She thought about asking someone to just look at it for her, but then they would know that she thought she was...pregnant and that would not be good.
"Just look at it, you're letting some silly little test get you worked up for no reason, it's negative, it has to be." She mumbled to herself. She looked back at the table and saw the brown paper bag that she would need if the test was positive. "Thank God for paper bags." She said out loud.
She turned toward the table. One step...two...three. She slowly inched closer to the table. All of a sudden she heard the door shut and jumped. She turned around and saw her client Zander.
"I-uh- thought you were with Emily?" she said looking over at the table in a panic.
"Yeah, I forgot something. Are you okay? You look upset, has the DA dropped the deal or something?" he asked his alarm plainly showing on his face.
"No, everything's fine. Have a good time with Emily and be back by curfew or face Sonny." "I will, Alexis, thank you again for everything you have done for me. You and Emily have so much faith in me and I haven't had that in a long time." He seemed to be thinking something over and then he spoke again. "You've been almost like a mother to me, I mean you let me stay in your penthouse, you make sure I eat, that I always wear my coat when I go outside." He laughed and then turned serious. "I know I can trust you and that means a lot to me. Thank you." He said as he awkwardly hugged her and then went upstairs.
Alexis waited until he came back down. He was headed for the door and she stopped him. "Zander, I want to tell you that I have loved having you here and...your like a son to me." She stopped trying not to cry. "Well don't keep Emily waiting." She said lightly. He smiled and walked out the door. Alexis let out a long breath. It was the moment of truth she had to know for sure would she be a mother, was she carrying Ned's child. She took a long breath and walked over to the table. She averted her gaze from the pregnancy test and just looked out the window for a few minutes. She closed her eyes and when she opened them she was staring at a bright pink plus sign.
"Oh my God! It's positive, this has to be wrong, it just has to be wrong." She said staring at it in disbelief. "This is all--a--horrible--nightmare." She said as it became harder to breathe. She grabbed the paper back and started breathing in and out. 'Thank God for paper bags' she thought again. After five minutes she calmed down. "Okay, this is no big deal...what am I saying of course this is a big deal, this is a gigantic deal. I am not equipped to take care of a child. Just look at me, I don't even really like children!" she said as she started to pace.
"I should call Ned." She said as she picked up the phone, dialed three digits and then she hung up. "Of course I can't call Ned. I have to be calm." She said sitting on the sofa.
"Chloe, yes I can go tell her." She said as she grabbed her coat and then put it back. "No, she's to close to Ned...Sonny, I can tell Sonny, he'll keep it a secret." She said as she straightened her blouse and walked across the hall to where Johnny stood.
"Hello, Johnny, is Sonny here." He nodded so Alexis let herself inside. She averted her gaze when she saw that Carly was sitting on the ottoman buttoning her shirt back up and shooting daggers at her and Sonny was tucking his shirt back into his pants. "I didn't mean to disturb you---"
"Well, guess what, you did," Said Carly none to nicely.
"It's alright Alexis, what can I do for you?" asked Sonny standing up and walking towards her.
"I was hoping we could talk in-in private," She replied nervously.
"I know, 'Carly go upstairs so I can talk to my loony lawyer'," Imitated Carly as she stood up. "I'll be at Deception if you need me." She said as she walked by Alexis.
"Bye," Said Sonny as he watched Carly leave, he then walked back over to the sofa and sat down. Alexis followed and sat down but then decided she should stand up. She paced as Sonny's dark eyes followed her.
"I really don't know what I am going to do this time," Said Alexis throwing up her arms as she paced for another minute. "On second thought I think I should go back over to the Penthouse, tell Carly I'm sorry for interrupting."
"No, no, no. What's the problem?" asked Sonny as he stood up, gently put his hands on her shoulders to stop her from leaving. Alexis started pacing again.
"Did you have another fight with Ashton?" asked Sonny his eyes still following her.
"This is really unprofessional, I'm your lawyer and you are my client.''
''Come on, Alexis. We're friends, you can tell me and it won't leave this room,'' He said smiling and she looked at his gorgeous dimples.
She hated how those eyes drew you in and made you actually WANT to tell the truth. ''I'm pregnant, there I said it. Can you believe this? I don't even know what Ned will think, actually I do know what he will think, he'll want us to get back together and be a happy family, I don't know if I want that. I have spent the last ten minutes breathing into a paper bag. I am not ready for this, I'm to old for this. How am I supposed to care for a baby?" asked Alexis exasperated.
"Hey, you'll make it, you know Ashton won't abandon you and if he does, Johnny and I will have a little talk with him."
Alexis smiled at his protectiveness toward her and then flat out laughed as she pictured Ned surrounded by an angry Sonny and Johnny. She looked over at Sonny who was smiling back at her.
"Thanks, I needed a laugh."
"No problem, you know that if you ever need to talk about Ashton or anything else, my door is always open."
"I doubt Carly thinks the same way," answered Alexis dryly.
"She just doesn't get along with women to well, I'm sure that if you really got to know her you two could be friends."
"That's definitely something to think about. Well I should be going," said Alexis walking towards the door.
"Alexis, don't hide this from Ashton, he deserves to know."
Alexis just nodded and left.