The Loneliest Girl - Ch. 6
Crushes
I stood on mountaintops
That overlooked the world
I can't find anything
Except a void inside
I went to places where
I could forget your name
I can't find anything
Except a void inside
I don't have anything
Because I don't have you
I don't have anything
What can I buy to make
The sky turn blue again
Where can I go to feel
Like I'm alive again
Show me the places
Where I can forget your name
I can't find anything
Except a void inside
I don't have anything
Because I don't have you
I don't have anything
I've been striped of everything
Except some flesh that bleeds
And I've been robbed of everything
Except a soul, except a soul
That needs... you, sweet you
I don't have anything
Because I don't have you
I don't have anything
~VAST "I Don't Have Anything"
Heinali flopped down on her bed after dinner and let out a sigh. Thoughts popped in her mind about Oliver's behavior and raged like a stormy sea, she rolled over onto her back and stared at the ceiling for five minutes before remembering the letter in her bag. She reached down to the ground and pulled her bag onto the bed beside her when her dorm mate, Caitiy ran in breathless.
"Heinali! Professor Snape is in the common room about to blow a gasket if you don't show up soon!" the hyper girl said.
"What did I do now? I swear I didn't put those dungbombs in Flitwick's desk."
"You did? Oh man Professor Snape will have your hide for that.... He said something about Madam Hooch needing to see how well you fly." Caitiy thought that Heinali didn't have the guts to pull of a prank like that.
"You mean it wasn't the dungbombs in charms? I'm in for it then." Heinali moaned.
Caitiy helped Heinali stand and pushed her out the door following close behind to see what her friend had done this time. As the two neared the common room you could hear a first year's quill drop because of the glares Snape was shooting everyone.
"Miss Heinali, I see you finally decide to grace me with your presence."
Heinali rolled her eyes at his sarcasm and fell into a comfortable sofa.
"I don't wish to see you here, I wish to see you in my office" Snape informed her icily.
At this phrase Heinali moaned and stood back up and followed Severus out of the common room and down the hall. The duo passed up and down many treacherous staircases finally stopping at the professor's door which he quickly opened and strode into the room, Heinali assertively followed him not knowing what she could have done now. Last week it was spray painting the Hufflepuff common room green and silver and the week before that Heinali had slipped Professor McGonagall a cockroach cluster both pranks earned her three dentations with Filch.
"So what did you do this week?" Severus asked as he sat down behind his desk and started to grade potion essays.
"Only some dungbombs in charms."
"You must find a better outlet for your.... feelings than pranks."
"Oh, and what do you propose? Quidditch? I hate flying, and I can't spend all my free time studying." Heinali sighed and sat down on the floor ignoring the nearby chairs preferring to avoid Severus' gaze and acting like a moody teenager.
"I know you hate flying as much as I do, but daughter of mine, you need to find something more constructive to do." He looked at the top her head, as that was all he could see of her. "I'll be needing an extra hand with some of the first year lessons. The job would earn you a few sickles to spend at Hogsmead."
Heinali rolled her eyes and thought about what he said, "A job... Why would you offer ME a job?"
"Because you know more about potions now, than half of my seventh year students will ever know, in their entire lives. Your essays are wonderfully composed and include more than enough information about each subject. In short you know how to reach your audience and get your point across clearly. So will you take the job daughter?"
"Ok. I'll take it. Just one question though, why do you keep calling me daughter?"
"You are my daughter, are you not? I adopted you, but more than that." Severus leaned over the desk to look Heinali in the eyes knowing she would not believe him otherwise. "You are my true daughter."
He paused when he heard a loud thump. Heinali had just slammed her head into his desk. Heinali peeked over the edge of the desk looking like she saw a ghost or walked right through one.
"But they told me he was dead! You. Can't. Be. My. Father." She replied coolly not really wanting to know if she had a real father and slightly shocked. She had grown use to fending for herself in the cruel world she had known, no one had ever cared for her like a parent should. "I mean I look nothing like you I act nothing like you..." She stopped talking as he stood up and helped her stand up.
"I'm sorry I didn't come for you, but until recently I didn't know I had a daughter. I thought that all of my ties to the real world were cut off and I made some very stupid decisions before Dumbledore came and saved me. Heinali, can you ever forgive me?"
**Severus Snape stood alone in the middle of a circle of black hooded figures who all were intently staring at a powerfully built wizard, that wizard was Voldemort. The next few minutes passed in a blur for Severus, all he recalled was Voldemort giving a speech about what it meant to be a Deatheater and being called forward. As he stepped forward he knelled at the feet of You-Know-Who and muttered 'My lord' and offered his left arm to Voldemort's outstretched hand. A fire burned through Snape's body as his new master touched the phoenix feather wand to Severus' cool skin burning the dark mark on his wrist. After the mark was burned into Severus, the Deatheaters disappeared leaving a shivering Snape on the cold hard ground whimpering.**
He stood there in silence as she stared at him until it hit her like a wave, she had a father who was alive and asking her forgiveness. She wrapped her arms around him and buried her face in his robes not trusting her voice. They stood in silence for a while until the teen gained control of her emotions.
Severus pushed back some of her hair and gave Heinali a kiss on the forehead. "I know that I told you quite a bit of information tonight, you might wish to confide in one of your friends. Before you go to bed I want you to drink this potion." He handed her a small bottle which she eyed suspiciously. "Don't worry its only a light sleeping potion."
"I guess I should be getting back. I have a load of homework to do." Heinali smiled again and bounded out of the room.
Heinali walked back into her dorm and saw Caitiy sitting on her bed waiting for the news, but Heinali just smiled and sat on her own bed.
"So, what did he want?"
Heinali just smiled and looked back at her finally giving in when Caitiy gave her the sad puppy dog look. "Ok, fine! He wanted to ask me to help him teach potions, you know like an apprentice of sorts?"
Caitiy nodded, "So what are you going to have to do for him?"
"Just grade some essays, tests, and maybe write out a lesson plan or two. The best part is I'm getting paid for it!"
"Oh, we can go shopping then. I saw this lovely set of robes that would really flatter you, it might even catch certain guys attentions."
"What do you mean by certain guys?"
"I've just noticed a few Slytherins and Quidditch players have their sights set on you." Caitiy giggled.
Heinali rolled her eyes and opened her potions book to a random page when a note slipped out of it and into her lap, the parchment appeared blank at first glance and she knew it must be the note Oliver gave her.
She turned the note over and over looking at it closely for some clue as how to read what it said. She waved her wand over it and nothing happened, she muttered her name and Oliver's name to it and still nothing happened, in fact she went through every way she could think of to get it note to appear, but it remained blank. Sighing she got out a quill, ink, and parchment to work on her homework, after completing a foot and a half on her History Of Magic paper her ink bottle lurched and spilled over Oliver's note. Instead of spreading over the parchment and ruining it the parchment soaked in the ink and a small script appeared on it. Heinali picked up the note and read it wondering why she hadn't thought of that charm she had seen before.
Heinali,
I have no idea when you will be reading this, I only hope that I haven't made a fool of you in the act of giving this to you. Ever since I've met you it feels like there's a void in my life, one that you can fill. I know that sound cheesy, you have to trust me when I tell you that I like who you are. I hope you don't think that all Gryffindors are good for nothing nobodies that are stupid, ok I know that was a stupid thing to say but I can't go back on it now. Would you be willing to ....................... Oh, man it didn't pick that up!
Ok, sorry about that earlier, I have this bloody brilliant quill that writes what you say but it doesn't pick up what I say sometimes. Ok, what I wanted to know is if you want............. for me to help you learn how to fly and be my friend. Just send an owl back with a response if you want to, I'll understand if you don't want to say anything openly. The twins are already starting to get suspicious about how I act around you, and I just want to say that I like you.
~Love,
Oliver
Heinali blushed at the note and nearly squealed when Caitiy jumped up on her bed.
"Oh, what does it say?"
"Nothing that you need to know unless you tell me who likes me!" Heinali quickly shoved the note out of sight and rolled away from her friend.
"Oh come on now, its from a guy isn't it?"
"What if it is?"
"It is!" Caitiy shook her head and grinned. "Ok, you want to know who has a crush on you? I'll give you a hint, he's a Quidditch captain and damn cute!"
"Um, well there's Marcus Flint, Oliver Wood, Roger Davies,..."
Caitiy squealed, "You got it, Roger likes you!"
"He what?!" Heinali stared at her dorm mate wondering why so many guys drooled over the opposite sex, it could be hormones or just small brains.
"You heard me. Davies likes you. He just hasn't had the guts to ask you out yet."
Heinali moaned and fell onto her bed and mumbled a few cuss words into her pillow. "Well if he wants to get with me then he just has to ask me, but I'm not promising anything."
At this Caitiy giggled and ran out of the room to find Davies. Heinali rolled her eyes and fell asleep on her bed her books still open at her feet.
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Oliver was sitting in a plush chair by the fire watching the figures move around on his miniature quidditch pitch. The Weasley twins sat on a couch, across from their captain and friend, bent over a piece of parchment talking in hushed whispers. As Oliver let out a loud, long sigh, the twins shook their heads and continued their conversation in tones so Oliver couldn't hear.
"Do you really think they will fall for it?"
"Of course they will, I mean neither of them sees it and its so...."
"Obvious, yah to us. Just finish writing the letter to where we can owl both of the blushing duo in the morning." Fred quickly finished a letter to Heinali and shoved it to George.
"Did you get the pictures developed?"
"Yah, here's your copy." George pulled out a photo of Oliver and Heinali. Currently the two were having a snogging session.
"Oh, they are cute. I'm going to show it to him, I presume you made copies?"
George nodded yes as Fred got to his feet and walked the short distance to Oliver's chair. Fred looked down at the miniature scrimmage going on between Gryffindor and Ravenclaw and dropped the photo in front of Oliver. Wood's head shot up and he quickly grabbed the picture, he looked at it closer and noticed that his picture self was right in the middle of a heated make-out session and didn't notice the stares from the two boys.
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*****Thanks to my lovely beta reader, hugs to all who reviewed my muses are happy now! You all asked for an update and it took me awhile to get this chapter how I wanted it to turn out, but I think I did a decent job even though I still think it stinks. Oh well, I'm my own worst critic!*****
Disclaimer: I don't own anyone or anything you recognize, just the plot. I don't even own the names Heinali and Ghanima. Although I do own a few articles of Snape's and Wood's clothes. *giggles and smirks at the half bare men*