Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid.
It was the only word that was running through James head. James was well aware that there were hundreds of thousands of words in the English language, and he was also aware of hundreds of Latin words he used, but at that moment, his mind was not going to let him get past that one annoying word.
Stupid.
He was stupid. He had just done the stupidest thing in a long line of stupid things. He had asked Lily Evans to be a model for him.
Stupid!
He didn't know where his mind had been when the completely stupid idea had penetrated his frontal lobe. One minute he had just been sitting in potions, minding his own business and thinking how happy he was that Lily liked his photo, and then next minute, he was opening his stupid mouth and the stupid words were gushing out.
Stupid stupid.
He had seen the look that Lily had given him after he had asked. She looked shocked and appalled and happy and surprised, all in one. She was confused yet had a small glint of some thing else in her eyes. It could have been excitement, he didn't know.
All he did know was he was stupid.
Stupid Stupid Stupid.
And every one seemed to agree with him. After returning to their dorm room after class, James told Sirius about asking Lily to be his model. James had never seen his best friend laugh so hard.
"You did what?" Sirius had choked out between gasps of breath.
"I .... Well, I asked Lily to model for me" James repeated. That just made Sirius laugh even harder.
"Oh god, I thought I hadn't heard you right" Sirius howled with laughter, laughing tears running down his cheeks. His little laughing fit ended when he had rolled off of the bed, still laughing like a madman.
It wasn't that Sirius didn't think that Lily could do it, because he agreed with James, Lily was a very pretty girl and with the magic that James did when he had a camera in his hand, they could make beautiful photos together. Sirius just found it hilarious that James had been so straight forward and asked her that.
James, however, failed to see the humor in the situation, he had gone out on a limb and asked Lily to be a model for him, and she said that she would think about it.
She said she would think about it. That little piece of information had made Sirius stop laughing.
Thinking about it always ended in coming to a decision, either a yes or a no. James was just holding out on the hope she would say yes.
He had ulterior motives for asking her to be a model. He wanted to get to know her. He wanted to spend the time just talking to her, learning more about her. He wanted to form a friendship with her.
He hoped that she would say yes, not just for the sake of his art but also for the sake of his life. He knew it sounded really clichéd, but he knew Lily was a special person, and getting to know her better would make his life special.
Stupid. There was something else he didn't think of. Stupid
What if he scared her away? Lily was the type of person who didn't usually didn't hang out in big groups. She was the type of person who would much rather be alone with a book than talking to people. What if his offer had been too much for her? What if he had freaked her out?
Stupid Stupid Stupid Stupid Stupid Stupid Stupid Stupid Stupid Stupid Stupid Stupid Stupid.
James moved down the stairs to the common room, only to hear Sirius laughing at him. James sighed, maybe he wasn't the stupid one, maybe Sirius was.
"Knock it off Sirius" James growled, Sirius just smiled and shrugged.
"Hey James, when are you going to ask me to be your model" Remus laughed. James flipped him off.
"God Padfoot, is nothing sacred with you is it?" James asked. They boys just laughed.
"No, especially when it is as funny as you asking Lily to be your own personal model" Sirius replied. James was about to flip him the finger to, but soon realized that he couldn't be bothered.
James just collapsed onto one of the chairs and sighed. Sirius and Remus looked at each other and then crowded onto the chair, each of them taking one of James' sides.
"Ahhh, come on Prongs, tell uncle Padfoot and Uncle Moony what the problem is" Sirius smiled, babying James.
"Do you guys think I am stupid?" James began, before he had the chance to finish the statement, Sirius had fallen off of the chair and was rolling around the floor laughing again. Both of the other boys winced as his head almost collided with the corner of the coffee table.
"Would you like to re phrase that sentence so that I can answer it with out insulting you?" Remus asked. James sighed.
"This whole thing with Lily, do you think I am stupid for asking her to be my model?" James re phrased, Remus thought for a few seconds.
"Yes James, Of course I think you are a stupid idiot" Remus said after a few long seconds of thinking "But you did some thing that you wanted to do, so it is not really up to me to tell you how stupid you are"
"Ohhh, can I be the one to tell him he is stupid?" Sirius asked from the floor where he had stopped laughing.
"No" Both Remus and James replied.
"Oh, you two are no fun" Sirius whined.
"Listen James, just give her a few days, she may say that she wants to model for you, and she may also say the she doesn't. Neither of us know what she is going to say, so you may not be as stupid as you thought you were....shut up Padfoot" Remus managed to say just before Sirius said something to prove different.
Sirius made another dog like whining noise and then collapsed back onto the floor. Remus and James went on with their conversation about Lily and art. Sirius wasn't really listening, but he couldn't help laugh when one of them actually said "Lily is art" (which made no sense at all)
Sirius was the only one who heard the portrait door swing open and Lily enter. She was carrying her library books under one arm and holding a quill between her teeth (James was right, Sirius admitted, that was a really cute thing for her to do.)
They other two went on with their conversation about Lily, not realizing who had just walked it in. Sirius knew the right thing to do was to warn them that the subject of their conversation had just walked in, but when he thought about it, he realized that that would not be half as fun.
The boys continued to chat as Lily placed her books on the table in the corner, put down her quill, and then moved across to the group of boys. Sirius smiled up at her from his spot on the floor. Lily smiled and then turned back to Remus and James.
"I don't know how she does it to me, every time I see her I just turn into a blithering idiot. I can't stop thinking about her ... She is amazing" James explained to Remus.
Lily stopped to listen to the conversation. James liked a girl. She wanted to know who. She wanted to know who she had to be jealous of. She wanted to know what this meant with the whole modeling thing now. Now she was more confused than she was before.
"Um, James, you have a visitor" Sirius finally said. As fun as it was to watch James unconsciously embarrass himself, he had seen the pained look on Lily's face.
"Oh, Lily ..... Hi Lily....what can I do for you?" He stumbled over his words, which just made Sirius begin laughing yet again. James made a not to curse his best friend with the strongest curse he could find.
"Well, I was wondering if maybe would could have a talk about this whole modeling thing" Lily asked nervously, he voice shaking.
"Umm, sure, ok, let's get out of the common room though, and away from Sirius, he just can't stop giggling like a girl today" James said, standing and kicking Sirius in the shins.
"I will get you back for that Prongs" Sirius called as Lily and James both left the common room.
"So, what did you want to talk about?" James asked as he nervously ran his hand through his hair and down the back of his neck. Lily took a deep breath and avoided looking at him.
"Well...I was wondering what I would have to do as your model." She asked. James looked at her.
"Nothing distasteful, I promise ..... " James began; Lily laughed "I would just like to take a few pictures of you"
"Oh, ok, that is good"
"Are you still thinking about it?" James asked hopefully. Lily sighed.
"I am highly considering it, I think it would be fun, and you are a great artist so..... Yeah, I think I will do it" Lily smiled. James was so happy he could have kissed her, of course, he didn't. "But I was wondering if I could set some conditions"
"Sure Lily, anything you want" James replied. At that point he was so happy he would have agreed to dance around in his boxer shorts in the great hall during breakfast (he hoped to all who was listening that that was not one of her conditions)
"I would really like a few copies of the pictures to send to my dad" She began, James nodded, that was an understandable request. "And if it is not too much trouble....do you think that you could teach me how to take photos, I would really like to learn."
James smiled. He liked her conditions, and he really wanted to teach her how to take photos.
"Deal" He grinned and held out his hand.
"Deal" Lily replied, shaking his offered hand.
It was the only word that was running through James head. James was well aware that there were hundreds of thousands of words in the English language, and he was also aware of hundreds of Latin words he used, but at that moment, his mind was not going to let him get past that one annoying word.
Stupid.
He was stupid. He had just done the stupidest thing in a long line of stupid things. He had asked Lily Evans to be a model for him.
Stupid!
He didn't know where his mind had been when the completely stupid idea had penetrated his frontal lobe. One minute he had just been sitting in potions, minding his own business and thinking how happy he was that Lily liked his photo, and then next minute, he was opening his stupid mouth and the stupid words were gushing out.
Stupid stupid.
He had seen the look that Lily had given him after he had asked. She looked shocked and appalled and happy and surprised, all in one. She was confused yet had a small glint of some thing else in her eyes. It could have been excitement, he didn't know.
All he did know was he was stupid.
Stupid Stupid Stupid.
And every one seemed to agree with him. After returning to their dorm room after class, James told Sirius about asking Lily to be his model. James had never seen his best friend laugh so hard.
"You did what?" Sirius had choked out between gasps of breath.
"I .... Well, I asked Lily to model for me" James repeated. That just made Sirius laugh even harder.
"Oh god, I thought I hadn't heard you right" Sirius howled with laughter, laughing tears running down his cheeks. His little laughing fit ended when he had rolled off of the bed, still laughing like a madman.
It wasn't that Sirius didn't think that Lily could do it, because he agreed with James, Lily was a very pretty girl and with the magic that James did when he had a camera in his hand, they could make beautiful photos together. Sirius just found it hilarious that James had been so straight forward and asked her that.
James, however, failed to see the humor in the situation, he had gone out on a limb and asked Lily to be a model for him, and she said that she would think about it.
She said she would think about it. That little piece of information had made Sirius stop laughing.
Thinking about it always ended in coming to a decision, either a yes or a no. James was just holding out on the hope she would say yes.
He had ulterior motives for asking her to be a model. He wanted to get to know her. He wanted to spend the time just talking to her, learning more about her. He wanted to form a friendship with her.
He hoped that she would say yes, not just for the sake of his art but also for the sake of his life. He knew it sounded really clichéd, but he knew Lily was a special person, and getting to know her better would make his life special.
Stupid. There was something else he didn't think of. Stupid
What if he scared her away? Lily was the type of person who didn't usually didn't hang out in big groups. She was the type of person who would much rather be alone with a book than talking to people. What if his offer had been too much for her? What if he had freaked her out?
Stupid Stupid Stupid Stupid Stupid Stupid Stupid Stupid Stupid Stupid Stupid Stupid Stupid.
James moved down the stairs to the common room, only to hear Sirius laughing at him. James sighed, maybe he wasn't the stupid one, maybe Sirius was.
"Knock it off Sirius" James growled, Sirius just smiled and shrugged.
"Hey James, when are you going to ask me to be your model" Remus laughed. James flipped him off.
"God Padfoot, is nothing sacred with you is it?" James asked. They boys just laughed.
"No, especially when it is as funny as you asking Lily to be your own personal model" Sirius replied. James was about to flip him the finger to, but soon realized that he couldn't be bothered.
James just collapsed onto one of the chairs and sighed. Sirius and Remus looked at each other and then crowded onto the chair, each of them taking one of James' sides.
"Ahhh, come on Prongs, tell uncle Padfoot and Uncle Moony what the problem is" Sirius smiled, babying James.
"Do you guys think I am stupid?" James began, before he had the chance to finish the statement, Sirius had fallen off of the chair and was rolling around the floor laughing again. Both of the other boys winced as his head almost collided with the corner of the coffee table.
"Would you like to re phrase that sentence so that I can answer it with out insulting you?" Remus asked. James sighed.
"This whole thing with Lily, do you think I am stupid for asking her to be my model?" James re phrased, Remus thought for a few seconds.
"Yes James, Of course I think you are a stupid idiot" Remus said after a few long seconds of thinking "But you did some thing that you wanted to do, so it is not really up to me to tell you how stupid you are"
"Ohhh, can I be the one to tell him he is stupid?" Sirius asked from the floor where he had stopped laughing.
"No" Both Remus and James replied.
"Oh, you two are no fun" Sirius whined.
"Listen James, just give her a few days, she may say that she wants to model for you, and she may also say the she doesn't. Neither of us know what she is going to say, so you may not be as stupid as you thought you were....shut up Padfoot" Remus managed to say just before Sirius said something to prove different.
Sirius made another dog like whining noise and then collapsed back onto the floor. Remus and James went on with their conversation about Lily and art. Sirius wasn't really listening, but he couldn't help laugh when one of them actually said "Lily is art" (which made no sense at all)
Sirius was the only one who heard the portrait door swing open and Lily enter. She was carrying her library books under one arm and holding a quill between her teeth (James was right, Sirius admitted, that was a really cute thing for her to do.)
They other two went on with their conversation about Lily, not realizing who had just walked it in. Sirius knew the right thing to do was to warn them that the subject of their conversation had just walked in, but when he thought about it, he realized that that would not be half as fun.
The boys continued to chat as Lily placed her books on the table in the corner, put down her quill, and then moved across to the group of boys. Sirius smiled up at her from his spot on the floor. Lily smiled and then turned back to Remus and James.
"I don't know how she does it to me, every time I see her I just turn into a blithering idiot. I can't stop thinking about her ... She is amazing" James explained to Remus.
Lily stopped to listen to the conversation. James liked a girl. She wanted to know who. She wanted to know who she had to be jealous of. She wanted to know what this meant with the whole modeling thing now. Now she was more confused than she was before.
"Um, James, you have a visitor" Sirius finally said. As fun as it was to watch James unconsciously embarrass himself, he had seen the pained look on Lily's face.
"Oh, Lily ..... Hi Lily....what can I do for you?" He stumbled over his words, which just made Sirius begin laughing yet again. James made a not to curse his best friend with the strongest curse he could find.
"Well, I was wondering if maybe would could have a talk about this whole modeling thing" Lily asked nervously, he voice shaking.
"Umm, sure, ok, let's get out of the common room though, and away from Sirius, he just can't stop giggling like a girl today" James said, standing and kicking Sirius in the shins.
"I will get you back for that Prongs" Sirius called as Lily and James both left the common room.
"So, what did you want to talk about?" James asked as he nervously ran his hand through his hair and down the back of his neck. Lily took a deep breath and avoided looking at him.
"Well...I was wondering what I would have to do as your model." She asked. James looked at her.
"Nothing distasteful, I promise ..... " James began; Lily laughed "I would just like to take a few pictures of you"
"Oh, ok, that is good"
"Are you still thinking about it?" James asked hopefully. Lily sighed.
"I am highly considering it, I think it would be fun, and you are a great artist so..... Yeah, I think I will do it" Lily smiled. James was so happy he could have kissed her, of course, he didn't. "But I was wondering if I could set some conditions"
"Sure Lily, anything you want" James replied. At that point he was so happy he would have agreed to dance around in his boxer shorts in the great hall during breakfast (he hoped to all who was listening that that was not one of her conditions)
"I would really like a few copies of the pictures to send to my dad" She began, James nodded, that was an understandable request. "And if it is not too much trouble....do you think that you could teach me how to take photos, I would really like to learn."
James smiled. He liked her conditions, and he really wanted to teach her how to take photos.
"Deal" He grinned and held out his hand.
"Deal" Lily replied, shaking his offered hand.