He's at it again. Stupid monk. Even Hakkai gets all moody on rainy days.

/sigh/

I know rainy days are gloomy and morbid, but do they have to act so... freaky? It's not like them at all! Okay, wait, maybe it IS more like them than anything else, but still. Look, no offense, but they can't just stare in a daze, caught up with their own thoughts when the saru and I are here! I, Sha Goyjo, refuse to be ignored!

At least Hakkai's not that bad. He tries to smile, and though it looks painfully strained, hey, he DID try. He has enough sense to try to fake it, for the sake of the saru here, who's being awfully quiet, by the way. I wonder..

Ah, I'm right. He is worried. About Sanzo. Stupid, corrupt monk.

He's brooding all alone, acting as if the three of us don't exist. He keeps everything to himself and no one knows what goes on in his mind. Grrrr. it makes me mad. Why can't he just open his corrupt mouth and tell us what's wrong? He says that nothing's wrong, the stupid guy. Does he really think we'll buy that? He's dumber than I thought. It's so obvious something's bothering him. Liar.

Oh, I'm one to talk. I'm not much better and I go around calling him a liar and a fake. Wait, did I just say fake?

Okay, Sanzo's not a fake. He's a genuine monk. Really. He's a SANZO so he's got to be real. Funny, I always thought that monks were, you know, stiff old men with hearts of gold and the patience of a saint. This guy is like a terror.

But I have to admit, when he smiles, everything seems all right again. Saru and Hakkai can vouch for that.

The only problem is, he almost never smiles. Che.

Talking about smiling, sometimes I wish I could just wipe off that smile off Hakkai's face. I mean, we all know he's hurting, so why does he keep up with it? It pains me, he is my best friend. Best friends are...well, don't ask me what best friends do. My whole life, my only friend was Dokugakuji. We're enemies now and we're trying to see who can kill the other first.

I still am indebted to him for saving me.

Aa, I miss him, but at least I've got Hakkai and the saru and...well, Sanzo.

Hakkai's snapped out of his reverie. I think he realizes that Sanzo hates rainy days more than him. Okay, maybe not, but he does act like he hates it more. All of us are staring at Sanzo now- the saru, worriedly, Hakkai, with an almost sad smile on his face and I.. well, I'm just staring. Sanzo soon notices three pairs of eyes on him and snaps.

Ah. Things should be back to normal.

Er, no. he reverts back to his lamenting. Che.

Hakkai smiles. I think he knows that leaving Sanzo alone to his thoughts is the best thing to do. He'll talk when he feels like it. Well, it might be so, but if that's the case, Sanzo will never talk. I swear, that guy sometimes just does things simply to grind my nerves. Okay, fine, I'm being really thick here but I swear Sanzo loves to annoy me. And the saru. He doesn't annoy Hakkai though. Maybe because they're one and the same.

/sigh/

Anyway, if we left Sanzo alone and waited for him to talk, it would be like waiting for pigs to fly and the saru to shut up. Nope, never will happen. Sanzo will not talk just to annoy me. Wait, have I gone through this before? Darn, the rain makes my brain all muddled. Anyway, and for real this time, Sanzo needs to be prompted to speak. He needs a reason. He's one of those who never does things without reason. Like how he just loves to dangle his cigarette in front of me when my own pack runs out, just to annoy me. Arghh! I'm going around in circles! Sanzo really loves to annoy me..

...and that's why I have to take my cue and act as the ignition, by prodding him with words! Aha! I'm brilliant! All right, aside from that incredible display of logic, I suppose I knew it all this while. The reason why I pick fights with Sanzo. It's to make him happy, I suppose. The catch is that it doesn't work when it rains.

Goku senses it too. He almost shuts up in what seems to be a rare occurrence. Sanzo's beyond our help when he gets in this mood. The poor boy frets and gets so worried about the corrupt monk who doesn't realize he's making us all worried.

Hakkai falls back into his own musing- I can see that faraway, thoughtful look in his eyes. Is he thinking about the past? About Kana? He still loves her, one can easily tell. I'm glad I found him and helped him when I did.

We don't speak much, but we share something special. You know, sometimes you don't need words to speak, if you get what I mean. Or if I get what I mean, whatever. I always talk to myself. It's genetic.

Anyway, Hakkai and I don't talk to each other much, most of my breath is wasted arguing with the saru and most of his spent on trying to calm us down. Hakkai should run for some trashy beauty contest you know. He can easily pull of that smile-till-your-face-starts-to-crack thing and the if- there's-one-thing-I-could-wish-for-it-would-be-for-world-peace. I wouldn't be surprised if he actually won. My dear friend here is a beauty. Hmmm, Sanzo could enter and win easily as well, come to think of it. He only has to smile more than his usual split-second smile and say something less acid for his wish. But that's asking too much, I suppose.

Yeah, so, Hakkai and I don't converse much, but we know each other well. That's our friendship. It's something special that not many have, so I'm glad of it.

Aa..the saru's pouting and Sanzo's ignoring him. Sometimes I swear the kid is dense. I know he's a saru and all, but really. He never fails to amaze me. Can't he see that Sanzo is well, being more anti-social than usual?

Hah! See? That's what happens when you mess with a brooding Sanzo-sama! The bakasaru is clutching his head and howling in pain. Serves him right!

Sanzo turns to glare at me. Aa...

This time I'm listening to Hakkai. Leave Sanzo alone to his thoughts. Very sound advice.