Disclaimer: I don't own DBZ or the song "Miss You." Akira Toriyama owns DBZ
and Aaliyah owns the song "Miss You."
AN: Merry Christmas all!!!! Much love to hippiechick who beta-ed this for me even though she was sick in bed. I know, I'm a slave driver ^_~. I hope you all enjoy this and have a safe and happy holiday.
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~ It's been too long and I'm lost without you
What am I gonna do
Said I been needin' you, wantin' you
Wonderin' if you're the same and who's been with you
Is your heart still mine
I wanna cry sometimes
I miss you ~
"I really don't know about this, Videl," Hercule frowned at his only child. What made her think she was ready to make such a move? No, it was best she listen to him and stay. The world champ is always right.
Videl sighed, stood on her tiptoes, and kissed his cheek. She was not even going to get into this with him again. This was exactly why she didn't want him coming to the airport with her in the first place. He had been trying to talk her out of going away to school since she made her decision after graduation. She was going and that was the simple fact. He had to deal with it. "I love you, Dad. I'll call you when I reach school. Okay?"
Hercule frowned again then nodded. "All right but if you get scared or lonely or just want to come home call me and I'll come get you."
Videl rolled her eyes. "Whatever, Dad." Giving him one last hug, she pulled back and turned to the other member of her ship off party. Hands in pockets, finding great interest in his shoes, he looked almost as bashful as he had the first time she'd seen him. Taking a deep breath, she approached the real reason behind her leaving.
When she stopped in front of him he looked up and smiled softly at her. "He still doesn't want you to go, huh?"
She shrugged and readjusted the strap of her carry-on bag. "He'll get over it."
He nodded at the comment. For a brief moment it seemed he was going to add something, but then he smiled again. "Well, have a safe trip. Okay?"
She nodded. "Yeah, sure. You too. What time is your flight?" she asked, fumbling with the strap again.
"Oh, I'm not taking a plane. I'm just gonna, well, you know," he said making a little flying motion with his hand. At her nod of understanding, he slipped the hand back in his pocket.
"Well," she said after a brief silence.
"Well," he answered.
Glancing at her watch, she sighed. "I should go. My flight, well, you know."
"Yeah," he said, lowering his eyes again.
"Call me when you get there. Okay?" she said with forced flippancy.
He looked up. "Maybe but, well, I'll have a lot of unpacking to do, and I'm sure you will too," he trailed off.
Biting her lip, she nodded. "Yeah, I know." Nothing left to say, she held her hand out to him. "Good-bye, Gohan."
He looked at the hand a moment before taking it. "Good-bye, Videl," he said softly, looking into her eyes.
Wearying her bottom lip, she pulled her hand from his. She waved at her father, who'd been trying to look discreet as the two said their good-byes then turned toward the terminal. She handed her ticket to the young brunette at the counter. As the smiling attendant looked over her papers, Videl couldn't help glancing back and was met immediately with his watchful gaze. His cheeks reddened when he realized he was caught, and he raised his hand to wave.
She didn't return the gesture as she turned back to the counter and took her boarding pass from the woman. She didn't look back as she headed to her plane.
~
Off to college
Yes you went away
Straight from high school
You up and left me
We were close friends
Also lovers
Did everything
For one another
~
Videl held her psychology book a little tighter to her breast as she sloshed through the snow on her way across campus. This cold weather was driving her nuts. She was accustomed to the warm sunshine back home.
Home.
Sighing, she wiped the thoughts, which always seemed to follow that single word away from her mind. She had a final she needed to focus on.
"Videl? Videl are you listening to me?!"
No, she hadn't been. Turning her head, she frowned at the pretty, brown- skinned woman next to her. "I'm sorry, Lisa. What?"
Lisa sighed. "I said he's really, really nice. I think you'd like him. Plus he's super cute," she finished, giving Videl a little nudge with her elbow.
Videl frowned. In the semester she'd been here, she'd met a lot of people but hadn't grown so close, so fast to any like she had with Lisa. She figured part of it was the fact that they were roomies and after living with a person for four months you had to either be close or hate each other's guts. Hating each other was definitely not the case with them. Lisa was like a sister to her. That's why she didn't get as angry as she would have gotten with anyone else constantly trying to fix her up. She knew Lisa did, only because she cared.
As their friendship had grown, each girl had confided much of their past in the other. Videl had really surprised herself when she discussed a certain love of her life with her new friend. She had been trying her hardest to forget the day Gohan told her he was leaving. She hadn't even seen it coming, though she guessed she should have. ChiChi was determined that her baby would be a scholar and so it was only natural she would expect him to continue his education after high school. It's just...well, she had kind of hoped he would want to stay closer to home, want to stay with her. He was much more than just her best friend and, as things had happened shortly after the mess with Majin Buu, her first lover. She'd thought they'd meant so much to one another. She guessed she had been wrong.
All of this, she shared with Lisa; effectively convincing the other girl Gohan was a jerk. Videl tried to tell her friend Gohan Son and the word jerk, would never fit together, but the girl wasn't hearing it. Lisa had decided it was now her job to find her new best buddy another guy to get her mind off the one who had abandoned her.
Trying to keep her aggravation at bay, Videl shook her head at the other girl. "I'm sure he's wonderful, Lisa, but I think I'll pass."
Lisa sighed as they reached their building, and Videl opened the door for them to enter. "But why, Videl? You haven't been on a date since school started. What could it hurt to just meet him?"
"I'm here to learn, not meet guys," Videl told her as she started up the stairs, tugging her hood off her head as she went.
"College isn't just about going to class everyday. You have to get out and meet people. I bet my last dollar Gohan is," she added, following her friend up the steps.
"Lisa," Videl said in warning.
Choosing to ignore the girl's tone, Lisa pressed the issue as she quickened her pace to be in step with her companion. "Come on, girl. You can't sit around swooning over this guy forever. Okay, so maybe he was perfect when you were together, but obviously he's moved on. It's time you did too."
Lisa silently questioned if she'd pushed too far when Videl paused in her step, and a hurt look crossed her eyes. After nipping at her lip a minute, Videl took a deep breath. "Maybe I don't want to move on," she said softly before starting to walk again.
Lisa frowned at her friend's back until the girl disappeared in one of the classrooms. Sighing, she followed her into the room.
~ Now you're gone and I'm lost without you here now
But I know I gotta live and make it somehow
Come back......to me
Can you......hear me (Callin')
Hear me......callin' (For you)
For you......'Cuz it's
~
Gohan frowned down at the Calculus book. "How can it be two?" he muttered in frustration. Never, in all the years he'd been in school had he had problems with math, and yet, this class was killing him. Sighing, he tossed the pencil down and pinched the bridge of his nose. He needed to focus. The final in this class was tomorrow, and for the life of him, he couldn't focus on the work in front of him.
Focusing became even harder when a muddy football landed on his math book. Frowning, he looked up at the tall green-eyed, dark-haired boy covered from head to toe in the very same mud covering his pigskin.
The man's face scrunched up in disgust as his eyes rolled skyward dramatically. "G-man, please tell me you're not studying again."
Gohan frowned at the nickname but decided he was much too tired to argue with his roommate tonight. "Yes, Cash, I'm studying. That's what most college students do during finals week," he said as he pushed the football away and tried to wipe some of the mess off his book.
"But dude, you just missed the most awesome midnight pick up game!" Cash cried as he dropped down on the bed that definitely was not his. Gohan frowned deeper. Great, now he'd have to sleep under a muddy blanket, if he ever actually got to bed.
"I'm sure it was great, Cash, but I'm really not in the mood for football anyway," Gohan said, giving up on cleaning the mess on his book and started working again in spite of the splotches.
"Not in the mood for football? What are you? Some kind of loser? Dude!" Cash said, standing again and moving around to the front of Gohan's desk.
Gohan was not even going to dignify that with an answer. "Look, Cash, I'm kinda busy so can you keep it down?"
Cash frowned down on him then reached for the book. He looked at it in confusion and then turned it upside down to get a better look at it, all while Gohan gritted his teeth trying to keep his temper in check. "Give that back," he told the other boy.
Cash scratched his head still frowning. "What is it?"
"Calculus," Gohan answered as he stood and snatched the book.
"Dude, you do know that you only need College Algebra, right? Why are you taking that crap?"
"Because I want to."
Cash's mouth literally hung open. "G-man, that's something a dork would say. You're not a dork are you?"
Gohan growled and looked up at him. "Cash, will you just leave me the he-"
"Hey Cash!" cried the blonde boy, who stuck his head in the room.
"Yeah?" Cash asked turning his attention to the door.
"There's a total babe-a-thon over at the sorority house. Sleep over, man! Come on!" the boy said.
Cash turned back to the tortured man at the desk. "G-man, come on. You can't turn down a sorority house full of drunk, half-naked babes!"
"I'm busy, Cash, but you go have fun." 'And stay gone all night,' he added silently.
"You're not serious are you?! What are you? Gay?" Cash exclaimed.
"No," Gohan answered trying to block the other boy out.
"I dunno man. You may be, because I haven't seen you with a chick since you got here. You should check into that to be sure you aren't," Cash informed him.
"Cash, man, forget about him. The babes, dude! We're going to miss all the babes!" the boy at the door said.
Cash frowned at Gohan one last time then shrugged. "Well, whoever she is she must have been a nice piece." With those parting words, Cash headed out the door.
Gohan glared daggers at the boy's back. Cash may not know it, but he hit a nerve with his last comment. Knowing he definitely wasn't going to get any work done now, Gohan closed the book and rubbed his eyes. After stretching a bit, he reached for his desk drawer and pulled it open. Moving aside a few pieces of paper, he pulled out a small, wallet size senior picture. She'd sworn she hated the pictures. He thought she looked gorgeous in them. Then, again, he always thought she looked gorgeous.
Standing, picture in hand, he made his way over to his bed. After tossing the mud-soiled blanket on the floor, he laid down on his stomach at the head of his bed. He gazed over the picture for a brief moment before sighing and crossing his arms so he could rest his chin on them. He gazed out the only window in the room, his eyes being drawn to one softly twinkling star in the sky.
The star continued to flash, and he couldn't help wondering what she was doing at that moment. He did that a lot over the past four months. Several times he thought about calling her up and seeing what she was doing, but he always talked himself out of it.
"She doesn't want you. Get over it," he murmured. He'd been telling himself that for four months now, yet his heart still refused to believe it. Deep down, he'd always known Videl was the only one for him. No girl he'd ever met before or since meeting her even compared.
Even to this day, he could picture them married with a kid or two. Maybe they could even have a little house near his parents. Sighing, he placed the picture on the pillow in front of him and folded his arms under his chin again. His eyes roamed over her smiling face, the joy in her soft blue eyes. He hadn't seen that joy the day he told her of his plans to leave.
It was silly but he had hoped she'd ask him to stay, or maybe want to come with him. Any such hopes were dashed by the nonchalant way she had taken the news. It was like she didn't even care he was leaving. If she had given one little sign she wanted him to stay, he would have. There wasn't a doubt in his mind about it. She hadn't though, and on that day he realized his feelings for her were simply much deeper than any she felt. The revelation had broken his heart.
As his eyes moved from the picture, back to the star, he groaned at how sappy he sounded even to himself. He'd never hear the end of it if someone like Cash ever heard him.
A knock and the opening of his door made Gohan turn his head.
"Hey Gohan, phone for you down in the rec hall," the green eyed boy said as he poked his head in the door.
"Who is it?" Gohan asked as he sat up and pushed the picture under his pillow.
"It's some kid. Your baby brother, I guess," the other student shrugged before he left.
"Goten?" Gohan frowned, wondering what his brother could possibly be calling for as he got up and pulled on a T- shirt. With one last forlorn look out the window he headed for the recreation hall.
~ It's been too long and I'm lost without you
What am I gonna do
Said I been needin' you, wantin' you
Wonderin' if you're the same and who's been with you
Is your heart still mine
I wanna cry sometimes
I miss you
~
Videl frowned out her window. She wished that stupid star would stop twinkling. For some reason it kept drawing her attention from the College Algebra book in front of her. As she stared at the blinking star, her mind began to wonder to the memories of a person she was trying her hardest to forget. Maybe Lisa was right. Maybe it really was time for her to move on. Not once had he called her in all the time of their separation. Maybe it really was time she let him go.
"But what if I don't want to?" she whispered softly. The thought of losing him forever...the possibility that this constant ache in her chest might be permanent...it was just something she wasn't ready to deal with yet. She sighed heavily around the lump in her throat. She really wished she could get herself under control. This whole mess was turning her into such a girl.
She thought she might be gaining some semblance of control, when her bed moved slightly and a pair of arms encircled her from behind. It took all her might to hold her tears at bay as Lisa rested her chin on her shoulder.
"I hate seeing you this unhappy, kid," Lisa said softly. "You know with finals ending tomorrow and all, everyone's heading home for the holidays. Why don't you go too? It'll make you fell better to be with family. Huh? What do you say?"
Videl shook her head as she watched the star. "No, I think I'll stay here."
Lisa bit her lip as she looked at her friend's profile from the corner of her eye. "Is it Gohan?" she ventured. When the girl's blue eyes closed and she swallowed as if collecting herself, Lisa knew she'd hit a nerve. "Maybe he'll be there too, and you can see him," she offered.
Videl opened her eyes then. "And say what? I'm no fool, Lisa. I see the writing on the wall as well as you do. It's time I moved on but I - I just," she sighed there, refusing to end the sentence that would end in her own tears.
"Well," Lisa started thoughtfully. "Why not go home to see your Dad? I know as much as he calls he'd be happy to see that you're safe and sound with his own eyes."
Videl frowned. It was true her dad was driving her nuts with his phone calls. Maybe if she went home he'd see she was fine and he had no need to worry. True, there was the chance she could run into Gohan, but for all she knew he might not even come home for the holidays. He was most likely having the time of his life being out from under his mother's wing for the first time. The risk of running into him might not even exist.
Nodding, she turned and looked into the other girl's soft hazel eyes. "I'll think about it. Really, I will."
Lisa smiled, taking the girl's maybe as a yes. "Great! You'll feel worlds better afterward," she chirped then released her friend and reached behind her. Smiling, she handed the four envelopes to Videl. "I got your mail for ya."
"Thanks," Videl said, turning her body to face her friend as she took the letters. She passed the first two without much thought but stopped on the third as the gold Capsule Corp. logo caught her eye. She sat the other three down and began working the letter open.
"What's that?" Lisa wanted to know.
"Something from Bulma," Videl answered as she broke the seal.
Lisa raised a brow. "Bulma who?"
"Bulma Briefs. A friend," Videl said as she pulled out what appeared to be an invitation.
Both Lisa's brows shot up at that. "As in Bulma Briefs of the Capsule Corporation?!"
"Yeah," Videl murmured as she read.
Lisa shook her head at the brunette's lack of enthusiasm. "I guess I shouldn't be surprised. After all why wouldn't the daughter of the world champ be friends with the richest woman in the world? No big deal," she finished sarcastically.
Videl glanced at the girl in amusement over her invite then went back to reading. "Looks like Bulma's throwing a party Christmas Eve and she wants me to come."
Lisa smiled. "See?! You have to go home now. I mean what are the chances you'd get this right after the conversation we just had? I think you have your sign, girl. Time to go home."
Videl nodded as she slipped the card back into its envelope. Lisa was right. It was time she went home.
~ Now I'm sittin' here
Thinkin' 'bout you
And the days we used to share
It's drivin' me crazy
I don't know what to do
I'm just wonderin' if you still care
I don't wanna let you know
That it's killin' me
I know you got another life you gotta concentrate baby
Come back......to me
Can you......hear me (Callin')
Hear me......callin' (For you)
For you......'Cuz it's
~
He was so close he could almost see the smoke coming from the little house he'd grown up in. He hadn't planned to come home for the holidays, but the call from his baby brother last week had changed everything.
When he'd reached the phone that night, he'd been greeted with a cheerful little voice he hadn't realized how much he'd missed until that moment.
"Hiya, Gohan!" Goten practically chirped.
"Hey, Goten," Gohan smiled as he leaned against the wall next to the phone booth. "How's it going, kiddio?"
"It's great!" Goten exclaimed then proceeded to tell Gohan about the "really great" lizard he and their father found behind the house the day before. Gohan chuckled through he story, just enjoying the sound of his kid brother's voice. Man, how he missed that kid.
"Well that's great, Goten," Gohan said at the end of the tale. "Now, I'm sure Mom didn't let you call long distance just to tell me about the a lizard, so what's up?"
"Oh well, Mom wanted to talk to you, but she didn't want to wait until you got to the phone, so she told me to wait for ya," Goten explained.
"Oh," Gohan said. When silence fell at the other end of the line, he frowned. "Goten?"
"Yeah, Gohan?"
"I'm on the line now," Gohan said as a prompt for him to go get their mother.
"I know that, Gohan. How else would I be talkin' to ya?" Goten said before falling silent again.
Gohan briefly wondered what shiny object had caught his brother's attention. "Goten, what are you playing with?"
"A dime," came the distracted answer.
"Figures," Gohan murmured as he rolled his eyes. "Goten, why don't you go get Mom for me?"
Goten smiled. "'Kay! MOM!!" he cried, causing his brother to move the phone from his ear briefly.
When he brought the phone to his ear again, he was met with the sound of shuffling and his mother's voice reprimanding his brother for yelling in the house. After instructing the little tike to go play with his father, ChiChi placed the phone to her ear. "Hello, sweetheart," she spoke into the phone.
"Hi, Mom. How's it going?"
"Everything's fine. How are classes?"
"Good. Last final is tomorrow," he said on a shrug.
"Perfect!" ChiChi said happily. "Because Bulma's throwing a Christmas Eve party and she wants you there."
"I think I'll pass," Gohan told her. "I need to stay and get ready for next semester. I told you that."
"But I all ready told her you were coming," ChiChi said. "I'm sorry, Gohan, You'll just have to take a break and come home."
"But Mom-"
"No buts, young man. I'll see you next week. Love you and talk to you then." With that final word, she hung up the phone.
Gohan shook his head at the memory. Here he was nineteen, living away from home, and his mom still dictated every move he made. "You're so pathetic," he murmured as he landed on the front porch.
Before he even reached for the knob, the door flew open and something pint- size attached itself to his waist.
"Gohan! I've been waiting for you all day!" Goten cried excitedly.
Gohan mussed the boy's hair. "How's it going, kiddio?"
Before Goten could answer, Gohan was rushed by their mother, who threw her arms around his neck. "Gohan, you're home!"
Gohan chuckled as he hugged her. "Well, I would be, if you two would let me in the house."
ChiChi pulled back and smiled at her eldest child. "We're just happy to see you is all."
"I know, Mom. I've missed you guys too."
ChiChi smiled at him then pried her youngest child from around his waist. Taking his hand, she tugged him into the house. Gohan didn't even have time to look around the homey, Christmas influenced surroundings, before he was greeted again.
"Gohan!" Goku smiled, stepping up to wrap his son in a hug.
"Hey, Dad," Gohan said, hugging him back.
"Good to have you home, son," Goku said sincerely.
"Good to be home, Dad," Gohan answered his father. As the two men smiled at one another, ChiChi stepped forward.
"You must be hungry. Come in the kitchen and I'll fix you something," she said.
"Actually Mom, I'm more tired than anything. I think I'll go lay down for a while before the party."
"What was I thinking? Of course you must be tired. Go on and lay down," she said to his all ready retreating back.
"But Mom," Goten whined, "I want Gohan to see our Christmas tree."
"He can see it later, 'Ten," ChiChi informed him. "Besides, he'll want to be at his best when he sees Videl again tonight." Gohan paused just inside the door of his old bedroom. "Come on, you two," ChiChi continued. "I'll fix you lunch."
"All right!" Goku and Goten chimed in.
As the three headed to the kitchen, Gohan released a silent curse. If Videl really was home for the holidays, this would definitely be a night to remember.
~ It's been too long and I'm lost without you
What am I gonna do
Said I been needin' you, wantin' you
Wonderin' if you're the same and who's been with you
Is your heart still mine
I wanna cry sometimes
I miss you
~
"Well, that's good, Videl. That's really good," Hercule said.
"Yeah, I suppose," Videl said, running nervous fingers through her hair. Their limousine was quickly approaching CC headquarters, and for the life of her, she couldn't focus on a word her father was saying.
"Uh," Hercule said at a loss for what to say next. He'd asked all the questions a parent should ask their college student home on break. When she didn't attempt to aid in the conversation, he closed his mouth.
The rest of their ride was in silence. When the car came to a stop, he climbed out, and walked around to her side to wait for her. When she didn't open her door after a few minutes, Hercule pulled it open for her.
"Uh, Videl?" he questioned, poking his head in the door.
"Yes?" she said, looking straight ahead.
"You coming?" he said, extremely confused by her behavior.
"Yes," she said. She didn't move.
Hercule frowned. Maybe she was sick or something. "Are you okay?"
She closed her eyes then turned to him. "Yes, I'm fine," she said as a frown settled on her face. "I can't exactly get out with you blocking my way."
"Oh, sorry," he muttered as he moved back to let her step out.
Once outside the car, Videl adjusted her skirt, took a deep breath, then started for the door, ready to face her past. Hercule scratched his head at her odd behavior then shrugged and followed her.
As always, Capsule Corp. was decked out for the holidays. The first thing that captured Videl's eye was the enormous tree settled in a well-lit corner of the beautiful living room. Unlike the professionally decorated feel given by the other adornments in the room, the tree had a homey feel to it. It was obvious the very family who enjoyed its light and warmth had tended to this particular holiday fixture.
Smiling at the brightly shining tree, she turned her eyes to the party- goers. Everyone seemed to be enjoying themselves at the festive event. She didn't recognize everyone there but several faces did pull at her memory. She walked further into the room and crowd, feeling her father close on her heel. She stopped when a hand rested on her shoulder. Turning, she smiled into a pair of blue eyes she definitely remembered.
"Videl, you came," Bulma smiled.
"Yes, I did. Couldn't miss one of your parties, after all," Videl answered.
Bulma chuckled. "Who could?" She glanced over Videl's shoulder. "Hello, Hercule," she said.
"Hi," Hercule said, looking around the room.
"Food's over there," Bulma said, pointing across the room with a knowing smile.
"Thanks!" Hercule said, heading for the table.
Bulma rolled her eyes. "Men. Always thinking with their stomachs," she paused and smirked. "Well, most of the time."
She chuckled when her comment brought a blush to the younger girl's cheeks. Wrapping an arm around the girl, she led her across the room.
"Well, there you are," ChiChi said as they reached a small group of familiar faces. Videl put on a smile she didn't feel. He was the first person her eyes fell on as they reached the group. She knew he'd noticed her too, for the conversation he'd been having with Piccolo, at the back of the group suddenly stopped, and he looked down at his shoes.
Turning back to ChiChi, she nodded. "Yeah, Dad had an interview so we're running a bit late."
ChiChi shrugged. "Oh, well you're looking well. I see you're letting your hair grow out."
Videl brought a hand to her hair and nodded. "Yeah, I kinda missed it, so I decided to grow it back."
"Well, it looks nice. Isn't that right Gohan?" ChiChi said over her shoulder.
Gohan looked up in surprise, though he shouldn't have been. His mother had been at this matchmaking scheme since the day she met Videl. "Yes, Mom, it does," he muttered, frowning when Videl looked away.
"You know Gohan, it's been so long since you two have seen each other. Don't you think it would be nice if you asked Videl to dance?" ChiChi said innocently.
Gohan frowned at her back. "I don't think Videl would want to, Mother, but thanks for the suggestion."
"Nonsense," Bulma said. "Right Videl?"
Videl frowned at Bulma. She expected this type of stuff from ChiChi but not Bulma. "Well, I-" she started.
"See, she wants to dance," ChiChi said, moving toward her son and giving him a little push forward.
Gohan hadn't been expecting the nudge and stumbled forward a bit. At the same moment, Bulma gave Videl a small push as well, causing the two to collide softly. Videl quickly looked away as she pushed a piece of hair behind her ear. Gohan looked over her shoulder and glared at Bulma, who only smiled sweetly.
"Go on, Gohan. You're wasting a perfectly good song," ChiChi said, pushing him again.
Gohan glared over his shoulder at her before sighing as he turned to Videl. "I don't think we have much choice."
"I suppose not," she said, still not looking at him.
Placing his hand under her elbow, he led her to the floor.
Watching the two, ChiChi and Bulma smiled. "I think we got 'em Chi."
ChiChi nodded triumphantly. "Of course we did. My plans always work. Now," she said looking around, "Where is my husband?"
Bulma chuckled and gestured toward the buffet table. "Do you even need to ask?"
ChiChi glanced at the table and sighed.
~ I...can't...breathe...no...more
Since you went away I
Don't really feel like talkin'
Don't wanna hear you don't love me
Baby do you understand me
I can't do a thing without you
~
Once Gohan led Videl to the center of the floor, he turned to face her, only to find her eyes still averted. He was almost ashamed of how much it hurt him that she didn't even want to look him in the eyes.
"If you really don't want to dance with me Videl, it's okay. I'll understand," he said softly.
"No," she said, quickly looking up at him then blushed slightly. "I mean, I don't mind dancing with you. You know, for old times sake and all that crap."
He nodded then held out his arms. She hesitated a moment before stepping into them, leaving just enough space between them. As he wrapped his arms around her, he respected that space. They swayed in each other's arms like two strangers. Not as the lovers they once were. As their silence became more and more uncomfortable, Videl decided to attempt conversation.
"So, how's school?" she asked.
"It's school," he shrugged. "How about you?"
"Same," she said. She tempted a smile as she looked up at him. "School always was the easiest thing in our lives."
He smiled too. "It was just everything else that was difficult."
She nodded. "Yeah. I suppose now that school's all I have, life's kinda dull."
"All you have?" he questioned. Surely in four months she had gotten a boyfriend or something.
She nodded again. "Yeah, I mean I have Lisa, she's my roommate, but other than that, it's just me and the books."
"Same here," Gohan said still a bit amazed. "Unfortunately though, I don't have the good roommate. Just the books."
Just the books? No girlfriend? "Oh," she said.
"Yeah," he said, subconsciously pulling her closer.
"Well, I guess we're in the same boat." She moved closer to him as the song continued.
"Yeah," he said as her scent invaded his senses.
She looked up and smiled at him. "Is that all you can say?"
As he shook his head, something in his eyes caused her smile to fall slightly. When his eyes fell to her lips briefly, she knew what that something was. The desire in his eyes when they returned to hers almost made her gasp. As her lips went dry, she flicked her tongue out to moisten them, causing his eyes to follow the motion. When he looked in her eyes again, there was no doubt in her mind; he was going to kiss her.
Videl turned her face from his then stepped out of his arms. "I should go find my dad," she murmured.
Gohan swallowed the lump in his throat and nodded. "Yeah."
Not even glancing at him, she quickly hurried off the dance floor.
He noticed she didn't head for the buffet table, but instead left the building. Gohan ran a frustrated hand through his hair before he looked toward the door with a new determination. Nothing mattered at that moment but getting outside.
~
It's been too long and I'm lost without you
What am I gonna do
Said I been needin' you, wantin' you
Wonderin' if you're the same and who's been with you
Is your heart still mine
I wanna cry sometimes
~
Once outside Videl tried to gather her thoughts, as well as her breath. He had been so close to kissing her, and she'd wanted it so badly. But she couldn't- she couldn't let them get close, and then have her heart ripped out again when he left her. Burying her fingers in her hair, she wanted to do nothing more than scream at the heavens for making her fall for the one man she'd never have.
The urge to scream intensified when she heard her name called from the door. Turning, she found him standing on the front steps, looking almost as tired as she felt.
"Don't go. Please," he said breathlessly as he moved toward her. "Look, I-" he took a deep breath before starting again. "I just miss you, okay. All I ever do is think about you and I-" he paused as if trying to control himself. "I need you, Videl. That's the simple fact. Please don't go. I couldn't take it if you left me again."
She blinked as her eyes began to water. This was the last thing she had been expecting. "Gohan, I-"
Stepping closer, he took her hands in his. "Look Videl, I know that you may not feel the same way about me, but I think if you'd just give me a chance I could make you happy."
"Gohan-" she started again.
"Okay, you may not feel anything for me now, but Videl I just know we'd be happy together if you'd only give us a chance," he said growing desperate now.
"But Gohan-"
"Okay, how about this," he said trying to talk her out of the rejection he felt coming. "Give me one month. One month is all I ask and I promise you'll see that we belong together-"
Pulling one of her hands from his, she placed it on his lips. "Gohan be quiet! I don't want a month."
The expression on his face could only be described as crestfallen. Seeing his heart breaking in his facial features she quickly amended her comment. "I want so much more than a month with you, Gohan. I've always hoped for a lifetime," she said blushing softly as she looked up at him.
Confusion, followed by relief, clearly registered on his face before disbelief took over. "Really?"
She nodded before resting a hand on his cheek. "Yes. I've missed you, too."
His first real smile in months took over his features as he pulled her into his arms. As he lips gently claimed hers, he felt secure that everything would be all right now that she was in his arms again. This time to stay.
~ I miss you...
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I hope you all enjoyed my little ficcy. Merry Christmas!!! Thanks for reading.
AN: Merry Christmas all!!!! Much love to hippiechick who beta-ed this for me even though she was sick in bed. I know, I'm a slave driver ^_~. I hope you all enjoy this and have a safe and happy holiday.
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~ It's been too long and I'm lost without you
What am I gonna do
Said I been needin' you, wantin' you
Wonderin' if you're the same and who's been with you
Is your heart still mine
I wanna cry sometimes
I miss you ~
"I really don't know about this, Videl," Hercule frowned at his only child. What made her think she was ready to make such a move? No, it was best she listen to him and stay. The world champ is always right.
Videl sighed, stood on her tiptoes, and kissed his cheek. She was not even going to get into this with him again. This was exactly why she didn't want him coming to the airport with her in the first place. He had been trying to talk her out of going away to school since she made her decision after graduation. She was going and that was the simple fact. He had to deal with it. "I love you, Dad. I'll call you when I reach school. Okay?"
Hercule frowned again then nodded. "All right but if you get scared or lonely or just want to come home call me and I'll come get you."
Videl rolled her eyes. "Whatever, Dad." Giving him one last hug, she pulled back and turned to the other member of her ship off party. Hands in pockets, finding great interest in his shoes, he looked almost as bashful as he had the first time she'd seen him. Taking a deep breath, she approached the real reason behind her leaving.
When she stopped in front of him he looked up and smiled softly at her. "He still doesn't want you to go, huh?"
She shrugged and readjusted the strap of her carry-on bag. "He'll get over it."
He nodded at the comment. For a brief moment it seemed he was going to add something, but then he smiled again. "Well, have a safe trip. Okay?"
She nodded. "Yeah, sure. You too. What time is your flight?" she asked, fumbling with the strap again.
"Oh, I'm not taking a plane. I'm just gonna, well, you know," he said making a little flying motion with his hand. At her nod of understanding, he slipped the hand back in his pocket.
"Well," she said after a brief silence.
"Well," he answered.
Glancing at her watch, she sighed. "I should go. My flight, well, you know."
"Yeah," he said, lowering his eyes again.
"Call me when you get there. Okay?" she said with forced flippancy.
He looked up. "Maybe but, well, I'll have a lot of unpacking to do, and I'm sure you will too," he trailed off.
Biting her lip, she nodded. "Yeah, I know." Nothing left to say, she held her hand out to him. "Good-bye, Gohan."
He looked at the hand a moment before taking it. "Good-bye, Videl," he said softly, looking into her eyes.
Wearying her bottom lip, she pulled her hand from his. She waved at her father, who'd been trying to look discreet as the two said their good-byes then turned toward the terminal. She handed her ticket to the young brunette at the counter. As the smiling attendant looked over her papers, Videl couldn't help glancing back and was met immediately with his watchful gaze. His cheeks reddened when he realized he was caught, and he raised his hand to wave.
She didn't return the gesture as she turned back to the counter and took her boarding pass from the woman. She didn't look back as she headed to her plane.
~
Off to college
Yes you went away
Straight from high school
You up and left me
We were close friends
Also lovers
Did everything
For one another
~
Videl held her psychology book a little tighter to her breast as she sloshed through the snow on her way across campus. This cold weather was driving her nuts. She was accustomed to the warm sunshine back home.
Home.
Sighing, she wiped the thoughts, which always seemed to follow that single word away from her mind. She had a final she needed to focus on.
"Videl? Videl are you listening to me?!"
No, she hadn't been. Turning her head, she frowned at the pretty, brown- skinned woman next to her. "I'm sorry, Lisa. What?"
Lisa sighed. "I said he's really, really nice. I think you'd like him. Plus he's super cute," she finished, giving Videl a little nudge with her elbow.
Videl frowned. In the semester she'd been here, she'd met a lot of people but hadn't grown so close, so fast to any like she had with Lisa. She figured part of it was the fact that they were roomies and after living with a person for four months you had to either be close or hate each other's guts. Hating each other was definitely not the case with them. Lisa was like a sister to her. That's why she didn't get as angry as she would have gotten with anyone else constantly trying to fix her up. She knew Lisa did, only because she cared.
As their friendship had grown, each girl had confided much of their past in the other. Videl had really surprised herself when she discussed a certain love of her life with her new friend. She had been trying her hardest to forget the day Gohan told her he was leaving. She hadn't even seen it coming, though she guessed she should have. ChiChi was determined that her baby would be a scholar and so it was only natural she would expect him to continue his education after high school. It's just...well, she had kind of hoped he would want to stay closer to home, want to stay with her. He was much more than just her best friend and, as things had happened shortly after the mess with Majin Buu, her first lover. She'd thought they'd meant so much to one another. She guessed she had been wrong.
All of this, she shared with Lisa; effectively convincing the other girl Gohan was a jerk. Videl tried to tell her friend Gohan Son and the word jerk, would never fit together, but the girl wasn't hearing it. Lisa had decided it was now her job to find her new best buddy another guy to get her mind off the one who had abandoned her.
Trying to keep her aggravation at bay, Videl shook her head at the other girl. "I'm sure he's wonderful, Lisa, but I think I'll pass."
Lisa sighed as they reached their building, and Videl opened the door for them to enter. "But why, Videl? You haven't been on a date since school started. What could it hurt to just meet him?"
"I'm here to learn, not meet guys," Videl told her as she started up the stairs, tugging her hood off her head as she went.
"College isn't just about going to class everyday. You have to get out and meet people. I bet my last dollar Gohan is," she added, following her friend up the steps.
"Lisa," Videl said in warning.
Choosing to ignore the girl's tone, Lisa pressed the issue as she quickened her pace to be in step with her companion. "Come on, girl. You can't sit around swooning over this guy forever. Okay, so maybe he was perfect when you were together, but obviously he's moved on. It's time you did too."
Lisa silently questioned if she'd pushed too far when Videl paused in her step, and a hurt look crossed her eyes. After nipping at her lip a minute, Videl took a deep breath. "Maybe I don't want to move on," she said softly before starting to walk again.
Lisa frowned at her friend's back until the girl disappeared in one of the classrooms. Sighing, she followed her into the room.
~ Now you're gone and I'm lost without you here now
But I know I gotta live and make it somehow
Come back......to me
Can you......hear me (Callin')
Hear me......callin' (For you)
For you......'Cuz it's
~
Gohan frowned down at the Calculus book. "How can it be two?" he muttered in frustration. Never, in all the years he'd been in school had he had problems with math, and yet, this class was killing him. Sighing, he tossed the pencil down and pinched the bridge of his nose. He needed to focus. The final in this class was tomorrow, and for the life of him, he couldn't focus on the work in front of him.
Focusing became even harder when a muddy football landed on his math book. Frowning, he looked up at the tall green-eyed, dark-haired boy covered from head to toe in the very same mud covering his pigskin.
The man's face scrunched up in disgust as his eyes rolled skyward dramatically. "G-man, please tell me you're not studying again."
Gohan frowned at the nickname but decided he was much too tired to argue with his roommate tonight. "Yes, Cash, I'm studying. That's what most college students do during finals week," he said as he pushed the football away and tried to wipe some of the mess off his book.
"But dude, you just missed the most awesome midnight pick up game!" Cash cried as he dropped down on the bed that definitely was not his. Gohan frowned deeper. Great, now he'd have to sleep under a muddy blanket, if he ever actually got to bed.
"I'm sure it was great, Cash, but I'm really not in the mood for football anyway," Gohan said, giving up on cleaning the mess on his book and started working again in spite of the splotches.
"Not in the mood for football? What are you? Some kind of loser? Dude!" Cash said, standing again and moving around to the front of Gohan's desk.
Gohan was not even going to dignify that with an answer. "Look, Cash, I'm kinda busy so can you keep it down?"
Cash frowned down on him then reached for the book. He looked at it in confusion and then turned it upside down to get a better look at it, all while Gohan gritted his teeth trying to keep his temper in check. "Give that back," he told the other boy.
Cash scratched his head still frowning. "What is it?"
"Calculus," Gohan answered as he stood and snatched the book.
"Dude, you do know that you only need College Algebra, right? Why are you taking that crap?"
"Because I want to."
Cash's mouth literally hung open. "G-man, that's something a dork would say. You're not a dork are you?"
Gohan growled and looked up at him. "Cash, will you just leave me the he-"
"Hey Cash!" cried the blonde boy, who stuck his head in the room.
"Yeah?" Cash asked turning his attention to the door.
"There's a total babe-a-thon over at the sorority house. Sleep over, man! Come on!" the boy said.
Cash turned back to the tortured man at the desk. "G-man, come on. You can't turn down a sorority house full of drunk, half-naked babes!"
"I'm busy, Cash, but you go have fun." 'And stay gone all night,' he added silently.
"You're not serious are you?! What are you? Gay?" Cash exclaimed.
"No," Gohan answered trying to block the other boy out.
"I dunno man. You may be, because I haven't seen you with a chick since you got here. You should check into that to be sure you aren't," Cash informed him.
"Cash, man, forget about him. The babes, dude! We're going to miss all the babes!" the boy at the door said.
Cash frowned at Gohan one last time then shrugged. "Well, whoever she is she must have been a nice piece." With those parting words, Cash headed out the door.
Gohan glared daggers at the boy's back. Cash may not know it, but he hit a nerve with his last comment. Knowing he definitely wasn't going to get any work done now, Gohan closed the book and rubbed his eyes. After stretching a bit, he reached for his desk drawer and pulled it open. Moving aside a few pieces of paper, he pulled out a small, wallet size senior picture. She'd sworn she hated the pictures. He thought she looked gorgeous in them. Then, again, he always thought she looked gorgeous.
Standing, picture in hand, he made his way over to his bed. After tossing the mud-soiled blanket on the floor, he laid down on his stomach at the head of his bed. He gazed over the picture for a brief moment before sighing and crossing his arms so he could rest his chin on them. He gazed out the only window in the room, his eyes being drawn to one softly twinkling star in the sky.
The star continued to flash, and he couldn't help wondering what she was doing at that moment. He did that a lot over the past four months. Several times he thought about calling her up and seeing what she was doing, but he always talked himself out of it.
"She doesn't want you. Get over it," he murmured. He'd been telling himself that for four months now, yet his heart still refused to believe it. Deep down, he'd always known Videl was the only one for him. No girl he'd ever met before or since meeting her even compared.
Even to this day, he could picture them married with a kid or two. Maybe they could even have a little house near his parents. Sighing, he placed the picture on the pillow in front of him and folded his arms under his chin again. His eyes roamed over her smiling face, the joy in her soft blue eyes. He hadn't seen that joy the day he told her of his plans to leave.
It was silly but he had hoped she'd ask him to stay, or maybe want to come with him. Any such hopes were dashed by the nonchalant way she had taken the news. It was like she didn't even care he was leaving. If she had given one little sign she wanted him to stay, he would have. There wasn't a doubt in his mind about it. She hadn't though, and on that day he realized his feelings for her were simply much deeper than any she felt. The revelation had broken his heart.
As his eyes moved from the picture, back to the star, he groaned at how sappy he sounded even to himself. He'd never hear the end of it if someone like Cash ever heard him.
A knock and the opening of his door made Gohan turn his head.
"Hey Gohan, phone for you down in the rec hall," the green eyed boy said as he poked his head in the door.
"Who is it?" Gohan asked as he sat up and pushed the picture under his pillow.
"It's some kid. Your baby brother, I guess," the other student shrugged before he left.
"Goten?" Gohan frowned, wondering what his brother could possibly be calling for as he got up and pulled on a T- shirt. With one last forlorn look out the window he headed for the recreation hall.
~ It's been too long and I'm lost without you
What am I gonna do
Said I been needin' you, wantin' you
Wonderin' if you're the same and who's been with you
Is your heart still mine
I wanna cry sometimes
I miss you
~
Videl frowned out her window. She wished that stupid star would stop twinkling. For some reason it kept drawing her attention from the College Algebra book in front of her. As she stared at the blinking star, her mind began to wonder to the memories of a person she was trying her hardest to forget. Maybe Lisa was right. Maybe it really was time for her to move on. Not once had he called her in all the time of their separation. Maybe it really was time she let him go.
"But what if I don't want to?" she whispered softly. The thought of losing him forever...the possibility that this constant ache in her chest might be permanent...it was just something she wasn't ready to deal with yet. She sighed heavily around the lump in her throat. She really wished she could get herself under control. This whole mess was turning her into such a girl.
She thought she might be gaining some semblance of control, when her bed moved slightly and a pair of arms encircled her from behind. It took all her might to hold her tears at bay as Lisa rested her chin on her shoulder.
"I hate seeing you this unhappy, kid," Lisa said softly. "You know with finals ending tomorrow and all, everyone's heading home for the holidays. Why don't you go too? It'll make you fell better to be with family. Huh? What do you say?"
Videl shook her head as she watched the star. "No, I think I'll stay here."
Lisa bit her lip as she looked at her friend's profile from the corner of her eye. "Is it Gohan?" she ventured. When the girl's blue eyes closed and she swallowed as if collecting herself, Lisa knew she'd hit a nerve. "Maybe he'll be there too, and you can see him," she offered.
Videl opened her eyes then. "And say what? I'm no fool, Lisa. I see the writing on the wall as well as you do. It's time I moved on but I - I just," she sighed there, refusing to end the sentence that would end in her own tears.
"Well," Lisa started thoughtfully. "Why not go home to see your Dad? I know as much as he calls he'd be happy to see that you're safe and sound with his own eyes."
Videl frowned. It was true her dad was driving her nuts with his phone calls. Maybe if she went home he'd see she was fine and he had no need to worry. True, there was the chance she could run into Gohan, but for all she knew he might not even come home for the holidays. He was most likely having the time of his life being out from under his mother's wing for the first time. The risk of running into him might not even exist.
Nodding, she turned and looked into the other girl's soft hazel eyes. "I'll think about it. Really, I will."
Lisa smiled, taking the girl's maybe as a yes. "Great! You'll feel worlds better afterward," she chirped then released her friend and reached behind her. Smiling, she handed the four envelopes to Videl. "I got your mail for ya."
"Thanks," Videl said, turning her body to face her friend as she took the letters. She passed the first two without much thought but stopped on the third as the gold Capsule Corp. logo caught her eye. She sat the other three down and began working the letter open.
"What's that?" Lisa wanted to know.
"Something from Bulma," Videl answered as she broke the seal.
Lisa raised a brow. "Bulma who?"
"Bulma Briefs. A friend," Videl said as she pulled out what appeared to be an invitation.
Both Lisa's brows shot up at that. "As in Bulma Briefs of the Capsule Corporation?!"
"Yeah," Videl murmured as she read.
Lisa shook her head at the brunette's lack of enthusiasm. "I guess I shouldn't be surprised. After all why wouldn't the daughter of the world champ be friends with the richest woman in the world? No big deal," she finished sarcastically.
Videl glanced at the girl in amusement over her invite then went back to reading. "Looks like Bulma's throwing a party Christmas Eve and she wants me to come."
Lisa smiled. "See?! You have to go home now. I mean what are the chances you'd get this right after the conversation we just had? I think you have your sign, girl. Time to go home."
Videl nodded as she slipped the card back into its envelope. Lisa was right. It was time she went home.
~ Now I'm sittin' here
Thinkin' 'bout you
And the days we used to share
It's drivin' me crazy
I don't know what to do
I'm just wonderin' if you still care
I don't wanna let you know
That it's killin' me
I know you got another life you gotta concentrate baby
Come back......to me
Can you......hear me (Callin')
Hear me......callin' (For you)
For you......'Cuz it's
~
He was so close he could almost see the smoke coming from the little house he'd grown up in. He hadn't planned to come home for the holidays, but the call from his baby brother last week had changed everything.
When he'd reached the phone that night, he'd been greeted with a cheerful little voice he hadn't realized how much he'd missed until that moment.
"Hiya, Gohan!" Goten practically chirped.
"Hey, Goten," Gohan smiled as he leaned against the wall next to the phone booth. "How's it going, kiddio?"
"It's great!" Goten exclaimed then proceeded to tell Gohan about the "really great" lizard he and their father found behind the house the day before. Gohan chuckled through he story, just enjoying the sound of his kid brother's voice. Man, how he missed that kid.
"Well that's great, Goten," Gohan said at the end of the tale. "Now, I'm sure Mom didn't let you call long distance just to tell me about the a lizard, so what's up?"
"Oh well, Mom wanted to talk to you, but she didn't want to wait until you got to the phone, so she told me to wait for ya," Goten explained.
"Oh," Gohan said. When silence fell at the other end of the line, he frowned. "Goten?"
"Yeah, Gohan?"
"I'm on the line now," Gohan said as a prompt for him to go get their mother.
"I know that, Gohan. How else would I be talkin' to ya?" Goten said before falling silent again.
Gohan briefly wondered what shiny object had caught his brother's attention. "Goten, what are you playing with?"
"A dime," came the distracted answer.
"Figures," Gohan murmured as he rolled his eyes. "Goten, why don't you go get Mom for me?"
Goten smiled. "'Kay! MOM!!" he cried, causing his brother to move the phone from his ear briefly.
When he brought the phone to his ear again, he was met with the sound of shuffling and his mother's voice reprimanding his brother for yelling in the house. After instructing the little tike to go play with his father, ChiChi placed the phone to her ear. "Hello, sweetheart," she spoke into the phone.
"Hi, Mom. How's it going?"
"Everything's fine. How are classes?"
"Good. Last final is tomorrow," he said on a shrug.
"Perfect!" ChiChi said happily. "Because Bulma's throwing a Christmas Eve party and she wants you there."
"I think I'll pass," Gohan told her. "I need to stay and get ready for next semester. I told you that."
"But I all ready told her you were coming," ChiChi said. "I'm sorry, Gohan, You'll just have to take a break and come home."
"But Mom-"
"No buts, young man. I'll see you next week. Love you and talk to you then." With that final word, she hung up the phone.
Gohan shook his head at the memory. Here he was nineteen, living away from home, and his mom still dictated every move he made. "You're so pathetic," he murmured as he landed on the front porch.
Before he even reached for the knob, the door flew open and something pint- size attached itself to his waist.
"Gohan! I've been waiting for you all day!" Goten cried excitedly.
Gohan mussed the boy's hair. "How's it going, kiddio?"
Before Goten could answer, Gohan was rushed by their mother, who threw her arms around his neck. "Gohan, you're home!"
Gohan chuckled as he hugged her. "Well, I would be, if you two would let me in the house."
ChiChi pulled back and smiled at her eldest child. "We're just happy to see you is all."
"I know, Mom. I've missed you guys too."
ChiChi smiled at him then pried her youngest child from around his waist. Taking his hand, she tugged him into the house. Gohan didn't even have time to look around the homey, Christmas influenced surroundings, before he was greeted again.
"Gohan!" Goku smiled, stepping up to wrap his son in a hug.
"Hey, Dad," Gohan said, hugging him back.
"Good to have you home, son," Goku said sincerely.
"Good to be home, Dad," Gohan answered his father. As the two men smiled at one another, ChiChi stepped forward.
"You must be hungry. Come in the kitchen and I'll fix you something," she said.
"Actually Mom, I'm more tired than anything. I think I'll go lay down for a while before the party."
"What was I thinking? Of course you must be tired. Go on and lay down," she said to his all ready retreating back.
"But Mom," Goten whined, "I want Gohan to see our Christmas tree."
"He can see it later, 'Ten," ChiChi informed him. "Besides, he'll want to be at his best when he sees Videl again tonight." Gohan paused just inside the door of his old bedroom. "Come on, you two," ChiChi continued. "I'll fix you lunch."
"All right!" Goku and Goten chimed in.
As the three headed to the kitchen, Gohan released a silent curse. If Videl really was home for the holidays, this would definitely be a night to remember.
~ It's been too long and I'm lost without you
What am I gonna do
Said I been needin' you, wantin' you
Wonderin' if you're the same and who's been with you
Is your heart still mine
I wanna cry sometimes
I miss you
~
"Well, that's good, Videl. That's really good," Hercule said.
"Yeah, I suppose," Videl said, running nervous fingers through her hair. Their limousine was quickly approaching CC headquarters, and for the life of her, she couldn't focus on a word her father was saying.
"Uh," Hercule said at a loss for what to say next. He'd asked all the questions a parent should ask their college student home on break. When she didn't attempt to aid in the conversation, he closed his mouth.
The rest of their ride was in silence. When the car came to a stop, he climbed out, and walked around to her side to wait for her. When she didn't open her door after a few minutes, Hercule pulled it open for her.
"Uh, Videl?" he questioned, poking his head in the door.
"Yes?" she said, looking straight ahead.
"You coming?" he said, extremely confused by her behavior.
"Yes," she said. She didn't move.
Hercule frowned. Maybe she was sick or something. "Are you okay?"
She closed her eyes then turned to him. "Yes, I'm fine," she said as a frown settled on her face. "I can't exactly get out with you blocking my way."
"Oh, sorry," he muttered as he moved back to let her step out.
Once outside the car, Videl adjusted her skirt, took a deep breath, then started for the door, ready to face her past. Hercule scratched his head at her odd behavior then shrugged and followed her.
As always, Capsule Corp. was decked out for the holidays. The first thing that captured Videl's eye was the enormous tree settled in a well-lit corner of the beautiful living room. Unlike the professionally decorated feel given by the other adornments in the room, the tree had a homey feel to it. It was obvious the very family who enjoyed its light and warmth had tended to this particular holiday fixture.
Smiling at the brightly shining tree, she turned her eyes to the party- goers. Everyone seemed to be enjoying themselves at the festive event. She didn't recognize everyone there but several faces did pull at her memory. She walked further into the room and crowd, feeling her father close on her heel. She stopped when a hand rested on her shoulder. Turning, she smiled into a pair of blue eyes she definitely remembered.
"Videl, you came," Bulma smiled.
"Yes, I did. Couldn't miss one of your parties, after all," Videl answered.
Bulma chuckled. "Who could?" She glanced over Videl's shoulder. "Hello, Hercule," she said.
"Hi," Hercule said, looking around the room.
"Food's over there," Bulma said, pointing across the room with a knowing smile.
"Thanks!" Hercule said, heading for the table.
Bulma rolled her eyes. "Men. Always thinking with their stomachs," she paused and smirked. "Well, most of the time."
She chuckled when her comment brought a blush to the younger girl's cheeks. Wrapping an arm around the girl, she led her across the room.
"Well, there you are," ChiChi said as they reached a small group of familiar faces. Videl put on a smile she didn't feel. He was the first person her eyes fell on as they reached the group. She knew he'd noticed her too, for the conversation he'd been having with Piccolo, at the back of the group suddenly stopped, and he looked down at his shoes.
Turning back to ChiChi, she nodded. "Yeah, Dad had an interview so we're running a bit late."
ChiChi shrugged. "Oh, well you're looking well. I see you're letting your hair grow out."
Videl brought a hand to her hair and nodded. "Yeah, I kinda missed it, so I decided to grow it back."
"Well, it looks nice. Isn't that right Gohan?" ChiChi said over her shoulder.
Gohan looked up in surprise, though he shouldn't have been. His mother had been at this matchmaking scheme since the day she met Videl. "Yes, Mom, it does," he muttered, frowning when Videl looked away.
"You know Gohan, it's been so long since you two have seen each other. Don't you think it would be nice if you asked Videl to dance?" ChiChi said innocently.
Gohan frowned at her back. "I don't think Videl would want to, Mother, but thanks for the suggestion."
"Nonsense," Bulma said. "Right Videl?"
Videl frowned at Bulma. She expected this type of stuff from ChiChi but not Bulma. "Well, I-" she started.
"See, she wants to dance," ChiChi said, moving toward her son and giving him a little push forward.
Gohan hadn't been expecting the nudge and stumbled forward a bit. At the same moment, Bulma gave Videl a small push as well, causing the two to collide softly. Videl quickly looked away as she pushed a piece of hair behind her ear. Gohan looked over her shoulder and glared at Bulma, who only smiled sweetly.
"Go on, Gohan. You're wasting a perfectly good song," ChiChi said, pushing him again.
Gohan glared over his shoulder at her before sighing as he turned to Videl. "I don't think we have much choice."
"I suppose not," she said, still not looking at him.
Placing his hand under her elbow, he led her to the floor.
Watching the two, ChiChi and Bulma smiled. "I think we got 'em Chi."
ChiChi nodded triumphantly. "Of course we did. My plans always work. Now," she said looking around, "Where is my husband?"
Bulma chuckled and gestured toward the buffet table. "Do you even need to ask?"
ChiChi glanced at the table and sighed.
~ I...can't...breathe...no...more
Since you went away I
Don't really feel like talkin'
Don't wanna hear you don't love me
Baby do you understand me
I can't do a thing without you
~
Once Gohan led Videl to the center of the floor, he turned to face her, only to find her eyes still averted. He was almost ashamed of how much it hurt him that she didn't even want to look him in the eyes.
"If you really don't want to dance with me Videl, it's okay. I'll understand," he said softly.
"No," she said, quickly looking up at him then blushed slightly. "I mean, I don't mind dancing with you. You know, for old times sake and all that crap."
He nodded then held out his arms. She hesitated a moment before stepping into them, leaving just enough space between them. As he wrapped his arms around her, he respected that space. They swayed in each other's arms like two strangers. Not as the lovers they once were. As their silence became more and more uncomfortable, Videl decided to attempt conversation.
"So, how's school?" she asked.
"It's school," he shrugged. "How about you?"
"Same," she said. She tempted a smile as she looked up at him. "School always was the easiest thing in our lives."
He smiled too. "It was just everything else that was difficult."
She nodded. "Yeah. I suppose now that school's all I have, life's kinda dull."
"All you have?" he questioned. Surely in four months she had gotten a boyfriend or something.
She nodded again. "Yeah, I mean I have Lisa, she's my roommate, but other than that, it's just me and the books."
"Same here," Gohan said still a bit amazed. "Unfortunately though, I don't have the good roommate. Just the books."
Just the books? No girlfriend? "Oh," she said.
"Yeah," he said, subconsciously pulling her closer.
"Well, I guess we're in the same boat." She moved closer to him as the song continued.
"Yeah," he said as her scent invaded his senses.
She looked up and smiled at him. "Is that all you can say?"
As he shook his head, something in his eyes caused her smile to fall slightly. When his eyes fell to her lips briefly, she knew what that something was. The desire in his eyes when they returned to hers almost made her gasp. As her lips went dry, she flicked her tongue out to moisten them, causing his eyes to follow the motion. When he looked in her eyes again, there was no doubt in her mind; he was going to kiss her.
Videl turned her face from his then stepped out of his arms. "I should go find my dad," she murmured.
Gohan swallowed the lump in his throat and nodded. "Yeah."
Not even glancing at him, she quickly hurried off the dance floor.
He noticed she didn't head for the buffet table, but instead left the building. Gohan ran a frustrated hand through his hair before he looked toward the door with a new determination. Nothing mattered at that moment but getting outside.
~
It's been too long and I'm lost without you
What am I gonna do
Said I been needin' you, wantin' you
Wonderin' if you're the same and who's been with you
Is your heart still mine
I wanna cry sometimes
~
Once outside Videl tried to gather her thoughts, as well as her breath. He had been so close to kissing her, and she'd wanted it so badly. But she couldn't- she couldn't let them get close, and then have her heart ripped out again when he left her. Burying her fingers in her hair, she wanted to do nothing more than scream at the heavens for making her fall for the one man she'd never have.
The urge to scream intensified when she heard her name called from the door. Turning, she found him standing on the front steps, looking almost as tired as she felt.
"Don't go. Please," he said breathlessly as he moved toward her. "Look, I-" he took a deep breath before starting again. "I just miss you, okay. All I ever do is think about you and I-" he paused as if trying to control himself. "I need you, Videl. That's the simple fact. Please don't go. I couldn't take it if you left me again."
She blinked as her eyes began to water. This was the last thing she had been expecting. "Gohan, I-"
Stepping closer, he took her hands in his. "Look Videl, I know that you may not feel the same way about me, but I think if you'd just give me a chance I could make you happy."
"Gohan-" she started again.
"Okay, you may not feel anything for me now, but Videl I just know we'd be happy together if you'd only give us a chance," he said growing desperate now.
"But Gohan-"
"Okay, how about this," he said trying to talk her out of the rejection he felt coming. "Give me one month. One month is all I ask and I promise you'll see that we belong together-"
Pulling one of her hands from his, she placed it on his lips. "Gohan be quiet! I don't want a month."
The expression on his face could only be described as crestfallen. Seeing his heart breaking in his facial features she quickly amended her comment. "I want so much more than a month with you, Gohan. I've always hoped for a lifetime," she said blushing softly as she looked up at him.
Confusion, followed by relief, clearly registered on his face before disbelief took over. "Really?"
She nodded before resting a hand on his cheek. "Yes. I've missed you, too."
His first real smile in months took over his features as he pulled her into his arms. As he lips gently claimed hers, he felt secure that everything would be all right now that she was in his arms again. This time to stay.
~ I miss you...
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I hope you all enjoyed my little ficcy. Merry Christmas!!! Thanks for reading.