Disclaimer: Gravitation is by Maki Murakami. I write fanfics for my love of writing. So, you get a fanfic. ^_^v
Aching Desire.
(Nagareboshi 3)
by Miyamoto Yui
Ch. 3 – Namida ga koboreta. (Fallen tears.)
I stopped breathing as I started to cough.
Touma patted my back as he comforted, "Calm down, calm down…"
"I * cough * can't." I answered breathlessly.
It's my fault…
IT'S ALL MY FAULT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I shook my head as I grabbed onto his shirt with all my might and tried to get up with much denial surfacing upon my face.
I was expecting a car accident…
Even death…
But Touma, as well as everyone else around me, knew that this was worse than death for any singer.
Especially Ryuichi.
Any singer would rather die than lose that one thing that gives them a reason to live:
Their voice.
I don't sing at all, but ever since I met Ryuichi in real life, I understood this trance that he had. I understood the passion that he gave on the stage.
I understood his insecurities fade away and melt to the ground as he performed for everyone.
My head felt even hotter and my grip was loosening as my weakness was taking over. My fever was much as a disease as this guilt crushing my body and mind at the same time.
"How is Ryuichi?" I asked as my hands shook as I gulped.
I couldn't even say 'my Ryuichi' anymore-
It used to be such a running joke with us.
But those days have suddenly ended.
A battle cry sounded at that moment.
"TATSUHA-KUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
A pink genki ball came running into the room and halted to a loud screech at the foot of my bed.
SCREEEEECHH!
Touma nodded his head as he closed his eyes while getting up. "I guess Shindou-san will let you know. See you again and please take good care of yourself."
He winked. "I'll take care of Mika and Yuki."
I nodded my head in thanks as he patted Shuichi on the shoulder.
But as soon as Touma left, my stomach churned as I looked at the fiery eyes of Shuichi Shindou in front of me.
So, we stared at one another.
Shuichi then came next to me and took up my collar. "WHAT THE HELL HAVE YOU DONE?"
It wasn't because he was Ryuichi's fan…
It wasn't because we were all friends…
This was honestly the first time I had ever seen Shuichi so pissed off in his whole life.
I did the only thing I could do: In silence, my eyes glanced to one side.
"I don't care if you are sick. But Ryuichi is in some hotel room right now losing his mind. So you can probably guess where I was just right now. And you know what?"
Over me.
Over this unworthy person?!
He's going crazy?!
Shuichi shook me until I felt more nauseous. "While you stay here feeling sorry for yourself, the man you love is deteriorating by the minute."
You've become my conscience over him, Shuichi. I know you understand that. We've become good friends since that time.
"You should be the one there, Tatsuha! Not me or K!" Shuichi shouted. "Not Seguchi-san or anyone else! YOU!"
His words two years ago repeated inside of my heart, "I know more than ANYONE how much you love Sakuma-san!!! You've gotta at least tell him that much!!"
I blinked my eyes as I found some courage to look straight into Shuichi's face.
He didn't have to tell me to my face. That's why I avoided his eyes all this time.
His eyes told me: "I'm so disappointed in you, Tatsuha."
I sighed as I watched the hot tears falling down Shuichi's eyes.
And I felt like Ryuichi was crying in front of me…
My eyes became blurred with tears.
Shuichi he gently let me go.
Tap, tap.
And I heard him walk out of the door.
To be continued…
--
Author's note: I tried to convey my feelings if I ever lost of my voice because I love to sing. That's why I love Full Moon wo Sagashite so much and started writing fanfics for that series.
I remember my best friend Wingxduality mention I think about Quatre in Fablespinner-san's fic about a Christmas program's solo. Since I haven't finished Gwing yet, my crazed friend tells me about the fanfics and this was one that I remember her telling me
because I was very touched.
Aching Desire.
(Nagareboshi 3)
by Miyamoto Yui
Ch. 3 – Namida ga koboreta. (Fallen tears.)
I stopped breathing as I started to cough.
Touma patted my back as he comforted, "Calm down, calm down…"
"I * cough * can't." I answered breathlessly.
It's my fault…
IT'S ALL MY FAULT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I shook my head as I grabbed onto his shirt with all my might and tried to get up with much denial surfacing upon my face.
I was expecting a car accident…
Even death…
But Touma, as well as everyone else around me, knew that this was worse than death for any singer.
Especially Ryuichi.
Any singer would rather die than lose that one thing that gives them a reason to live:
Their voice.
I don't sing at all, but ever since I met Ryuichi in real life, I understood this trance that he had. I understood the passion that he gave on the stage.
I understood his insecurities fade away and melt to the ground as he performed for everyone.
My head felt even hotter and my grip was loosening as my weakness was taking over. My fever was much as a disease as this guilt crushing my body and mind at the same time.
"How is Ryuichi?" I asked as my hands shook as I gulped.
I couldn't even say 'my Ryuichi' anymore-
It used to be such a running joke with us.
But those days have suddenly ended.
A battle cry sounded at that moment.
"TATSUHA-KUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
A pink genki ball came running into the room and halted to a loud screech at the foot of my bed.
SCREEEEECHH!
Touma nodded his head as he closed his eyes while getting up. "I guess Shindou-san will let you know. See you again and please take good care of yourself."
He winked. "I'll take care of Mika and Yuki."
I nodded my head in thanks as he patted Shuichi on the shoulder.
But as soon as Touma left, my stomach churned as I looked at the fiery eyes of Shuichi Shindou in front of me.
So, we stared at one another.
Shuichi then came next to me and took up my collar. "WHAT THE HELL HAVE YOU DONE?"
It wasn't because he was Ryuichi's fan…
It wasn't because we were all friends…
This was honestly the first time I had ever seen Shuichi so pissed off in his whole life.
I did the only thing I could do: In silence, my eyes glanced to one side.
"I don't care if you are sick. But Ryuichi is in some hotel room right now losing his mind. So you can probably guess where I was just right now. And you know what?"
Over me.
Over this unworthy person?!
He's going crazy?!
Shuichi shook me until I felt more nauseous. "While you stay here feeling sorry for yourself, the man you love is deteriorating by the minute."
You've become my conscience over him, Shuichi. I know you understand that. We've become good friends since that time.
"You should be the one there, Tatsuha! Not me or K!" Shuichi shouted. "Not Seguchi-san or anyone else! YOU!"
His words two years ago repeated inside of my heart, "I know more than ANYONE how much you love Sakuma-san!!! You've gotta at least tell him that much!!"
I blinked my eyes as I found some courage to look straight into Shuichi's face.
He didn't have to tell me to my face. That's why I avoided his eyes all this time.
His eyes told me: "I'm so disappointed in you, Tatsuha."
I sighed as I watched the hot tears falling down Shuichi's eyes.
And I felt like Ryuichi was crying in front of me…
My eyes became blurred with tears.
Shuichi he gently let me go.
Tap, tap.
And I heard him walk out of the door.
To be continued…
--
Author's note: I tried to convey my feelings if I ever lost of my voice because I love to sing. That's why I love Full Moon wo Sagashite so much and started writing fanfics for that series.
I remember my best friend Wingxduality mention I think about Quatre in Fablespinner-san's fic about a Christmas program's solo. Since I haven't finished Gwing yet, my crazed friend tells me about the fanfics and this was one that I remember her telling me
because I was very touched.