… F a l l i n g …

By Pandora

Guess what. I got something to tell you before I start my story. This may come as some surprise to you, but… … I don't own Gundam Wing. *Waits for reaction* OH! You mean you already knew that?! Good for you! Why in the world am I saying this anymore? You must have figured it out by… ah. Never mind.

~*~

Relena looked out her window. The starts shined above her home. She had moved to the Ciqu kingdom, not to rule, but to live. She opened the door to the balcony walked over to the railing. The cool night air pushed her hair around a little. She closed her eyes and sighed. She looked down. Her room was about three stories up. She wanted to jump. This world, She thought, It really doesn't suit me anymore.

It had had been four years sense the wars and after the first year, she became needed less and less. The colonies no longer depended on her and she had set up enough smaller toned representatives and activities that she was respected, but no longer needed. Useful, but no longer necessary. She couldn't find anything to do with her self now. Even the paper work was slowing down.

The preventers still are useful; perhaps I should join them. She laughed at her self. I can't even shoot a gun any more and it wouldn't look right if I tried. I wish I had an artistic talent or something I could use like that. She looked up at the stars again. Heero. I wonder where he is. She looked down again. I can't even die. I promised Heero could kill me.

"Relena?" Called a voice behind her.

"Yes?" She said turning around. It was Duo. Older now, he looked stronger. He was much more serous now, at least, he had lost a lot of his old humor, but had kept his braid. He had a more of a mature humor about him

"You look so sad tonight. What's wrong?"

"Tried I suppose." He walked all the way out and looked up. He studied the sky as if trying to find what she was looking for, then he smiled as if he found it and turned back to her.

"No that's not what it is, is it?" He sort of asked her. He knew what she was thinking of.

"I can't hide much from you any more, can I?" He smiled.

"You should go see him." He said looking up again. She looked up too.

"I can't." She said softly.

"I don't see why not. Ex-Queen of the world should be able to find any one she wants."

"No, that's not it." She closed her eyes. "I went looking for him one day during the wars, you were there. I found him and before I was there a day he was gone. It hurts every time I think of that. I made my self a promise that I wouldn't chase him anymore and if we were meant to be then he would come see me. I can't break that."

"I see. So, do you think he will come to you?"

"No."

"Why not?" She thought for a second.

"Because he's Heero Yuy."

"Yes, but in that sense he would be closer to you. Peacecraft and Yuy were very close."

"Yeah, well, Heero was a soldier." "

Yes, but soldiers are only half with out the need to protect something. The colonies are safe now. After a war, a man would look forward to going home to his love." He got a big smile. "That was what gave the will to live, to the strong."

"What about the weak?"

"Fear. You have to understand the pressure we were all under. It was unimaginable to give the task of saving the world to a bunch of fifteen years olds. We couldn't let much get in our way. Heero was especially pressured. His name said that by it's self."

He looked at Relena to make sure she was still listening.

She was very interested so he continued.

"Heero seemed to have a greater destiny then anyone understood at the time, but he was told by Dr. J and the others how important he was. He was only looking out for the colonies, and not his own personal interests. He had worked hard to achieve that and thought he had it under control, then he met you." He smiled a little more. "He liked you. Anyone could tell when he looked at you and he thought of you often. Drove me nuts though. He kept trying to kill you, not because you had seen him, but because of your ability to throw him off his mission. You also cared for a boy who believed he had no emotions. He wouldn't admit to love, being he wouldn't admit to any sort of weakness. Now, the war is over and he is getting his emotions back. He is finding what he missed out on. You're simply a little too big of a step for him to be able to take right now. When he's ready he'll be there."

"And yet it's been about three years sense I saw him last." Duo laughed.

"Well, I guess I'll just have to bring him here then, won't I?"

"What?"

"I know where he is and you won't see him, so I'll just have to get him for you." He walked over and picked up the phone and dialed. He waited and then smiled.

"Hey, it's Duo." She wished she could hear Heero.

"Well, we have a problem. Relena really needs someone to kill her."

"She looks like she'll do it her self if you don't."

"Well, then come and stop her."

"Good for you." He hung up and smiled.

"Well, now he's coming. He's about a half an hour drive from here, so it will be about fifteen minutes for him. " She looked at him in shock.

"Hey, that's not the suicidal look you need if he's going to save you."

"Why do you think I was suicidal?"

"Look, I'm a gundam pilot, I hang with gundam pilots. I think by now I could tell when someone is going to kill them selves."

"And yet you didn't stop me?" He laughed

"You and I both know that's that his job. That's why I called him." He started walking out. "If you are going to die, then you have to at least have to get his consent. You'll die one way or another tonight, if you want."

She sighed and went back outside. She looked down again. It was tempting.

"Relena." It was him. She was a little surprised that he actually came. He ran over and grabbed her arm and pulled her away from the railing.

"Heero." She said genitally. He kept hold of her arm.

"What are you doing?" He asked her.

"Just looking down at the garden." He glared. She smiled at him.

"You are going to jump, aren't you?" He said taking her away from the balcony. He picked her up and put her on the bed.

"I'm ok. Really." He glared again.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing Heero, everything is fine." She tried hard to smile as big humanly possible. He reached over and touched her face. A small tear rolled down her cheek.

"Relena. What is wrong?"

"Now's your chance to kill me. You can finally finish me off."

"I won't kill anymore."

"Then give your consent."

"Why?"

"Because one way or another my life is yours." He turned away.

"So then you don't care." She got up and walked out to the balcony. "I'm not useful anymore. I can die now." He garbed her arm again.

"Relena stop." She turned and looked at him.

"You never listened to me, why should I listen to you?" She tried to pulled away and walked over the balcony and sat on the railing. Heero stood in a bit of disbelief.

"Relena, I-" Before he could say anything Relena leaned back and fell off the balcony.

~*~

Yeah there is more. I'll upload it in… umm… I don't know ^_^"