Loved and Lost
By RD
Disclaimer - Don't own CCS or Kaho or Touya, but wish to own the latter.
A/N - It's....it's....it's NOT ANGST?! Um yeah. Random Kaho. Enjoy.
I should feel bad, I know I should.
But I think this is for the best. I can't tell the future, but I can see things, vague shadows, broken conversation. So yes, it's for the best. I do feel a little bit guilty. He looked so sad, and he's young, so even though I tried to reassure him, it'll make no difference now. In a few years, he'll be glad. Which is why I don't feel bad.
Oh. I'm sorry. You probably have no idea what I'm talking about! I'm silly like that sometimes. My name is Mitsuki Kaho and I just broke up with my boyfriend. I think you know him. Kinomoto Touya? Yes, I thought so. We had fun, but it's over now. It will be hard for him to understand, but it will be better when he finds the one he loves most. No it's not me. I know because of the voices in my head. Not those kind of voices! The ones about the future, like I said before. I have seen him with someone else. I'm not angry because I can see me with someone else too. I can't tell you their names as I haven't met either of them yet. I will someday. Touya won't like my future love, not now, not ever. That's a little sad. But he was always a suspicious boy. He doesn't trust people very easily. He did trust me because he loved me, and he will trust his future love too. I think trust and love go hand in hand for him.
But I broke his trust, didn't I? He'll get over it, I know he will. He's strong. He needs to open up more though. Did you know we'd been going out for three months before he told me he loved me? And I know it will take him even longer next time, because I broke his heart. When I put it like that it sounds awful. It's for the best. It is, really.
I can't ignore the future. I think I would have liked to spend more time with Touya. Once he could admit his feelings he was a wonderful person to be around. I did love him a lot. But next time we meet, it will be more like love between friends. He is not my true love and I am not his. But we are still connected. We will always have a beautiful bond, and we'll never forget each other. I often think about the future. Don't we all? I think about mine and Touya's futures. I know a lot now, but still not everything. I know that my next love will be very different from Touya. He will be stronger. I can see Touya's strength fading. I don't know whether it's his emotional or physical strength, or even his other kind. Yes, that's one thing both my boyfriends will have in common.
They will both have magical powers. And so do I.
That's one of the reasons why I feel Touya is such a kindred spirit for me. My powers are on a much bigger scale than his, but magic runs thin in Japan now, not like the older days, and it was a wonder to find someone with magic. That's part of what attracted me to Touya.
Touya's next love will know that too, but won't care. To me, it drew me closer to him, but this person will love Touya solely for himself. And Touya will do anything for that person. That's how I know they are made for each other. I know their love will grow into something rare and pure and so beautiful. I can only hope that that's the kind of love I will have one day.
But for now I have to leave you.
Watch Touya for me, will you?
...Goodbye.
By RD
Disclaimer - Don't own CCS or Kaho or Touya, but wish to own the latter.
A/N - It's....it's....it's NOT ANGST?! Um yeah. Random Kaho. Enjoy.
I should feel bad, I know I should.
But I think this is for the best. I can't tell the future, but I can see things, vague shadows, broken conversation. So yes, it's for the best. I do feel a little bit guilty. He looked so sad, and he's young, so even though I tried to reassure him, it'll make no difference now. In a few years, he'll be glad. Which is why I don't feel bad.
Oh. I'm sorry. You probably have no idea what I'm talking about! I'm silly like that sometimes. My name is Mitsuki Kaho and I just broke up with my boyfriend. I think you know him. Kinomoto Touya? Yes, I thought so. We had fun, but it's over now. It will be hard for him to understand, but it will be better when he finds the one he loves most. No it's not me. I know because of the voices in my head. Not those kind of voices! The ones about the future, like I said before. I have seen him with someone else. I'm not angry because I can see me with someone else too. I can't tell you their names as I haven't met either of them yet. I will someday. Touya won't like my future love, not now, not ever. That's a little sad. But he was always a suspicious boy. He doesn't trust people very easily. He did trust me because he loved me, and he will trust his future love too. I think trust and love go hand in hand for him.
But I broke his trust, didn't I? He'll get over it, I know he will. He's strong. He needs to open up more though. Did you know we'd been going out for three months before he told me he loved me? And I know it will take him even longer next time, because I broke his heart. When I put it like that it sounds awful. It's for the best. It is, really.
I can't ignore the future. I think I would have liked to spend more time with Touya. Once he could admit his feelings he was a wonderful person to be around. I did love him a lot. But next time we meet, it will be more like love between friends. He is not my true love and I am not his. But we are still connected. We will always have a beautiful bond, and we'll never forget each other. I often think about the future. Don't we all? I think about mine and Touya's futures. I know a lot now, but still not everything. I know that my next love will be very different from Touya. He will be stronger. I can see Touya's strength fading. I don't know whether it's his emotional or physical strength, or even his other kind. Yes, that's one thing both my boyfriends will have in common.
They will both have magical powers. And so do I.
That's one of the reasons why I feel Touya is such a kindred spirit for me. My powers are on a much bigger scale than his, but magic runs thin in Japan now, not like the older days, and it was a wonder to find someone with magic. That's part of what attracted me to Touya.
Touya's next love will know that too, but won't care. To me, it drew me closer to him, but this person will love Touya solely for himself. And Touya will do anything for that person. That's how I know they are made for each other. I know their love will grow into something rare and pure and so beautiful. I can only hope that that's the kind of love I will have one day.
But for now I have to leave you.
Watch Touya for me, will you?
...Goodbye.