Well, minna, here we go, back to Tai... um... yeah.
Taichi's POV
Ok, so I admit that this afternoon was a total screw-up in terms of Kyousuke and talking and all of that. There was so much I could've done with that situation, and I really messed up the whole goddamn thing. I didn't mean to (almost) lose it in front of that complete and utter goddamn bastard. Really. I swear. Not that he noticed I almost did, but still. I didn't mean to.
What I meant to do was confront him about why the hell he's going out with Yama, and whether or not he's going to be good to him. I didn't get aound to doing that, I know, but he'll be at the game today, so with luck, I'll be able to ask him then. I wonder if he'll bring Yama... nah, why the hell would he? If he's trying to keep me from seeing him, like I suspect, why bring him to the game, right? I'm obviously going to be there, I'm the captain of the whole goddamn team... Damnit... I almost wish he would bring Yama, just so I could see him there.
I almost wish Yama would come on his own.
Yeah. Right. That'll happen. Really. I'm sure. Just wait. You'll see. Yama will come running down and say Kyousuke's an idiot and will break up with him. Whatever.
It's not fair, damnit!!! Here I am, preparing for what should be one of the most important games of my career, considering the scouts out there, but instead I'm worrying about a guy who probably has forgotten all about me and doesn't give a shit whether or not I live or die. Or even what the hell my name is. Or that I'm worried about him. Or any other goddamn thing. And why am I worrying? Because a guy who thinks he's my friend is going out with him.
I'm really fucked up, aren't I?
"Yagami!! Ready?"
Now who's-- Oh. My teammate, the one who's always bouncing with energy and smiling, Shin. People always compare the two of us, say we're so much alike. So very much alike, smiles always lighting our faces. I wonder sometimes, how alike are we really? Is he truly as happy as he seems, or is he like me and simply pretending for everyone else's sake because that's how they want to see him? I would love to find out, to know if it's just me.
But would I?
Damnit, I haven't the faintest idea.
"I'm always ready for a game, Shin! You know that!" I reply, my trademark grin plastered on my face, like my goggles on my head. Is it my imagination, or does his eyes darken slightly as he watches me? Does he really know how I feel?
Damnit, I still don't know.
Did I mention this is the worst kind of not knowing? This feeling of anxiety, that something's going to happen and not being able to do a single goddamn thing to stop it? This knowing that there's something completely and utterly wrong with a situation, but not being able to pinpoint what the hell it is? This helplessness as you have to watch something happen and not know quite what you want to stop until it happens?
Why the hell can't I do anything? I want to help Yama... I really do. But I can't. And what's up with Shin? I don't know. And I don't really care, do I? But... something else's supposed to be going on today... oh, it's the anniversary of that day we went to the Digital World. Great. I should call Hikari and remind her or something. She likes to go see Takeru on these days. Not like she's not seeing him all the time otherwise, but still.
A perfect day for me to find some shit out, right? Please say I'm right. I need to figure out this whole goddamn mess before I go insane, or something happens to Yama. I couldn't bear it if something happened to Yama. Please let this work out somehow.
Gametime. We're ahead. I don't even know the score anymore. I lost track a while ago. I don't really give a damn what the hell happens in this goddamn stupid game. Kyousuke and Yama are in the stands, and that's the only important thing.
Maybe I have a completely overactive imagination running even further than usual, first thinking something about Shin, but... I have the strangest feeling Yama's watching me. Trying to tell me something with his eyes, his oh-so-beautiful shattered sapphire-gemstone eyes. Wanting me to know something he can't say. Something about Kyousuke.
Of course, that IS what I would like to see.
Why the goddamn hell can't Yama come talk to me? Why does he have to be going out with Kyousuke, who's probably only using him for the fact that he's obviously the most beautiful guy anyone's ever laid eyes on?
Oh shit, I didn't just think that. I'm worried about Yama because he's a friend. A good friend. A good friend who's gotten himself into a shitload of trouble.
I need to sit down. Badly.
Oh good, time out. Now I can plead sick and sit on the bench for the rest of the game, with any luck. I mean, we're... ten points up. Wow. Pretty good. I mean, it's championships. We shouldn't be ahead by this much. What's going on?
Oh. I keep scoring. People are congratulating me, saying we've got it won.
I want to shout at them, I don't give a fuck that we're winning!!! Where's Yama? Why the hell does Kyousuke have this hold over him?!
"Coach? Can I sit out for a while? I don't feel so good," I call over, hoping I look as bad as I feel. He laughs and nods, congratulating me.
I hate this.
"Taichi, you wanna go to the locker rooms?" a quiet voice asks from beside me as I sit. Glancing to the side, I have to admit, I'm a little surprised to find it's Shin. Shin's not quiet. Shin just smiles and bounces. So, what's with that serious expression?
"... Sure?" I ask, not sure at all.
We dash there, and he sits me down. "Whatcha worried about, Tai?" he asks, looking into my eyes. I never noticed before how blue his eyes are, or how much he looks like a sweeter, smiling version of Yama. Damn. This is getting fucked up.
I can't smile. I can't lie to him. Why?! I don't know!!! This isn't supposed to happen.
"This have something to do with Ishida Yamato?"
"W-Wha?" I ask, startled beyond belief.
Calm eyes, not at all like Shin stare back. "Ishida Yamato. You know, Harukawa Kyousuke's boyfriend. This have something to do with him?"
"Why the hell would it have something to do with him?"
"'Cause you keep staring at him," Shin shrugs, sitting back. "And you didn't deny it when I asked."
Oh shit.
"So, 'Savior of the world, Yagami Taichi,' what's going on with your friend?"
Someone remembers that shit?
"Other than the fact that he's going out with Kyousuke."
"What's wrong with Kyousuke?" I shoot at him, praying that somehow this'll work out.
His eyes darken, and he turns to me. "You don't know?"
Oh SHIT.
Geez... I've got the next chap.... but I like reviews... 25ish would be nice... *hint hint* *smile* I love doing this to people... Oh, and to answer questions, I have no idea whether or not Tai will actually do anything... but he will find out. And I don't know what the heck I'm doing with this OC, so sorry... That's about it, take care and review, minna-chan! Arigatou!