"Abandon hope, all ye who enter who" Dante
Disclaimer: Don't own, not mine
Notes: I am sorry for spelling and grammar, I suck at them both, I am really sorry. If anyone would be willing to proof read this first, I would be forever grateful.. Anyways, any comments, even flames, still appreciated. Here we go. Sorry this took so long, been doing stuff...
thought
_________pov change
The meeting proceeded, uninterrupted. Chic sat there, completely apathetic to what was said. He had devoted the past 4 years of his life to understanding precisely what had happened, and was sick of it. He glanced around the room. It was an auditorium, nicely made, with huge pillars and nice, red chairs. The dying orange light fell through the windows and seemed almost magical, giving an almost fiery glow to the floor, bringing out rare qualities only scene at this time of day . Chic noted the angle, not the magic. His glance continued upward, and he saw the mural on the ceiling. It was the epic scene from 'paradise lost', when satin feel from heaven, a failure. Chic thought, can I relate to that, bro. Tell me something, be friend or enemy, I care not, was thinking for yourself worth it?.
His gaze left the ceiling mural, and observed the shadows and light, the delict interplay that both were involved with. They fought each other, seemingly locked in a mortal combat, yet without the one, the other couldn't be, so there seemed an uneasy truce between the two. He noted the ornamental roses, carved on the pillars. He only saw angles and intersections. His glance feel on the audience. The majority of them students, taking notes furiously. The public listened intently. Raine and that Domon fellow, seemed more content to play footcy, then pay any attention. His glance then, feel on her.
She had left him alone, as he had wished, and yet, something bothered him. There was something, something about her, an echo from a distant time. Something far to powerful to be lost. A ghost from a time of perpetual light, and happiness. A dream of his former humanity. Something, something he needed to remember....
He shook his head, expelling these demons. She will die, she will age, she will cause pain. I have only myself to rely on. I will have no more of this waste of time and resource. Life is meaningless, but I'll make it go smoothly. he thought, trying disparity to convince himself of this. Yet there was still something about her.
She glanced his way, and his eyes shot back to the stage. Dr. Kashu was up, discussing the project, the reasons it had gone wrong. He still had that authority he used to speak with. The words he spoke, held no meaning though. None of it did, after all.
_________________________________________Allenby
She just couldn't figure that guy out. He seemed so, so hurt, like he was running away from pain, to scared to accept more. She had been quite for the past 45 minutes, possible the longest she had ever been silent, thinking. What did that mean, it ends? What kind of answer is that? Is he right? Does it just end?
The last possibility she tried to avoid. She had been paying attention, more and more, mostly to keep her mind off that. She had noticed, out of the back of her eye, that he was looking around, almost searching for something. A sign he existed, perhaps. Maybe he is simply into buildings she thought, though she knew this wasn't true. His eyes then fell on her, though she felt something different. Before it had been stone cold and analytical, like how people treat math, but when he looked at her, there seemed something... lighter, trying to come through. It was like the clouds of a storm breaking, to reveal a blazing sun. She looked and he had immediately he looked to the stage God, is he like 4, looking, and then trying to hide it... well
Then a thought struck her. It was her more mischievous side, wondering, what if. She decided to see what would happen if...
" This is so boring, can you explain some of it to me?" She knew exactly what they were saying, she had been raised by scientist. The question wasn't important, though, it was her tone. She knew exactly how it sounded, dripping with sweetness and want, practically cooing.
His eyes remained fix, though there seemed to be a slight spasm in his eye. He was obviously not accustomed to being spoken to in such a tone. After several seconds, he was about to respond when...
" Dr. Chic would know more about that then I, Dr, would you care to?"
" That is not my name." He said this, still slouched, and with a hint of defiance. He spoke stoicly, though carefully. " I have rejected that title, and all that that implies." After a second. " Call me John if what an answer."
" Well, then John," He spoke in the most professional like manor possible, " Humor us, would you."
" It is difficult to answer, when one knows not the question." Same tone, like a computer.
" Young man," An animated gesture on the Dr. Kashu's part, " Please repeat."
" Well, I am a major of philosophy," Said the pimply faced student. He was rather fat, and wore nice, new cloths. " I was just wondering, why did Dr. Chic, or the respected John, withdraw the 'Unified Energy of all physical objects and it's relation to man' Theory."
" That is hardly a question for this conference, young man. Do yourself a favor, and don't ask. Don't read it, and what you have read, forget." Something happened as he spoke. It was a subtle change, that only Allenby noticed. He Spoke with more passion and fire, then before. Also his eyes flared up slightly, and his left eye quivered again.
" I beg to differ, Dr.. I mean John, did you not use this incident to draw most of the data you used?" Dr. Kashu said this.
He was getting more angry. The stone cold and emotionless was replaced by a man, filled with hatred. Only Allenby was close enough to see it, but the once dead embers in his eyes, flamed to life. She thought, somewhere in the back of her mind If anger, maybe other things too...
He hit his armrest, hard enough to show anger, but controlled enough not to draw many people's eyes. " The theory is the ranting of a lunatic, it isn't worth repeating, here or anywhere. What I did," with pain, " What I failed to do, must be allowed to rest in peace."
" Please, for the sack of knowledge, tell us." Siad the student.
" Why, so you can desperately try to force your reason on the universe. So you can force it to conform to you standards. Do you have any idea how arrogant that is?! We think we can conquer the universe when, we can't even prove that we exists. I have lost faith in the god of religion, a metaphysical being of vast power. I have lost faith in the god of science, the ability of the human race to reason out the universe. To go any further is a waste of my life."
The room was in silence. So much so that if a pin was dropped, it would have been heard. Aleenby noticed how tightly her clenched his fist, behind his back. What is up with him???
After a moment, " John, if not for that sake then, to pay your debt. I lent you money for a coke, last time we meant, and I demand my payment now." Dr. Kashu said.
" I... I coincide to a superior intellect." He said, a bit of a smirk on his face. " Fuck this shit, I am never coming to one of these again" He said, under his breath. He got up, though, and headed for the stage. For the first time, Allenby noticed something about his physical appearance. He was not the stunning masculinity idea, that she had grown accustom to seeing, but, there was still a quality of handsomeness, and he walked in a manor that reflected true strength, even if broken. He was reminisced of a french revolutionary, being lead to his death, only to cry out ' viva la revolution.'
He arrived at the front and gave a 30 minute explanation of what he had said, in his former theory. He insisted on using the word, former, whenever he spoke of the theory. He sighted specific examples, off the sensors on Japan's colony. He used it to explain several huge discrepancies with modern science and actuality. His specking reflected his devotion to the subject. He had exact values, down to .0001 committed to memory. He knew the precise seconds of events. He wrote a huge equation, then simplified it to a very neat form. And he lost almost everyone.
" So, what your saying is... human thought and feeling directly affects reality." Dr Kashu said, carefully.
" Is it so far fetched an idea? How many sick have been cured, how many 'maricals'" He said this word with a hint of distaste, like he didn't like the flavor, " Have been worked, based off human's will? Lao- Tzu, Buddha, Emerson, basically all the exsistenchalists, have reasoned that our ideas directly affect our reality. Feather more, Newton, Ensitne, Lavarse, tells us that everything is made of given quantities that can't be created or destroyed, and that they are all basically energy. Next comes the ideas of Minoski, know better for perpultion, he thought that all things had a commonality, what Eienstein called a 'unified field.' My fomor idea said, it stands to reason that, if we're all basically the same, and all have a certain common bond, what is stopping me from changing my surroundings, with my thoughts? Nothing. Take a look.... Could I please have time index 2:22:1257, on the screen please?" A picture came up, it was of the colony, it was the epic moment when Domon confessed his love. To the right, were sensor readings, of the particular, energy, density, etc. " Play, please. Watch the quantum energy scale, and the air pressure scale."
The picture played, and they all saw it. A drop in air presser, and a rise in energy, at the moment of the confession. Aleenby looked on in awe, not so much of the idea, as the man. He seemed transformed, he was on fire. He seemed to spew energy from every pour. It was such a contrast to what he was like, a moment ago. It was like someone had turned back the clock, and she stood before him, when he was young.
" What the fuck happened there???" A few sinkers, " A change in matter, were did the activation energy come for? Where is the nuclear reaction, the only thing we know of that can convert matter to energy? The answer, I thought, was human will and another thing. Philosophers, theists, Scientists, and even Mathmatitions, have hinted at a force. A universal constant. This was my attempt to prove this force, the Tao, as Lao Tzu called it, was best brought out by...love." A murmur of voices Proving love, through math, can he do that???
Then, as quickly as his new energy had arrived, it left. " Of corse, these are flights of fancy, notions of fool hearted poetry. That's the flaw, our fate, dear people, lies not in our stars, but in ourselves, that we are but humans. It doesn't work."
" How so?" Dr. Kashu asked, and a murmur of agreement rose from the audience.
" It is a long story. Basically, it violates one crucial law of math, or more accurately, chaos." At that, he jumped down, and walked coldly away. Everyone was silent for a moment after he left, and everyone was wondering, what he meant. Allenby had something else on her mind, what had happened to the man, not the idea.
Disclaimer: Don't own, not mine
Notes: I am sorry for spelling and grammar, I suck at them both, I am really sorry. If anyone would be willing to proof read this first, I would be forever grateful.. Anyways, any comments, even flames, still appreciated. Here we go. Sorry this took so long, been doing stuff...
thought
_________pov change
The meeting proceeded, uninterrupted. Chic sat there, completely apathetic to what was said. He had devoted the past 4 years of his life to understanding precisely what had happened, and was sick of it. He glanced around the room. It was an auditorium, nicely made, with huge pillars and nice, red chairs. The dying orange light fell through the windows and seemed almost magical, giving an almost fiery glow to the floor, bringing out rare qualities only scene at this time of day . Chic noted the angle, not the magic. His glance continued upward, and he saw the mural on the ceiling. It was the epic scene from 'paradise lost', when satin feel from heaven, a failure. Chic thought, can I relate to that, bro. Tell me something, be friend or enemy, I care not, was thinking for yourself worth it?.
His gaze left the ceiling mural, and observed the shadows and light, the delict interplay that both were involved with. They fought each other, seemingly locked in a mortal combat, yet without the one, the other couldn't be, so there seemed an uneasy truce between the two. He noted the ornamental roses, carved on the pillars. He only saw angles and intersections. His glance feel on the audience. The majority of them students, taking notes furiously. The public listened intently. Raine and that Domon fellow, seemed more content to play footcy, then pay any attention. His glance then, feel on her.
She had left him alone, as he had wished, and yet, something bothered him. There was something, something about her, an echo from a distant time. Something far to powerful to be lost. A ghost from a time of perpetual light, and happiness. A dream of his former humanity. Something, something he needed to remember....
He shook his head, expelling these demons. She will die, she will age, she will cause pain. I have only myself to rely on. I will have no more of this waste of time and resource. Life is meaningless, but I'll make it go smoothly. he thought, trying disparity to convince himself of this. Yet there was still something about her.
She glanced his way, and his eyes shot back to the stage. Dr. Kashu was up, discussing the project, the reasons it had gone wrong. He still had that authority he used to speak with. The words he spoke, held no meaning though. None of it did, after all.
_________________________________________Allenby
She just couldn't figure that guy out. He seemed so, so hurt, like he was running away from pain, to scared to accept more. She had been quite for the past 45 minutes, possible the longest she had ever been silent, thinking. What did that mean, it ends? What kind of answer is that? Is he right? Does it just end?
The last possibility she tried to avoid. She had been paying attention, more and more, mostly to keep her mind off that. She had noticed, out of the back of her eye, that he was looking around, almost searching for something. A sign he existed, perhaps. Maybe he is simply into buildings she thought, though she knew this wasn't true. His eyes then fell on her, though she felt something different. Before it had been stone cold and analytical, like how people treat math, but when he looked at her, there seemed something... lighter, trying to come through. It was like the clouds of a storm breaking, to reveal a blazing sun. She looked and he had immediately he looked to the stage God, is he like 4, looking, and then trying to hide it... well
Then a thought struck her. It was her more mischievous side, wondering, what if. She decided to see what would happen if...
" This is so boring, can you explain some of it to me?" She knew exactly what they were saying, she had been raised by scientist. The question wasn't important, though, it was her tone. She knew exactly how it sounded, dripping with sweetness and want, practically cooing.
His eyes remained fix, though there seemed to be a slight spasm in his eye. He was obviously not accustomed to being spoken to in such a tone. After several seconds, he was about to respond when...
" Dr. Chic would know more about that then I, Dr, would you care to?"
" That is not my name." He said this, still slouched, and with a hint of defiance. He spoke stoicly, though carefully. " I have rejected that title, and all that that implies." After a second. " Call me John if what an answer."
" Well, then John," He spoke in the most professional like manor possible, " Humor us, would you."
" It is difficult to answer, when one knows not the question." Same tone, like a computer.
" Young man," An animated gesture on the Dr. Kashu's part, " Please repeat."
" Well, I am a major of philosophy," Said the pimply faced student. He was rather fat, and wore nice, new cloths. " I was just wondering, why did Dr. Chic, or the respected John, withdraw the 'Unified Energy of all physical objects and it's relation to man' Theory."
" That is hardly a question for this conference, young man. Do yourself a favor, and don't ask. Don't read it, and what you have read, forget." Something happened as he spoke. It was a subtle change, that only Allenby noticed. He Spoke with more passion and fire, then before. Also his eyes flared up slightly, and his left eye quivered again.
" I beg to differ, Dr.. I mean John, did you not use this incident to draw most of the data you used?" Dr. Kashu said this.
He was getting more angry. The stone cold and emotionless was replaced by a man, filled with hatred. Only Allenby was close enough to see it, but the once dead embers in his eyes, flamed to life. She thought, somewhere in the back of her mind If anger, maybe other things too...
He hit his armrest, hard enough to show anger, but controlled enough not to draw many people's eyes. " The theory is the ranting of a lunatic, it isn't worth repeating, here or anywhere. What I did," with pain, " What I failed to do, must be allowed to rest in peace."
" Please, for the sack of knowledge, tell us." Siad the student.
" Why, so you can desperately try to force your reason on the universe. So you can force it to conform to you standards. Do you have any idea how arrogant that is?! We think we can conquer the universe when, we can't even prove that we exists. I have lost faith in the god of religion, a metaphysical being of vast power. I have lost faith in the god of science, the ability of the human race to reason out the universe. To go any further is a waste of my life."
The room was in silence. So much so that if a pin was dropped, it would have been heard. Aleenby noticed how tightly her clenched his fist, behind his back. What is up with him???
After a moment, " John, if not for that sake then, to pay your debt. I lent you money for a coke, last time we meant, and I demand my payment now." Dr. Kashu said.
" I... I coincide to a superior intellect." He said, a bit of a smirk on his face. " Fuck this shit, I am never coming to one of these again" He said, under his breath. He got up, though, and headed for the stage. For the first time, Allenby noticed something about his physical appearance. He was not the stunning masculinity idea, that she had grown accustom to seeing, but, there was still a quality of handsomeness, and he walked in a manor that reflected true strength, even if broken. He was reminisced of a french revolutionary, being lead to his death, only to cry out ' viva la revolution.'
He arrived at the front and gave a 30 minute explanation of what he had said, in his former theory. He insisted on using the word, former, whenever he spoke of the theory. He sighted specific examples, off the sensors on Japan's colony. He used it to explain several huge discrepancies with modern science and actuality. His specking reflected his devotion to the subject. He had exact values, down to .0001 committed to memory. He knew the precise seconds of events. He wrote a huge equation, then simplified it to a very neat form. And he lost almost everyone.
" So, what your saying is... human thought and feeling directly affects reality." Dr Kashu said, carefully.
" Is it so far fetched an idea? How many sick have been cured, how many 'maricals'" He said this word with a hint of distaste, like he didn't like the flavor, " Have been worked, based off human's will? Lao- Tzu, Buddha, Emerson, basically all the exsistenchalists, have reasoned that our ideas directly affect our reality. Feather more, Newton, Ensitne, Lavarse, tells us that everything is made of given quantities that can't be created or destroyed, and that they are all basically energy. Next comes the ideas of Minoski, know better for perpultion, he thought that all things had a commonality, what Eienstein called a 'unified field.' My fomor idea said, it stands to reason that, if we're all basically the same, and all have a certain common bond, what is stopping me from changing my surroundings, with my thoughts? Nothing. Take a look.... Could I please have time index 2:22:1257, on the screen please?" A picture came up, it was of the colony, it was the epic moment when Domon confessed his love. To the right, were sensor readings, of the particular, energy, density, etc. " Play, please. Watch the quantum energy scale, and the air pressure scale."
The picture played, and they all saw it. A drop in air presser, and a rise in energy, at the moment of the confession. Aleenby looked on in awe, not so much of the idea, as the man. He seemed transformed, he was on fire. He seemed to spew energy from every pour. It was such a contrast to what he was like, a moment ago. It was like someone had turned back the clock, and she stood before him, when he was young.
" What the fuck happened there???" A few sinkers, " A change in matter, were did the activation energy come for? Where is the nuclear reaction, the only thing we know of that can convert matter to energy? The answer, I thought, was human will and another thing. Philosophers, theists, Scientists, and even Mathmatitions, have hinted at a force. A universal constant. This was my attempt to prove this force, the Tao, as Lao Tzu called it, was best brought out by...love." A murmur of voices Proving love, through math, can he do that???
Then, as quickly as his new energy had arrived, it left. " Of corse, these are flights of fancy, notions of fool hearted poetry. That's the flaw, our fate, dear people, lies not in our stars, but in ourselves, that we are but humans. It doesn't work."
" How so?" Dr. Kashu asked, and a murmur of agreement rose from the audience.
" It is a long story. Basically, it violates one crucial law of math, or more accurately, chaos." At that, he jumped down, and walked coldly away. Everyone was silent for a moment after he left, and everyone was wondering, what he meant. Allenby had something else on her mind, what had happened to the man, not the idea.