Tainted Memories...
Chapter Two by Star-chan
Disclaimer: Saiyuki will never ever belong to me... sob sob. It belongs to Kazuya Minekura-sensei, the talented owner of all these handsome bishounens... sigh... if only she drew more intimate pictures of Sanzo and Goku!! Hehee...
Extra Short Summary: The sequel to Loving You!! Reveals what happened after Loving You (obviously). Goku have been waiting for Konzen, but he never came, then he meets up with Sanzo, and doesn't know that Sanzo and Konzen are the same person!! Will Goku ever get back his sun??
Author's Note: Wai!!!!!!! Finally finished this chapter!!! Dedicated to all you lovely people who reviewed!!! Hontou ni arigato!!! Happy New Year!!!! Enjoy!!!!
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" Do you really want to do this? "
" Yes, I'm sure! After what I've done to him, just using my life as an exchange is nothing. And I want him to get back all that I'd took from him... I want him to be happy, once again. To be able to love and to be loved back... "
" If you're that determined, I won't stop you then. Just that you may die, you know... It's a huge risk to take. "
" I don't mind the risks... "
Yes... I don't mind the risks... as long as he's happy...
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"............... I don't know... I don't remember..."
" Ch... Stop lying, you dumb ape! "
" I'm not!! I really don't remember... but somehow I know that he had violet eyes and blonde hair... just like yours. "
" Hmph........... "
" Then somehow later, I was in this cave, all alone. He said that he would come back and find me... he asked me to wait for him. And I promised him... that although it would take a million years or more, I would wait for him, forever. And I did! I waited for him for more than five hundred years... but he didn't come. "
" Ch... He was just fooling you! "
" IIE!! He wasn't... He wouldn't lie to me... "
" But he didn't return... did he? "
" He would!! I knew he would... But then, I heard this voice. It kept on saying that he would not return to me, and that I was just dreaming hopelessly like a fool. It taunted me over and over again, and made me slowly lose hope... forgetting what he had once said. And I followed what the voice said. It told me that taking off the golden band on my head would help me forget all the pain... and I took it off. "
" Hn... What a stupid thing to do! " The man said again, but I ignored him and continued my story.
" Then, it took over my body. And all I saw was blood... it killed people without mercy, without even taking a single look at its victim before killing them. Leaving me there to watch as my body killed all those people, young and old... none survived. Instead of forgetting all the pain, it increased... And blood never left my hands. The dark red gore, staining my palms... it wouldn't leave me. "
He didn't say anything for a while and just sat there, with his eyes downcast. And wistfully said...
" ... Blood can be washed away... "
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" Are you sure you're giving it to Konzen? "
" Yes... "
" But then, the chibi might not remember you... You do know that, don't you? "
" Yes, I know. But isn't it better if he doesn't? Then he won't remember what I did to him. And even if I give it to Goku... he'll have a hard time explaining to the blonde. So it's better this way. "
" Sou ka... maybe it is... "
" Kanzeon-sama, please do it! I know what may happen to me, but I don't care! Just do it! "
" Hai hai... I know already. So, may we begin? "
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He left the room after that, leaving me all alone to think about what he had said... Somehow later, as I was walking around the temple I managed to catch the blonde's name. It was Sanzo. I realized that nobody here knew my name. Even Sanzo didn't ask me. The other monks were talking about him, about why he had brought back such a filthy boy. They were talking about me, saying I was a nuisance... nothing but a burden. And that I was spoiling their temple's reputation. But their words didn't really reach to me, I was just trying to remember the path to Sanzo's room. He had said that blood could be washed off... and it made sense. Somehow, it made me feel better. But he looked slightly depressed as he said it... like something had happened to him, though I doubt he'll tell me what happened.
As I was walking pass the corridors, I heard his voice, coming from a room on my left. I went nearer and looked into the room. Sanzo was standing in the middle of the room, talking to some elderly monks. The monks were talking about me again... the longhaired boy as they referred to me. And there were no other boys in the temple with long hair... right? It was about the temple's reputation again. They told Sanzo to get rid of me... but Sanzo coolly told them to mind their own business, and he turned around to exit the room. I quickly hid behind a pillar and watched as Sanzo headed back to his room. His face emotionless...
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A few days had passed since Goku saw the incident... He knew that most of the monks there didn't like him, and just tolerated him because of Sanzo. He already knew the way to Sanzo's room clearly, as he had walked there millions of times. But he didn't dare go in. He didn't dare to face Sanzo... afraid of what he would say. However, he was determined to talk to Sanzo this time. He slowly walked while counting his steps, one by one. Knowing that in a few more steps, he would reach Sanzo's room. Finally, he reached there... in front of Sanzo's door, only a few mere seconds to see those pair of striking violet eyes. And he turned the doorknob, only to be greeted by total darkness.
Sanzo was sitting on his bed, with his gun pointed at Goku... ready to shoot the intruder. He realized it was Goku, and silently kept his gun back in its place.
" What do you want? "
" Nothing... Sanzo. There's something I want to tell you. "
" Nani? "
" It's... about... I... I want to leave the temple. " Goku slowly muttered out, waiting for the blonde priest to respond.
" ... Why? " Sanzo looked at Goku questioningly, waiting for an answer.
" Because I don't belong here... I need to find somewhere where I'm accepted. I want to find back my sun, I. I don't want to be alone... "
" Sou ka... "
" Then, I shall be leaving. Thank you for taking care of me, Sanzo... Sayonara. "
Goku turned around and took his first step in leaving Sanzo's room. He knew that he had to go... Sanzo wasn't his sun. No matter how much they looked alike. But he couldn't help but wish. Wish that somehow... Sanzo would be his sun. However, Sanzo didn't prevent him from leaving... he didn't say anything. And now, he was already leaving the room. Still hoping that Sanzo would stop him... would suddenly call out his name. But that wasn't possible right? Sanzo didn't even know his name. Yet, he longed to hear his name called out in that deep voice, by the lips of a handsome blonde monk.
But it was all a dream. He was still dreaming hopelessly as that voice had said. It was right... He was a fool... a hopeless fool, trapped between the clutches of hope and despair. He knew it, but still he couldn't help but hope.
Then, as he was about to step out of the room, two hands pulled him back strongly into an embrace. Reducing the gap between the two bodies, as the two touched. He could smell the strong scent of cigarettes infuriating his senses, and a single tear ran down his cheek.
" ... Goku... stay with me... "
~~ End of Chapter Two ~~
Author's Note: Minna!! How was it??? Gahhhh... I know its OOC... but don't blame me!!!! I didn't know what else to write!! Sigh... I don't even know if I can finish this fic... Anyway please drop a review or comment at star_foreva88@hotmail.com !! Tell me how was it!!! Onegaii!! Hope you still enjoyed it though, no matter how bad it was!!
M-i: Thanks for being the first reviewer!!!!!!!!!!!! *glomps* ...hehe... and if they don't meet... it'll be more sad!!! I can't let that happen...ne??
chris: Hehehe... actually I'm not really sure myself!!! But if he doesn't... then there'll be no continuation!! Hehehe...
cutie-pie16: Arigato for reviewing!!! Hey... where's the picture??? *silver thing glimmering behind Star-chan*
Gokugurl: Wai!!!!! The second chapter arrives... And it does suck!!! In the whole fic of 'loving you'... I only like chapter 1 and 5!! Really!! It sucks!! Don't argue with me!!! It's the truth!!
gallatica: Arigato for the review!!! Me just love it!!!
Minna!!! Hontou ni arigato for reading my fic(that is if anyone reads it)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *bows head*
Chapter Two by Star-chan
Disclaimer: Saiyuki will never ever belong to me... sob sob. It belongs to Kazuya Minekura-sensei, the talented owner of all these handsome bishounens... sigh... if only she drew more intimate pictures of Sanzo and Goku!! Hehee...
Extra Short Summary: The sequel to Loving You!! Reveals what happened after Loving You (obviously). Goku have been waiting for Konzen, but he never came, then he meets up with Sanzo, and doesn't know that Sanzo and Konzen are the same person!! Will Goku ever get back his sun??
Author's Note: Wai!!!!!!! Finally finished this chapter!!! Dedicated to all you lovely people who reviewed!!! Hontou ni arigato!!! Happy New Year!!!! Enjoy!!!!
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" Do you really want to do this? "
" Yes, I'm sure! After what I've done to him, just using my life as an exchange is nothing. And I want him to get back all that I'd took from him... I want him to be happy, once again. To be able to love and to be loved back... "
" If you're that determined, I won't stop you then. Just that you may die, you know... It's a huge risk to take. "
" I don't mind the risks... "
Yes... I don't mind the risks... as long as he's happy...
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"............... I don't know... I don't remember..."
" Ch... Stop lying, you dumb ape! "
" I'm not!! I really don't remember... but somehow I know that he had violet eyes and blonde hair... just like yours. "
" Hmph........... "
" Then somehow later, I was in this cave, all alone. He said that he would come back and find me... he asked me to wait for him. And I promised him... that although it would take a million years or more, I would wait for him, forever. And I did! I waited for him for more than five hundred years... but he didn't come. "
" Ch... He was just fooling you! "
" IIE!! He wasn't... He wouldn't lie to me... "
" But he didn't return... did he? "
" He would!! I knew he would... But then, I heard this voice. It kept on saying that he would not return to me, and that I was just dreaming hopelessly like a fool. It taunted me over and over again, and made me slowly lose hope... forgetting what he had once said. And I followed what the voice said. It told me that taking off the golden band on my head would help me forget all the pain... and I took it off. "
" Hn... What a stupid thing to do! " The man said again, but I ignored him and continued my story.
" Then, it took over my body. And all I saw was blood... it killed people without mercy, without even taking a single look at its victim before killing them. Leaving me there to watch as my body killed all those people, young and old... none survived. Instead of forgetting all the pain, it increased... And blood never left my hands. The dark red gore, staining my palms... it wouldn't leave me. "
He didn't say anything for a while and just sat there, with his eyes downcast. And wistfully said...
" ... Blood can be washed away... "
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" Are you sure you're giving it to Konzen? "
" Yes... "
" But then, the chibi might not remember you... You do know that, don't you? "
" Yes, I know. But isn't it better if he doesn't? Then he won't remember what I did to him. And even if I give it to Goku... he'll have a hard time explaining to the blonde. So it's better this way. "
" Sou ka... maybe it is... "
" Kanzeon-sama, please do it! I know what may happen to me, but I don't care! Just do it! "
" Hai hai... I know already. So, may we begin? "
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He left the room after that, leaving me all alone to think about what he had said... Somehow later, as I was walking around the temple I managed to catch the blonde's name. It was Sanzo. I realized that nobody here knew my name. Even Sanzo didn't ask me. The other monks were talking about him, about why he had brought back such a filthy boy. They were talking about me, saying I was a nuisance... nothing but a burden. And that I was spoiling their temple's reputation. But their words didn't really reach to me, I was just trying to remember the path to Sanzo's room. He had said that blood could be washed off... and it made sense. Somehow, it made me feel better. But he looked slightly depressed as he said it... like something had happened to him, though I doubt he'll tell me what happened.
As I was walking pass the corridors, I heard his voice, coming from a room on my left. I went nearer and looked into the room. Sanzo was standing in the middle of the room, talking to some elderly monks. The monks were talking about me again... the longhaired boy as they referred to me. And there were no other boys in the temple with long hair... right? It was about the temple's reputation again. They told Sanzo to get rid of me... but Sanzo coolly told them to mind their own business, and he turned around to exit the room. I quickly hid behind a pillar and watched as Sanzo headed back to his room. His face emotionless...
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A few days had passed since Goku saw the incident... He knew that most of the monks there didn't like him, and just tolerated him because of Sanzo. He already knew the way to Sanzo's room clearly, as he had walked there millions of times. But he didn't dare go in. He didn't dare to face Sanzo... afraid of what he would say. However, he was determined to talk to Sanzo this time. He slowly walked while counting his steps, one by one. Knowing that in a few more steps, he would reach Sanzo's room. Finally, he reached there... in front of Sanzo's door, only a few mere seconds to see those pair of striking violet eyes. And he turned the doorknob, only to be greeted by total darkness.
Sanzo was sitting on his bed, with his gun pointed at Goku... ready to shoot the intruder. He realized it was Goku, and silently kept his gun back in its place.
" What do you want? "
" Nothing... Sanzo. There's something I want to tell you. "
" Nani? "
" It's... about... I... I want to leave the temple. " Goku slowly muttered out, waiting for the blonde priest to respond.
" ... Why? " Sanzo looked at Goku questioningly, waiting for an answer.
" Because I don't belong here... I need to find somewhere where I'm accepted. I want to find back my sun, I. I don't want to be alone... "
" Sou ka... "
" Then, I shall be leaving. Thank you for taking care of me, Sanzo... Sayonara. "
Goku turned around and took his first step in leaving Sanzo's room. He knew that he had to go... Sanzo wasn't his sun. No matter how much they looked alike. But he couldn't help but wish. Wish that somehow... Sanzo would be his sun. However, Sanzo didn't prevent him from leaving... he didn't say anything. And now, he was already leaving the room. Still hoping that Sanzo would stop him... would suddenly call out his name. But that wasn't possible right? Sanzo didn't even know his name. Yet, he longed to hear his name called out in that deep voice, by the lips of a handsome blonde monk.
But it was all a dream. He was still dreaming hopelessly as that voice had said. It was right... He was a fool... a hopeless fool, trapped between the clutches of hope and despair. He knew it, but still he couldn't help but hope.
Then, as he was about to step out of the room, two hands pulled him back strongly into an embrace. Reducing the gap between the two bodies, as the two touched. He could smell the strong scent of cigarettes infuriating his senses, and a single tear ran down his cheek.
" ... Goku... stay with me... "
~~ End of Chapter Two ~~
Author's Note: Minna!! How was it??? Gahhhh... I know its OOC... but don't blame me!!!! I didn't know what else to write!! Sigh... I don't even know if I can finish this fic... Anyway please drop a review or comment at star_foreva88@hotmail.com !! Tell me how was it!!! Onegaii!! Hope you still enjoyed it though, no matter how bad it was!!
M-i: Thanks for being the first reviewer!!!!!!!!!!!! *glomps* ...hehe... and if they don't meet... it'll be more sad!!! I can't let that happen...ne??
chris: Hehehe... actually I'm not really sure myself!!! But if he doesn't... then there'll be no continuation!! Hehehe...
cutie-pie16: Arigato for reviewing!!! Hey... where's the picture??? *silver thing glimmering behind Star-chan*
Gokugurl: Wai!!!!! The second chapter arrives... And it does suck!!! In the whole fic of 'loving you'... I only like chapter 1 and 5!! Really!! It sucks!! Don't argue with me!!! It's the truth!!
gallatica: Arigato for the review!!! Me just love it!!!
Minna!!! Hontou ni arigato for reading my fic(that is if anyone reads it)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *bows head*