So that's what Mary Sue stands for, I could never figure that out. Dear god
I hope they don't do that, if they do tell me quick and give me some help
in making it so they no longer are. A Mary Sue would take to much away. I
need them to be fleshed out with distinct personalities or this is going to
be far, far too boring for someone to read!
Thanks for the reviews. They give me a worm feeling knowing that someone is enjoying this. I hope I keep you entertained until I finish this bad boy.
Chapter three.
I was riding on Patamon's new champion level form Centarumon, when I felt it. This bone deep weariness. It was a deep empty feeling in my bones that told me he had drained me dry and that if I didn't let go soon he would most likely kill me. I just prayed to God, and even the gods of this world to keep us safe 'till my energy had returned.
We had been running hard for the better part of the day sense our escape from Sara's stronghold. At lest I think it was her stronghold. I don't really know. It was just the two of them and only one digimon as far as I could tell. What kind of base of operations is that?
Unless of coarse they hadn't found the rest of the ones from their side...
Ha! There is no way in hell I'm going to believe that one. My luck has never, ever, been that good. I just hope and pray that Tai is holding things together. That he got to TK before that boy ran off and did something stupid.
My God don't I sound pompous with that remark! Here I am sitting under a canopy of trees with TK's partner, now back in his rookie form, out getting me food and I'm wondering how they are going to stay together with out me. God I must be delusional or something.
Tai kept that group together long before I ever came back on the seen. And I really should have more faith in TK. That boy has been though it all, been though something that very few of us have ever been forced to endure.
The loss of our partner.
If he could survive that and keep going the loss of his mate shouldn't stop him now should it? I don't know... How do you answer a question like that? What the hell am I asking you for, your a damn journal... maybe someday I'll come back and take a look at this and have an answer. I hope...
As it stands right now I'm pretty damn sure I'll never understand women. Three women in particular. Hikari, Sora, and my own dear sweet Sara. I mean lets look at them. First we have Hikari, better known as Kari.
A sweet girl, the angle of light, who never the less as been playing two boys against one another for years. One of those is her best friend. A boy who pledged to give his life for hers if needs be at the age of eight...
Damn it, I'm f'ing crying again. Why the hell did they have to be so much like Sara and I!?! What kind of sick joke was that huh? And what the hell did that kiss do to me to make me such a crybaby all of a sudden?
Anywise...
The other is as far as I can tell just shy of a stalker. And yet she seems to like him in some way. Hell from the looks of things back in that clearing it seems like she had chosen him! How the hell does that work?
Working from there let us go to Sora, the barer of the crest of love. She confuses me even more the Kari does. I know that she was in love with Tai when they were here in the digital world. That had to be the single most blatantly obvious thing in the world.
I'm sure that if I could go back in time and spend a million years studying her I would never understand. She was in love with Tai. I know that, I saw it. I watched as it grew. How it started but I will never know how it ended...
Patamon just came back with food. Its a good thing that one of us can still move. I'm having trouble just keeping my eyes open as I write this. Where was I? Oh yes, Sora and Tai's relationship, or lack there of as the case maybe.
Tai risked his life to save Sora's from Datamon. Sora left the group first to find Tai once he was sucked through that portal. But the most damning piece of evidence was when her crest glowed for the first time. Its kinda hard to miss a guy saying 'I felt something, It was your love shinning through.' or some poetic nonsense like that.
Then you have Tai putting her in charge of Kari when his little sister was ill. You have him letting her see him broken down after MachineDramon. And on more then one occasion she screamed out his name out of reflex when frightened.
How the hell does that not make a relationship?
And all of that was going with out how they acted with the rest in the digital world. They had a nice little family unit going on. A family with Tai and Sora as the parents.
And she has thrown it all away for Matt.
Matt! I mean where in nine hells did THAT come from?!
Hell its not like she ever seemed to particularly like him all that much or anything when they were here in this world. At lest not as far as I could tell. Nor did he seem all that interested in her.
It just seems like its just fundamentally wrong. Its almost like Sora got scared and hid. She could have had a relationship with any of the guys, hell she could have had one with Mimi or even Kari... well maybe not Kari, loving light just don't sound right.
Oh man, now I know I'm tired I just rhymed... But I need to get his down. Get it out of my head before it eats away at me.
Sora could have gone with Mimi and had a sincere love, gone with Joe and had the safest type, reliable love. Heck she could have gone with TK and had a hopeful love, even though that just sounds like something from the 70's or something. With Izzy and shared his love for knowledge.
But she went with friendship.
Now correct me if I'm wrong but isn't friendship a type of love itself? Isn't loving a loving friendship kinda redundant? Seems that way to me. I always thought that she and Tai belonged together.
For doesn't it take courage to find true love? Don't you need courage to see it through all the nay-sayers? To keep it together for all of time? It seems like it does to me. And so I am left with the feeling that Sora just couldn't take what her feelings were leading her to do.
So she got scared and ran.
Her going with friendship? Well that I can only guess was for one of two reasons. One she couldn't go for the safest of all her chouses, Joe was after all taken. Or two... two.
That she did it to hurt Tai... that she did it to make him go away, to make him leave her be, to hate her so she wouldn't ever have to worry about those feelings ever again....
Well... there is a third reason, I guess. One that would put the blame on Tai. And believe me, that boy could well be guilty of this one. She felt neglected... and she did it out of spit, or an attempt to make him go after her more aggressively.
But if that is the case then I feel very sorry for all of them. Because Tai loves her too much to not let her go, and they are all going to end up unhappy in the long run...
But enough about those three, they might be friends and I must abide by what they choose even if I believe they chose wrong. No now I must focus on the person who made my thoughts turn towards this in the first place.
Sara.
At one time in my life I thought I understood her, knew her. But what she did to me, what she let me do to her... I don't know anymore. That kiss had to have been the single most pleasant experience in my life. I'm halfway certain I'd kill to feel that again.
But why she did it is something I don't think I'll ever know. She should hate me, or attest try to get as far from me as she could. Not kiss me like she... she...
I never should have brought her here. Never let her see this world, if I hadn't she would have been fine. At lest I tell myself that. The fifth child. Our version of Kari... and of Ken. The one we needed to have to defeat that one unstoppable enemy.
Was it really my fault? Have I been killing myself all these years with something I had no control over? Something in me screams out yes but I can't believe it. Not now, not after eleven years of knowing I the cause of all of this.
And to compound my guilt I've eleven more kids that are here because of me and my stupidity.
I guess I should let all of this out. Tell someone if it is only a peace of paper. Who knows it might be found someday. Hell I may give it to TK. If that mist was any indication he just might be an author at some point, it might be good material for him.
So let me start not at the beginning for that is a tale I've written down in the journals from that time. No let us start at the most important place, with the two strongest of us, of the Digidestined.
Hope and Light.
One would think they would get together no? I would. But then I'm a bit biased now aren't I? Hope and light are the two halves that make up my crest. Their very existence, and that off all the chosen sense my group is also my sin.
Now let me start at the middle. The middle with eight children from a place in Japan called Heighten View Terrace...
Thanks for the reviews. They give me a worm feeling knowing that someone is enjoying this. I hope I keep you entertained until I finish this bad boy.
Chapter three.
I was riding on Patamon's new champion level form Centarumon, when I felt it. This bone deep weariness. It was a deep empty feeling in my bones that told me he had drained me dry and that if I didn't let go soon he would most likely kill me. I just prayed to God, and even the gods of this world to keep us safe 'till my energy had returned.
We had been running hard for the better part of the day sense our escape from Sara's stronghold. At lest I think it was her stronghold. I don't really know. It was just the two of them and only one digimon as far as I could tell. What kind of base of operations is that?
Unless of coarse they hadn't found the rest of the ones from their side...
Ha! There is no way in hell I'm going to believe that one. My luck has never, ever, been that good. I just hope and pray that Tai is holding things together. That he got to TK before that boy ran off and did something stupid.
My God don't I sound pompous with that remark! Here I am sitting under a canopy of trees with TK's partner, now back in his rookie form, out getting me food and I'm wondering how they are going to stay together with out me. God I must be delusional or something.
Tai kept that group together long before I ever came back on the seen. And I really should have more faith in TK. That boy has been though it all, been though something that very few of us have ever been forced to endure.
The loss of our partner.
If he could survive that and keep going the loss of his mate shouldn't stop him now should it? I don't know... How do you answer a question like that? What the hell am I asking you for, your a damn journal... maybe someday I'll come back and take a look at this and have an answer. I hope...
As it stands right now I'm pretty damn sure I'll never understand women. Three women in particular. Hikari, Sora, and my own dear sweet Sara. I mean lets look at them. First we have Hikari, better known as Kari.
A sweet girl, the angle of light, who never the less as been playing two boys against one another for years. One of those is her best friend. A boy who pledged to give his life for hers if needs be at the age of eight...
Damn it, I'm f'ing crying again. Why the hell did they have to be so much like Sara and I!?! What kind of sick joke was that huh? And what the hell did that kiss do to me to make me such a crybaby all of a sudden?
Anywise...
The other is as far as I can tell just shy of a stalker. And yet she seems to like him in some way. Hell from the looks of things back in that clearing it seems like she had chosen him! How the hell does that work?
Working from there let us go to Sora, the barer of the crest of love. She confuses me even more the Kari does. I know that she was in love with Tai when they were here in the digital world. That had to be the single most blatantly obvious thing in the world.
I'm sure that if I could go back in time and spend a million years studying her I would never understand. She was in love with Tai. I know that, I saw it. I watched as it grew. How it started but I will never know how it ended...
Patamon just came back with food. Its a good thing that one of us can still move. I'm having trouble just keeping my eyes open as I write this. Where was I? Oh yes, Sora and Tai's relationship, or lack there of as the case maybe.
Tai risked his life to save Sora's from Datamon. Sora left the group first to find Tai once he was sucked through that portal. But the most damning piece of evidence was when her crest glowed for the first time. Its kinda hard to miss a guy saying 'I felt something, It was your love shinning through.' or some poetic nonsense like that.
Then you have Tai putting her in charge of Kari when his little sister was ill. You have him letting her see him broken down after MachineDramon. And on more then one occasion she screamed out his name out of reflex when frightened.
How the hell does that not make a relationship?
And all of that was going with out how they acted with the rest in the digital world. They had a nice little family unit going on. A family with Tai and Sora as the parents.
And she has thrown it all away for Matt.
Matt! I mean where in nine hells did THAT come from?!
Hell its not like she ever seemed to particularly like him all that much or anything when they were here in this world. At lest not as far as I could tell. Nor did he seem all that interested in her.
It just seems like its just fundamentally wrong. Its almost like Sora got scared and hid. She could have had a relationship with any of the guys, hell she could have had one with Mimi or even Kari... well maybe not Kari, loving light just don't sound right.
Oh man, now I know I'm tired I just rhymed... But I need to get his down. Get it out of my head before it eats away at me.
Sora could have gone with Mimi and had a sincere love, gone with Joe and had the safest type, reliable love. Heck she could have gone with TK and had a hopeful love, even though that just sounds like something from the 70's or something. With Izzy and shared his love for knowledge.
But she went with friendship.
Now correct me if I'm wrong but isn't friendship a type of love itself? Isn't loving a loving friendship kinda redundant? Seems that way to me. I always thought that she and Tai belonged together.
For doesn't it take courage to find true love? Don't you need courage to see it through all the nay-sayers? To keep it together for all of time? It seems like it does to me. And so I am left with the feeling that Sora just couldn't take what her feelings were leading her to do.
So she got scared and ran.
Her going with friendship? Well that I can only guess was for one of two reasons. One she couldn't go for the safest of all her chouses, Joe was after all taken. Or two... two.
That she did it to hurt Tai... that she did it to make him go away, to make him leave her be, to hate her so she wouldn't ever have to worry about those feelings ever again....
Well... there is a third reason, I guess. One that would put the blame on Tai. And believe me, that boy could well be guilty of this one. She felt neglected... and she did it out of spit, or an attempt to make him go after her more aggressively.
But if that is the case then I feel very sorry for all of them. Because Tai loves her too much to not let her go, and they are all going to end up unhappy in the long run...
But enough about those three, they might be friends and I must abide by what they choose even if I believe they chose wrong. No now I must focus on the person who made my thoughts turn towards this in the first place.
Sara.
At one time in my life I thought I understood her, knew her. But what she did to me, what she let me do to her... I don't know anymore. That kiss had to have been the single most pleasant experience in my life. I'm halfway certain I'd kill to feel that again.
But why she did it is something I don't think I'll ever know. She should hate me, or attest try to get as far from me as she could. Not kiss me like she... she...
I never should have brought her here. Never let her see this world, if I hadn't she would have been fine. At lest I tell myself that. The fifth child. Our version of Kari... and of Ken. The one we needed to have to defeat that one unstoppable enemy.
Was it really my fault? Have I been killing myself all these years with something I had no control over? Something in me screams out yes but I can't believe it. Not now, not after eleven years of knowing I the cause of all of this.
And to compound my guilt I've eleven more kids that are here because of me and my stupidity.
I guess I should let all of this out. Tell someone if it is only a peace of paper. Who knows it might be found someday. Hell I may give it to TK. If that mist was any indication he just might be an author at some point, it might be good material for him.
So let me start not at the beginning for that is a tale I've written down in the journals from that time. No let us start at the most important place, with the two strongest of us, of the Digidestined.
Hope and Light.
One would think they would get together no? I would. But then I'm a bit biased now aren't I? Hope and light are the two halves that make up my crest. Their very existence, and that off all the chosen sense my group is also my sin.
Now let me start at the middle. The middle with eight children from a place in Japan called Heighten View Terrace...