A/N:
Hoshii/chris --- ey thanks! I'm really glad you liked belonging! Hope you will enjoy this one too.. ^___^
sHELFU-SAN --- no prob! Really liked you're story; I think that's the first one I encountered with a Sanzo-Homura pairing! Really original! ^___^
Shadow of Arashi--- lol! I'm glad you don't care about Sanzo being like that. I guess he'll be like that for the entire story. ^___^
--- love to punish Sanzo like that! Hehehehe... *evil grin*
stussygal24---this is after belonging, actually.. Hehehe.. lol!
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Chapter 2
GOKU'S POV
Sanzo's been acting strange since we arrived here. I wonder what's he up to? He's been pretty tense and passive at dinner. It's as if he's watching his back for someone who might attack him. His eyes kept darting towards the entrance and he's wolfing down food as if he won't have the liberty of eating again. Hmm..if it's me it's understandable because I could eat ten times as much as them. Thinking about food makes me really hungry. Pork buns, shrimp dumplings.. Mmmm.
Wait, I'm still sulking about Sanzo. Okay back to topic. As I've said, he's not himself. I mean, when I declared at dinner time that I was going to order more food he just mumbled a quick okay and resumed eating. Even Gojyo and Hakkai had the grace to raise their eyebrows at Sanzo. Really. If he was his normal, arrogant self I would've received a mighty whack on the head. I get whacked about twenty times a day. Today, I was lucky. I was whacked only five times since he was pretty preoccupied about his own ghost.
You know what? I don't mind being treated that way by him. I made myself believe that it was his sign of affection towards me. Sure it's painful and it's irritating at times because sometimes I wasn't really doing anything wrong. He just feels like it. But that was what I like about Sanzo in the first place. He had a twisted notion of giving affection. Its one of a kind really. He'd rather die first before divulging his feelings about others. So a whack on the head and a yell in the ear is about all the good I can get. But because of this, I saw his vulnerable side. He doesn't want others to know his feelings so that when he got hurt no one will really know. Convenient isn't it?
But being the lovable guy that I am, Sanzo had somehow changed. He had gone mellow and lighter. He now smiles a day. Two if I can coax more of it. When we're alone that's when he really surprises me. He has a wild side, especially in bed! Hehehe.. Wait what am I thinking? I'm supposed to be innocent and all that crap! Okay, so never mind the comment. Sanzo is also possessive and very protective. Actually all I've seen in him is his strengths. Never really thought about his weaknesses. I suppose he has one. All of us do. Maybe the closest thing that he had for a weakness is when someone threatened his loved one. We all know about Komyo Sanzo. He was killed right in front of Sanzo's eyes. Ever since, Sanzo had hated himself because of his helplessness. Well, I would like to think that he also felt that way when I was kidnapped by Homura.
Homura. Why do I have to think about him now? I'm really happy about the way things are going between Sanzo and me. But whenever I think about Homura, I feel really, really disgusted with myself. I feel like I don't have the right to be with Sanzo because I was defiled by another person. I was really hoping that my first time was going to be with Sanzo but I guess I didn't wish hard enough. What a way to lose it though. I wonder what Homura is doing? Is he okay or what? I really wish I hadn't played with him. Killed him in one single blow. Then I wouldn't be praying to any kami who is listening that he never recovers from his injury. Next time, Homura. Next time. I promise you after I'm through, you wouldn't be able to see the sun rise any more.
I sighed and looked at Sanzo. As always, he looked magnificently handsome, with moonlight illuminating his finely sculpted face and his lithe chest rising up and down rhythmically. Watching him makes me go into trance state. I couldn't stop looking at him. It's really, really addicting. This night has been really discouraging and deflating. The whole day we were in the jeep, I was daydreaming about when we are going to reach town, so I could have a 'fun private' time with Sanzo. But then Sanzo picks up this time to sulk and go into his own little world. Really fabulous. It's okay though. I get to massage him anyway. I feel myself smirking. At least I've satisfied myself enough. Really, if you think I'm innocent, then you don't know what you're thinking.
There is one good thing about having the image of a bakazaru. You could fool others. Make them think that you don't have a clue about what's going on. It's really helpful when you don't want to help strategize about something. Or when you don't want to be bugged, because no one will really trust your opinion or advice or anything of that sort. And also its fun irritating other people. Make them nuts about your stupidity and stuff. My favorite victim is of course, Gojyo. We would die of boredom if I weren't goofy enough. It's also fun to provoke Sanzo. Hakkai? He's so nice to me that I pay him back by not giving him the headache as much as possible. One let down of being dumb and a bakazaru as an image is that no one takes me seriously when I'm serious. They think I'm still joking or whatever. A no one situation indeed.
I was distracted when Sanzo move beside me violently. "STOP!!!" Sanzo yelled. I looked over him in panic. What's the matter with Sanzo?! He still has his eyes closed. My god he's having a nightmare! "Oi, Sanzo! Sanzo! Wake up!!!" I yell while I grasped his shoulders and shook him. "STOP!!! Don't' come near me!!!" Sanzo yelled yet again. He hasn't come out of the nightmare! What should I do? "Sanzo! Wake up! Wake up!!" I pleaded frantically. Eyeing a pitcher of water at the bedside the table, I pitched forward to snatch it. Sorry Sanzo. Without much hesitation I poured it over the still thrashing Sanzo. "What..?" Sanzo opened his eyes and looked around his surroundings. He didn't even notice that he was soaking wet. I hugged him.
"You scared me again, Sanzo! I thought you weren't going to wake up." Sanzo still dazed looked at the top of my head, probably surprised that I was being that way. Suddenly I feel his strong arms encircle me. He was shaking and sobbing. "Goku, I was scared. I thought I wouldn't be able to pull through." It's my turn to be the hushing, empathasizing partner. "Its okay, I'm here." I clutched at him more firmly; as if I wouldn't dare anyone hurt him. He stayed that way until he calmed down.
"What did you dream about?" I ask him curious.
"It's nothing."
"Nothing? But.."
"I told you its nothing!" Sanzo finally snapped at me. I feel my eyes stinging. And I thought he was ready to share everything with me.
"I'm only concerned about you. You were screaming and pleading like mad. I just want to make everything all right." Sanzo relented and looked at me with earnest in his eyes.
"I know. I'm sorry about being harsh. Don't worry about me it was just a little kid's nightmare." Sanzo said as he hugged me close.
"Really?" I ask him, but deep inside I know he's lying. A kid's nightmare wouldn't result in that kind of reaction. In Sanzo's anyway. I just don't want to have an argument with him. Especially when he is still shaking slightly. I know that dream spooked him.
"Really. Besides I have you now. I can face anything." Sanzo said as he softly smiled down on me.
"I'll protect you Sanzo." I said impulsively.
"I don't need protecting."
"I know. But I'll be protecting you from nightmares!" I said gleefully. He raised his eyebrows at me.
"Uhuh. You're going into my mind and prevent the nightmare man." I chuckled. See? I told you he's loosened up a bit. He is even trying to make a joke.
"Well, you know me. Jack of all trades. Can do anything." I said huskily. This time it was Sanzo's turn to chuckle.
"But you are a master of none, as they say."
"Really? I thought I'm a master of this.." I lean over and kiss Sanzo full on the lips. I let my tongue slip in and explore him. He pulled away abruptly, a teasing glint in his eyes.
"Oh that. Sorry I forgot. But of course you are a master of that."
"I know. Thank you."
I wake up earlier than Sanzo. I bet he's tired about our evening activity and still stressed about the dream. I just hope he got over it quickly. Although I would love to know what his dream was, I think its better that he forgets its sooner, so that he could go back to his usual self. I don't want to see him tormented like I did last night. It's really heartbreaking to see him like that. Maybe it's because I'm used to his expressionless face and his carefree attitude that seeing him like that scared gives me the creeps. I look over to him one more time before I left the room quietly.
I made my way down the kitchen to ask the landlady some food. I'll just tell her that Sanzo will pay for it later. He will be mad of course, because I didn't ask first but he'll be angrier if I wake him this early! I reach the bottom of the steps and looked around. Hmmm.. maybe the mistress is still sleeping. I thought to myself. I considered the urge to just go in there and get food from the fridge. A bad idea though. They might think I'm stealing! So I ended up going out. I could just entertain myself watching people pass by or something.
I sat down on a bench outside the inn. The cool wind felt nice on my face. I was looking at the vast blue sky when someone sits beside me.
"Nice day isn't?" The man asked.
"Yeah. It's so peaceful and calm. I just hope it won't rain today." I commented not really looking at the man. I just want to be alone and bask in the sun.
"I think it will not last."
"Huh? What won't last?" I ask confused. I look at the man. He looked thirty- ish and he had an eye patch over his left eye. The uncovered eye is blue. Exactly the shade, if not one shade darker than the sky. He also had long, black hair which was tied at the nape. The man just smiled.
"Its nothing. I was just telling that I think that it would not rain."
"Oh. If you say so." I say nonchantly at the man. He seems nice, but I guess I'm just not in the mood to mingle.
"I hear some of your companions don't like rain."
"Huh? How did you know? Actually two of them do."
"Really? Does that include the golden haired fellow?" He asked.
"You mean, Sanzo? Oh yeah, I guess. Hey wait how did you know I have a golden haired companion?" I asked him getting intrigued and suspicious.
"I saw you enter this inn, yesterday. There were four of you right?"
"Uhuh. Look mister what are you getting at?" I ask getting tired. Looks like this man is a fan of Sanzo.. Ho-hum, there is really one in each town who fell for him. That's not really surprising though. I don't worry, because I know Sanzo will never give them the time of the day.
"I was just making talk son. But I can see that you and that man have a thing going on eh?" He asks me smiling knowingly. I raised my eyebrows at him. Really perceptive!
"How can you tell?" I ask him.
"Oh I just do."
"Aww.. come on tell me." I ask getting interested in him. He really raised my attention. Looks like this guys a gossip! Maybe I could learn more from him. Hehehe..
SANZO'S POV
When I came around Goku was gone. I presume he went downstairs to get a snack. That zaru's always hungry; I just hope he doesn't raid the fridge empty. I took my time in getting ready. Put on the sutra. Tuck in my gun and fan. What else? Oh yeah cigarettes. I pick them from the stand and pocketed them. I went to the window to get a whiff of fresh air when I feel faint. I look wildly around. It seems as if something's watching over me. This is the creepy feeling that I got yesterday! I thought to myself as I hold the banister to steady myself up.
I took long deep breaths to calm myself down. It's no use. The dream or the nightmare more clearly put it seeping again. I wanted to pound my head to make me forget but then Hakkai took that moment to come in.
"Sanzo? Are you awake? We better eat breakfast soon. You want an early start ne?"
"Hai." I said as I let myself walk. Hakkai looked at me closely.
"Are you okay? You look a little pale."
"And you look a little nosy." I snapped. What is the matter with him? I don't need him to fuss over me! I can take care of myself. Right? Hakkai just smiled. That man is really getting on my nerves! I said to myself as I let myself out of the room.
Good, all this anger makes me forget about that. The zaru is not yet on the table. I wonder where he could be? Sanzo stepped out of the inn and looked at the bench. He knows that the zaru likes to take some time alone with himself, and that would be the perfect place to do so. Bingo! He is there. "Gok.." My voice died down when I noticed he was with someone. A man with long black hair tied at the nape. A lithe built. The man turned around and faced me. The man suddenly smiled wickedly and bowed to me. It feels like I'm in time warp. Everything is going so slow. The man winked. I noticed he had blue eyes and patch over the left one. I feel the world spin. He is the man in my dream.. I thought dazed as the world suddenly turned black.
t.b.c
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A/N: reviews are always welcomed! Really, they're helpful and give inspiration, so if you have the time, please review! ^___^
Lol! *mwahugz* to you guys!
Hope you enjoyed reading!
Hoshii/chris --- ey thanks! I'm really glad you liked belonging! Hope you will enjoy this one too.. ^___^
sHELFU-SAN --- no prob! Really liked you're story; I think that's the first one I encountered with a Sanzo-Homura pairing! Really original! ^___^
Shadow of Arashi--- lol! I'm glad you don't care about Sanzo being like that. I guess he'll be like that for the entire story. ^___^
--- love to punish Sanzo like that! Hehehehe... *evil grin*
stussygal24---this is after belonging, actually.. Hehehe.. lol!
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Chapter 2
GOKU'S POV
Sanzo's been acting strange since we arrived here. I wonder what's he up to? He's been pretty tense and passive at dinner. It's as if he's watching his back for someone who might attack him. His eyes kept darting towards the entrance and he's wolfing down food as if he won't have the liberty of eating again. Hmm..if it's me it's understandable because I could eat ten times as much as them. Thinking about food makes me really hungry. Pork buns, shrimp dumplings.. Mmmm.
Wait, I'm still sulking about Sanzo. Okay back to topic. As I've said, he's not himself. I mean, when I declared at dinner time that I was going to order more food he just mumbled a quick okay and resumed eating. Even Gojyo and Hakkai had the grace to raise their eyebrows at Sanzo. Really. If he was his normal, arrogant self I would've received a mighty whack on the head. I get whacked about twenty times a day. Today, I was lucky. I was whacked only five times since he was pretty preoccupied about his own ghost.
You know what? I don't mind being treated that way by him. I made myself believe that it was his sign of affection towards me. Sure it's painful and it's irritating at times because sometimes I wasn't really doing anything wrong. He just feels like it. But that was what I like about Sanzo in the first place. He had a twisted notion of giving affection. Its one of a kind really. He'd rather die first before divulging his feelings about others. So a whack on the head and a yell in the ear is about all the good I can get. But because of this, I saw his vulnerable side. He doesn't want others to know his feelings so that when he got hurt no one will really know. Convenient isn't it?
But being the lovable guy that I am, Sanzo had somehow changed. He had gone mellow and lighter. He now smiles a day. Two if I can coax more of it. When we're alone that's when he really surprises me. He has a wild side, especially in bed! Hehehe.. Wait what am I thinking? I'm supposed to be innocent and all that crap! Okay, so never mind the comment. Sanzo is also possessive and very protective. Actually all I've seen in him is his strengths. Never really thought about his weaknesses. I suppose he has one. All of us do. Maybe the closest thing that he had for a weakness is when someone threatened his loved one. We all know about Komyo Sanzo. He was killed right in front of Sanzo's eyes. Ever since, Sanzo had hated himself because of his helplessness. Well, I would like to think that he also felt that way when I was kidnapped by Homura.
Homura. Why do I have to think about him now? I'm really happy about the way things are going between Sanzo and me. But whenever I think about Homura, I feel really, really disgusted with myself. I feel like I don't have the right to be with Sanzo because I was defiled by another person. I was really hoping that my first time was going to be with Sanzo but I guess I didn't wish hard enough. What a way to lose it though. I wonder what Homura is doing? Is he okay or what? I really wish I hadn't played with him. Killed him in one single blow. Then I wouldn't be praying to any kami who is listening that he never recovers from his injury. Next time, Homura. Next time. I promise you after I'm through, you wouldn't be able to see the sun rise any more.
I sighed and looked at Sanzo. As always, he looked magnificently handsome, with moonlight illuminating his finely sculpted face and his lithe chest rising up and down rhythmically. Watching him makes me go into trance state. I couldn't stop looking at him. It's really, really addicting. This night has been really discouraging and deflating. The whole day we were in the jeep, I was daydreaming about when we are going to reach town, so I could have a 'fun private' time with Sanzo. But then Sanzo picks up this time to sulk and go into his own little world. Really fabulous. It's okay though. I get to massage him anyway. I feel myself smirking. At least I've satisfied myself enough. Really, if you think I'm innocent, then you don't know what you're thinking.
There is one good thing about having the image of a bakazaru. You could fool others. Make them think that you don't have a clue about what's going on. It's really helpful when you don't want to help strategize about something. Or when you don't want to be bugged, because no one will really trust your opinion or advice or anything of that sort. And also its fun irritating other people. Make them nuts about your stupidity and stuff. My favorite victim is of course, Gojyo. We would die of boredom if I weren't goofy enough. It's also fun to provoke Sanzo. Hakkai? He's so nice to me that I pay him back by not giving him the headache as much as possible. One let down of being dumb and a bakazaru as an image is that no one takes me seriously when I'm serious. They think I'm still joking or whatever. A no one situation indeed.
I was distracted when Sanzo move beside me violently. "STOP!!!" Sanzo yelled. I looked over him in panic. What's the matter with Sanzo?! He still has his eyes closed. My god he's having a nightmare! "Oi, Sanzo! Sanzo! Wake up!!!" I yell while I grasped his shoulders and shook him. "STOP!!! Don't' come near me!!!" Sanzo yelled yet again. He hasn't come out of the nightmare! What should I do? "Sanzo! Wake up! Wake up!!" I pleaded frantically. Eyeing a pitcher of water at the bedside the table, I pitched forward to snatch it. Sorry Sanzo. Without much hesitation I poured it over the still thrashing Sanzo. "What..?" Sanzo opened his eyes and looked around his surroundings. He didn't even notice that he was soaking wet. I hugged him.
"You scared me again, Sanzo! I thought you weren't going to wake up." Sanzo still dazed looked at the top of my head, probably surprised that I was being that way. Suddenly I feel his strong arms encircle me. He was shaking and sobbing. "Goku, I was scared. I thought I wouldn't be able to pull through." It's my turn to be the hushing, empathasizing partner. "Its okay, I'm here." I clutched at him more firmly; as if I wouldn't dare anyone hurt him. He stayed that way until he calmed down.
"What did you dream about?" I ask him curious.
"It's nothing."
"Nothing? But.."
"I told you its nothing!" Sanzo finally snapped at me. I feel my eyes stinging. And I thought he was ready to share everything with me.
"I'm only concerned about you. You were screaming and pleading like mad. I just want to make everything all right." Sanzo relented and looked at me with earnest in his eyes.
"I know. I'm sorry about being harsh. Don't worry about me it was just a little kid's nightmare." Sanzo said as he hugged me close.
"Really?" I ask him, but deep inside I know he's lying. A kid's nightmare wouldn't result in that kind of reaction. In Sanzo's anyway. I just don't want to have an argument with him. Especially when he is still shaking slightly. I know that dream spooked him.
"Really. Besides I have you now. I can face anything." Sanzo said as he softly smiled down on me.
"I'll protect you Sanzo." I said impulsively.
"I don't need protecting."
"I know. But I'll be protecting you from nightmares!" I said gleefully. He raised his eyebrows at me.
"Uhuh. You're going into my mind and prevent the nightmare man." I chuckled. See? I told you he's loosened up a bit. He is even trying to make a joke.
"Well, you know me. Jack of all trades. Can do anything." I said huskily. This time it was Sanzo's turn to chuckle.
"But you are a master of none, as they say."
"Really? I thought I'm a master of this.." I lean over and kiss Sanzo full on the lips. I let my tongue slip in and explore him. He pulled away abruptly, a teasing glint in his eyes.
"Oh that. Sorry I forgot. But of course you are a master of that."
"I know. Thank you."
I wake up earlier than Sanzo. I bet he's tired about our evening activity and still stressed about the dream. I just hope he got over it quickly. Although I would love to know what his dream was, I think its better that he forgets its sooner, so that he could go back to his usual self. I don't want to see him tormented like I did last night. It's really heartbreaking to see him like that. Maybe it's because I'm used to his expressionless face and his carefree attitude that seeing him like that scared gives me the creeps. I look over to him one more time before I left the room quietly.
I made my way down the kitchen to ask the landlady some food. I'll just tell her that Sanzo will pay for it later. He will be mad of course, because I didn't ask first but he'll be angrier if I wake him this early! I reach the bottom of the steps and looked around. Hmmm.. maybe the mistress is still sleeping. I thought to myself. I considered the urge to just go in there and get food from the fridge. A bad idea though. They might think I'm stealing! So I ended up going out. I could just entertain myself watching people pass by or something.
I sat down on a bench outside the inn. The cool wind felt nice on my face. I was looking at the vast blue sky when someone sits beside me.
"Nice day isn't?" The man asked.
"Yeah. It's so peaceful and calm. I just hope it won't rain today." I commented not really looking at the man. I just want to be alone and bask in the sun.
"I think it will not last."
"Huh? What won't last?" I ask confused. I look at the man. He looked thirty- ish and he had an eye patch over his left eye. The uncovered eye is blue. Exactly the shade, if not one shade darker than the sky. He also had long, black hair which was tied at the nape. The man just smiled.
"Its nothing. I was just telling that I think that it would not rain."
"Oh. If you say so." I say nonchantly at the man. He seems nice, but I guess I'm just not in the mood to mingle.
"I hear some of your companions don't like rain."
"Huh? How did you know? Actually two of them do."
"Really? Does that include the golden haired fellow?" He asked.
"You mean, Sanzo? Oh yeah, I guess. Hey wait how did you know I have a golden haired companion?" I asked him getting intrigued and suspicious.
"I saw you enter this inn, yesterday. There were four of you right?"
"Uhuh. Look mister what are you getting at?" I ask getting tired. Looks like this man is a fan of Sanzo.. Ho-hum, there is really one in each town who fell for him. That's not really surprising though. I don't worry, because I know Sanzo will never give them the time of the day.
"I was just making talk son. But I can see that you and that man have a thing going on eh?" He asks me smiling knowingly. I raised my eyebrows at him. Really perceptive!
"How can you tell?" I ask him.
"Oh I just do."
"Aww.. come on tell me." I ask getting interested in him. He really raised my attention. Looks like this guys a gossip! Maybe I could learn more from him. Hehehe..
SANZO'S POV
When I came around Goku was gone. I presume he went downstairs to get a snack. That zaru's always hungry; I just hope he doesn't raid the fridge empty. I took my time in getting ready. Put on the sutra. Tuck in my gun and fan. What else? Oh yeah cigarettes. I pick them from the stand and pocketed them. I went to the window to get a whiff of fresh air when I feel faint. I look wildly around. It seems as if something's watching over me. This is the creepy feeling that I got yesterday! I thought to myself as I hold the banister to steady myself up.
I took long deep breaths to calm myself down. It's no use. The dream or the nightmare more clearly put it seeping again. I wanted to pound my head to make me forget but then Hakkai took that moment to come in.
"Sanzo? Are you awake? We better eat breakfast soon. You want an early start ne?"
"Hai." I said as I let myself walk. Hakkai looked at me closely.
"Are you okay? You look a little pale."
"And you look a little nosy." I snapped. What is the matter with him? I don't need him to fuss over me! I can take care of myself. Right? Hakkai just smiled. That man is really getting on my nerves! I said to myself as I let myself out of the room.
Good, all this anger makes me forget about that. The zaru is not yet on the table. I wonder where he could be? Sanzo stepped out of the inn and looked at the bench. He knows that the zaru likes to take some time alone with himself, and that would be the perfect place to do so. Bingo! He is there. "Gok.." My voice died down when I noticed he was with someone. A man with long black hair tied at the nape. A lithe built. The man turned around and faced me. The man suddenly smiled wickedly and bowed to me. It feels like I'm in time warp. Everything is going so slow. The man winked. I noticed he had blue eyes and patch over the left one. I feel the world spin. He is the man in my dream.. I thought dazed as the world suddenly turned black.
t.b.c
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A/N: reviews are always welcomed! Really, they're helpful and give inspiration, so if you have the time, please review! ^___^
Lol! *mwahugz* to you guys!
Hope you enjoyed reading!