Disclaimer: Gravitation is by Maki Murakami and not mine. I'm just crazy about it.
Aching Desire
(Nagareboshi 3)
by Miyamoto Yui
Chapter 9 – Convince me.
As I walked out of my house, I heard a loud shout, "Tatsuha!!!"
But no one came after me. Sad as it was, Mika oneesan and Yuki aniki agreed with me on this one, but could do nothing about it.
I couldn't even imagine how our father would react to this 'rebellion'.
I found myself running away, though. I ran as fast as I could. I ran all the way to the subway station with all that I had. The clothes on my back and the little money I had put in my pocket left from last night's departure.
I sighed as I got my ticket and sat on the train.
The scenery whirred by me, but everything was in a daze already. I still couldn't believe what I had done.
I probably damned myself to kingdom come now. And if this was supposed to be a good thing, why do I feel so bad inside?
Because I disappointed my father. That's why.
I sighed even more.
But then again, I cannot give up Ryuichi.
What's so wrong about asking for that one thing you want the most?
I…I never asked for anything else so badly.
I had thought Ryuichi was just someone whom I would never get to fall in love. No, let me rephrase that: I didn't know he would fall in love with me.
I thought I was just one of those people he passed by and would never think of again.
But then, when he kissed me, it just made me want to keep him more.
The telephone poles numerously passed by the windows and I almost counted all of them to relieve myself of thinking of anything else as I sat there quietly.
I began to cough again.
My fever was gone, but I still felt like I was sick. So, it didn't help any.
For the first time in my life…
I'm actually homeless.
I smiled to myself like the madman I had always been.
But then I thought about the first time I met Ryuichi and he threw his Kumagorou at me. I remembered how confused he looked and how conniving I thought I would be if I ever met him.
Instead, I ended up being more kawaii'ed out more than anything and acting like a fool when I thought I was acting so cool.
Then again, my brain flies away whenever I'm with Ryuichi.
Only, I know he doesn't remember the first time I went to Touma's house when I had only turned twelve.
I had gotten lost in his home and I pushed the door to find the room I had left. Accidentally, I saw Ryuichi coming out of the bathroom with only his towel wrapped around his waist.
"I'm sorry!" I shouted as he laughed at me with a smile and a wave while saying, "Daijoubu!"
I shut the door behind me not really believing what I just saw.
My nose bled and so I was lost and trying to find a bathroom at the same time…
It was then that I realized that my feelings were more than admiration…
I got depressed over that.
I knew I didn't stand a chance.
But helplessly, I found myself falling in love with him as the months went by. Even though he only knew me as the boy who accidentally opened the door at the wrong (or right, depending on your view) time.
And it became even harder when I knew I couldn't reach him at all…
So, you can't imagine how much I was in shock when he said he loved me back…
I couldn't go to sleep for days, to say the least.
When I got to Tokyo, I walked to the hotel since it was close by. As I was let out of the elevator, I walked calmly to his door and knocked again.
"Tatsuha…" Ryuichi was really shocked to find me in front of him.
"I disowned myself," I answered back as I avoided his eyes.
"Hontou ni?" I could feel him blinking his eyes incredulously as he held one of my hands between both of his.
He then pulled me into the room.
Ryuichi turned around to fix the couch, but when he looked back at me, I started to laugh. "I just disowned myself. Isn't that so funny?"
He then came to me hugged me tightly.
"But I have you…" I whispered softly as I grabbed onto his sleeves and pulled him to the bed.
"Ryuichi?" I seductively whispered to his ear, "Tell me I made the right decision."
I felt at that moment my heart stop as my mind hazed.
I know I made the right decision…
But I feel so alone…
I then sat him on the bed as I unbuttoned my shirt. I looked down at him as my shirt slipped to my elbows.
Doki doki doki…
While leaning closer to him, I commanded while desparately whispering into his ear,
"Ryuichi…make love to me…"
to be continued.
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Author's note: Whoa…* stop breathing * I don't know, but to me, this seemed to make me really stop and think. For me, this and the first chapters were the most intense chapter so far. I felt like, 'oh my…' when I wrote them.
Thanks for all the support again!!! So, I made two chapters today for you.
Aching Desire
(Nagareboshi 3)
by Miyamoto Yui
Chapter 9 – Convince me.
As I walked out of my house, I heard a loud shout, "Tatsuha!!!"
But no one came after me. Sad as it was, Mika oneesan and Yuki aniki agreed with me on this one, but could do nothing about it.
I couldn't even imagine how our father would react to this 'rebellion'.
I found myself running away, though. I ran as fast as I could. I ran all the way to the subway station with all that I had. The clothes on my back and the little money I had put in my pocket left from last night's departure.
I sighed as I got my ticket and sat on the train.
The scenery whirred by me, but everything was in a daze already. I still couldn't believe what I had done.
I probably damned myself to kingdom come now. And if this was supposed to be a good thing, why do I feel so bad inside?
Because I disappointed my father. That's why.
I sighed even more.
But then again, I cannot give up Ryuichi.
What's so wrong about asking for that one thing you want the most?
I…I never asked for anything else so badly.
I had thought Ryuichi was just someone whom I would never get to fall in love. No, let me rephrase that: I didn't know he would fall in love with me.
I thought I was just one of those people he passed by and would never think of again.
But then, when he kissed me, it just made me want to keep him more.
The telephone poles numerously passed by the windows and I almost counted all of them to relieve myself of thinking of anything else as I sat there quietly.
I began to cough again.
My fever was gone, but I still felt like I was sick. So, it didn't help any.
For the first time in my life…
I'm actually homeless.
I smiled to myself like the madman I had always been.
But then I thought about the first time I met Ryuichi and he threw his Kumagorou at me. I remembered how confused he looked and how conniving I thought I would be if I ever met him.
Instead, I ended up being more kawaii'ed out more than anything and acting like a fool when I thought I was acting so cool.
Then again, my brain flies away whenever I'm with Ryuichi.
Only, I know he doesn't remember the first time I went to Touma's house when I had only turned twelve.
I had gotten lost in his home and I pushed the door to find the room I had left. Accidentally, I saw Ryuichi coming out of the bathroom with only his towel wrapped around his waist.
"I'm sorry!" I shouted as he laughed at me with a smile and a wave while saying, "Daijoubu!"
I shut the door behind me not really believing what I just saw.
My nose bled and so I was lost and trying to find a bathroom at the same time…
It was then that I realized that my feelings were more than admiration…
I got depressed over that.
I knew I didn't stand a chance.
But helplessly, I found myself falling in love with him as the months went by. Even though he only knew me as the boy who accidentally opened the door at the wrong (or right, depending on your view) time.
And it became even harder when I knew I couldn't reach him at all…
So, you can't imagine how much I was in shock when he said he loved me back…
I couldn't go to sleep for days, to say the least.
When I got to Tokyo, I walked to the hotel since it was close by. As I was let out of the elevator, I walked calmly to his door and knocked again.
"Tatsuha…" Ryuichi was really shocked to find me in front of him.
"I disowned myself," I answered back as I avoided his eyes.
"Hontou ni?" I could feel him blinking his eyes incredulously as he held one of my hands between both of his.
He then pulled me into the room.
Ryuichi turned around to fix the couch, but when he looked back at me, I started to laugh. "I just disowned myself. Isn't that so funny?"
He then came to me hugged me tightly.
"But I have you…" I whispered softly as I grabbed onto his sleeves and pulled him to the bed.
"Ryuichi?" I seductively whispered to his ear, "Tell me I made the right decision."
I felt at that moment my heart stop as my mind hazed.
I know I made the right decision…
But I feel so alone…
I then sat him on the bed as I unbuttoned my shirt. I looked down at him as my shirt slipped to my elbows.
Doki doki doki…
While leaning closer to him, I commanded while desparately whispering into his ear,
"Ryuichi…make love to me…"
to be continued.
--
Author's note: Whoa…* stop breathing * I don't know, but to me, this seemed to make me really stop and think. For me, this and the first chapters were the most intense chapter so far. I felt like, 'oh my…' when I wrote them.
Thanks for all the support again!!! So, I made two chapters today for you.