Disclaimer: Gravitation is by Murakami-sensei.
Aching Desire.
(Nagareboshi 3)
by Miyamoto Yui
Chapter 1 - I'll throw you away.
That was the last blow. I wish someone had just killed me then for me to live to ever see this day.
I fell to the ground, but I caught my desk as I did so. And so, I got up unsteadily and walked out of my door quietly.
I had to stand firm.
Step, step.
I held my hands in fists as I walked down the staircase.
Doki, doki.
My heart was pounding along with the creaking of the stairs. And each step just got louder and harder and harder.
As I made my way to the front gate, my face became hard and grave.
You must forget everything, Tatsuha.
If you don't do this now, you'll disappoint him later.
"Sir..." the maid said with wide eyes. "I tried. Sakuma-san would not leave-"
I rose up my hand and I nodded with assurance. "Don't worry. You're not getting in trouble."
She bowed as she excused herself with much thanks to me.
How can you make me choose between you and my father?
But...how could I make my god go down on his knees for me. He begged for me...
His desparate voice repeated in my head, "Boku ni Tatsuha o kudasai."
I then turned my head away from Ryuichi and closed my eyes for a split second.
I...
Can't...
Can someone be kind and kill me now???
"Kaero." I commanded in a cold, monotonous voice. "Go home, Ryuichi."
Ryuichi got up with determined eyes. These ferocious eyes that only knew one thing: he wanted me.
He loved me.
He honestly loves me back...
What the hell are you doing Tatsuha?!
Your dream is crumbling in your own hands.
"If you don't leave, I'll throw you out myself." I took a hold of his arm. With a harsh, firm grip, I threw him into the street.
I can't believe I'm doing this...
Pointing my head downward, I gravely said, "I'm not going with you, Ryuichi."
"Tatsuha, you choose your own life."
I turned around with my back to him. "From this day on, do not associate with me, _Sakuma_-san."
That was the kill.
Ryuichi walked up to me. Then, he took my collar and pulled it as he pressed his lips passionately on mine. Then, he let go of me.
"Two years ago, you said you would jump off the ledge for me. And now, you're throwing me away." He looked then turned away and went to his car. "Don't lie to yourself, Tatsuha. That's why I love you."
As he got into his car, he stuck one of his legs in and looked at me sorrowfully. "Did you lie to me, Tatsuha-kun? I...didn't think I'd ever see the day."
Then, he laughed to himself and laughed. "I'm sorry to have bothered you, Uesugi-san."
Painfully, I took a deep breath while I felt myself quivering from weakness.
I watched his car drive away as I felt the stares of my neighbors burning into me partly in disgust, anger, and pity.
But none of them bothered me in the least.
I looked at them and shouted, "What are you staring at?! There's nothing to look at!"
I turned around and went into my house quietly, but unashamed.
I couldn't think straight as I walked over to the koi pond in my perfect daze. My heavy mask fell off and I was my distorted self.
It had taken so much effort and I felt like I had cut off my heart.
I threw him away...
I threw my Ryuichi away...
"There's nothing to look at..." I mumbled as I stared at my reflection.
Nothing but a broken man...
Thump.
To be continued...
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Author's note: Thank you Kuma kuma and Chibiukyou! * smiles widely * I'm so sorry for the delay of a month but I hope you liked the chapter!
And yup! This is the sequel of a sequel! I really really liked Fallen Angel and now have continued it here. This is two years later if I wasn't clear in the prologue.
Aching Desire.
(Nagareboshi 3)
by Miyamoto Yui
Chapter 1 - I'll throw you away.
That was the last blow. I wish someone had just killed me then for me to live to ever see this day.
I fell to the ground, but I caught my desk as I did so. And so, I got up unsteadily and walked out of my door quietly.
I had to stand firm.
Step, step.
I held my hands in fists as I walked down the staircase.
Doki, doki.
My heart was pounding along with the creaking of the stairs. And each step just got louder and harder and harder.
As I made my way to the front gate, my face became hard and grave.
You must forget everything, Tatsuha.
If you don't do this now, you'll disappoint him later.
"Sir..." the maid said with wide eyes. "I tried. Sakuma-san would not leave-"
I rose up my hand and I nodded with assurance. "Don't worry. You're not getting in trouble."
She bowed as she excused herself with much thanks to me.
How can you make me choose between you and my father?
But...how could I make my god go down on his knees for me. He begged for me...
His desparate voice repeated in my head, "Boku ni Tatsuha o kudasai."
I then turned my head away from Ryuichi and closed my eyes for a split second.
I...
Can't...
Can someone be kind and kill me now???
"Kaero." I commanded in a cold, monotonous voice. "Go home, Ryuichi."
Ryuichi got up with determined eyes. These ferocious eyes that only knew one thing: he wanted me.
He loved me.
He honestly loves me back...
What the hell are you doing Tatsuha?!
Your dream is crumbling in your own hands.
"If you don't leave, I'll throw you out myself." I took a hold of his arm. With a harsh, firm grip, I threw him into the street.
I can't believe I'm doing this...
Pointing my head downward, I gravely said, "I'm not going with you, Ryuichi."
"Tatsuha, you choose your own life."
I turned around with my back to him. "From this day on, do not associate with me, _Sakuma_-san."
That was the kill.
Ryuichi walked up to me. Then, he took my collar and pulled it as he pressed his lips passionately on mine. Then, he let go of me.
"Two years ago, you said you would jump off the ledge for me. And now, you're throwing me away." He looked then turned away and went to his car. "Don't lie to yourself, Tatsuha. That's why I love you."
As he got into his car, he stuck one of his legs in and looked at me sorrowfully. "Did you lie to me, Tatsuha-kun? I...didn't think I'd ever see the day."
Then, he laughed to himself and laughed. "I'm sorry to have bothered you, Uesugi-san."
Painfully, I took a deep breath while I felt myself quivering from weakness.
I watched his car drive away as I felt the stares of my neighbors burning into me partly in disgust, anger, and pity.
But none of them bothered me in the least.
I looked at them and shouted, "What are you staring at?! There's nothing to look at!"
I turned around and went into my house quietly, but unashamed.
I couldn't think straight as I walked over to the koi pond in my perfect daze. My heavy mask fell off and I was my distorted self.
It had taken so much effort and I felt like I had cut off my heart.
I threw him away...
I threw my Ryuichi away...
"There's nothing to look at..." I mumbled as I stared at my reflection.
Nothing but a broken man...
Thump.
To be continued...
--
Author's note: Thank you Kuma kuma and Chibiukyou! * smiles widely * I'm so sorry for the delay of a month but I hope you liked the chapter!
And yup! This is the sequel of a sequel! I really really liked Fallen Angel and now have continued it here. This is two years later if I wasn't clear in the prologue.