Title: Raging Numb

Autor: CrashOverride

Rating: PG-13 for Language.

Note: Longer... maybe even better... I don't know really, i am enjoying how this is unfolding though. ^_^ .. Anywho... I am working on trying to capture their personalities better, and making each parts longer.... Bare with me...Thanks to eveyone who reviews. Its a 4 Day Weekend.... so expect more chapters soon... Thanks.

Love you all... CrashOverride

Part III: Indulgence Found

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"Yuy... I don't think he would keep vital information about himself on a disk that could be easily found. I mean honestly... We know he is not that stupid!" Wufei hissed as a rather large shadow creeped along the corridors of their school.

"Wufei has a point Heero..." Quatre chimed in as they made it to this meeting point, the far corner of the Library. Trowa, leaning against the far wall, gave each a curt nod before taking his place next to Quatre.

"... It's been months now and do any of you know much about him? Besides the obvious. Do you know the names of his parents or family, where he used to live, how he became a Gundam pilot? Anything at all?" silence rang out through the library. Heero, booted up his laptop, inserted the disk and began scrolling through its contents.

"Well... what did you find?" Quatre finally asked after the long silence.

"Thousands of files, all text, some zipped, mostly old file, earliest file is dated to be 6 years ago, before the war and the Gundam's. Little to no security. Several files with our names attached, along with his newest file, updated tonight, code-named, 'Hostage'. Well let's see where that takes us. .... States ... Have you ever been at that point in your life where you continuously wonder about your heart? Whether you are in love, lust, or a crush? Even through the war, the blood, the gore and death, the feelings won't leave. You don't want to betray your training and seem weak to your comrades. ...."

"Heero it sounds like a diary entry!" Quatre said nervously.

"It does Yuy."

"Fine, let's see what he has under our names then....

Heero Yuy

Pilot of Gundam 01, Wing, Wing Zero

Parents: Father undisclosed. Mother Mizuno Megami, deceased

Siblings: None

Known relatives: Assassinated

DOB: Unknown

Current age: 16

Background: Father and mother, killed but Dr. J's men before attachment could be established between mother and son. Then placed in the care of Dr. J. Of all Gundam pilots, 01's training, went far beyond the words of cruelty. Code-named the Perfect Solider, which is incorrect. Dr. J knows that to also have a perfect solider, the one must be driven by emotions, such as Yuy does not have. Thus he is but a human robot, doing his job as told to.

Mission: My mission assigned by Professor G, Enlightenment of emotions. Push his to the point of breaking all binds that control emotion, thus, giving us the Perfect solider that we need.

Mission Accomplished or Failed: Failed...." Heero stopped, a painful silent stung his ears. Looking up, all eyes were down cast towards the table or floor. I found myself still hiding, staring into the not lost cobalt eyes. His face now seemed like that of a child, not knowing what to do, or how to continue. Knowing that they had read enough of my files. My work, I crept silently behind Heero, ejected my disk before he could continue. Though my actions did not go unnoticed.

" Where did you find that information?"

"Did you enjoy reading it?"

"Where did you find it?"

"You never should have seen it. I have my sources. But I will never give them to you. None of you know how long I have been gathering information on all of you. The process was painstaking and long..." I growled, mentally smacking myself. I had screwed up, no matter what I had screwed up big time. ' Okay... they know... what did G tell me to do.... Uh.... Send him all information gathered, if found out, or if captured with disk, destroy. If only this were a capture situation' I mused silently, turning on my heel and walking out.

I hadn't gotten far before I was stopped, Heero, stood in front of me, eyes demanding, the others I suppose were behind me, cutting off all exits, thus it was turning into a capture situation.

"I am the commanding officer in out team, and you will answer all question asked about that disk!" he spat, menace dripping from every word.

"Will I? Well... if I remember correctly, in 10 seconds, the guard will come to this hall way, we will all be put into solitary confinement for a 2 day suspension for being out of our room during lights out, and speak of the devil..." I smirked flicking my wrist to the guard turning the corner and striding towards us. If this situation could get any worse, I would like not to be here to see it. Knowing that we were in no way out for just a stroll, not all 5 of us, we were escorted to detention room.

One person sat in each corner, while the 5th, me, sat in the middle of this vacant room. Once the guard finished 'chaining' us into our positions, also known as hand cuffing us to the floor with heavy duty cuffs, attached to 5 foot long chains that appeared to be built into the concrete floor. He locked the door, throwing us a warning glance and stating that we would be checked on at 9 AM. According to the clock, it was only, 2:30 AM.

'This is going to be a long night...' I thought sighing, before standing up and digging the disk out of my left back pocket. Sitting back down, I brought my knees to my chest, wrapping my arms around protectively. Resting my head on my knees I stared at the disk stuck between mission and conscience.

"Duo!" Heero growled, voice low with rage, eyes blazing with a fire that could scare Satan. He stood in the upper right corner of the room, fist clenched. His glare, if looks could kill, would have made me instantaneously combust. Never had I ever seen so much emotion rack though him.

"Hmm?"

"Where did you get the information?!"

"Like I said before, I had been getting it long before this war began. This is part of my side mission. Continuously gather information of my fellow pilots. Though now I doubt you will believe the reason as to why I have been collecting this information.

G had told about each of you, how you were selected, created or stolen from family. G had taken pity on me since he knew that I had no family, but would learn to adapt. Make a new family if given the chance. I have successfully completed that mission. You are my family, no matter how much crap you put me through, or how much you disapprove of my techniques.

I believed that once the war was over and we are all alive, no ifs and or buts about that. You all will survive this war even if I have to give my life for that. Any way back to the topic, once we were done with this fuckin war, I would give you all a report of your past, your family, what belongs to you, where you can find information, people who knew your parents, or where you were born, anything I could get my hands.

Excluding slightly Quatre, and Wufei, I believed that you all would want to know. Know about your parents, brothers and sisters, estates and money that belong to you. Photos, toys, memories that they stole from us. I wanted to give it back to you, as much as I could.

Not like you could fully understand that Heero, I never expected you too. But you could use the information for whatever you wanted to. So it would make things easier to continue with the present and future. No need to look back and wonder. I wanted to give you an answer to your questions! And I know even you, Perfect Solider that you are, has questions that no one will answer... I wanted to give you peace.... Maybe even hope...." I finished, sighing deeply, before burying my head in my knees, trying unsuccessfully to calm all the emotion and pain that had been brought forth. Trying to stifle the gut wrenching sobs that were aching to escape.

Silence echoed through the room, it was now 5 AM, and my body finally gave out, surrendering to exhaustion. Cursing myself for not putting on warmer cloths I fell into the void, though now accusing whispers and floating blackness occupied my fitful sleep.

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End of Part 3 Hope you enjoyed. And yes I know that some information put in the Heero profile might be incorrect, but believe me I know. For the fact that this is of my creation I added and changed facts to my liking just for this story. Bare with me.... ^_^;;