"Crawling"
Song by Linkin park
Story by Moose
crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how i fall
confusing what is real
crawling...that's how he felt. He was crawling in this half demon, half human skin of his. He couldn't take what he had done...all those he had killed. They weren't just demons, he had found out there were some innocent humans, too, and that had just ripped him apart.
there's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
consuming/confusing
this lack of self-control i fear is never ending
controlling/i can't seem...
Inu Yasha had tried so hard to control his demon side...so hard! It just kept tugging and tugging on his soul, scratching and ripping at his insides to get out, to kill something, anything.
to find myself again
my walls are closing in
(without a sense of confidence and i'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
i've felt this way before
so insecure
He felt so utterly disgusted with himself. Inu Yasha could hardly stand it. The constant fear of an episode like that night happening again weighed heavily on his shoulders. What if he injured Kagome? What if...what if...what if...all the possibilities pulled him deeper into his own misery.
crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how i fall
confusing what is real
Kagome knew Inu Yasha was greatly impacted by that night. Everyone knew. It was obvious in his actions. The way he spoke, it was lifeless. He would sit and stare straight ahead, eyes glazed over, like he was lost within himself. Every day he would do this and it was killing Kagome.
discomfort endlessly has pulled itself upon me
distracting/reacting
against my will i stand beside my own reflection
it's haunting how i can't seem...
Inu Yasha felt like he was drowning...all his senses were clouded and dull. When the others spoke to him , he could only just manage to hear them, even when they were shouting at him to stop this madness of his. But he couldn't, he had banished himself here, to this desolate place, because of what he was, what he had done.
to find myself again
my walls are closing in
(without a sense of confidence and i'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
i've felt this way before
so insecure
He could feel himself disintegrating, wasting away ever so slowly, day by miserable day. He had gone up to a cliff nearby, and Kagome had followed him. He knew what She thought he was going to do, jump. He was, but not today. He had walked up to the edge and sat there, just staring down at what could be. His ears twitched at footsteps coming up behind him. Kagome sat down beside him.
"Inu Yasha," Kagome started. She started to cry. "Why are you doing this to yourself?"
He tilted his head. He wanted so badly to tell her everything he was feeling. The cloud of despair within was choking him, taking away his oxygen and not letting him speak. 'Oh Kagome..' He was a weakling; he couldn't even help himself. A soft touch on his face brought him back from his thoughts. He was crying. No! No!! He wouldn't cry again...not again. Inu yasha couldn't stop himself, like he couldn't stop his youkia blood from taking over that night.
Kagome took his hand and stood up, pulling Inu Yasha with her. She pulled him into a warm embrace and laid his head on her shoulder. She made soft, comforting sounds.
crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how i fall
confusing what is real
"You'll be alright, Inu Yasha." She held him closer. "..you'll be alright. I promise."
The End
a/n: now, I think this one sucked. More of a filler I suppose u could say...eh, whatever. Flame me if you please! How else am I suppose to roast these marshmallows? Hmm..I suppose I could use a lighter...
Disclaimer: in 1st part!