Another Rainy day
By System Id
AU: I don't own any of the characters portrayed in this story, even though I wish I did. If I decide to put in my own character, I will let you known in the Authors notes at the beginning of the chapter.
The sun has risen, but you couldn't tell due to the large gray clouds that were releasing the rain. He sat up in bed, stretched and looked out the window next to his bed. He smiled to himself. The day was miserable which meant not drills, no tests, no Angels, no time in the purple monster (and I don't mean Barney). He stood up, and pulled on some sweat pants. He left the sanctuary of his room for the kitchen.
"2 eggs, 2 cups of mix, 1 ½ cups milk, 4 tablespoons of oil." He read the ingredients as he made the waffles. On the burner next to him there were sausages frying in the pan. He heard to groans and a door open.
"Hey baka, isn't it a bit early for breakfast?" A girl said as she sat down.
"Good morning to you too Auska." he made a weak attempet at talking to her. He didn't want to mess with her in the mornings.
"Shut up baka." Auska replied as she picked up a cup of tea.
'Why the hell do I put up with it.. Can't she call me by my first name for a change?' He thought. His thoughts were interrupted by another door opening; and another groan following it. A violet haired woman walked in, or more like stumbled in.
"Morning.. Shinji.." the woman said as she walked in slowly.
"Morning Misato." Shinji said as she passes him for the fridge. She reached in and grabbed a beer.
"You shouldn't drink so much.it'll kill you in the end." Shinji said.
"Hey, when you got a life like mine, it's the way to go." Misato said before she went through the first of what would be several beers.
Breakfast was ready. Shinji set the food down and the plate of waffles was gone faster then he thought. When everyone had left, he took the dishes to the sink and washed them.
'Damnit.I hate doing this every morning. If I let Misato cook, then we'd all be dead, but Auska I don't think she knows how to cook, so they just leave it too me. The one with no life. The silent, shy one. I'm going to run away again.but I shouldn't run away. I mustn't run away.' Shinji thought to himself. Today was the day before his birthday, he was hoping something would happen, but then again, Misato probably forgot already. Every year he had run away from his home for the day. He would visit his mother's grave, and he would go buy himself a gift. There was no one in the world that would care about him. He got up, went to his room and got his SDAT. He stuffed it in his school back along with some money. He left the apartment with out a word. No one noticed. Not even Misato, whom he passed on his way out. Shinji walked down the street no one taking care to the lonely little boy who walked alone. 'I am alone.. like always. No one cares, I should just end the shit I put up with.' Shinji thought. He walked down a side street, making his way to the bus stop he always used to go everywhere in town. He walked by two lovers, kissing, leaving the world where Angel's existed, and where it would never be safe. They had gone into a bliss that they only shared.
'I wish I had someone who cared enough about me like that.. Sadly, no one ever will. I've tried in the past; I'm just not good enough for the people around me. I feel myself getting worse and worse at it everyday. Too bad I have to like someone.Damnit.Why won't see leave my thoughts! Why am I thinking about her, all she ever does it yell at me and constantly beat me around like a little toy.' Shinji thought. His thoughts were interrupted when the bus came to a screaming halt at the stop.
"You getting on boy? We ain't got all day. Where ya going?" The diver asked.
"I'm going to the cemetery." Shinji said as he dropped the coins into the meter, the drive closed the doors and Shinji took a seat in the back. He opened his bag and pulled out a notebook, he took out a pencil and his SDAT. He looked out the window and drew what he saw. Soon he was writing little poems in it. He couldn't stop.
"Boy, your stop." The driver called to him. Shinji packed away his things and left giving the driver a few dollars on the way out. He walked to up the steep path to his graveyard where he walked among the black columns of gravestones. He came to one that was his mothers. He bent over and kissed the marker.
"Hello mother. I can't deal with the life that I live, what should I do? Should I give it up and kill myself, or should I live though it like you would encourage me too. I just don't know anymore. Misato says I should get a girl friend but they wouldn't like me. I'm too quiet, too shy to do anything. I still play the song you used to sing me. No one has ever heard me play the cello. No one wants to see the freak play the cello. My teacher called me that when I Aunt and Uncle died. Mother, you need to help me.I'm afraid." Shinji said to the empty grave. He gave up trying to talk and walked back down the hill. He slowly made his way around town.
There were people everywhere in Toyko-3. People in the ally's people in the streets, stores, and movie theaters packed.
'I didn't expect it too be this packed!' Shinji thought as he walked into the SDAT store.
"Hey Shinji! Here to pick up that tape you ordered?" The Clerk said.
"Hey Kaji. Yes I am." Shinji said. Every time he walked in, Kaji was there to greet him. Shinji would some time cringe when Kaji talked like the Ryhoji Kaji. There was always a pang of remorse in his heart. He paid for the tape and left, before he left, Kaji gave him another tape.
"Here, you'll enjoy this tape. It's the soundtrack from an old musical called The Nutcracker. It's all composed by Tchaikovsky. You'll like it, and Happy Birthday." Kaji said.
"Thank you Kaji." Shinji said. Ever since the first day he arrived, he was a friend with Kaji. The first day he walked in and asked for recommendations on classical SDAT tapes he was a friend with him. Kaji gave him deals on tapes, he never did that for anyone, and he thought of Shinji like a son. He lost his wife from a heart attack while giving birth, and his son died at birth. He was the son Kaji never had.
Shinji arrived home late, there was nothing set out, nothing. Even though there was a big red circle over Shinji's Birthday on the calendar, yet no one remembered. Shinji walked to his room, taking his backpack off as he opened his door.
"Ahem." Someone said behind him. Shinji swallowed hard as he turned around. Misato was glaring at him from the chair in the living room.
"Uhhh.Hi Misato." Shinji said quietly.
"Shinji, where have you been?" Misato asked.
"I went out. If you would look at the calendar, and notice the large red circle there, you would know." Shinji said. He turned around. He was about walk into his room when a pair of arms embraced him.
"I'm sorry Shinji.Happy Birthday."Misato said as she hugged Shinji.
"You forger every year Misato. You don't mean that, tomorrow your going to forget, and I went out all day and you realized I was gone when dinner wasn't being cooked? Or did it happened before hand?" Shinji asked, there was spite in his voice.
"Shinji.I."Misato said. That was all she could get out.
"I shouldn't have come here. No one cares about me! Not you, not Auska, not Rei, not father, not Ritsuko, not Maya, NO ONE!" Shinji yelled.
"Shinji." Misato said sorrowfully.
"NO! I SHOULD HAVE JUMPED FROM THAT MOUNTAIN PEAK! OR DIED IN THE EVA FIGHT! THAT'S ALL I'M GOOD FOR! THAT DAMN PURPLE MOSTER! THAT'S ALL YOU PEOPLE CARE ABOUT! NOT MY WANTS! NOT MY NEEDS! NO ONE LOVES ME! IF YOU DO THEN YOU SHOULDN'T HABE FORGOTEN MY BIRTHDAY!" Shinji yelled as he slammed his door shut and locked it. Auska came out into the hall.
"What's going on? I'm trying to sleep here, don't yell." Auska said.
"Shut up." Misato said flatly. Auska looked at him.
"You forgot didn't you?" Auska asked. Misato nodded. Auska shook her head.
"Lemme talk to the twip" Auska said. She knocked on Shinji's door.
"F*ck off" Shinji barked. Auska look shocked.
"Don't talk to me like that you little pervert!" Auska retorted. At first there was no response. But there was a sound of a latch being undone. Auska tried the knob, and it was open, she slipped in a closed and re- locked the door.
Auska crossed the floor to Shinji. He sat on his bed, facing the window, in a fetal position.
"Shinji?" Auska asked.
"What." Shinji asked. Auska sat down on the bed and put a hand on his shoulder.
"I didn't forget." Auska said. Shinji harrumphed and didn't move. Auska looked confused.
'I've never seen him like this before. This isn't normal.' Auska thought
"Shinji.what's wrong?" Auska asked. Shinji shuddered.
"Nothing is wrong. You can leave now." Shinji stated flatly.
"I'm not leaving until you tell me. Don't tell me that it's nothing because you are not acting normal" Auska said. She gripped Shinji's shoulder. Shinji broke down and burst into tears. He pulled away from Auska.
"Everyone forgets my birthday. No one ever bought me a present, no one ever tells me
'Happy Birthday Shinji!' No one even bothers to know I exist for anything else other then EVA." Shinji said.
"I didn't forget. I may not act like it, but I really don't forget people's birthday." Auska said.
"Thank you." Shinji said in between sniffles.
"Now, get better and I expect to be hear that 'sorry' you always use in the morning. Alright" Auska said as she slid off Shinji's bed. He nodded and sat up to a normal position
"Good Night Auska." Shinji said. Auska smiled and nodded as she left. Shinji crawled under his sheets and fell into a dreamless sleep.
Morning came all to quickly when Misato banged on his door.
"SHINJI! GET UP! WE NEED SOME FOOD!" Misato yelled. Shinji rolled to one side so the he could look at the door. It buckled on its hinges every time Misato's fist hit it. Shinji got up slowly leaving the warmth of the sheets. He pulled on his normal school uniform and tucked his shirt in. He left the teal shirt under it to be visible due to the fact that he didn't button the top 2 buttons. He entered the kitchen and began breakfast. Auska walked in and addressed him.
"Hey you hentai. What's for breakfast?" She asked.
"Pancakes." Shinji answered
"We had those yesterday!" Auska wined.
"Sorry."Shinji said in the same feeble phrase as always. He made lunch while the pancakes were making. He packed them in the red and blue lunch pails and handed on to Auska. He set a stack of pancakes down on the table and everyone ate quickly. Misato raced out the door and so did Shinji and Auska. They had a more quickened pace on the way to school.
They entered the classroom with the same usual entrance. Auska barging in and Shinji walking in, looking the same usual way. He sat down in front of Toji, who was seated at the back of the room. He turned on his lap top and found several messages in his In-Box. He opened them, mostly from Misato and Toji. But there was one from someone who he didn't recognize.
AU: I don't own any of the characters portrayed in this story, even though I wish I did. If I decide to put in my own character, I will let you known in the Authors notes at the beginning of the chapter.
The sun has risen, but you couldn't tell due to the large gray clouds that were releasing the rain. He sat up in bed, stretched and looked out the window next to his bed. He smiled to himself. The day was miserable which meant not drills, no tests, no Angels, no time in the purple monster (and I don't mean Barney). He stood up, and pulled on some sweat pants. He left the sanctuary of his room for the kitchen.
"2 eggs, 2 cups of mix, 1 ½ cups milk, 4 tablespoons of oil." He read the ingredients as he made the waffles. On the burner next to him there were sausages frying in the pan. He heard to groans and a door open.
"Hey baka, isn't it a bit early for breakfast?" A girl said as she sat down.
"Good morning to you too Auska." he made a weak attempet at talking to her. He didn't want to mess with her in the mornings.
"Shut up baka." Auska replied as she picked up a cup of tea.
'Why the hell do I put up with it.. Can't she call me by my first name for a change?' He thought. His thoughts were interrupted by another door opening; and another groan following it. A violet haired woman walked in, or more like stumbled in.
"Morning.. Shinji.." the woman said as she walked in slowly.
"Morning Misato." Shinji said as she passes him for the fridge. She reached in and grabbed a beer.
"You shouldn't drink so much.it'll kill you in the end." Shinji said.
"Hey, when you got a life like mine, it's the way to go." Misato said before she went through the first of what would be several beers.
Breakfast was ready. Shinji set the food down and the plate of waffles was gone faster then he thought. When everyone had left, he took the dishes to the sink and washed them.
'Damnit.I hate doing this every morning. If I let Misato cook, then we'd all be dead, but Auska I don't think she knows how to cook, so they just leave it too me. The one with no life. The silent, shy one. I'm going to run away again.but I shouldn't run away. I mustn't run away.' Shinji thought to himself. Today was the day before his birthday, he was hoping something would happen, but then again, Misato probably forgot already. Every year he had run away from his home for the day. He would visit his mother's grave, and he would go buy himself a gift. There was no one in the world that would care about him. He got up, went to his room and got his SDAT. He stuffed it in his school back along with some money. He left the apartment with out a word. No one noticed. Not even Misato, whom he passed on his way out. Shinji walked down the street no one taking care to the lonely little boy who walked alone. 'I am alone.. like always. No one cares, I should just end the shit I put up with.' Shinji thought. He walked down a side street, making his way to the bus stop he always used to go everywhere in town. He walked by two lovers, kissing, leaving the world where Angel's existed, and where it would never be safe. They had gone into a bliss that they only shared.
'I wish I had someone who cared enough about me like that.. Sadly, no one ever will. I've tried in the past; I'm just not good enough for the people around me. I feel myself getting worse and worse at it everyday. Too bad I have to like someone.Damnit.Why won't see leave my thoughts! Why am I thinking about her, all she ever does it yell at me and constantly beat me around like a little toy.' Shinji thought. His thoughts were interrupted when the bus came to a screaming halt at the stop.
"You getting on boy? We ain't got all day. Where ya going?" The diver asked.
"I'm going to the cemetery." Shinji said as he dropped the coins into the meter, the drive closed the doors and Shinji took a seat in the back. He opened his bag and pulled out a notebook, he took out a pencil and his SDAT. He looked out the window and drew what he saw. Soon he was writing little poems in it. He couldn't stop.
"Boy, your stop." The driver called to him. Shinji packed away his things and left giving the driver a few dollars on the way out. He walked to up the steep path to his graveyard where he walked among the black columns of gravestones. He came to one that was his mothers. He bent over and kissed the marker.
"Hello mother. I can't deal with the life that I live, what should I do? Should I give it up and kill myself, or should I live though it like you would encourage me too. I just don't know anymore. Misato says I should get a girl friend but they wouldn't like me. I'm too quiet, too shy to do anything. I still play the song you used to sing me. No one has ever heard me play the cello. No one wants to see the freak play the cello. My teacher called me that when I Aunt and Uncle died. Mother, you need to help me.I'm afraid." Shinji said to the empty grave. He gave up trying to talk and walked back down the hill. He slowly made his way around town.
There were people everywhere in Toyko-3. People in the ally's people in the streets, stores, and movie theaters packed.
'I didn't expect it too be this packed!' Shinji thought as he walked into the SDAT store.
"Hey Shinji! Here to pick up that tape you ordered?" The Clerk said.
"Hey Kaji. Yes I am." Shinji said. Every time he walked in, Kaji was there to greet him. Shinji would some time cringe when Kaji talked like the Ryhoji Kaji. There was always a pang of remorse in his heart. He paid for the tape and left, before he left, Kaji gave him another tape.
"Here, you'll enjoy this tape. It's the soundtrack from an old musical called The Nutcracker. It's all composed by Tchaikovsky. You'll like it, and Happy Birthday." Kaji said.
"Thank you Kaji." Shinji said. Ever since the first day he arrived, he was a friend with Kaji. The first day he walked in and asked for recommendations on classical SDAT tapes he was a friend with him. Kaji gave him deals on tapes, he never did that for anyone, and he thought of Shinji like a son. He lost his wife from a heart attack while giving birth, and his son died at birth. He was the son Kaji never had.
Shinji arrived home late, there was nothing set out, nothing. Even though there was a big red circle over Shinji's Birthday on the calendar, yet no one remembered. Shinji walked to his room, taking his backpack off as he opened his door.
"Ahem." Someone said behind him. Shinji swallowed hard as he turned around. Misato was glaring at him from the chair in the living room.
"Uhhh.Hi Misato." Shinji said quietly.
"Shinji, where have you been?" Misato asked.
"I went out. If you would look at the calendar, and notice the large red circle there, you would know." Shinji said. He turned around. He was about walk into his room when a pair of arms embraced him.
"I'm sorry Shinji.Happy Birthday."Misato said as she hugged Shinji.
"You forger every year Misato. You don't mean that, tomorrow your going to forget, and I went out all day and you realized I was gone when dinner wasn't being cooked? Or did it happened before hand?" Shinji asked, there was spite in his voice.
"Shinji.I."Misato said. That was all she could get out.
"I shouldn't have come here. No one cares about me! Not you, not Auska, not Rei, not father, not Ritsuko, not Maya, NO ONE!" Shinji yelled.
"Shinji." Misato said sorrowfully.
"NO! I SHOULD HAVE JUMPED FROM THAT MOUNTAIN PEAK! OR DIED IN THE EVA FIGHT! THAT'S ALL I'M GOOD FOR! THAT DAMN PURPLE MOSTER! THAT'S ALL YOU PEOPLE CARE ABOUT! NOT MY WANTS! NOT MY NEEDS! NO ONE LOVES ME! IF YOU DO THEN YOU SHOULDN'T HABE FORGOTEN MY BIRTHDAY!" Shinji yelled as he slammed his door shut and locked it. Auska came out into the hall.
"What's going on? I'm trying to sleep here, don't yell." Auska said.
"Shut up." Misato said flatly. Auska looked at him.
"You forgot didn't you?" Auska asked. Misato nodded. Auska shook her head.
"Lemme talk to the twip" Auska said. She knocked on Shinji's door.
"F*ck off" Shinji barked. Auska look shocked.
"Don't talk to me like that you little pervert!" Auska retorted. At first there was no response. But there was a sound of a latch being undone. Auska tried the knob, and it was open, she slipped in a closed and re- locked the door.
Auska crossed the floor to Shinji. He sat on his bed, facing the window, in a fetal position.
"Shinji?" Auska asked.
"What." Shinji asked. Auska sat down on the bed and put a hand on his shoulder.
"I didn't forget." Auska said. Shinji harrumphed and didn't move. Auska looked confused.
'I've never seen him like this before. This isn't normal.' Auska thought
"Shinji.what's wrong?" Auska asked. Shinji shuddered.
"Nothing is wrong. You can leave now." Shinji stated flatly.
"I'm not leaving until you tell me. Don't tell me that it's nothing because you are not acting normal" Auska said. She gripped Shinji's shoulder. Shinji broke down and burst into tears. He pulled away from Auska.
"Everyone forgets my birthday. No one ever bought me a present, no one ever tells me
'Happy Birthday Shinji!' No one even bothers to know I exist for anything else other then EVA." Shinji said.
"I didn't forget. I may not act like it, but I really don't forget people's birthday." Auska said.
"Thank you." Shinji said in between sniffles.
"Now, get better and I expect to be hear that 'sorry' you always use in the morning. Alright" Auska said as she slid off Shinji's bed. He nodded and sat up to a normal position
"Good Night Auska." Shinji said. Auska smiled and nodded as she left. Shinji crawled under his sheets and fell into a dreamless sleep.
Morning came all to quickly when Misato banged on his door.
"SHINJI! GET UP! WE NEED SOME FOOD!" Misato yelled. Shinji rolled to one side so the he could look at the door. It buckled on its hinges every time Misato's fist hit it. Shinji got up slowly leaving the warmth of the sheets. He pulled on his normal school uniform and tucked his shirt in. He left the teal shirt under it to be visible due to the fact that he didn't button the top 2 buttons. He entered the kitchen and began breakfast. Auska walked in and addressed him.
"Hey you hentai. What's for breakfast?" She asked.
"Pancakes." Shinji answered
"We had those yesterday!" Auska wined.
"Sorry."Shinji said in the same feeble phrase as always. He made lunch while the pancakes were making. He packed them in the red and blue lunch pails and handed on to Auska. He set a stack of pancakes down on the table and everyone ate quickly. Misato raced out the door and so did Shinji and Auska. They had a more quickened pace on the way to school.
They entered the classroom with the same usual entrance. Auska barging in and Shinji walking in, looking the same usual way. He sat down in front of Toji, who was seated at the back of the room. He turned on his lap top and found several messages in his In-Box. He opened them, mostly from Misato and Toji. But there was one from someone who he didn't recognize.