Disclaimer: Gravi is by Murakami-sensei. Clamp is clamp, not mine of course.
Aching Desire
(Nagareboshi 3)
by miyamoto yui
Chapter 22 – Shin for 'new' or for 'shinji' in 'believe'?
I pushed myself from the wall of the hotel staircase. I then held my head up as I walked down the flight of stairs calmly. When I got out of the hotel, I looked around to make sure Touma wasn't there to pick me up. Fortunately, he wasn't.
But I had to run quickly from there even though I was in no condition to. I ran in some random direction in between not going to Aniki's or Touma's place.
"Who am I kidding?" I sighed to myself as I slowed down unable to run anymore.
It would be only a matter of days before they would find me…
The only thing I could do was stay at a cheap hotel in the 'not-so-okay' district.
When I got to my room, I dropped my things onto the carpet and plopped myself on the bed.
What do I do?
What could I possibly do? I didn't know what was worse. Running away or being found later on? And by who?
I would be in deep trouble with everyone.
No, scratch that. I AM in trouble with everyone.
I pulled on my pockets to reveal only my empty wallet and pieces of lint. "And I need money. If I get anything from the bank, they could find me."
Shit. They'll track me if I do anything with my cards.
I sighed as I held my head between my hands in frustration. "As if my life can't get any worse than it already is."
I slept with Tsuki and Ryuichi was there to hear it without any explanation.
Touma's unhappy with Ryuichi and myself both personally and business-wise.
Aniki's probably cursing my stupidity for the umpteenth time for these past few days.
A cold shiver ran through me.
Shuichi…
My sister…
Ryuichi…he threw me out.
I don't blame you. Damn, I'd throw myself out too.
This isn't making any sense at all, is it?
"What the hell do I do?!" I got up abruptly as I pulled the curtains open. I just looked at the people on the street walking below.
I can't leave Tokyo. I can't go anywhere…
I felt like some Clamp character bound to this godforsaken city.
The next day, I went out looking for a job. Geez…when you're really desparate, you're really desparate!
I'm mentally shaking my head as I look around me.
I now know how much of a brat I was at home in Kyoto.
I went to school. I got my three meals. I was an heir to a temple. I had a famous brother who I could crash with. Not to mention his Ryuichi-look alike boyfriend who was also well-known.
I had a boyfriend that loved me so much that if I ever said, "That person looked at me the wrong way" as a joke, he'd look at them as if he'd kill them. He almost did. ^^;;;;
And now what? I've become a bum and a self-proclaimed orphan.
I passed by the train station and looked at the advertisements for multiple jobs. Trying not to be too disheartened, I went all over the place.
But, I found nothing.
After all, I had only graduated high school.
As I left the last prospective employer in tailor's shop, someone called out, "Hey kid!"
I looked around and pointed to myself. "Are you talking to me?"
"Maybe I can use you after all."
I looked at the woman in alarm. "Excuse me?"
She just pulled me and placed me into a room behind her clothing shop. Then, she threw a pile of black clothes to the floor. "Change into those."
"Hey wait a-"
Close.
I sighed as I picked up the clothes before me. As I changed into the tuxedo, I looked at the mirror before me. "What the hell?"
Knock, knock.
"Can I come in?"
"Okay."
The middle-aged woman came into the room and laughed in delight as she folded her arms. Then, she picked up my chin and tilted her head. "Perfect."
"What are you doing to me?"
"You want a job?"
"Yes."
"Then shut up. I'm seeing if I can give you one."
I began to feel sick as I frowned inwardly.
What the hell is she looking at? How about if she uses me as one of those pro-
"I've got an escort service uptown. Instead of working somewhere else in this district, how about working for me?"
She handed me her card.
I gave her a skeptical look. "What kind of escort service?"
"It's like ballroom dancing. You're the paid partner." She patted my back. "Don't worry. You're not sleeping with them or anything. You're just paid companionship, kid."
I eyed her as I threatened to take off the tuxedo.
She shook her head. "It's part of the policy. I'm not into stuff like that."
Then, she patted my back again as she gave me a sincere smile. "Hey, I'm just asking. Just say no if you don't want to."
"I'll take it," I answered.
"What's your name?"
"Uesugi Tatsuha."
"The name's Katsumi. But most people call me Kat-chan." Then, she walked around me again. "And what should we name you?"
"Name me?"
"You need a code name."
"Oh."
"Ah!" She hit her fist on her palm and said, "I've got it! Your nickname is Shin."
I nodded my head. "Okay."
Later that night, I signed my contract to her and would start work the next day.
As I put my backpack on and walked home, I looked up the gray sky above me. When I got back to the hotel, I just went to sleep on my bed as I thought,
"Why'd you name Shin?" I had asked as I left Kat-chan. "Just because I'm the new one, you give me that name? Isn't it kind of strange?"
"No, no!" She wrote out the character for me. "Shin as in 'Shinji.' To believe."
"Shinji…" I mumbled as I reached out to the frame I had set on the stand next to the bed.
Grabbing it weakly into my hands, I closed my eyes as I kissed it tenderly disillusioned enough to believe it was the real thing.
"Good night, Ryuichi," I said as I fell asleep hugging the picture frame.
Things had gone to the way they were before.
The way I had been after I accidentally barged into your room when I was 12…
My tears began to wet my blanket…
To be continued.
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Author's note: Hee hee. Well, I'm glad for the positive reactions I'm getting so far for the fic. ^^v I really thought someone would flame me for tearing Ryu and Tatsuha far apart. ;_; And I can't believe I'm doing this to Ryuichi!!! WAH~!
I just wanted to say you guys are so cute. * shakes head * I never thought my melodramatic fic would actually be fun. ^^;; Plus, yes, * winks * I am evil. ^^;;; (Thanks for the compliment? That means my fic's getting a reaction?) At least it's not like with Tokyo Babylon where I stopped the multiple times where Sei and Subaru _could_ have gone somewhere…and it didn't happen until part 25.
But damn! The more I write this, the more I make Tatsuha and Ryuichi more and more possessive over one another. @_@ And you knew I had to make a Clamp reference!
Aching Desire
(Nagareboshi 3)
by miyamoto yui
Chapter 22 – Shin for 'new' or for 'shinji' in 'believe'?
I pushed myself from the wall of the hotel staircase. I then held my head up as I walked down the flight of stairs calmly. When I got out of the hotel, I looked around to make sure Touma wasn't there to pick me up. Fortunately, he wasn't.
But I had to run quickly from there even though I was in no condition to. I ran in some random direction in between not going to Aniki's or Touma's place.
"Who am I kidding?" I sighed to myself as I slowed down unable to run anymore.
It would be only a matter of days before they would find me…
The only thing I could do was stay at a cheap hotel in the 'not-so-okay' district.
When I got to my room, I dropped my things onto the carpet and plopped myself on the bed.
What do I do?
What could I possibly do? I didn't know what was worse. Running away or being found later on? And by who?
I would be in deep trouble with everyone.
No, scratch that. I AM in trouble with everyone.
I pulled on my pockets to reveal only my empty wallet and pieces of lint. "And I need money. If I get anything from the bank, they could find me."
Shit. They'll track me if I do anything with my cards.
I sighed as I held my head between my hands in frustration. "As if my life can't get any worse than it already is."
I slept with Tsuki and Ryuichi was there to hear it without any explanation.
Touma's unhappy with Ryuichi and myself both personally and business-wise.
Aniki's probably cursing my stupidity for the umpteenth time for these past few days.
A cold shiver ran through me.
Shuichi…
My sister…
Ryuichi…he threw me out.
I don't blame you. Damn, I'd throw myself out too.
This isn't making any sense at all, is it?
"What the hell do I do?!" I got up abruptly as I pulled the curtains open. I just looked at the people on the street walking below.
I can't leave Tokyo. I can't go anywhere…
I felt like some Clamp character bound to this godforsaken city.
The next day, I went out looking for a job. Geez…when you're really desparate, you're really desparate!
I'm mentally shaking my head as I look around me.
I now know how much of a brat I was at home in Kyoto.
I went to school. I got my three meals. I was an heir to a temple. I had a famous brother who I could crash with. Not to mention his Ryuichi-look alike boyfriend who was also well-known.
I had a boyfriend that loved me so much that if I ever said, "That person looked at me the wrong way" as a joke, he'd look at them as if he'd kill them. He almost did. ^^;;;;
And now what? I've become a bum and a self-proclaimed orphan.
I passed by the train station and looked at the advertisements for multiple jobs. Trying not to be too disheartened, I went all over the place.
But, I found nothing.
After all, I had only graduated high school.
As I left the last prospective employer in tailor's shop, someone called out, "Hey kid!"
I looked around and pointed to myself. "Are you talking to me?"
"Maybe I can use you after all."
I looked at the woman in alarm. "Excuse me?"
She just pulled me and placed me into a room behind her clothing shop. Then, she threw a pile of black clothes to the floor. "Change into those."
"Hey wait a-"
Close.
I sighed as I picked up the clothes before me. As I changed into the tuxedo, I looked at the mirror before me. "What the hell?"
Knock, knock.
"Can I come in?"
"Okay."
The middle-aged woman came into the room and laughed in delight as she folded her arms. Then, she picked up my chin and tilted her head. "Perfect."
"What are you doing to me?"
"You want a job?"
"Yes."
"Then shut up. I'm seeing if I can give you one."
I began to feel sick as I frowned inwardly.
What the hell is she looking at? How about if she uses me as one of those pro-
"I've got an escort service uptown. Instead of working somewhere else in this district, how about working for me?"
She handed me her card.
I gave her a skeptical look. "What kind of escort service?"
"It's like ballroom dancing. You're the paid partner." She patted my back. "Don't worry. You're not sleeping with them or anything. You're just paid companionship, kid."
I eyed her as I threatened to take off the tuxedo.
She shook her head. "It's part of the policy. I'm not into stuff like that."
Then, she patted my back again as she gave me a sincere smile. "Hey, I'm just asking. Just say no if you don't want to."
"I'll take it," I answered.
"What's your name?"
"Uesugi Tatsuha."
"The name's Katsumi. But most people call me Kat-chan." Then, she walked around me again. "And what should we name you?"
"Name me?"
"You need a code name."
"Oh."
"Ah!" She hit her fist on her palm and said, "I've got it! Your nickname is Shin."
I nodded my head. "Okay."
Later that night, I signed my contract to her and would start work the next day.
As I put my backpack on and walked home, I looked up the gray sky above me. When I got back to the hotel, I just went to sleep on my bed as I thought,
"Why'd you name Shin?" I had asked as I left Kat-chan. "Just because I'm the new one, you give me that name? Isn't it kind of strange?"
"No, no!" She wrote out the character for me. "Shin as in 'Shinji.' To believe."
"Shinji…" I mumbled as I reached out to the frame I had set on the stand next to the bed.
Grabbing it weakly into my hands, I closed my eyes as I kissed it tenderly disillusioned enough to believe it was the real thing.
"Good night, Ryuichi," I said as I fell asleep hugging the picture frame.
Things had gone to the way they were before.
The way I had been after I accidentally barged into your room when I was 12…
My tears began to wet my blanket…
To be continued.
--
Author's note: Hee hee. Well, I'm glad for the positive reactions I'm getting so far for the fic. ^^v I really thought someone would flame me for tearing Ryu and Tatsuha far apart. ;_; And I can't believe I'm doing this to Ryuichi!!! WAH~!
I just wanted to say you guys are so cute. * shakes head * I never thought my melodramatic fic would actually be fun. ^^;; Plus, yes, * winks * I am evil. ^^;;; (Thanks for the compliment? That means my fic's getting a reaction?) At least it's not like with Tokyo Babylon where I stopped the multiple times where Sei and Subaru _could_ have gone somewhere…and it didn't happen until part 25.
But damn! The more I write this, the more I make Tatsuha and Ryuichi more and more possessive over one another. @_@ And you knew I had to make a Clamp reference!