AUTHOR'S POSTSCRIPT

Hey there fellow writers and reviewers! I've decided to add this little postscript to thank YOU for making it possible for me to finish "Merry Christmas, Sakuragi". I also thought that this postscript may be of help to clear up some events in my story and answer some of your questions.

First, a big thank you to the following people:

Sharon: Girl, that's so sweet of you to say that I touched your heart string. I never even considered that my fic would make such a big impact. Thanks.

Lotus: Er, yeah. You saw your name on my fic. I sort of plagiarize it because of lack of creative idea.

RK: Honey, you just made my day when I'd read what you said about my fic. I think my ego just got bloated, if that's still possible.

Rook: I hope you like my piece about Haruko. My head really hurts just delving into her mind. And though I wish that I could have put more of Rukawa's thoughts regarding Hana-kun's death, I just couldn't do it. Frankly, I don't like Rukawa so I couldn't really assume what he would feel. That goes also to Ryota, Ayako, and Akagi. I just can't dig deep in to these character's thoughts.

dr_jigepuff@edsamail.com.ph: I've finished it! I hope you had enjoyed reading it as much as I'd enjoyed writing it.

Kraci: Thanks for the support, girl. Read my other fic too. Lord Sakuragi (though that one's pale in comparison with this fic)

Tina Caps: Oh, I hope I didn't make you too sad. ^_^

sLL: 4 reviews. Thank you so much! I'm happy that you're supporting my fic. Don't worry, next time, I'll make sure I've completely edited my fic so that there would be less grammar mistakes. And about Mitsui's wish, I think it's on chapter 4: Reconnecting Ties. I appreciated your comments. Support my future fics, too!

Ayu: The succeeding chapters were less angsty, don't you think? Thanks love! Yes, you're right. I kind of let the fic stagnate *sheepish smile*.

Magenta blues: My ego's totally bloated right now. Thanks. I was really resolute that my fic won't be overly sentimental Except for Chapter 8. I was thinking of my dead dog when I wrote that part. I injected my own feelings to bring out the sufferings felt by Haruko and Aiko. Yeah, yeah I know. To use the memory of my dead dog to cause my creative juices running. Sheesh.

Jo-sen7: Hmmm, it seems like many readers like my bit on Mitsui's thoughts. *lol* It took me two days to finish that chapter. I'm happy you like it.

Kristel: It turned out better in the end! Thanks for the support.

Ayce Shade: Thank you for reading my fic. I hope you enjoyed it immensely.

Keax-XV: You too, dear…4 reviews! Awww, I'm touched that you like my ficcie to give 4 reviews. Hmmm, maybe you're right. Maybe hate does really exists. But in Haruko's case, she didn't really hate Hana-kun. She was just guilty and dwelling on it so much. I guess we all went through that phase also some point in our life.

Keaxy: Why does Haruko hates Sakuragi? Now you know ^_~

Shinichimaki-gal: It's not that sad, isn't it love? Happy reading. Nice fic too by the way. I was just too lazy to review (I know, I know. Shoot me right now *sweatdrop*)

Diwata: You hate me! You really hate me! *lol* I hope your mom didn't think you'd become mental because of my fic. As for RuHaru, I'm actually a HanaHaru fan. I just think that in this fic, Rukawa and Haruko should turn to each other for moral support (the one being cold to Sakuragi while the other was very close). Besides, don't we all love it when the girl gets his guy?

I'm sure I have forgotten someone, so just in case, a BIG thank you to the rest of you!

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Ok, now that I'm finish expressing my gratitude to people, I think it's time to clear up some things:

Haruko's dreams – I've read somewhere that dreams are actually a manifestation of our subconscious. According to psychoanalysts, the images in our dreams are representations of some events or things in our life (i.e. according to Freud, water is actually a representation of a person's sexual desires). In Haruko's case, the progressive worsening of her dreams (from simply burying Sakuragi to pushing him in his own grave to the last dream in which he crumbled right in front of her) signifies her escalating anger. The dreams in the story weren't supernatural (even the last dream isn't connected to paranormal events) rather it was a manifestation of Haruko's feeling regarding Sakuragi's death (God, I sound like a teacher). 'The odd happiness and sadness' and 'The cemetery is just a dump for stones and bones' – These sentences are shamelessly plagiarized from Milan Kundera's "The Unbearable Lightness of Being" (good book, hard read). I was actually thinking along the line of Kundera's philosophy when I was writing this fic. Kundera was saying that since we only have one life, human beings are light. But since we have one life, we are also heavy. Confused? Don't worry, I was too. This is where the odd happiness and sadness enter. Since we only have one life, Kundera also said that man could never be truly happy because happiness is a longing for repetition. Man does not long for repetition and they seek for something better. Man's life moved in a straight line, thus we could never returned to that point in our life in which we're happy nor we could say that at this point in time, we were extremely happy. Haruko felt that mixture of happy and sad because she understood (on my fic at least) that even though they were happy, she knew that it could have been better if Sakuragi was there also. And yet, she also understood that she could never really tell if they would become truly happy. She knew that their happiness might not return again so she savored this moment.

That's it. That's all I wanted to say. I'm wishing and hoping that you'll support my other fics as well. Thank you very much!