Faith Journey Towards Dawn.
By Darklight
I made a challenge based on Fic by Wyndgyrl, that the monks made sure that both slayers would protect the Key, Dawn. Dawn knew Faith from her time in Boston with her father and they fell in love, Faith was called at the time and left when her watcher got killed. Faith got 18 and was released from prison, wants to kill herself and Dawn just in time saves her. No one took it, so I tried to write it myself.
The two fics "I have never been to Boston" and "I choose to believe" written by Wyndgyrl at http://angelfire.com/grrl/wyndgyrl , Wyndgyrl had no plans to continue the fics, but liked the idea, and continued in a different direction, centred around the Mayor. I wanted to know more about Faiths first watcher, the idea that she would have made provision in the event she died.
So I made up the challenge. Read both fics, I think they are the best Wyndgyrl wrote till now, for the most part they fit in with my fic. Not to to tell the whole story, what if Dawn has memories of Faith dating before SD and slayer, she and Faith knew each other from Boston.
Feedback: darkandlight@wanadoo.nl
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I was starting to wake up, feeling relaxed and save, haven't felt and slept this good in ages, the sun was up and shining through the window blends of the room and nudging me to wake up. I did not want to wake up, I was feeling better than I felt in ages and I wanted to stay that way but the sun didn't let me be.
So I was gradually waking up, feeling safe and at peace and recaling the events tha took place last night, the memory of Dawn bursting into my room stopping me drinking from bottle of wine. Had I taken another sip I would have been death now, but Dawn stoped me and saved my live yesterday.
She's real not a dream I made up in my time in Boston, and she loves me and I love her.
Can't believe I was prepared to end everything last night, had my bottle of wine and pills ready to die so the next slayer would be called and the hurting would finally end. Took my first sip out of the bottle and before I can take the next that, Dawn storms into my room like an angel, stopping me from taking another one that one would definitely have killed me.
She came looking for me all on her own, went all the way to, on her own, to Boston to find me, still can't believe she's here in my motel room, she should have been in Boston, being save. Instead she travelled all the way from Boston to LA, to visit me in prison after her talk to my mother in Boston and finding out that I was in prison. And getting there, finding out I was released yesterday, she didn't give up she tracked me down to my motel room. Just in time to save me, it is simply unbelievable she did all that for me.
Looking around the room, from my comfortable place on the bed I start to gradually take in the surrounding, feeling that I'm not alone, Dawn she's has her arms wrapped around me, like she wants to make sure I won't disappear. It feels good to hold her in my arms again, I'm not going to let her get away ever again.
Slowly I look down, some part of me still can't believe that it's Dawn, she looks bigger than I remember her to be and she's smaller than that I have seen her the last time in Boston before I left.
It has to be Dawn, carefully my hand starts to move on his own toward her face to make sure that I haven't dreamed everything about last night. Her hair covers her face it's longer than she wore in Boston but has the same colour. I still cannot say one hundred percent that it is Dawn.
My hand starts trembling, try to calm myself by taking several deep breaths of air and proceed gently to brush the strands of hair out of her face to get a good look at her in the rays of the morning sun.
It is Dawn, last night wasn't a dream, she's here, barely more than a whisper I call out her name "Dawn", 'It wasn't a dream, she came for me, came back to me and saved my live.'
Very slow and with the utmost care in the world, I take Dawn and embrace her with my arms to ensure myself that she is truly there and will not disappear on me. Dawn doesn't wake up and keeps sleeping, the most beautiful sight I've ever seen in my entire live.
My greatest and best friend and first love ever is back, the one person beside my watcher loved me and I never thought I would ever see again in my live.
"I won't loose you ever again and I'm not going to ever leave you" I tell and give her a soft kiss on her head as I drift of to sleep again.
Dawn was on the verge to wake up herself, finding herself in an unknown place and being held by someone, 'Feels good, Where am I?'
Slowly the memories of last night and days before on her search for the memories she had of Faith, Dawn starts to recall the previous night, her eyes slowly open, she sees Faith is holding her in her arms, Faith is asleep. She keeps still, not wanting to wake Faith up just yet, wants to takes in the sight of Faith.
'This feels so good, being held by Faith', for the first time since she found out she wasn't real Dawn feels save and real, the first time she can think of she feels happy. The memories about Faith the Monks put into her are real.
Dawn lays quite in Faith arms and listens to Faiths heartbeat tudum tudum tudum tudum and her breathing, it is a comforting sound. After a while Faiths breathing and heartbeat start to speeds up indicating Faith is about to wake up from her slumber.
First I don't know where I am, but when I look down and she Dawn looking up, everything comes back. She is already awake and looking with those cute eyes right at me, she looks so happy.
Our eyes lock together, and all my fear and insecurities start to come to the surface 'she won't stay with me, why would should she, I'm no good, damaged, I will never be good enough for, she deserves better, I'm going to lose her, she's going to leave me'.
I know that expression Faiths worried about something, start looking anyway but at me.
Dawn sees Faith stiffen and breaking eye contact. "Faith what's wrong? Look at me." looks like she won't answer Dawns question
"Don't leave me". Still looking away from Dawn, Dawn takes Faiths face in her hands and slowly.
One by one tears starts roll down my face, I can't let her see me cry, I do not cry. Suddenly I feel Dawn hands on my face and gently brush my tears away and make sure that I'm looking her in the eyes.
"Feather, look at me, I'm not going anywhere, I finally found you after all this time and I'm not going to you leave or let you disappear out of my live ever again" she tells me, they're the most beautiful words I've ever heard in my live. I let go of all the bad feelings and simply let me enjoy the moment and start to relax.
Holding each other close we stay this way the next couple of minutes revealing in each others closeness and warmth, not wanting to think about anything else.
"What are we going to do?" I ask Dawn "I know you want me to go back with you to Sunnyhell, but I am not really in favour of that idea myself."
"Faith, like I told you yesterday I went by your moms house to find you. She didn't react very nicely to me asking about you, but she did give me all these papers, maybe they can help you" tries to evade to answer my question, I let it go for the moment.
She gets up and grabs her backpack she brought with her and starts to rummage through them, she's nervous, hasn't come up with an answer to my question yet. After a moment she finds what she was looking for, gets a pack of papers out, those are for me?.
"Your mom shoved these in my hands, when I was searching for you in Boston, to get rid of me". Walks up to me and hands the stack of papers over to me and I take them from her and she sits herself next to me on the bed.
Most of the papers are related to my hearing sentence and jail time, nothing important now that I'm out of jail. Then I see one big letter almost dismissed it with the rest of the papers. If it wasn't for the handwritten address, for a moment time stops, can't move my body won't budge at all. I can only see that one letter slowly I start to move again, all the other papers fall to the ground I only have eyes this one. Holding it my hands like it could disappear on me, holding it firm between my hands, can't take my eyes of the name that's written on the cover, making sure I'm seeing the writing and at the same time being careful that I don't rip any of the papers that the parcel contains.
In big delicate letters is written, Faith (Fury) LeBeau, it's my first watchers handwriting, Ems I would have recognized it anywhere, with her family shield on it, the letter was sealed.
Dawn looks at Faith and her reaction to the letter she's holding getting worried, "What it is it Faith?" at first it looks like Faith isn't going to answer her.
"It's from my first Watcher, she was killed by Kakistos and I wasn't able to save her. Remember the night I came to you and told you I had to leave, the night everything went to hell." I tell Dawn feeling my hold on the world crashing around me. Part of me being ripped out of me, something broke within me, when that bastard killed my Em. I lost myself that night and some part vanished, and I could not find again.
I remember that night I lost Faith that night, she came to my window and told she had to leave and she disappeared from my live. I lost the only friend I had in the wide world that night.
Slowly I turn the letter and with the utmost care I break the seal, opening the letter and making sure nothing would be damaged inside, it's to valuable to risk. It's the only thing I have left from my Em, it is the last connection I have to her and to better times.
The letter contains all kind legal papers, documents and one handwritten letter, key and photograph. I carefully place the documents and legal papers on the bed and keep the handwritten letter and photograph in my hands.
First I look at the photograph, it shows me and Ems, standing in front of her house in Boston. The picture shows women in her early twenties with long blond hair up to her waist, blue eyes and a head bigger than Faith. She's wearing blue jeans, a red t-shirt and brown leather coat reaching to the ground.
Faith standing next to her also in blue jeans, but she's wearing dark blue t-shirt instead of a red one, she's also wearing a leather coat same as her watcher. The thing that springs out on the picture is Faiths happy and has a big smile plaster on her face.
I'm holding the picture and remember happier days, everything was better in those days in Boston with my watcher, turning the picture, I see that Ems has written something on the back o the picture.
There is written -
Faith my best friend and student, always remember my LESONS! Always yours love, Em -
She did care about me, she loved me, holding the picture in her left not wanting to part with it, I take the letter in both of my hands, it's written by Ems and close my eyes and take a couple deep breaths and start to read my letter my first watcher and friend wrote to me.
*****
Hello Faith,
I hope you never have to read this letter, I made sure that the papers and this letter would be handed to you in person in the event of my death. That means that I died. Whatever the circumstances are of my death, never ever, Faith I mean it, never ever think that it is your fault I died.
I made sure that provisions where made for you should I die, made sure you would have enough money to draw on. Make you independent from your mom. Put the house in Boston on your name so you'll have a safe place to live, paid for everything for the coming 10 years and made sure it's cared for.
However, I don't think you'll stay in Boston, you'll leave and end up one way or other in Sunnydale, so I bought a house there, the address and key are with the other papers. The house is fully furnished, I stocked the house personally with all the books you would need for your research and teachings and everything else you'd need to take care of.
You are my best student and friend, I taught you everything you will ever need to survive and fight, use it. In addition, do not let anybody tell you that you are not good enough.
There is one more thing I did, welcome to the family, I legally adopted you, you're now a LaBeau, keep the name high I am going to tell you this, but in event that don't I put it in the letter.
Faith be safe and happy, use the special story I told and taught you.
Love,
Emily Angelica LaBeau Heavenly Watching *****
I've reread the letter three times now and had to stop, tears started to flow and I simply couldn't read the words anymore. She loved me, she really cared for me and made me family. And I failed her, failed to save her from Kakistos, failed her from fighting evil by teaming up with the mayor and I failed to keep up the family name.
Whatever it is going to take I will make it up, nothing will stop me.
Tear by tear, one by one slowly decent down her face. I take her in my arms and hold her till she calms down.
Until this moment, Faith hasn't allowed herself to grieve about losing her first watcher. All the emotions about her watcher where locked away, she could not deal with them, now all those memories and feelings are released, all at once and came crashing down on her.
Gradually Faith tears stop and she calms down, I'm still holding her and comforting her as much as possible.
"How you feeling?" I ask her, "Who is the letter from and what's in it?" the worst is over and she's breathing evenly again.
"Don't know yet, and the letter's from my first watcher that got killed by Kakistos, she left me some money, a house in Boston and Sunnydale, and adopted me, I'm a LaBeau now" I answer Dawn question, I do feel a little better, looking everywhere but at her for the moment.
Faith got money and a house in Sunnydale, she has a place to stay.
"I told you I am not going to leave you, but I already told Buffy I am coming home, you can come with me, you got a house and money" Faiths reaction to this is unusually she doesn't object immediately to the idea of her coming with me to Sunnydale.
"I've got my own house in Sunnydale and I don't have to see Buffy and the rest of her them, I don't have to do I Dawn?" looking at Dawn with her big brown eyes I'm waiting for an answer from her.
Dawn is lost, she can't deny Faith anything at the moment looking in her eyes, "All right no one has to know your back and I will not tell anybody your back, OK"
"Deal!" I smile at the answer Dawn gave me, feeling a lot better than before.
I take a closer look at the rest of the papers that where enclosed with the letter, key and picture.
One of the documents refers to the houses in Boston and in Sunnydale, it contains everything I needs to prove they are mine. Memories the Sunnydale address for my new house and hold up my key my face, look at it 'If got my own house, it's mine', and put the Key in my wallet.
The second one refers to my adoption by Em, making me a Labeau. She really made me Labeau.
And last one refers to my financials statements, a MTA card with my name is attached to the file. The card has a limit of $3,000.- dollar a week, and a bank statement saying I have another million in the bank.
"Dawn I'm rich, I have a house to live and now I got all the money I'll ever need." I yell at Dawn, jumping up and down on the bed, "I'm rich, rich, rich, rich, rich".
Dawn smiles, at my antics, something the old Faith from Boston would have acted, my outburst reminds Dawn of the Faith she knew.
"First thing we do is find a MTA and get us some money and then dinner, I'm starved, we get food inside of us before we leave for Sunnydale, ok?" I ask Dawn.
Before she can respond I already decided, "Lets motorvat" I cannot wait to get some money, eat and see my new house in Sunnydale.
"All right, lets get out of here and eat" Dawn finally responses.
Dawn stands up, extends her hand toward me and I take it and get of the bed.
I carefully take the picture and my letter and put them with the other documents in the backpack of Dawn, making sure they aren't damaged.
Taking a look around the room to make sure I'm not leaving anything behind, not that I have much, so I do not want to lose the little I have. Having made sure I have everything, I leave with Dawn, keeping the backpack with me and go in search of a MTA.
*****
Walking down the streets of LA looking for a MTA I spot one down the road, grab Dawns hand and starts running toward it, dragging her behind me. Reaching the MTA Dawn's out of breath, she'll need a couple of seconds to get her breath back.
I take out my card out of my wallet and insert it into the MTA. Punch in my four digit code and wait, the screen comes up asking for the amount I want to withdrawal from my bank account.
I think I'll take a thousand dollar as a first time, 30 second later the money follows and I take the money and my card and shows it to Dawn.
"I got the money, so now we eat, so where do you want me to take you to eat" I ask Dawn.
Dawn looks around and sees a Burger King, "What do you say to fries and burgers at the Burger King"
"Burger King it is then, lets motor", I love fast food a lot of calories, perfect for my slayer body, take Dawns hand and we walk together towards Burger King.
*****
Reaching Burger King I open and let Dawn enter first, we look around for a free place to sit down, when I spot an empty boot by the window I take her hand and we walk over and sit down in the booth.
A waitress walks up to us to take our order.
Dawn orders first she'll have a burger medium with fries and a big coke.
"I will have ten quarter pound burgers also medium with everything, ten fries big and two cokes big", after giving my order the waitress leaves to take care of our order. Dawn looks at me like her eyes will pop out of her head at any moment..
"So, I'm hungry, I need to replenish my reserves from my time in jail and last night, the pizza was a small appetizer, you live with B so you should know we slayers eat under normal circumstance five times as much as regular people" I tell Dawn after hearing my order.
"Buffy never eats that much." Dawn answers.
"Don't know about B, but my slayer body needs a lot of food to keep working, I always ate at least ten times the amount of food Em ate, and when I came back from patrols and fighting vamps and demons, I ate even more. If I got wounded the amount of food I consumed could double depending on the wounds that I had to heal." This bod needs a lot of calories to keep in peak working order.
After fifteen minutes, I look up and see the waitress coming over with our order. Each of us takes our order and starts to eat. Before Dawn even takes one bit out her burger, I already finished with mine.
Looking at Faith eat or a better term inhale 7 burgers in less than two minutes was unbelievable.
Faith eating takes Dawn back to her time in Boston, remembers how Faith, whenever there was food, she practically inhaled her food, like she was afraid that someone would take it away from her.
"Faith easy we aren't in a hurry and no one will take the food away, try to enjoy eating your burgers, we got time", Faith head start to turn a deep shade of red, she looks cute and slows down.
Halve an hour later we're both finished with our burgers and fries. I was not yet full I ask Dawn if she wants dessert, I call for the waitress to get us some, Dawn takes one piece of blubbery pie and I take a whole one. The waitress takes our order and walks of and returns with the pie's.
This time I take it slow and enjoy my pie, ten minutes later both of our deserts disappeared.
"I'm going to take care of the bill, you can take a quick pit stop before we're heading to bus station to catch a bus to Sunnydale." I tell Dawn before I call the waitress and pay.
Dawn gets out of the bathroom and we leave, heading for the bus station.
I give Dawn a hundred dollar bill before entering the bus station to buy a ticket by herself and I buy myself also a ticket. We walk separate to the departing greyhound to Sunnydale, make our self comfortable before the bus leaves a couple of minutes later.
*****
It's close to sunset when the greyhound passes Sunnydales billboard, Welcome to Sunnydale.
'Home sweet home, damn I'm back again, don't want to be here, damn why did I get myself back here, anywhere else is better than here, on the other hand Dawn is here, that's big plus point for me being here, I got a house another one, got money another one, looks like so long I'm with Dawn everything will all right'
Looking at Dawn, she fell in sleep just after our departure, and now that we have arrived in Sunnydale I slowly wake her up.
"He sleepy head we're in Sunnydale", I careful nudge her to wake up, and Dawn start to wake up, sleep still in her eyes.
"We're there already?" we just past the Welcome to Sunnydale sign I tell her.
I am back
*****
I made a challenge based on Fic by Wyndgyrl, that the monks made sure that both slayers would protect the Key, Dawn. Dawn knew Faith from her time in Boston with her father and they fell in love, Faith was called at the time and left when her watcher got killed. Faith got 18 and was released from prison, wants to kill herself and Dawn just in time saves her. No one took it, so I tried to write it myself.
The two fics "I have never been to Boston" and "I choose to believe" written by Wyndgyrl at http://angelfire.com/grrl/wyndgyrl , Wyndgyrl had no plans to continue the fics, but liked the idea, and continued in a different direction, centred around the Mayor. I wanted to know more about Faiths first watcher, the idea that she would have made provision in the event she died.
So I made up the challenge. Read both fics, I think they are the best Wyndgyrl wrote till now, for the most part they fit in with my fic. Not to to tell the whole story, what if Dawn has memories of Faith dating before SD and slayer, she and Faith knew each other from Boston.
Feedback: darkandlight@wanadoo.nl
*****
I was starting to wake up, feeling relaxed and save, haven't felt and slept this good in ages, the sun was up and shining through the window blends of the room and nudging me to wake up. I did not want to wake up, I was feeling better than I felt in ages and I wanted to stay that way but the sun didn't let me be.
So I was gradually waking up, feeling safe and at peace and recaling the events tha took place last night, the memory of Dawn bursting into my room stopping me drinking from bottle of wine. Had I taken another sip I would have been death now, but Dawn stoped me and saved my live yesterday.
She's real not a dream I made up in my time in Boston, and she loves me and I love her.
Can't believe I was prepared to end everything last night, had my bottle of wine and pills ready to die so the next slayer would be called and the hurting would finally end. Took my first sip out of the bottle and before I can take the next that, Dawn storms into my room like an angel, stopping me from taking another one that one would definitely have killed me.
She came looking for me all on her own, went all the way to, on her own, to Boston to find me, still can't believe she's here in my motel room, she should have been in Boston, being save. Instead she travelled all the way from Boston to LA, to visit me in prison after her talk to my mother in Boston and finding out that I was in prison. And getting there, finding out I was released yesterday, she didn't give up she tracked me down to my motel room. Just in time to save me, it is simply unbelievable she did all that for me.
Looking around the room, from my comfortable place on the bed I start to gradually take in the surrounding, feeling that I'm not alone, Dawn she's has her arms wrapped around me, like she wants to make sure I won't disappear. It feels good to hold her in my arms again, I'm not going to let her get away ever again.
Slowly I look down, some part of me still can't believe that it's Dawn, she looks bigger than I remember her to be and she's smaller than that I have seen her the last time in Boston before I left.
It has to be Dawn, carefully my hand starts to move on his own toward her face to make sure that I haven't dreamed everything about last night. Her hair covers her face it's longer than she wore in Boston but has the same colour. I still cannot say one hundred percent that it is Dawn.
My hand starts trembling, try to calm myself by taking several deep breaths of air and proceed gently to brush the strands of hair out of her face to get a good look at her in the rays of the morning sun.
It is Dawn, last night wasn't a dream, she's here, barely more than a whisper I call out her name "Dawn", 'It wasn't a dream, she came for me, came back to me and saved my live.'
Very slow and with the utmost care in the world, I take Dawn and embrace her with my arms to ensure myself that she is truly there and will not disappear on me. Dawn doesn't wake up and keeps sleeping, the most beautiful sight I've ever seen in my entire live.
My greatest and best friend and first love ever is back, the one person beside my watcher loved me and I never thought I would ever see again in my live.
"I won't loose you ever again and I'm not going to ever leave you" I tell and give her a soft kiss on her head as I drift of to sleep again.
Dawn was on the verge to wake up herself, finding herself in an unknown place and being held by someone, 'Feels good, Where am I?'
Slowly the memories of last night and days before on her search for the memories she had of Faith, Dawn starts to recall the previous night, her eyes slowly open, she sees Faith is holding her in her arms, Faith is asleep. She keeps still, not wanting to wake Faith up just yet, wants to takes in the sight of Faith.
'This feels so good, being held by Faith', for the first time since she found out she wasn't real Dawn feels save and real, the first time she can think of she feels happy. The memories about Faith the Monks put into her are real.
Dawn lays quite in Faith arms and listens to Faiths heartbeat tudum tudum tudum tudum and her breathing, it is a comforting sound. After a while Faiths breathing and heartbeat start to speeds up indicating Faith is about to wake up from her slumber.
First I don't know where I am, but when I look down and she Dawn looking up, everything comes back. She is already awake and looking with those cute eyes right at me, she looks so happy.
Our eyes lock together, and all my fear and insecurities start to come to the surface 'she won't stay with me, why would should she, I'm no good, damaged, I will never be good enough for, she deserves better, I'm going to lose her, she's going to leave me'.
I know that expression Faiths worried about something, start looking anyway but at me.
Dawn sees Faith stiffen and breaking eye contact. "Faith what's wrong? Look at me." looks like she won't answer Dawns question
"Don't leave me". Still looking away from Dawn, Dawn takes Faiths face in her hands and slowly.
One by one tears starts roll down my face, I can't let her see me cry, I do not cry. Suddenly I feel Dawn hands on my face and gently brush my tears away and make sure that I'm looking her in the eyes.
"Feather, look at me, I'm not going anywhere, I finally found you after all this time and I'm not going to you leave or let you disappear out of my live ever again" she tells me, they're the most beautiful words I've ever heard in my live. I let go of all the bad feelings and simply let me enjoy the moment and start to relax.
Holding each other close we stay this way the next couple of minutes revealing in each others closeness and warmth, not wanting to think about anything else.
"What are we going to do?" I ask Dawn "I know you want me to go back with you to Sunnyhell, but I am not really in favour of that idea myself."
"Faith, like I told you yesterday I went by your moms house to find you. She didn't react very nicely to me asking about you, but she did give me all these papers, maybe they can help you" tries to evade to answer my question, I let it go for the moment.
She gets up and grabs her backpack she brought with her and starts to rummage through them, she's nervous, hasn't come up with an answer to my question yet. After a moment she finds what she was looking for, gets a pack of papers out, those are for me?.
"Your mom shoved these in my hands, when I was searching for you in Boston, to get rid of me". Walks up to me and hands the stack of papers over to me and I take them from her and she sits herself next to me on the bed.
Most of the papers are related to my hearing sentence and jail time, nothing important now that I'm out of jail. Then I see one big letter almost dismissed it with the rest of the papers. If it wasn't for the handwritten address, for a moment time stops, can't move my body won't budge at all. I can only see that one letter slowly I start to move again, all the other papers fall to the ground I only have eyes this one. Holding it my hands like it could disappear on me, holding it firm between my hands, can't take my eyes of the name that's written on the cover, making sure I'm seeing the writing and at the same time being careful that I don't rip any of the papers that the parcel contains.
In big delicate letters is written, Faith (Fury) LeBeau, it's my first watchers handwriting, Ems I would have recognized it anywhere, with her family shield on it, the letter was sealed.
Dawn looks at Faith and her reaction to the letter she's holding getting worried, "What it is it Faith?" at first it looks like Faith isn't going to answer her.
"It's from my first Watcher, she was killed by Kakistos and I wasn't able to save her. Remember the night I came to you and told you I had to leave, the night everything went to hell." I tell Dawn feeling my hold on the world crashing around me. Part of me being ripped out of me, something broke within me, when that bastard killed my Em. I lost myself that night and some part vanished, and I could not find again.
I remember that night I lost Faith that night, she came to my window and told she had to leave and she disappeared from my live. I lost the only friend I had in the wide world that night.
Slowly I turn the letter and with the utmost care I break the seal, opening the letter and making sure nothing would be damaged inside, it's to valuable to risk. It's the only thing I have left from my Em, it is the last connection I have to her and to better times.
The letter contains all kind legal papers, documents and one handwritten letter, key and photograph. I carefully place the documents and legal papers on the bed and keep the handwritten letter and photograph in my hands.
First I look at the photograph, it shows me and Ems, standing in front of her house in Boston. The picture shows women in her early twenties with long blond hair up to her waist, blue eyes and a head bigger than Faith. She's wearing blue jeans, a red t-shirt and brown leather coat reaching to the ground.
Faith standing next to her also in blue jeans, but she's wearing dark blue t-shirt instead of a red one, she's also wearing a leather coat same as her watcher. The thing that springs out on the picture is Faiths happy and has a big smile plaster on her face.
I'm holding the picture and remember happier days, everything was better in those days in Boston with my watcher, turning the picture, I see that Ems has written something on the back o the picture.
There is written -
Faith my best friend and student, always remember my LESONS! Always yours love, Em -
She did care about me, she loved me, holding the picture in her left not wanting to part with it, I take the letter in both of my hands, it's written by Ems and close my eyes and take a couple deep breaths and start to read my letter my first watcher and friend wrote to me.
*****
Hello Faith,
I hope you never have to read this letter, I made sure that the papers and this letter would be handed to you in person in the event of my death. That means that I died. Whatever the circumstances are of my death, never ever, Faith I mean it, never ever think that it is your fault I died.
I made sure that provisions where made for you should I die, made sure you would have enough money to draw on. Make you independent from your mom. Put the house in Boston on your name so you'll have a safe place to live, paid for everything for the coming 10 years and made sure it's cared for.
However, I don't think you'll stay in Boston, you'll leave and end up one way or other in Sunnydale, so I bought a house there, the address and key are with the other papers. The house is fully furnished, I stocked the house personally with all the books you would need for your research and teachings and everything else you'd need to take care of.
You are my best student and friend, I taught you everything you will ever need to survive and fight, use it. In addition, do not let anybody tell you that you are not good enough.
There is one more thing I did, welcome to the family, I legally adopted you, you're now a LaBeau, keep the name high I am going to tell you this, but in event that don't I put it in the letter.
Faith be safe and happy, use the special story I told and taught you.
Love,
Emily Angelica LaBeau Heavenly Watching *****
I've reread the letter three times now and had to stop, tears started to flow and I simply couldn't read the words anymore. She loved me, she really cared for me and made me family. And I failed her, failed to save her from Kakistos, failed her from fighting evil by teaming up with the mayor and I failed to keep up the family name.
Whatever it is going to take I will make it up, nothing will stop me.
Tear by tear, one by one slowly decent down her face. I take her in my arms and hold her till she calms down.
Until this moment, Faith hasn't allowed herself to grieve about losing her first watcher. All the emotions about her watcher where locked away, she could not deal with them, now all those memories and feelings are released, all at once and came crashing down on her.
Gradually Faith tears stop and she calms down, I'm still holding her and comforting her as much as possible.
"How you feeling?" I ask her, "Who is the letter from and what's in it?" the worst is over and she's breathing evenly again.
"Don't know yet, and the letter's from my first watcher that got killed by Kakistos, she left me some money, a house in Boston and Sunnydale, and adopted me, I'm a LaBeau now" I answer Dawn question, I do feel a little better, looking everywhere but at her for the moment.
Faith got money and a house in Sunnydale, she has a place to stay.
"I told you I am not going to leave you, but I already told Buffy I am coming home, you can come with me, you got a house and money" Faiths reaction to this is unusually she doesn't object immediately to the idea of her coming with me to Sunnydale.
"I've got my own house in Sunnydale and I don't have to see Buffy and the rest of her them, I don't have to do I Dawn?" looking at Dawn with her big brown eyes I'm waiting for an answer from her.
Dawn is lost, she can't deny Faith anything at the moment looking in her eyes, "All right no one has to know your back and I will not tell anybody your back, OK"
"Deal!" I smile at the answer Dawn gave me, feeling a lot better than before.
I take a closer look at the rest of the papers that where enclosed with the letter, key and picture.
One of the documents refers to the houses in Boston and in Sunnydale, it contains everything I needs to prove they are mine. Memories the Sunnydale address for my new house and hold up my key my face, look at it 'If got my own house, it's mine', and put the Key in my wallet.
The second one refers to my adoption by Em, making me a Labeau. She really made me Labeau.
And last one refers to my financials statements, a MTA card with my name is attached to the file. The card has a limit of $3,000.- dollar a week, and a bank statement saying I have another million in the bank.
"Dawn I'm rich, I have a house to live and now I got all the money I'll ever need." I yell at Dawn, jumping up and down on the bed, "I'm rich, rich, rich, rich, rich".
Dawn smiles, at my antics, something the old Faith from Boston would have acted, my outburst reminds Dawn of the Faith she knew.
"First thing we do is find a MTA and get us some money and then dinner, I'm starved, we get food inside of us before we leave for Sunnydale, ok?" I ask Dawn.
Before she can respond I already decided, "Lets motorvat" I cannot wait to get some money, eat and see my new house in Sunnydale.
"All right, lets get out of here and eat" Dawn finally responses.
Dawn stands up, extends her hand toward me and I take it and get of the bed.
I carefully take the picture and my letter and put them with the other documents in the backpack of Dawn, making sure they aren't damaged.
Taking a look around the room to make sure I'm not leaving anything behind, not that I have much, so I do not want to lose the little I have. Having made sure I have everything, I leave with Dawn, keeping the backpack with me and go in search of a MTA.
*****
Walking down the streets of LA looking for a MTA I spot one down the road, grab Dawns hand and starts running toward it, dragging her behind me. Reaching the MTA Dawn's out of breath, she'll need a couple of seconds to get her breath back.
I take out my card out of my wallet and insert it into the MTA. Punch in my four digit code and wait, the screen comes up asking for the amount I want to withdrawal from my bank account.
I think I'll take a thousand dollar as a first time, 30 second later the money follows and I take the money and my card and shows it to Dawn.
"I got the money, so now we eat, so where do you want me to take you to eat" I ask Dawn.
Dawn looks around and sees a Burger King, "What do you say to fries and burgers at the Burger King"
"Burger King it is then, lets motor", I love fast food a lot of calories, perfect for my slayer body, take Dawns hand and we walk together towards Burger King.
*****
Reaching Burger King I open and let Dawn enter first, we look around for a free place to sit down, when I spot an empty boot by the window I take her hand and we walk over and sit down in the booth.
A waitress walks up to us to take our order.
Dawn orders first she'll have a burger medium with fries and a big coke.
"I will have ten quarter pound burgers also medium with everything, ten fries big and two cokes big", after giving my order the waitress leaves to take care of our order. Dawn looks at me like her eyes will pop out of her head at any moment..
"So, I'm hungry, I need to replenish my reserves from my time in jail and last night, the pizza was a small appetizer, you live with B so you should know we slayers eat under normal circumstance five times as much as regular people" I tell Dawn after hearing my order.
"Buffy never eats that much." Dawn answers.
"Don't know about B, but my slayer body needs a lot of food to keep working, I always ate at least ten times the amount of food Em ate, and when I came back from patrols and fighting vamps and demons, I ate even more. If I got wounded the amount of food I consumed could double depending on the wounds that I had to heal." This bod needs a lot of calories to keep in peak working order.
After fifteen minutes, I look up and see the waitress coming over with our order. Each of us takes our order and starts to eat. Before Dawn even takes one bit out her burger, I already finished with mine.
Looking at Faith eat or a better term inhale 7 burgers in less than two minutes was unbelievable.
Faith eating takes Dawn back to her time in Boston, remembers how Faith, whenever there was food, she practically inhaled her food, like she was afraid that someone would take it away from her.
"Faith easy we aren't in a hurry and no one will take the food away, try to enjoy eating your burgers, we got time", Faith head start to turn a deep shade of red, she looks cute and slows down.
Halve an hour later we're both finished with our burgers and fries. I was not yet full I ask Dawn if she wants dessert, I call for the waitress to get us some, Dawn takes one piece of blubbery pie and I take a whole one. The waitress takes our order and walks of and returns with the pie's.
This time I take it slow and enjoy my pie, ten minutes later both of our deserts disappeared.
"I'm going to take care of the bill, you can take a quick pit stop before we're heading to bus station to catch a bus to Sunnydale." I tell Dawn before I call the waitress and pay.
Dawn gets out of the bathroom and we leave, heading for the bus station.
I give Dawn a hundred dollar bill before entering the bus station to buy a ticket by herself and I buy myself also a ticket. We walk separate to the departing greyhound to Sunnydale, make our self comfortable before the bus leaves a couple of minutes later.
*****
It's close to sunset when the greyhound passes Sunnydales billboard, Welcome to Sunnydale.
'Home sweet home, damn I'm back again, don't want to be here, damn why did I get myself back here, anywhere else is better than here, on the other hand Dawn is here, that's big plus point for me being here, I got a house another one, got money another one, looks like so long I'm with Dawn everything will all right'
Looking at Dawn, she fell in sleep just after our departure, and now that we have arrived in Sunnydale I slowly wake her up.
"He sleepy head we're in Sunnydale", I careful nudge her to wake up, and Dawn start to wake up, sleep still in her eyes.
"We're there already?" we just past the Welcome to Sunnydale sign I tell her.
I am back
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