Disclaimer: Yeah I own Invader Zim, I also own my Starfish named oyster...hes so cute:) Hes a scrunchy.
In this part Gaz goes into her house and Im guessing this chapter is going to be......angsty-drama, I dunno, we'll all see in the end, wont we? And no, I haven't stopped writing this, I've just been very busy, I never stop writing something without saying so, because then that disappoints people:) And I don't have a writing program which I can upload on this site that lets me use italics or anything so when, /whatever is in it/ goes up, that means it was supposed to be in italics.
Gaz could hear talking. Numberous voices all tangled within each other's web. Gaz slowly listened to each as she dawned into the living room. Practicially all his students were there, yet Professor Membrane was not. This puzzled her.
Gaz tried to go unnoticed and creeped towards the stairs and went up two steps, ducking down a lil.
She saw him by Rachel's door. She could hear talking.
"Rachel...../please/ come downstairs to eat."
"No."
"You haven't eaten in /three/ days!"
"I don't give a damn, go away! GO AWAY!" Rachel's voice was tired and strained, she had been really sick for the last week.
Gaz instantly said, "D-Professor..Membrane...leave her alone..."
Her dad looked up as though bewildered for he didn't know where that came from, until he saw Gaz, hunched down by the stairs.
"Gaz..? I thought I told you to call me, "Dad". And...what are you doing back so soon?" He talked as if he was innocent, even though in reality, he was naive as how to be a Father to Gaz, and how he didn't know how he treated Rachel. He always praised Dib as if he were a God, and a flawless one at a that.
"What do you mean!? Im actually.....like....", Gaz was unsure of what to say, "late...." She drew down, scared.
"Oh...well....." He looked at the door, back at Gaz, and slowly started to walk towards the steps.
"Just..., Get her out if you can, okay?", he supposedly asked, but his voice meant otherwise. He voice told her to force her out, rather then convince her. Gaz gave an unseasy look, but decided to stand up for herself.
"Im going to let her decide....she hasn't been feeling well lately, I dont know whats wrong with her!"
Gaz looked up to him and she saw him give this look on his face, as if he knew why she was ill. Something on him dawned her, she didn't know what though.
He took of his goggles and looked straight at her.
"Fine." He walked past her, and as far as he could in the narrow hallway and hurriedly walked down the steps. Gaz knocked on Rachel's door and whispered, "Rachel...are you okay?"
No answer.
"Rachel.....?"
Still no answer.
Then Gaz her mumbling.
"Rachel!?"
"Hmmm."
"Could you open the door?"
Gaz could hear the door unlock and she opened it.
Rachel slowly fell onto her bed, face first, and sprawled her body all over the bed. Slowly moving her foot up and down.
She sighed.
"Are you okay?"
"No.", she answered with a bit of an attitude, yet she was titled to so, being damned with the life of hers.
She looked around the room and it was dark, with a tad bit of light lacing the dark. Her room looked like a painting. Rachel was always the one to match her surrounds with her mood. It seemed a little too drastic for Gaz.
Rachel tended to exaggerate sometimes.
Gaz was about to say something until Rachel interrupted.
"It's not fair."
"What?"
"It's no fair!'
"What is?"
"Life."
"Life in general...or ours?', Gaz asked depressed.
"Life...in general."
Rachel then started to sob, not one of those, "I can't believe this has happened to me", but one of those, "I wish I could die", kind of sobs. Rachel started to kick and scream on her bed, with a choking kind of cry. It reminded Gaz of when a little baby bickers for her older brother's lollipop but the Mother simply states, "No, its not yours." Rachel didn't want her life, she wanted somebody else's. She was crying for somebody else's life.
Gaz was about to pat her shoulder when she abruptly turned around.
"YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT GOES ON WHEN YOU LEAVE!"
Gaz stood gazing at her until she calmed down.
"Rach, I know sometimes I see- no I am emotionless, I do care. And I haven't been playing my GameSlave5, ya know", Gaz smirked.
Rachel turned to her and a small smile crept upon her white face, then fell down again into one of her depressed ones.
"Why have you been so sick lately?"
As soon as Gaz finished her sentence, her face met with a pillow.
Rachel glared.
Okay, bad time, Gaz thought.
"You want to know!?", she demanded.
"Well..yeah..."
Rachel got up and started to walk around the room.
She looked at Gaz.
"Gaz....I tried so hard to make myself something....."
She stopped and picked up a paper from her desk.
"I really have, only to be here. I don't know where here is, let me read something I wrote before:
-Gone Forever-
Stand alone...
And see.....
Nothing come out of it
Speak nothing..
Become nothing..
Lay still-
And the wind won't blow
With last words slowly falls the dove..
Like lost innocence...
Stolen
Flowing crimson blood trailing from the oceans..
Like forgiveness and forget...
Callowed emotions...
Leave us only with regret
Painful memories wallowed...
Forget not the pain, but who bred it
Like last tears, innocence swallowed
In the shadows...the light creeps in...
Like the last rain of a cloud..
In the sky
The sky's gone now
But emptiness
Not even, in light..
Do blood drops dry
Dreams fall out from one's grasp...
Almost always
Believe not the lies, but the truth hiding..
A smile is never a smile...only if with eyes locked...
To know who its to
Anybody can smile
Think about happy thoughts...
And then...there!
You're a happy person..
Or...thats what everybody thinks..anyways
Alone and withdrawn..
As the sun sets
Slipping in your grasp grains of sand...
All together..
As they blow into the wind..
Lost forever
To think it won't leave..
It's too small..
Thats what the lost believe...
They can go so far...
And end up nowhere
That's how things work
The grave's lay cold,
Like a heart of ice..
And then..behold!
New again and covered in roses..
Without thorns
The dust of a ruined life...
Travels to the end of the eternity
So others can know of it's strife..
Covered in blood's heresy..
It'll drag itself across the bare lands of abandonment..
To show what it's all for...
Living
See the eyes?
Their lost too,
At the return of sunrise..
The blood run's through
At the end...
Maybe one day..
You can find the dust...
Not blown away...
They can go so far...
And end up nowhere
Only if you were to remember..
Until then...
Like life, Gone Forever"
Gaz's mouth was gaped open. "Wow...that was.....beautiful."
Rachel smirked, "I haven't heard you say that word...like ever."
"I know."
"Listen. The line I saw towards the end, "They can go so far....and end up...nowhere. Thats what I feel like, lost."
"I imagined myself as one of those people that would be helping people, not helping myself Gaz, not myself...I find it hard to see the light."
Rachel threw another crumpled paper at Gaz and she unfolded it. Another poem, she thought. She then read it aloud:
-Dawn-
"/Sometimes it's so dark/....
And the light won't enter...
/Ever/
/Dawn will come and go/,
Yet if the sun will rise..
/Sometimes..you'll never know/
Cry a river...To drown in tears...
For a heart does quiver...To relive all fears
/Sometimes it's hard to see the ligh/t..
It's so dim...
/Never to know wrong or right/...
/To never know the answer so...
Every breath could be the last..
/Sometimes the boat won't row/
/Sometimes the light won't ever show
Riveting inbetween the past...
/Then the boat will tow/
The answer won't last forever..
Not now..
Not /ever/
/The dove can't open it's wing's always..
Only if the wind stays..
Only if it's feather sways/
One day when a soul takes flight...
To forever see..
The light"
"You do sound lost...."
"I am"
Gaz then thought for a minute and asked abruptly, "But..what does that have to do with you being sick?"
Rachel froze.
"Im pregnant."
In this part Gaz goes into her house and Im guessing this chapter is going to be......angsty-drama, I dunno, we'll all see in the end, wont we? And no, I haven't stopped writing this, I've just been very busy, I never stop writing something without saying so, because then that disappoints people:) And I don't have a writing program which I can upload on this site that lets me use italics or anything so when, /whatever is in it/ goes up, that means it was supposed to be in italics.
Gaz could hear talking. Numberous voices all tangled within each other's web. Gaz slowly listened to each as she dawned into the living room. Practicially all his students were there, yet Professor Membrane was not. This puzzled her.
Gaz tried to go unnoticed and creeped towards the stairs and went up two steps, ducking down a lil.
She saw him by Rachel's door. She could hear talking.
"Rachel...../please/ come downstairs to eat."
"No."
"You haven't eaten in /three/ days!"
"I don't give a damn, go away! GO AWAY!" Rachel's voice was tired and strained, she had been really sick for the last week.
Gaz instantly said, "D-Professor..Membrane...leave her alone..."
Her dad looked up as though bewildered for he didn't know where that came from, until he saw Gaz, hunched down by the stairs.
"Gaz..? I thought I told you to call me, "Dad". And...what are you doing back so soon?" He talked as if he was innocent, even though in reality, he was naive as how to be a Father to Gaz, and how he didn't know how he treated Rachel. He always praised Dib as if he were a God, and a flawless one at a that.
"What do you mean!? Im actually.....like....", Gaz was unsure of what to say, "late...." She drew down, scared.
"Oh...well....." He looked at the door, back at Gaz, and slowly started to walk towards the steps.
"Just..., Get her out if you can, okay?", he supposedly asked, but his voice meant otherwise. He voice told her to force her out, rather then convince her. Gaz gave an unseasy look, but decided to stand up for herself.
"Im going to let her decide....she hasn't been feeling well lately, I dont know whats wrong with her!"
Gaz looked up to him and she saw him give this look on his face, as if he knew why she was ill. Something on him dawned her, she didn't know what though.
He took of his goggles and looked straight at her.
"Fine." He walked past her, and as far as he could in the narrow hallway and hurriedly walked down the steps. Gaz knocked on Rachel's door and whispered, "Rachel...are you okay?"
No answer.
"Rachel.....?"
Still no answer.
Then Gaz her mumbling.
"Rachel!?"
"Hmmm."
"Could you open the door?"
Gaz could hear the door unlock and she opened it.
Rachel slowly fell onto her bed, face first, and sprawled her body all over the bed. Slowly moving her foot up and down.
She sighed.
"Are you okay?"
"No.", she answered with a bit of an attitude, yet she was titled to so, being damned with the life of hers.
She looked around the room and it was dark, with a tad bit of light lacing the dark. Her room looked like a painting. Rachel was always the one to match her surrounds with her mood. It seemed a little too drastic for Gaz.
Rachel tended to exaggerate sometimes.
Gaz was about to say something until Rachel interrupted.
"It's not fair."
"What?"
"It's no fair!'
"What is?"
"Life."
"Life in general...or ours?', Gaz asked depressed.
"Life...in general."
Rachel then started to sob, not one of those, "I can't believe this has happened to me", but one of those, "I wish I could die", kind of sobs. Rachel started to kick and scream on her bed, with a choking kind of cry. It reminded Gaz of when a little baby bickers for her older brother's lollipop but the Mother simply states, "No, its not yours." Rachel didn't want her life, she wanted somebody else's. She was crying for somebody else's life.
Gaz was about to pat her shoulder when she abruptly turned around.
"YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT GOES ON WHEN YOU LEAVE!"
Gaz stood gazing at her until she calmed down.
"Rach, I know sometimes I see- no I am emotionless, I do care. And I haven't been playing my GameSlave5, ya know", Gaz smirked.
Rachel turned to her and a small smile crept upon her white face, then fell down again into one of her depressed ones.
"Why have you been so sick lately?"
As soon as Gaz finished her sentence, her face met with a pillow.
Rachel glared.
Okay, bad time, Gaz thought.
"You want to know!?", she demanded.
"Well..yeah..."
Rachel got up and started to walk around the room.
She looked at Gaz.
"Gaz....I tried so hard to make myself something....."
She stopped and picked up a paper from her desk.
"I really have, only to be here. I don't know where here is, let me read something I wrote before:
-Gone Forever-
Stand alone...
And see.....
Nothing come out of it
Speak nothing..
Become nothing..
Lay still-
And the wind won't blow
With last words slowly falls the dove..
Like lost innocence...
Stolen
Flowing crimson blood trailing from the oceans..
Like forgiveness and forget...
Callowed emotions...
Leave us only with regret
Painful memories wallowed...
Forget not the pain, but who bred it
Like last tears, innocence swallowed
In the shadows...the light creeps in...
Like the last rain of a cloud..
In the sky
The sky's gone now
But emptiness
Not even, in light..
Do blood drops dry
Dreams fall out from one's grasp...
Almost always
Believe not the lies, but the truth hiding..
A smile is never a smile...only if with eyes locked...
To know who its to
Anybody can smile
Think about happy thoughts...
And then...there!
You're a happy person..
Or...thats what everybody thinks..anyways
Alone and withdrawn..
As the sun sets
Slipping in your grasp grains of sand...
All together..
As they blow into the wind..
Lost forever
To think it won't leave..
It's too small..
Thats what the lost believe...
They can go so far...
And end up nowhere
That's how things work
The grave's lay cold,
Like a heart of ice..
And then..behold!
New again and covered in roses..
Without thorns
The dust of a ruined life...
Travels to the end of the eternity
So others can know of it's strife..
Covered in blood's heresy..
It'll drag itself across the bare lands of abandonment..
To show what it's all for...
Living
See the eyes?
Their lost too,
At the return of sunrise..
The blood run's through
At the end...
Maybe one day..
You can find the dust...
Not blown away...
They can go so far...
And end up nowhere
Only if you were to remember..
Until then...
Like life, Gone Forever"
Gaz's mouth was gaped open. "Wow...that was.....beautiful."
Rachel smirked, "I haven't heard you say that word...like ever."
"I know."
"Listen. The line I saw towards the end, "They can go so far....and end up...nowhere. Thats what I feel like, lost."
"I imagined myself as one of those people that would be helping people, not helping myself Gaz, not myself...I find it hard to see the light."
Rachel threw another crumpled paper at Gaz and she unfolded it. Another poem, she thought. She then read it aloud:
-Dawn-
"/Sometimes it's so dark/....
And the light won't enter...
/Ever/
/Dawn will come and go/,
Yet if the sun will rise..
/Sometimes..you'll never know/
Cry a river...To drown in tears...
For a heart does quiver...To relive all fears
/Sometimes it's hard to see the ligh/t..
It's so dim...
/Never to know wrong or right/...
/To never know the answer so...
Every breath could be the last..
/Sometimes the boat won't row/
/Sometimes the light won't ever show
Riveting inbetween the past...
/Then the boat will tow/
The answer won't last forever..
Not now..
Not /ever/
/The dove can't open it's wing's always..
Only if the wind stays..
Only if it's feather sways/
One day when a soul takes flight...
To forever see..
The light"
"You do sound lost...."
"I am"
Gaz then thought for a minute and asked abruptly, "But..what does that have to do with you being sick?"
Rachel froze.
"Im pregnant."