Part: 17/?
Author: PsycGurl
Rating: PG-13
Couples: B/A, C/A, W/T, W/Oz, B/S, C/X

Spoilers: Set in season three of Buffy, around the episode 'Enemies'.
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A/N Finally I got to add some C/A!!! Enjoy! Review!!!

CHAPTER 17

REFLECTING- THE GIRLS: THE SLAYER, THE WITCH & THE SEER

" I still can't believe that. It's so hard to imagine." Buffy declared coming out of a toilet stall.

" I know…it's hard for me to believe. But…I was happy. I was in love with her." Willow responded leaning against the sinks in the girl's bathroom in Sunnydale High. They had been talking about the visions they had received in the previous night and discussing their futures.

" Still…I mean right now…none of us would imagine you to turn out gay! Especially Oz." Buffy exclaimed as she washed her hands.

" I don't know if I should tell him. I mean talk about awkward." Willow replied.

" What's awkward?" Another voice asked as she entered the bathroom.

" Cordelia." Buffy and Willow announced together.

" So what's going on in here?" Cordelia asked making her way towards the sinks.

" We're talking about the visions we're receiving. Both of us had front view seats to our futures last night." Buffy explained.

" In your dreams right?" Cordelia asked looking into a mirror, fiddling with her hair.

" Yeah." Willow answered.

" I got 'em too. Totally freaky." Cordelia replied turning to the other two.

" Really?" Buffy asked curiously.

" Uh huh…so what's in store for your futures?"

" I got resurrected." Buffy replied.

" I'm gay." Willow replied.

" Really!" Cordelia said surprised.

" Yeah after I died Willow raised…" Buffy began and was interrupted by Cordelia.

" So you're gay!" Cordelia exclaimed turning towards Willow, ignoring Buffy.

" Yeah."

" Hmmm…can't say I'm surprised though." Cordelia scoffed turning back to the mirror.

" Thanks." Willow bit out.

" No problem." Cordelia responded casually as she took out a compact and a lipstick from her purse.

" So what does Queen C have in her future?" Buffy asked patronizingly.

" Are you really with Angel?" Willow asked anxiously. Buffy whacked Willow's arm.

" Owww…slayer strength! I was just wonderin'."

" Well since you are wondering…yes. Angel is in my future."

" So are you two together? Like a couple?" Buffy asked nervously.

" I'm not sure I should be blurting stuff about my future to you two."

" So your future sucks too? You're not high on magic are you?" Willow asked hopefully. Cordelia sighed…they were going to pry it out of her anyways.

" No…no magic involved. And it didn't…suck. It just wasn't the way I ever imagined my life to turn out."

" Was it really bad? Did you sleep with your enemy by any chance?" Buffy, this time, asked hopefully.

" Uhhh…no. It was just different." Buffy's hopeful expression fell.

" Good or bad different?"

" That's the thing…it was good. I liked it. I was happy…something I haven't been in a long time. It was going really good for a while." Cordelia said as she applied lipstick to her lips, a smile appeared on her face. Buffy and Willow shared a look, recalling Cordelia's recent incident with Xander and how much pain it brought the brunette.

" Then what happened?" Buffy asked softly. Cordelia suddenly realised that she had softened and opened up to the other two girls.

" I really don't think I should be telling this to you guys…especially you." Cordelia declared in her 'bitch voice', indicating Buffy.

" Cordy…you can tell us about anything." Willow said gently.

" I really don't wanna."

" We won't tell. Besides…we know you're hurting." Buffy replied. Cordelia softened again.

" I-I don't think I can…" Cordelia stammered. She desperately wanted to tell someone about her future…about Angel. Someone who would understand how she felt. But she couldn't spill to Buffy about Angel. Could she?

" Is it about Angel?" Buffy suddenly asked noticing Cordelia's distress. Cordelia stilled.

" Yeah." She replied awkwardly.

" Oh."

" That's why I didn't think it was appropriate to discuss it with you. " Cordelia responded quietly. The three girls shared a silence.

" Are you two a couple?" Buffy repeated quietly.

" No…just friends." Cordelia stated, with a frown. Buffy sighed in relief, Giles was right. Then she looked up at Cordelia and caught the cheerleader's frown.

" Wait…do you want to be? Cordelia, please tell me you do not to be a couple with Angel?" Buffy stammered. Cordelia sighed and looked down causing Buffy to gasp as she realised it was true.

" I-I don't. But my future self does. She really really likes him. They've been friends for a while. And they like each other. She likes him, he likes her, he wants her, she wants him…but she can't admit it to herself and he doesn't have the guts to tell her." Cordy blurted hastily, producing one long slur.

" Huh?" Willow responded, confused. Cordelia paused and thought.

" You know how on a show they sometimes have like this hot guy and this gorgeous girl working side-by-side for years. And there's obvious chemistry between them. And everyone else can see it except them." Cordelia attempted to explain.

" Like Moulder and Scully?" Willow posed.

" Ummm…yeah." Cordelia said rolling her eyes.

" So you're saying the hot guy is Angel and you're the (she coughed) gorgeous girl?" Buffy spluttered.

" Yeah. It was really weird…cos I was totally unaware of it. I mean me…Cordelia Chase! I can see a pick up line a mile away. I know when a guy's trying to tell me about his feelings for me, but in the future I seemed totally oblivious of Angel's. I was like utterly clueless to the many…and I mean many…attempts Angel made to tell me his feelings."

" So Angel likes you too?" Buffy asked softly.

" Oh yeah…he's like totally smitten with me…(she paused) or was until I…" Cordelia trailed off. She stopped as her eyes saddened.

" Until what?" Willow asked.

" Until I brushed him off for another guy." Cordelia said sadly.

" What?" Willow exclaimed.

" Fine…let me give away my whole future then." Cordelia replied sarcastically, attempting to avoid her obvious distress.

" You hooked up with another guy?" Buffy asked, ignoring Cordelia's sarcastic remark.

" Yeah. God…I ditched Angel for a guy in animal skin and creepy eyes!" Cordy cried as her eyes lit up in horror. Willow and Buffy had to smirk.

" Animal skin?"

" Creepy eyes?"

" Yeah well…who'd you two hook up with?" Cordelia asked as both Willow and Buffy suddenly seemed to find the bathroom sinks very entertaining.

" Oh…that bad?" Cordelia asked curiously.

" No…my girlfriend was really sweet…but…I kinda lost her."

" How? Wait…I know this one. Hmmm…got high on magic right?" Cordelia asked recalling Willow's previous notion.

" Yeah."

" How'd it look…you know you with a girl? Intimately."

" It looked…well it was comfortable. I was confused at first obviously…but I wasn't all that freaked by it. I really liked her."

" What exactly happened?"

" I used unnecessary magic…and she left me. Then I abused the dark arts…got myself into mondo trouble…really harmed your sister Buffy." Willow said apologetically.

" Sister?" Cordelia asked confused.

" None of my visions really told me 'bout her. But I had a sister. She's a teenager…15 I think. She was pretty…kinda bratty though. But…we were really close…especially since my mom…" Buffy stopped.

" What happened to your mother Buffy?" Willow asked as Buffy paused.

" S-she died. I don't know how…but…" Buffy gulped as some tears shed, and she stopped talking.

" Sorry." Cordelia said sympathetically as Willow hugged her friend.

" But…that's in the future. I won't let it happen." Buffy declared as the girls nodded.

" So do you have a boyfriend in your future?" Cordelia asked after a brief silence.

" Me…ummm…no one. No…boyfriend." Buffy stammered.

" So you're single?" Willow asked. Buffy faltered. She was never able to lie to her best friend.

" Not exactly."

" Wait…didn't you mention…sleeping with an enemy or sumthin'?" Cordelia evoked.

" Uhhhhh…" Buffy spluttered.

" Buffy?" Willow prompted.

" I kinda had a sexual affair…" Buffy stammered.

" Sexual?" Willow spluttered. Her face then went the color of her hair.

" With?" Cordelia stated casually.

" I-I don't…"

" Spill Summers!" Cordelia demanded. The two girls cornered Buffy, practically into a sink.

" Fine…I slept with…with…(she breathed in deeply) Spike." Buffy said, looking uneasily at her comrades. Cordelia and Willow paused momentarily before bursting into fits of giggles.

" Spike! Blonde vampire?" Cordelia exclaimed, as she cracked up again.

" Hey…I kinda had a really bad time…and he wasn't totally evil…couldn't harm humans."

" But Spike!" Willow replied, calming down. Cordelia burst into laughter again.

" I know…god I don't know what was wrong with me! I did break it off with him though. But ugggh…I still keep getting flashes of us…doing 'it'. It was like porn…featuring me! And I can feel him…I can feel him doing…" Buffy began as both Cordelia and Willow shrieked in protest.

" Ewwwwwwww…Buffy!"

" Really don't need the details!"

" Sorry. It's just…I can still feel him on me!" Buffy replied as she shivered. The two girls had calmed down and listened to Buffy.

" I know what you mean. In my future…I could feel Angel on me…" Cordelia began as Buffy's head instantly turned to Cordelia.

" What!!" She yelled glaring at Cordelia.

" Oh…oh. It wasn't like that. Not like that at all. We were possessed…some lovers or sumthin'. Kinda got intimate…but nothing happened. I swear." Cordelia quickly responded, half-way realising that she was spluttering to Buffy. She then smiled, evoking memories of that night.

" Cordy…I know your future self likes Angel…but if you…present you…comes anywhere near my Angel…I will…" Buffy threatened before being interrupted by Willow.

" So wait…you both could feel Angel and Spike when you were fed the vision of…ummm you know." Willow asked embarrassingly, cutting through Buffy's threat.

" Yeah." Cordelia and Buffy replied simultaneously.

" Hmmm…could you feel your future self's feelings? Did you feel pain when they did?" Willow enquired. Buffy and Cordelia paused and then responded quietly.

" Sorta."

" So could I. So…all of us can feel our future self's emotions. We've got to tell Giles!" Willow responded as Buffy and Cordelia agreed. The three girls then made their way out of the toilet.

" Wait! You've got to promise that anything intimate we've revealed in this bathroom about our futures stays between us. I don't want Giles or Angel or anyone knowing about my thing with Spike." Buffy responded, halting the other two. She extended her hand forward… encouraging a pact.

" Yeah…I don't really feel like telling Oz about me being…you know…a lesbian. Don't think that sets to well with my boyfriend." Willow responded awkwardly as she placed her hand on top of Buffy's. The two girls then looked at Cordelia who sighed.

" Fine…I promise that anything confidential that we said in here stays between us. Besides I really don't want you two to tell people we bonded. I do have a reputation!" Cordelia declared as she placed her hand on the others. With that the three girls left the toilet.