Part: 9/?
Author: PsycGurl
Rating: PG-13
Couples: B/A, X/An, C/X, C/A

Spoilers: Set in season three of Buffy…around after Lover's Walk, but Angel and Buffy are not together as a couple.
Feedback: Please R&R!!!!

Distribution: Plz ask me!

Disclaimer: If I owned the characters…I'd be rich!!!

A/N.1- I've been in major depressive mode due to couples breaking up on every show. I'm not kidding. Last Thursday was hell!!! Watching Couplet & Hells Bells last week made me cry!!!!  (Let alone Joey in Friends!!) Oookay…that's just me blabbing on. Sorry for the late update…I've been busy with coursework & school and about the chapter…I'm sorry if my characterisation of Buffy & Xander is unbelievable. I'm just not good at writing them.

A/N.2- Now one last note…the next few chapters may take me quite a while to write and then eventually upload…cuz unfortunately I've got to contain a season worth of visions for each character into chapters. It's taking me quite a while. So I apologise if I don't update for a while!!!

CHAPTER 9

CONVERSATIONS-BUFFY, XANDER AND GILES

" My life is going to suck!" Buffy whined as Giles drove her and Xander to their houses.

" Buffy…" Giles began.

" No…listen…my life is gonna be shit. I'm going to die. And somewhere before that you're going to leave me…you're going to leave me to die!" Buffy cried, as Giles grew silent.

" Buff…you know Giles wouldn't ever leave you to die." Xander proclaimed from the backseat, noticing Giles' hurt face.

"Hey, at least you're going to have the good future…you're not going to be dead…you're going to be married. You're going to be married to Harmony."

" I'm not marrying Harmony!" Xander protested.

" Ok…" Buffy replied rolling her eyes.

" It wasn't Harmony!!! It was that ex-demon chic." Xander exclaimed.

" Who? Anyanka?" Giles spoke up.

" Yeah."

" Maybe Cordelia was right. Couldn't you find anyone other than a demon to marry you?" Buffy asked sarcastically.

" She was a demon, okay? She isn't anymore."

" So…guess your future's gonna be crap too."

" Hey for all you know I might be happy with her."

" Yeah yeah…she'll probably have you twisted around her little finger." Buffy knew she was in a bad mood…anyone would be if they had found out they were going to die…wouldn't they?

" What's your problem Buffy? Just cause you're not going to have a good future doesn't mean I can't. At least I'm going to have someone…last I checked you're gonna croak! Without Giles and without Angel!" Xander retorted. He then bit his tongue after the words passed out. Buffy turned to him with her mouth wide-open and her eyes bulging.

" Buffy…I'm sorry." Xander apologised said quickly, realising the extent of his words.

" Oh my god! You're right…I won't have Angel…Angel would've left me too. He's gonna leave me…to be with Cordelia!" Buffy exclaimed.

" Buffy, I doubt that Angel would leave you…especially for Cordelia." Giles said softly looking at the girl next to him.

" Why? If you could leave me…why wouldn't Angel?"

" Buffy…" Giles started.

" You heard their visions…it was Angel and Cordelia. Angel and Cordelia! And they were in some hotel…showing concern for each other…consoling each other. I'm not some rocket scientist Giles…but even I know that they are going to be together in the future… 'Together!'" Buffy emphasised making air quotes.

" Buffy…maybe Angel and Cordelia are just friends…" Giles replied quietly. Buffy calmed down a bit and turned to look at him, considering the possibility.

" I hope so Giles…I hope so."

" Buff, come on. You love each other right…and I'm sure Angel would never love anyone other than you…especially Cordelia! Believe me when I say Cordelia is not capable of loving." Xander responded bitterly.

" Whoa…that was a bit low." Buffy said reacting to Xander's words about Cordelia. She wasn't good friends with Cordelia, but she knew that the girl had been hurt…really hurt…when she had caught Xander and Willow together. Perhaps Cordelia had loved Xander? Her mind then focused on Xander's other words and she realised they were true. Angel couldn't love anyone else. There were many explanations for Angel and Cordelia's visions. There were many explanations as to why he and Cordelia were together.

" Buffy's right, Xander. Perhaps you should not judge Cordelia. If she is with Angel in the future…continuing to fight the good fight…she's probably changed." Giles stated.

" Whatever. She hates demons…she hates fighting…she hates us." Xander replied.

" Now who's got the attitude? You know Xand… I think that you know you loved her…but you hurt her. And that's hurting you. You just won't admit it." Buffy replied noting Xander's cold behavior. Xander eyes then glazed with sadness and he grew quiet.

" Umm…Buffy and Xander we're here. Don't be late tomorrow. We have to uncover the reasons to why this demon is showing us our futures…or even if they are our actual futures." Giles replied as Buffy and Xander stepped out. They both nodded and said bye to Giles. They then turned to glare at each other and then went their separate ways.

Xander walked in a trance as he recalled Buffy's previous words. He knew that there was more to Cordelia and his relationship then they put on in front of others. Perhaps he had loved her. Perhaps she loved him. But he knew that they both understood that they could never be together…they weren't happy together. At least somewhere along the way they would be happy…with someone else. His mind then drifted to Anyanka…his future fiancée and a smile plastered on his face. In the future, they looked happy together. He had a hunch that he would end up with the perfect woman…in the perfect relationship.

On the other side of the road, Buffy walked up her driveway. Her mind still couldn't let go of the doubts she had of her future. When would her life suddenly go downhill? Right now she had both Giles, a man who she believed to be the father she never had…and Angel, the love of her life. But sooner or later they would both leave her…perhaps simultaneously…and she would die. She knew Giles wanted to believe this wasn't their future…but she had a gut feeling that it was…and she somehow knew that life after death…was going to get worse.