Disclaimer: I do NOT own The Pretender. Never claimed to, you didn't see me do it, I didn't do it. I believe it belongs to TNT and NBC, or maybe not NBC anymore…and isn't 20th Century Fox one of the production companies? Anyway, It's not mine. I borrowed a line from IOTH which is also, not mine. I also don't know if Buddha actually said what I qouted him as saying. The line is from the movie Anna and the King, so if Buddha didn't say it, blame it on them. And, of course, Anna and the King is…anyone? not mine, that's right.
Summary: Ms. Parker and Jarod have issues. This is what it would be like to be inside their heads while they were talking. Hope it doesn't get too confusing.
Author's Note: Sigh, apparently the concept of this story is far too confusing so I'm gonna have to change it. No more hunting for keywords to understand what's going on. Oh well. Hope you still like it. By the way, the dialogue alternates each line. Ms. P, J, Ms. P, J, no exceptions. Lines always start with whoever's point of view it is.
If You Were In My Mind
By Bec-Bec
Chapter 6 Part 1
Chicago, New York
Inside of Jarod's Car
[Ms. Parker's point of view. She is riding in the passenger seat. They have been driving for a long time.]
Chicago, New York, Talahassee, Houston, Boston, no, not Boston…that's too close to the Centre…Miami, Los Angeles, Seattle, where are we going to go?
"Jarod, where are we going?"
Maine, we could go see Ben…or Las Vegas…
"I haven't decided yet."
I wonder if I'll marry you someday, I wonder if…Las Vegas is fun without wedding chapels. Anyplace is happy without wedding chapels. Why do they call it a chapel?
"Well, we can't escape if there's nowhere to escape to."
I've escaped to you…I turned to you. You told me 'I'd hate to see someone miss a turning point when one is staring them in the face,' and at first, I turned away, but now I turned to you.
"Buddha said that roads are for journeys, not destinations."
Destinations. Destiny…was I meant to come to you all along? Was I meant to turn to you all along? Is there some bigger plan to all of this? If there is, why have we had to go through what we've gone through? Was it so that we'd appreciate it more once we got it? I love the way our fingers look when they're laced together. [Ms. Parker has taken one of Jarod's hands off of the steering wheel and laced her fingers through it.]
"What was that for?"
Together…
"Nothing, I just like the way our fingers look when they're laced together."
Together…forever…
"Me too."
His lips are so soft. I wonder of he uses chapstick, maybe I could…[Ms. Parker leans over and kisses Jarod, blocking his view of the road. He slows the car down.]
"Mmm…"
God his lips are soft.
"Parker, it's not safe for me to drive if you're going to kiss me like that…not that I'm complaining."
Pull over then. We're far enough away from them. There's a hotel right over there. Pull over…
"Pull over then."
Pull over and…I swear, my mind is foul, really it is. It's too soon…but then, is it? I've known him for the majority of my life…how is it too soon?…pull over.
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Chapter 6 Part 2
Lost
A Hotel on the roadside, somewhere in Virginia
[Jarod's point of view. They are kissing on a bed, in the beginning stages of making love.]
Lost. Capsized, drowning in your eyes…drowning in you.
"Parker, you smell incredible."
Drowning in a meadow, a field, a wildflower, a lily, drowning in you.[He removes her shirt.]
"Mmm…so do you."
Drowning in your eyes, in your skin, in your throat. Your skin is like porcelain, but as soft as a baby, is that a little mole?
"Parker, I'm naming this little mole on your shoulder, it's mine from now on. You can't show it to anyone else."
Nobody, just me. You're just mine. It's just you and me. [Ms. Parker removes his shirt]
"Fine, then this little scar right here on your shoulder is mine."
I'm all yours…all of me…especially my heart.
"No problem."
Your fingers and your arm and you shoulder and your skin, and your white beauty.
"Mmm…no, problem."
This little hollow right here in your throat above your collarbone, it's all mine.
"I love this hollow in your throat."
Mine, all mine…you're all mine. [Kissing the hollow and running his tongue over it lightly.]
"Hah, stop, that tickles…Mmm…"
And your neck, and your ear, and your cheekbones, and…your lips. Beautiful lips and fingers, as beautiful as Juliet. [He begins to recite Shakespeare.Consider them kissing on and off through this scene.]
" 'If I profane with my unworthiest hand
This holy shrine, the gentle sin is this:
My lips, two blushing pilgrims, ready stand
To smooth that rough touch with a tender kiss.' "
Your lips are so beautiful and soft and I want them to only be mine…
" 'Good pilgrim, you do wrong your hand too much,
Which mannerly devotion shows in this;
For saints have hands that pilgrims' hands do touch,
And palm to palm is holy palmers kiss.' "
Palm to palm, lip to lip, heart to heart, mine to mine…all mine and more that's only for me…[pressing their hands together, presing their lips together, pulling themselves closer together.]
" 'Have not saints lips, and holy palmers too?' "
Lips and palms and fingertips and the soft, white, porcelain skin of an angel…my angel…
" 'Ay, pilgrim, lips that they must use in prayer.' "
I pray that you are mine, always and forever, and this little mole named Juliet, and your shoulder and it's beautiful pale skin…[Kissing her shoulder.]
" 'O, then, dear saint, let lips do what hands do!
They pray; grant thou, lest faith turn to dispair.' "
I'm no saint, and neither are you, but you are my angel…my beautiful porcelain skinned angel with the most beautiful blue eyes in the world…drowning, drowning in you.
" 'Saints do not move, though grant for prayers' sake.' "
Moving from drowning. Drowning in your eyes, drowning in yourt heart, drowning in you.
" 'Then move not while my prayers effect I take.
Thus from my lips, by thine my sin is purged.' "
The Angel takes the sin away. Sins of passion and love and my angel.
" 'Then have my lips the sin that they have took.' "
Never sin on my Angel's lips. My lips on my angels lips. My angel.
" 'Sin from my lips? O trespass sweetly urged!
Give me my sin again.' "
I'll take your kiss anyday. I'll take your kiss everyday. I'll kiss you for ever. I'll love you forever. [The undressing is done and everything comes to a head.]
" 'You kiss… by th'… book.' "
Books and saints and poets' hands, Angels and my heart those fingertips those eyes, sin and lips and kisses, trespasses, books, poets, saints' hands, those fingertips…those… fade… fade into you…
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Chapter 6 Part 3
Circles
Still the Hotel in Virginia
[Ms. Parker's point of view. She's laying on Jarod's chest. They are staring at each other. She is rubbing his back.]
Circles. Little circles and patterns. Weaving colors, lines…there are so many muscles in your back.
"Can I stay curled up on your chest forever?"
You are the greatest pillow, the most comfortable, the best smelling, the only pillow that I love.
"Forever and longer…infinity."
Infinity and forever…your fingers and mine. The Saint and the Angel. Jarod and…me… [Laces their fingers together.]
"Jarod, I love you."
Infinity and forever.
"I love you too, Parker."
Parker…I'm a Parker…I betrayed my family…but…the new Parker leagacy begins with me…and I begin with Jarod.
"You can call me by my real name, if you want."
But only you. Only you forever. Only you infinitity. Only us infinity.
"Andrea Catherine Parker…but you're my Parker."
Parker, I'm a Parker forever.
"Parker works for me…we just have to change what it means."
Parkers mean power, anger, stab you in the back, hurt you, kill you…die…
"But, Parker means beauty. Angel like beauty."
I'm your Angel, you're my Saint. Saints and poets. Angels and philosophers. Saints and Angels. Jarod and Parker. Lovers.
"Mmm…promise me it will be like this forever."
You and me…together. You and me…together. Me and You…together. The he's, she's, I's, them's, Us…just us.
"Promise."
You and me and us together…who's knocking on the door?[There's a knock on the door]
Author's Note: I thought it would be interesting to incorporate Romeo and Juliet into this chapter. Hope it wasn't out of place. Does it work better with the little explanations? Send me reviews!!! Please!!!