I never meant for anyone to get hurt by my words and actions. It was an
accident. I just wish they would notice that instead of all the crap I
didn't do or know about. But what can I say? I don't matter to anyone
anyways.
I can't really go running to someone since I'm nothing more than a child, a mere child who does nothing but whine and never accepts the reality of pain and suffering. I don't even know why I'm talking. It's just better if I sit here and act like nothing ever happened to me except that people died all around me. Hn. Right, like I'd ever do that.
I'm not some helpless little kid who doesn't know what to do at different times in life. I'm just more along the lines of the fact that I know too much and am just waiting for the government to find and destroy me because of that little thing called fear. But no, I'm not that lucky.
I'm just this pitiful being who has to sit here and listen to everyone's problems and be shunned away because I'm different. No one ever wants to know what I think because they won't understand it. Maybe they're just too ignorant to understand the simplest things I have to say. Well, whatever it is, I don't care. It's not like anyone is going to come knocking on my door just because I look down today.
I mean I look down and depressed all the time, but not even my best friends even think of it as if there's something wrong in this tortured and twisted mind of mine. I guess they accept it as a natural thing thanks to being the whole "Solitary Dragon" and all. But the only thing I do understand about them is the fact that they think all I do is rant about injustice, weak people, and bleeding hearts while screaming something about Nataku.
Geeze, it's like they've accepted me as that. Some character that I actually seem to look at as a greatly crafted person; yeah, if they were real. But in fact, the Heero Yuy wannabe said that I act more like Kamui from 'X' than anyone else.
I find that oddly amusing.
But it's kind of weird. She never wanted to know how I felt, so why should she care now? Well, whatever it is, the little façade better end so I know what they're all up to. Hn. They're probably planning on sending me to a loony bin. It's not like I'd be surprised if they did do that to me. I've put them through so much crap and made them think that I was some sort of nut.
Well, it was all in good fun and to hide my true feelings. It doesn't matter now anyways. They're never going to look at this even if they do find it. Oh well. I guess I better go and 'pretend' that everything is alright and I'm going to make it through the day.
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A/n: gomen ne, but I didn't mean to put actual facts in this. But hey, it works doesn't it?
I can't really go running to someone since I'm nothing more than a child, a mere child who does nothing but whine and never accepts the reality of pain and suffering. I don't even know why I'm talking. It's just better if I sit here and act like nothing ever happened to me except that people died all around me. Hn. Right, like I'd ever do that.
I'm not some helpless little kid who doesn't know what to do at different times in life. I'm just more along the lines of the fact that I know too much and am just waiting for the government to find and destroy me because of that little thing called fear. But no, I'm not that lucky.
I'm just this pitiful being who has to sit here and listen to everyone's problems and be shunned away because I'm different. No one ever wants to know what I think because they won't understand it. Maybe they're just too ignorant to understand the simplest things I have to say. Well, whatever it is, I don't care. It's not like anyone is going to come knocking on my door just because I look down today.
I mean I look down and depressed all the time, but not even my best friends even think of it as if there's something wrong in this tortured and twisted mind of mine. I guess they accept it as a natural thing thanks to being the whole "Solitary Dragon" and all. But the only thing I do understand about them is the fact that they think all I do is rant about injustice, weak people, and bleeding hearts while screaming something about Nataku.
Geeze, it's like they've accepted me as that. Some character that I actually seem to look at as a greatly crafted person; yeah, if they were real. But in fact, the Heero Yuy wannabe said that I act more like Kamui from 'X' than anyone else.
I find that oddly amusing.
But it's kind of weird. She never wanted to know how I felt, so why should she care now? Well, whatever it is, the little façade better end so I know what they're all up to. Hn. They're probably planning on sending me to a loony bin. It's not like I'd be surprised if they did do that to me. I've put them through so much crap and made them think that I was some sort of nut.
Well, it was all in good fun and to hide my true feelings. It doesn't matter now anyways. They're never going to look at this even if they do find it. Oh well. I guess I better go and 'pretend' that everything is alright and I'm going to make it through the day.
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A/n: gomen ne, but I didn't mean to put actual facts in this. But hey, it works doesn't it?