I just realized I switch tenses a lot. Deal with it. . Sorry for not coming out with this chapter sooner! I know its short but so is life and then you die.


"Mother... I wish you were still here. You never loved me, I don't think, but, I wish you could answer all these questions that I have. Who am I Mother? Who is my father? Why do I care who he is, why do I need to know..."

"Help me."

"I need you. I need someone who will tell me.."




"Hey Shiv! How'd it go?" Ifrit trotted up to me cheerfuly with Odin in tow, meeting me at the bottom of the Fire Shrine.

"Fine."

"You okay?"

"Fine."

"Aren't you going to say anything besides fine, lady?" Odin asked me. He calls me lady instead of by my name, but I like it better than Shiv.

"Fine."

"Are you sure you're okay Shiv?"

"I'm fine!" I screamed at them and go into a sulking position on the horse.

"Shiv, it's alright..."

"No it's not! NO IT'S NOT!" I scream again, and start choking on tears. I can't cry, I just can't. Not in front of them...

"I think I'll leave you guys alone, you know her better than me..." Odin whispered to Ifrit, not thinking I could hear, and he slinks away.

"Shiv..."

"LEAVE ME ALONE!"

"Shiva, it's alright. I promise, just tell me what's wrong..."

"Nothing is wrong, just leave me alone..." I whispered. No one could ever understand. Ifrit didn't have his mother's dying words to haunt him for the rest of his damn life!

"Well la dee fricken da then! God, you can be so b-..."

"Do you WANT to finish that sentence?" I glared pointedly at him. Never mess with a deppressed, pissed, prone to voilent actions, blue, hundreds of years old girl. Never.

He shook his head no and scrambeled off.

"I thought so."