"The Moon's Memory"
Chapter Two: Lost Words
Disclaimer: I own none of the YYH characters.
Warning: Yaoi warnings. HxK. Don't like? Don't bother! Extreme angst. Death. WHAAA!!! R&R ^_^.
Note: Some harsh language. Well, it's Hiei's POV, what did you expect?
Fading. Crimson hair, red as blood, fades in my memory.
How long has it been since I have seen you?
Jade green, the shimmering emerald jewels, loose their sparkle.
Where are you?
Soft laughter leaves with the wind. Your velvety voice is straying from my ears...
But the pain remains. Striking me in my very soul. The cold chilling sensation of loss echoes through me, bouncing off of my walls, trapped within my chilled heart. Love is consumed by this newfound hate... or maybe it was always there, waiting to be awakened.
The gods let you live once, why not again? Why take you from me when I'd just discovered pleasure? What am I to believe, except that I am cursed? How do I know you aren't screaming for me in the depths of hell, though I doubt they would ever send you to hell.
For a few hours, I had a sliver of hope. Hope that maybe you'd jumped back into Makai as Youko Kurama. But I have no such luck. Koenma told me Youko Kurama had just disappeared, not leaving even the faintest trace. Gone.
Did you hear my last words?
~*Flashback*~
The stupid oaf sent me a mental message. Some bull shit about Kurama dying. Does Kuwabara really think I'm that stupid? Kurama die? In Ningenkai? Gods. What an idiot, Yuusuke must have taught him that joke...
"HIEI-SAN!" Yukina's ki closed in on me, she runs towards me, clutching her chest, panting for breath. Amazing how different we can be even if we are twins. I would usually ignore anyone that was searching for me, but since it's Yukina...
"Hn? What is it Yukina-chan?" More words than I usually speak say in a day.
"Did you get Kazuma-kun's message?" She pants. I was about to roll my eyes at it when I realized it was Yukina who was speaking. Yukina, the one that never lied. A chill ran up my spine.
"H..Hn?" Her expression looks like a shot down birds. Her eyes lower.
"Kurama-kun---"
For the first time ever, I forgot about Yukina. I was off before she finished her sentence.
~*~
Shit shit shit shit SHIT! Where the hell is he? Dammit! My mind panics like it's never done before.
When ningen get hurt... HOSPITALS! But which one? My legs tremble beneath me, anxious for action, wanting to run to where the youko is. My mind spins, thinking of crazy situations and holding impossible wishes. Maybe Yukina was lying? No, she never lies...
My mind keeps screaming and telling itself that it would be okay, that he would be fine, that it was all a joke.
I want to rip the ward off of my Jagan, but Kurama wouldn't like that... Driving ningen insane... DAMMIT!
I take a few deep breaths, forcing my body to calm down and pushing the adrenaline down. Think... how can you find him?
KUWABARA! My mind scans for him and finds his reiki almost immediately. I lock onto it and let my legs go. Like I give a shit if a ningen sees me.
~*~
"WHERE IS KURAMA?!" My coherent mind flits and I find myself holding the nurse up by the scruff.
"K..Kurama? Sir, please let go... please..." The woman whimpers, setting my mind ablaze even more. I feel as if the whole world's trying to keep him from me.
"WHERE THE HELL IS---" Shuuichi. Yes, that was his ningen name, my mind concludes.
I breath deeply again, calming myself so that the woman won't start sputtering and tell me where he is.
"Where-is-Shuuichi-Minamino?" I say, gritting my teeth to keep control. The woman's eyes widen even more at the sound and nods quickly.
"He's in room 345---"
She fell with a yelp to the floor.
~*~
340-341-342-343... A woman bumps into me and I growl at her. Her eyes lock on mine and she glares back.
Shiori?! I stand still for a moment, shocked to see Kurama's ningen mother. The calm, nice, loving woman that tamed Kurama's youko spirit... She glares at me with tear filled eyes and resumes running.
I shake my head and resume walking. Yes.. I feel his youki. Damn! It's dropping... All hopes of it being a joke leave my mind. All that's left is panic and fear... Fear?
Could it be fear? Am I afraid that he'll die? I stop despite my position and look down at myself. Yes, the actions I've been taking for the last hour after I found out about his condition would prove that...
I fear his death.
I don't want him to die.
I need him.
My legs stir once again, snapping me back to reality. I hear heels clacking against the floor and see Shiori running towards me again. A doctor trails behind her, a helpless look on his face. He thinks there is no hope for him. That he will...
345. I run into the room, panting, surprised at how tired I am. Yuusuke stands up and stares at me.
"You-you came?" He looks down at Kuwabara and they both stare at me. All of them do. But I ignore it.
"KURAMA!" My voice surprises me. He's right there in front of me and I'm yelling as if he were miles away. As if my voice could catch him and keep him here with me.
Shiori enters the room and gawks at me.
"Who-" I ignore her.
"KURAMA!!" Dammit, wake up! His eyes are almost closed, his body sweating from the intense heat he emits. His youki drops.
"Hiei what are you---" Yuusuke reaches out to me, afraid of what I'll do, no doubt, because my body is shaking.
A tear gem falls to the floor. He stops dead.
"URUSEINNDAYO!"[1] I elude his grasp and dash to the bed.
"KURAMA!" His eyes squint, as if he's trying to come back. His mouth parts slightly.
"Hiei...?" His ki is almost gone. His voice a shadow of his usual velvety alto.
Shiori holds onto her husband, shifting her eyes from me to Kurama. Yuusuke and the others stare at me, then at Kurama.
I would usually leave then, wanting to escape their eyes. But I don't care... I clutch the air, causing my hand to tighten in an impossible grip, trying to control the shaking.
Who cares if they're watching?
His ki falters.
He's dying...
His eyes start to close.
No... The others are still staring at me.
Who cares?! I... I love him... I need him... Need him so much...
His heart slows down and the room stays dead silent except for the occasional clinking of tear gems to the floor.
My tear gems.
"Kurama..." I reach out, wishing my grasp could keep him here.
"Kurama I---..."
His heart ceases to beat. The room falls silent as the shock stops my tears. All words are lost for a moment.
"Ai Shiteru..."[2] I whisper, having a sinking feeling in my chest. He didn't hear me... Did he? The others gawk at me.
Did he hear me?
The question rings in my head.
Did he hear me...?
End "Lost Words"
Wow, that was cruel. I made Hiei-sama cry... Rams head on iron board as she irons her hands like Dobby And I still killed Kurama... Sniffle
Should I write another chapter? What do ya think? Should I just leave it depressing and sad? Grins
R&R Onegai! ^_^ No flames!
[1]- Something like "SHUT THE FUCK UP".
[2]- I love you
~All good things have an end... however heart wrenching they are...~
Authors Note:
There was a sequel to this story, but due to its (sucky) quality, it was taken down and deleted. I am considering redoing the sequel, but as a one shot. Short and sweet, nothing extra, nothing left out. I hope you like it if I ever get around to it ^.^
~AoiHyou
Chapter Two: Lost Words
Disclaimer: I own none of the YYH characters.
Warning: Yaoi warnings. HxK. Don't like? Don't bother! Extreme angst. Death. WHAAA!!! R&R ^_^.
Note: Some harsh language. Well, it's Hiei's POV, what did you expect?
Fading. Crimson hair, red as blood, fades in my memory.
How long has it been since I have seen you?
Jade green, the shimmering emerald jewels, loose their sparkle.
Where are you?
Soft laughter leaves with the wind. Your velvety voice is straying from my ears...
But the pain remains. Striking me in my very soul. The cold chilling sensation of loss echoes through me, bouncing off of my walls, trapped within my chilled heart. Love is consumed by this newfound hate... or maybe it was always there, waiting to be awakened.
The gods let you live once, why not again? Why take you from me when I'd just discovered pleasure? What am I to believe, except that I am cursed? How do I know you aren't screaming for me in the depths of hell, though I doubt they would ever send you to hell.
For a few hours, I had a sliver of hope. Hope that maybe you'd jumped back into Makai as Youko Kurama. But I have no such luck. Koenma told me Youko Kurama had just disappeared, not leaving even the faintest trace. Gone.
Did you hear my last words?
~*Flashback*~
The stupid oaf sent me a mental message. Some bull shit about Kurama dying. Does Kuwabara really think I'm that stupid? Kurama die? In Ningenkai? Gods. What an idiot, Yuusuke must have taught him that joke...
"HIEI-SAN!" Yukina's ki closed in on me, she runs towards me, clutching her chest, panting for breath. Amazing how different we can be even if we are twins. I would usually ignore anyone that was searching for me, but since it's Yukina...
"Hn? What is it Yukina-chan?" More words than I usually speak say in a day.
"Did you get Kazuma-kun's message?" She pants. I was about to roll my eyes at it when I realized it was Yukina who was speaking. Yukina, the one that never lied. A chill ran up my spine.
"H..Hn?" Her expression looks like a shot down birds. Her eyes lower.
"Kurama-kun---"
For the first time ever, I forgot about Yukina. I was off before she finished her sentence.
~*~
Shit shit shit shit SHIT! Where the hell is he? Dammit! My mind panics like it's never done before.
When ningen get hurt... HOSPITALS! But which one? My legs tremble beneath me, anxious for action, wanting to run to where the youko is. My mind spins, thinking of crazy situations and holding impossible wishes. Maybe Yukina was lying? No, she never lies...
My mind keeps screaming and telling itself that it would be okay, that he would be fine, that it was all a joke.
I want to rip the ward off of my Jagan, but Kurama wouldn't like that... Driving ningen insane... DAMMIT!
I take a few deep breaths, forcing my body to calm down and pushing the adrenaline down. Think... how can you find him?
KUWABARA! My mind scans for him and finds his reiki almost immediately. I lock onto it and let my legs go. Like I give a shit if a ningen sees me.
~*~
"WHERE IS KURAMA?!" My coherent mind flits and I find myself holding the nurse up by the scruff.
"K..Kurama? Sir, please let go... please..." The woman whimpers, setting my mind ablaze even more. I feel as if the whole world's trying to keep him from me.
"WHERE THE HELL IS---" Shuuichi. Yes, that was his ningen name, my mind concludes.
I breath deeply again, calming myself so that the woman won't start sputtering and tell me where he is.
"Where-is-Shuuichi-Minamino?" I say, gritting my teeth to keep control. The woman's eyes widen even more at the sound and nods quickly.
"He's in room 345---"
She fell with a yelp to the floor.
~*~
340-341-342-343... A woman bumps into me and I growl at her. Her eyes lock on mine and she glares back.
Shiori?! I stand still for a moment, shocked to see Kurama's ningen mother. The calm, nice, loving woman that tamed Kurama's youko spirit... She glares at me with tear filled eyes and resumes running.
I shake my head and resume walking. Yes.. I feel his youki. Damn! It's dropping... All hopes of it being a joke leave my mind. All that's left is panic and fear... Fear?
Could it be fear? Am I afraid that he'll die? I stop despite my position and look down at myself. Yes, the actions I've been taking for the last hour after I found out about his condition would prove that...
I fear his death.
I don't want him to die.
I need him.
My legs stir once again, snapping me back to reality. I hear heels clacking against the floor and see Shiori running towards me again. A doctor trails behind her, a helpless look on his face. He thinks there is no hope for him. That he will...
345. I run into the room, panting, surprised at how tired I am. Yuusuke stands up and stares at me.
"You-you came?" He looks down at Kuwabara and they both stare at me. All of them do. But I ignore it.
"KURAMA!" My voice surprises me. He's right there in front of me and I'm yelling as if he were miles away. As if my voice could catch him and keep him here with me.
Shiori enters the room and gawks at me.
"Who-" I ignore her.
"KURAMA!!" Dammit, wake up! His eyes are almost closed, his body sweating from the intense heat he emits. His youki drops.
"Hiei what are you---" Yuusuke reaches out to me, afraid of what I'll do, no doubt, because my body is shaking.
A tear gem falls to the floor. He stops dead.
"URUSEINNDAYO!"[1] I elude his grasp and dash to the bed.
"KURAMA!" His eyes squint, as if he's trying to come back. His mouth parts slightly.
"Hiei...?" His ki is almost gone. His voice a shadow of his usual velvety alto.
Shiori holds onto her husband, shifting her eyes from me to Kurama. Yuusuke and the others stare at me, then at Kurama.
I would usually leave then, wanting to escape their eyes. But I don't care... I clutch the air, causing my hand to tighten in an impossible grip, trying to control the shaking.
Who cares if they're watching?
His ki falters.
He's dying...
His eyes start to close.
No... The others are still staring at me.
Who cares?! I... I love him... I need him... Need him so much...
His heart slows down and the room stays dead silent except for the occasional clinking of tear gems to the floor.
My tear gems.
"Kurama..." I reach out, wishing my grasp could keep him here.
"Kurama I---..."
His heart ceases to beat. The room falls silent as the shock stops my tears. All words are lost for a moment.
"Ai Shiteru..."[2] I whisper, having a sinking feeling in my chest. He didn't hear me... Did he? The others gawk at me.
Did he hear me?
The question rings in my head.
Did he hear me...?
End "Lost Words"
Wow, that was cruel. I made Hiei-sama cry... Rams head on iron board as she irons her hands like Dobby And I still killed Kurama... Sniffle
Should I write another chapter? What do ya think? Should I just leave it depressing and sad? Grins
R&R Onegai! ^_^ No flames!
[1]- Something like "SHUT THE FUCK UP".
[2]- I love you
~All good things have an end... however heart wrenching they are...~
Authors Note:
There was a sequel to this story, but due to its (sucky) quality, it was taken down and deleted. I am considering redoing the sequel, but as a one shot. Short and sweet, nothing extra, nothing left out. I hope you like it if I ever get around to it ^.^
~AoiHyou