you remember when you held the medallion what it said?" Severus asked slowly.

Harry thought back and tried to remember, then nodded and recited, "To Overcome Hatred Only The Power Of Love Will Be Your Salvation."

"Right, and then you asked if love can really be that powerful remember?" Severus asked.

"Yeah so?" Harry asked confused.

"Harry...think about it. As Harry Potter, you held fears, whether you wanted to or not. Worse of it was, there was far more hatred for you as Harry Potter, which almost cost you your life yet again. A life that love itself saved sixteen years ago. You're mother's love was your salvation then...and now it's our turn to do that. Remus, Black and myself are giving you the chance to know love as you should have...so you won't be bitter, angry and sad...especially towards yourself," Severus said quietly.

Harry sighed understanding now what Severus meant. "I was going to do it you know...kill myself I mean. That night at detention...I was going to ask you 'bout potions that might do the job for me. I'm really not noble and brave like everything thinks I am...I couldn't bear the thought of killing myself the easy way like jumping or stuff," he sighed.

Severus put a hand on Harry's shoulder and looked him in the eyes deeply. "That's not true, Harry, you are noble and brave...even if you aren't a Gryffindor by blood. You have faced, fought and won situations that people twice your age would have died in fear of."

"So why am I locked up in here now then hmm? Why am I not out there fighting and doing what everyone thinks I can do?" Harry said almost angrily.

"Harry, being noble and brave doesn't mean you should be stupid either. All that has it's limits, and you are a child, Harry...just a child. A damn lucky one albeit, but a child none the less, one who hasn't had time to do what children do. To have the life other children have. You've been neglected, abused, hurt, chased, poisoned, and gods know what else I may not even know about...and you're still here. And I am personally going to make damn sure you stay here. I lost you once, I am not going to again. Not to mention I think Remus and Black would kill me for doing so," he muttered.

Harry's anger abated at that and he actually chuckled nodding his head. "I know they would," he said grinning. "Why do you call him 'Black' and not Sirius though when you three are err...well you know...together? I mean you call Remus by his name and not Lupin in private, or at least not anymore...so why not Sirius?" he asked curiously now.

Severus leaned back into the chair and thought on that, something he hadn't done in a while. "I don't know honestly if you want the truth. Despite the fact we all share the same bed at night...for some reason I am always jealous of him. It's my defence I guess in getting too close to him even though we are lovers."

"That...has got to be the stupidest thing I've ever heard you say, Severus. What on earth do you have to be jealous 'bout? I mean, you're all lovers right? Makes no sense to me," Harry said giving Severus a strange look.

"I don't know why I should be discussing my love life with you, even though you are my son...but..." Severus said in a huff, "well what it comes down to is...I suppose I feel as if I was back in school and never could try to compete with your godfather. Sirius Black had everything back then, he had the looks, any girl or boy he wanted, hell he had the moves. I had nothing...except greasy hair and a knack for potions and dark arts. As for Remus, he was the type of person that was beyond the stars to even dream of, Harry. A personality unlike anyone I've ever met or ever will."

"So...he ensnared your mind and senses eh, Severus?" Harry joked.

Severus chuckled and nodded. "Exactly. I had my eye on Remus since the day I first saw him at the sorting ceremony. I was sort of disappointed he was made a Gryffindor actually, I had hoped he'd have been a Slytherin. Of course it wasn't love, not back then, more admiration. He was so quiet, so proper, studious...yet there was something about him that was far more too, I could see a darker side as well within him. When I got older that admiration turned to love simple as that. When we got assigned to be study partners I was over the moon, until that fateful day in which Black tried to kill me."

"He didn't...I mean he didn't really want to kill you did he?" Harry asked.

"Nope, just was insanely jealous of the git was all..." a new voice said from the doorway causing both Severus and Harry to nearly jump out of their seats.

"For Salazar's sake, Black, don't do that!" Severus muttered and shot Sirius a dark glare.

Sirius only chuckled and walked over to give Harry a hug, then sat down on the bed next to him. "I was a stupid kid who had grand ideas of what was best for Remus, and that didn't include slimy greasy Slytherin gits at the time," Sirius said.

"Sounds to me like you were both jealous without basis. Seems stupid really when you think 'bout it though. Look how many years you wasted hating each other because you both wanted the same thing? Even now you can't even call yourselves by your first names because you don't want to get close incase one of you gets hurt," Harry said.

Severus and Sirius gazed at Harry stunned and then turned to each other. "He's damn right you know. We have wasted these last few years despite everything we've gone through. I just don't want Remus caught in a choice I guess...because I don't think I could take the rejection if he chose you over me. I do love him...so much it hurts sometimes. I don't want to hurt him again...I've done far too much of that over the past sixteen years," Sirius said with a sigh.

"We've both hurt him, Black...both of us are guilty of that. I drove him away when I should have never let him go. When we'd finally overcome things and rekindled our relationship three years ago when he was here teaching...and I hurt him because of stupid anger and jealousy of you. Hatred even because I though with you back he'd leave me in a second to go back into your arms. I don't know why he ever agreed to take me back two years ago though after what I did to him," Severus said quietly.

"If you ask me, and yes I know you don't really want me to really butt in here but I am anyway...if I were you two I'd first come to terms with the fact that since both of you love Remus, it's time to start loving each other too. That way there won't be any more jealousy or feeling like you're worthless or anything," Harry said thoughtfully, and gave both Sirius and Severus a stern look.

"I think it's clear to see where you get your logic from, Harry, even if I don't always apply it for myself," Severus said then with a slight grin. "Harry is right...Sirius...we do both love Remus, and we know he loves both of us equally."

"I wouldn't say that I'm logical at all, Severus, Hermione's the one that got past your potions puzzle back in first year when we were trying to get to the stone. I was totally stuck," Harry said with a chuckle. "However, now I think it's time you two figured out what you feel 'bout each other and go from there," Harry said nodding firmly.

"Hmm...kid's got a point. Well...what do you really feel for me, Severus? I know you weren't exactly thrilled when Remus err..made his proposition to you for me to join you two in your bed..." Sirius said hesitantly.

"For Remus's sake I said yes, but also because I agreed with him. You were lonely, on the run most times, and needed warmth and caring for. And truthfully, I had always wanted you as much as I'd wanted Remus. So you could say...it was a very mutual decision on that particular proposal," Severus said with a grin.

Sirius blinked now in shock. "You...had always wanted...me?" he asked.

Severus nodded. "I think over half the school, both male and female, wanted you, Sirius, and that's not saying enough."

"You're...joking....right? Remus was the one everyone drooled over...well..not everyone obviously but almost everyone...but they always wanted Remus...not me. I just got lucky now and again was all," Sirius said subdued.

Severus shook his head and gazed at Sirius with a strange look. "Remus was the type that everyone might have wanted, but knew was unobtainable. He's like the flower that is under glass...there to be looked at and admired, but never picked. You on the other hand were wild, untamed. Anyone who had nighttime dreams had them about you, Sirius Black," Severus said firmly.

"Merlin...I didn't even know that! I mean...I was sort of well wild...okay and very untamed," he said with a grin, "but still...dreams? Oi...suddenly I feel sick wondering what on earth people would be dreaming 'bout me!" Sirius groaned.

Harry laughed and threw a pillow at his godfather. "I'm sure whatever they were it's a good thing you didn't know 'bout them. Might have made you more conceited or something than you already were," he grinned.

"That wouldn't be the half of it, Harry," Severus said chuckling. "Well then? I don't believe we finished finding out the truth here...what is it you do feel for me, Sirius?" he asked and gave Sirius a deep gaze.

Sirius looked back at Severus a few moments, debating what he was going to say. "You really want to know eh? Fine I'll tell you. I think you're the most arrogant, conceited, obnoxiously rude person I know amongst other things...and I wouldn't change a single part of that. I have grown to admire you, adore you...hell...yes, even love you, and not just because of Remus. The past two years I have spent lying at your side have been like heaven to me, and I wouldn't know what I would do without your daily barbs, wit, and dry humour. And hopefully I've made you happy in a way. Does that answer your question, professor?" Sirius said with a grin.

Severus was a bit taken aback, then let it all sink in fully. Shaking his head he said, "As for you...I think you're also rude, as well as inconsiderate and annoying. You leave dog hairs on my sofa when you're not out and about in the castle doing whatever it is giant black dogs do. However...I also wouldn't change a single thing that makes up who you are. And I am in as much love with you as I am with Remus, and always will be. Tack in the fact that I have managed to fulfil the fantasies of half of Hogwarts by being in the same bed with the two most eligible men of our youth does have it's advantages," he said with a coy grin.

"Pity the fact that no one knows eh? Boy what a headline that would make!" Sirius said with a laugh now. "So...I guess...that means I'll start calling you Severus all the time now eh?"

"I suppose...Sirius...that would work, though perhaps in public of course we will maintain our ahh...distance. For safety reason," Severus said.

"Of course, we certainly can't let the world know any of us, Remus included, actually do have feelings for each other now can we," Sirius said teasingly.

"Oi, now it's getting just toooo sappy," Harry said faking a groan, only to get hit by a flying pillow aimed by Sirius.

"Well you started it remember!" Sirius said chuckling.

"So I did. Well, I'm glad that you two finally are going to be actually 'nice' and not so stuffed up with each other. It was getting downright infuriating, especially when Remus isn't here as a buffer. Speaking of, where has Remus been the past few days? He hasn't stopped in at all," Harry said with a slight frown. "The moon was last night right? He's all right?"

"He's fine, trust me. He's err...well away at the moment. On school business," Sirius said sheepishly.

"Away? You didn't say he was going anywhere! Where'd he go? When's he coming back?" Harry asked surprised.

"He'll be back soon, and we had reasons for not saying where just yet. If all goes well though, you'll find out soon enough. Which brings me to wonder something now...since you're so curious as to our love life...pray tell, who is the special person in yours?" Severus said giving Harry a strange look.

Harry blinked at that, totally unprepared to be cross-examined. "Err...l-l-love life? I-I don't err...have one..." he said blushing slightly and turning his gaze down to his feet.

"Oh come on, Harry...when you were still Harry Potter there had to be tons of girls round you. I thought you were with Cho for a while weren't you?" Sirius asked curiously.

Harry shook his head and sighed. "No, that ended 'bout as fast as it started really. I didn't want to well...it's a long story. Can we please just skip this?"

"We could yes, but we aren't. You got us to open up our hearts and drag things from us we didn't want to say, now it's your turn. Surely you realize by now, Harry you can tell us anything?" Severus said giving Harry another odd look.

Harry leveled a gaze at Severus and suddenly it hit him like a lightning bolt. He knew! He had known all along what had been making him so miserable for all this time. "You know...don't you," he said quietly then.

Severus nodded slowly and gave Harry a look of understanding. "Remus told me a while ago, Harry. Don't blame him, he thought he was only doing the right thing. I know you two have had a confidence that I won't intrude on even now, but I...and Sirius obviously, will understand. You're free now, Harry, don't you see that? You don't have to be afraid of it any longer," he said quietly.

"Harry? What's Severus talking 'bout? What are you afraid of?" Sirius asked curiously and gave Harry a questioning look.

Harry closed his eyes and felt himself sigh deeply, more in relief than anything else. For the first time in his life he realised he didn't have to be afraid of his feelings anymore. The only problem was...what were they going to say when he told them the full truth? "Are you sure you want to hear all of it? I don't think you're going to like it..." he said hesitantly, and opened his eyes to stare at his godfather fully.

"Harry...whatever it is you can tell us...me I mean. I promise you I won't judge you. Hell, I'm definitely not the one to judge here right? Look who I am in love with!" he said with a grin and gave Severus a playful glance.

Severus snorted though it wasn't in anger. "The day the two of us stop our cheerful banter is the day I think everyone will know we're actually in love instead of mortal enemies," he said with a grin. Turning to Harry again he said, "I too promise you I will not judge or anything else, Harry. I believe it is a err....a father's umm...job...to understand his child? Or am I led wrong?"

Harry gave Severus an odd look, debating over that statement, then nodded slowly. "I reckon I wouldn't really know that though would I...having never had a father...before now that is..." he said thoughtfully. "I guess it's time to accept the fact that...well...I do have a father who's really there...don't I?" he asked hesitantly.

"Only if you really want me to be there Harry. You are my son, by blood even if not in name. I won't force you into accepting more if you don't want to. It's all up to what you want now. "Harry Potter" is gone, now you're just "Harry" until you decide what you want. Whatever it is though, I swear to you I will support your decisions," Severus said quietly.

Harry nodded and thought on that a few moments before replying. "All of this has been a lot I give you that...but...I do kind of like having a 'dad' round now and then. It's weird, but nice. I know you're not the 'cuddly, huggy' type, Severus...but I'm glad to have gotten to know this side of you too. Do...do you think...that...well...I mean...maybe I could...er...start to call you...umm...dad...just to see what it would be like...you know and all. I mean...I might not like it or you might not but...well sort of a 'test run'?" Harry asked quietly.

Severus sat there blinking in a bit of shock at hearing those words come from Harry. He had hoped that one day perhaps he would hear that word from his son and have it really mean something, but he never expected it to really be more than a pipe dream. To hear the word 'dad' now put a different touch to the beating of his heart, and with the other new revelations of the day from Sirius, the ice that he'd built up all these years began to heavily crack. "You...you...really...want...that, Harry?" he asked, his voice cracking a bit.

Harry nodded slowly and gave Severus a slight smile. "I think I would. I can't keep calling you Severus forever now can I? Like you said...I am your son...and I do look forwards to the time we get to spend getting to know each other lately. So...is it all right?"

Severus looked at Harry just then with such a look of love that it made Harry almost blush. "I...I think...I'd like that....son...if I can call you that?" he asked hesitantly.

Harry's face almost beamed than, hearing that word for the first time in his life and really having it also mean something other than in casual passing, and it made his heart burst in joy. Nodding happily he said, "Yeah, yes! I'd...I'd like that!" he said. Though he knew Severus wasn't the hugging type, suddenly he felt the urge to jump off the bed and threw himself into Severus's arms for a giant sized hug. One in which he actually received back.

Harry knew then that whatever happened next, whatever he would tell his new father and his godfather would be all right. That they would accept him no matter what, even if his choice of things might not be what they wanted for him. What he didn't realize was that from that moment on, he wasn't going to be the only one affected by these new changes. A certain hard-hearted Potion's Master was going through some changes of his own just then as well, and all for the better. Things were from now definitely looking up for everyone, except perhaps for two teenage boys currently in discussions with one Professor Remus J. Lupin. For them, things were only just beginning.

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