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Summary: It's 7 years after Season 6. Buffy's no longer the slayer and Spike has never come back. Sorry not so good with summaries.
Author Notes: It would be great if you could feedback me. It's my very first fanfic so please be nice and thank you to those who have given me feedback. They give me the motivation to continue my story. Sorry about the conversation parts, I'm not so good with that yet. I tried my best though to make this chapter a little longer.
Disclaimer: I own nothing except maybe a few original characters but they're pretty easy to spot.
After all the short chapters, this one is a long one. This is another one of those chapters which I've written which I really like. Read on. Oh and thank you to everyone who reads and especially tose who review.
Chapter Eighteen
"Spike." Buffy said as she looked at him.
"Buffy, uh, here. Your purse?" Spike said as he offered her the purse.
Buffy looked at it for a moment before taking it. "Thank you."
"Look Buffy, I was... wondering if we could talk."
"We're talking now aren't we?"
"Yes, but I was thinking more like a whole sitting down and talking. Maybe it could involve some coffee or something?"
"What, What do you want to talk about?"
"What happened years ago between the two of us. I don't want it to always be like this. We live in the same city Buffy and we're bound to run into each other, I-I don't want to run around in circles."
"I don't think I can."
"Can what?"
"Open the past."
"It's hard I know. When I got back my soul I couldn't sleep well for months. Every night I'd hear screams and anger... nightmares. It still scares me today. But I want to find peace and the only way to find peace with you is for us to talk."
Hearing the sadness in Spike's voice touched something in Buffy. It made her realize that no matter how much it hurt, it was nothing compared to the hurt Spike went through all his years and some of that hurt was because of her as well.
"Okay." Buffy said.
"Okay? Do you want to talk now or are you busy?
"Well, I've got some work to do in the gallery. Opening night is next week already. Tonight, we can talk tonight unless you're busy with the restaurant..."
"It's okay. Tonight it is. Seven o'clock. We can meet at Rey Al's diner."
"Okay. You know Rey Al's?" Buffy asked a little surprised.
"Yeah." Spike said as the familiar smirk spread across his face. "They make the best buffalo wings."
Spike left after that and as soon as the bells by the door tinkled, Willow came rushing out. Oz came out too though he didn't look quite the same.
"That color of lipstick is pretty nice Oz. Do you and Willow shop at the same store?" Buffy teased as she saw him.
"What? Oh, uh I'm going to the bathroom." Oz said sheepishly as he went to the bathroom giving Willow the perfect chance to grill Buffy on what happened.
"So? What, what? Tell me." Willow asked putting her resolve face on.
"Nothing. Nothing happened."
"What?" Willow exclaimed. "Nothing at all?"
"We' re going to talk about I tonight?"
"Who? We? As in you and me?"
"No. Me and Spike, we're meeting tonight."
"Ooohhh, where?"
"I'm not telling you Will."
"Spoilsport. Well you better call me when you get home later tonight or- or... I'll put a curse on you!"
"I'm sure you will Wills. Anyway, I gotta go, say bye to Oz for me."
With that Buffy left and went to the gallery. She should have just gone and talked to Spike and gotten it over with. Because she was so distracted thinking about it, she didn't get that much work done. At around three, Buffy got a phone call...
*ring ring*
"Hello?" Buffy answered
"Hey"
"Kent?"
"Yup. How are you feeling?"
"Much better, thanks."
"That's great. Look I'm really sorry about last night..."
"Don't worry about it. You were busy, I understand."
"Really? Well maybe I can make it up to you. How about we go out tonight?"
"Tonight? Uh well..."
"I know, I know it's short notice but what do you say?"
"What about your restaurant?"
"I don't have to be there 24/7, that's why we have restaurant managers. Plus I think my business partner, Spike is going to be here."
"Well... I can't, I've uh got this thing, this dinner thing."
"Oh, okay. That's cool. Maybe some other time then. Tomorrow?"
"um okay. You can pick me up at the gallery."
"Okay see you then. Bye."
"Bye."
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Kent walked toward one of the tables in the restaurant where Spike was currently looking over some bills.
"Hey Spike."
"Hey."
"Bills?"
"Yup."
"So, you gonna be here tonight?"
"Oh yeah, thanks for reminding me to tell you."
"Tell me what?"
"I won't be here tonight."
"Oh, hot date?"
"You might say that though it's not really a date. More like old friends getting together."
"Okay, I'm cool with that."
"But I'll be back. I live upstairs anyway."
"Okay."
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That night...
At exactly seven, Buffy pushed open the doors to the diner. Immediately she spotted Spike's shocking blond hair. She took a deep breath and went over to him.
"Hey." Spike greeted as Buffy neared.
"Hey."
Buffy sat down and a waitress came by to get their orders. Both of them though just ordered some coffee.
"So..." Buffy started
"So."
"What did you want to talk about?" Buffy asked.
"Well Buffy..."
"It hurt." Buffy suddenly blurt out.
"What? What hurt?"
"You. Leaving. It hurt. I didn't expect it to but it did, a lot."
"I'm sorry luv, but I thought you might not want to see me after what I tried to do."
"Which is what?"
"Come on luv, do you hate me that much that you want me to say it? The very thing that I almost did which torments me all the time?"
"What? You mean when you tried to rape me?" Buffy asked.
Spike flinched at the word rape. Even after all these years he couldn't come to grips with it.
"Yes." Spike said weakly.
"Don't think about it Spike. I don't."
"How can I not? I hurt you, no matter how many times you used me or taunted me or insulted me... it6 just can't compare to what I almost did."
"Are you crazy Spike? Almost but not quite. Look at what I did. I hit you and used you a lot. What does that make me? I'm worse than you."
"You could never be worse than me, you could never be... beneath me."
Hearing this Buffy flinched. She had used those exact words to hurt Spike so many years ago.
"You're not beneath me Spike."
"Oh why is that? Because I'm human now?" Spike said a bit harshly. Even though he was so sorry, there was still anger as well. He knew they were both stupid and to blame for all the things that had happened years ago.
"No, it's not like that Spike..."
"Then how is it? I'm human now Buffy and all I want is your forgiveness."
"Don't you get it Spike? I have forgiven you. Many many years ago. I've forgotten all about what you did. The only thing I haven't forgotten is what I did."
"Which is?"
"I've already told you. Used you, abused you... every bad thing imaginable and I am so sorry. If anyone should be asking for forgiveness it should be me."
"I do forgive you. I could never stay mad at you because I lo, nothing." Spike said
"You what Spike"
"It's nothing."
"Spike? If we're going to find peace well... no more secrets."
"I love you. I still do." Spike blurted out. "And I know you don't, you never have and you never will. I know the drill."
"Spike..."
"No don't say anything. I shouldn't have said anything. Now I'm jeopardizing what you have with Kent."
"Spike, this thing I have with Kent... it's not really... I don't know what it is. I hardly know him."
"What are you trying to say?" Spike asked a bit perplexed.
"Hey! I knew I would find you here Spike! Introduce me to who you're wi... Buffy?" Kent asked as he suddenly appeared from behind them.
Summary: It's 7 years after Season 6. Buffy's no longer the slayer and Spike has never come back. Sorry not so good with summaries.
Author Notes: It would be great if you could feedback me. It's my very first fanfic so please be nice and thank you to those who have given me feedback. They give me the motivation to continue my story. Sorry about the conversation parts, I'm not so good with that yet. I tried my best though to make this chapter a little longer.
Disclaimer: I own nothing except maybe a few original characters but they're pretty easy to spot.
After all the short chapters, this one is a long one. This is another one of those chapters which I've written which I really like. Read on. Oh and thank you to everyone who reads and especially tose who review.
Chapter Eighteen
"Spike." Buffy said as she looked at him.
"Buffy, uh, here. Your purse?" Spike said as he offered her the purse.
Buffy looked at it for a moment before taking it. "Thank you."
"Look Buffy, I was... wondering if we could talk."
"We're talking now aren't we?"
"Yes, but I was thinking more like a whole sitting down and talking. Maybe it could involve some coffee or something?"
"What, What do you want to talk about?"
"What happened years ago between the two of us. I don't want it to always be like this. We live in the same city Buffy and we're bound to run into each other, I-I don't want to run around in circles."
"I don't think I can."
"Can what?"
"Open the past."
"It's hard I know. When I got back my soul I couldn't sleep well for months. Every night I'd hear screams and anger... nightmares. It still scares me today. But I want to find peace and the only way to find peace with you is for us to talk."
Hearing the sadness in Spike's voice touched something in Buffy. It made her realize that no matter how much it hurt, it was nothing compared to the hurt Spike went through all his years and some of that hurt was because of her as well.
"Okay." Buffy said.
"Okay? Do you want to talk now or are you busy?
"Well, I've got some work to do in the gallery. Opening night is next week already. Tonight, we can talk tonight unless you're busy with the restaurant..."
"It's okay. Tonight it is. Seven o'clock. We can meet at Rey Al's diner."
"Okay. You know Rey Al's?" Buffy asked a little surprised.
"Yeah." Spike said as the familiar smirk spread across his face. "They make the best buffalo wings."
Spike left after that and as soon as the bells by the door tinkled, Willow came rushing out. Oz came out too though he didn't look quite the same.
"That color of lipstick is pretty nice Oz. Do you and Willow shop at the same store?" Buffy teased as she saw him.
"What? Oh, uh I'm going to the bathroom." Oz said sheepishly as he went to the bathroom giving Willow the perfect chance to grill Buffy on what happened.
"So? What, what? Tell me." Willow asked putting her resolve face on.
"Nothing. Nothing happened."
"What?" Willow exclaimed. "Nothing at all?"
"We' re going to talk about I tonight?"
"Who? We? As in you and me?"
"No. Me and Spike, we're meeting tonight."
"Ooohhh, where?"
"I'm not telling you Will."
"Spoilsport. Well you better call me when you get home later tonight or- or... I'll put a curse on you!"
"I'm sure you will Wills. Anyway, I gotta go, say bye to Oz for me."
With that Buffy left and went to the gallery. She should have just gone and talked to Spike and gotten it over with. Because she was so distracted thinking about it, she didn't get that much work done. At around three, Buffy got a phone call...
*ring ring*
"Hello?" Buffy answered
"Hey"
"Kent?"
"Yup. How are you feeling?"
"Much better, thanks."
"That's great. Look I'm really sorry about last night..."
"Don't worry about it. You were busy, I understand."
"Really? Well maybe I can make it up to you. How about we go out tonight?"
"Tonight? Uh well..."
"I know, I know it's short notice but what do you say?"
"What about your restaurant?"
"I don't have to be there 24/7, that's why we have restaurant managers. Plus I think my business partner, Spike is going to be here."
"Well... I can't, I've uh got this thing, this dinner thing."
"Oh, okay. That's cool. Maybe some other time then. Tomorrow?"
"um okay. You can pick me up at the gallery."
"Okay see you then. Bye."
"Bye."
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Kent walked toward one of the tables in the restaurant where Spike was currently looking over some bills.
"Hey Spike."
"Hey."
"Bills?"
"Yup."
"So, you gonna be here tonight?"
"Oh yeah, thanks for reminding me to tell you."
"Tell me what?"
"I won't be here tonight."
"Oh, hot date?"
"You might say that though it's not really a date. More like old friends getting together."
"Okay, I'm cool with that."
"But I'll be back. I live upstairs anyway."
"Okay."
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That night...
At exactly seven, Buffy pushed open the doors to the diner. Immediately she spotted Spike's shocking blond hair. She took a deep breath and went over to him.
"Hey." Spike greeted as Buffy neared.
"Hey."
Buffy sat down and a waitress came by to get their orders. Both of them though just ordered some coffee.
"So..." Buffy started
"So."
"What did you want to talk about?" Buffy asked.
"Well Buffy..."
"It hurt." Buffy suddenly blurt out.
"What? What hurt?"
"You. Leaving. It hurt. I didn't expect it to but it did, a lot."
"I'm sorry luv, but I thought you might not want to see me after what I tried to do."
"Which is what?"
"Come on luv, do you hate me that much that you want me to say it? The very thing that I almost did which torments me all the time?"
"What? You mean when you tried to rape me?" Buffy asked.
Spike flinched at the word rape. Even after all these years he couldn't come to grips with it.
"Yes." Spike said weakly.
"Don't think about it Spike. I don't."
"How can I not? I hurt you, no matter how many times you used me or taunted me or insulted me... it6 just can't compare to what I almost did."
"Are you crazy Spike? Almost but not quite. Look at what I did. I hit you and used you a lot. What does that make me? I'm worse than you."
"You could never be worse than me, you could never be... beneath me."
Hearing this Buffy flinched. She had used those exact words to hurt Spike so many years ago.
"You're not beneath me Spike."
"Oh why is that? Because I'm human now?" Spike said a bit harshly. Even though he was so sorry, there was still anger as well. He knew they were both stupid and to blame for all the things that had happened years ago.
"No, it's not like that Spike..."
"Then how is it? I'm human now Buffy and all I want is your forgiveness."
"Don't you get it Spike? I have forgiven you. Many many years ago. I've forgotten all about what you did. The only thing I haven't forgotten is what I did."
"Which is?"
"I've already told you. Used you, abused you... every bad thing imaginable and I am so sorry. If anyone should be asking for forgiveness it should be me."
"I do forgive you. I could never stay mad at you because I lo, nothing." Spike said
"You what Spike"
"It's nothing."
"Spike? If we're going to find peace well... no more secrets."
"I love you. I still do." Spike blurted out. "And I know you don't, you never have and you never will. I know the drill."
"Spike..."
"No don't say anything. I shouldn't have said anything. Now I'm jeopardizing what you have with Kent."
"Spike, this thing I have with Kent... it's not really... I don't know what it is. I hardly know him."
"What are you trying to say?" Spike asked a bit perplexed.
"Hey! I knew I would find you here Spike! Introduce me to who you're wi... Buffy?" Kent asked as he suddenly appeared from behind them.