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A/N: The song is "You Can't Take Me" by Bryan Adams. It can be found on the Spirit: Wild Stallion of the Cimarron soundtrack. This chapter is an attempt at Sydney's POV-please tell me what you think-it was really hard to write!
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Chapter 4: Lost
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*Got to fight another fight- I gotta run another night
Get it out- check it out
I'm on my way and it don't feel right.
I gotta get me back- I can't be beat and that's a fact
It's OK- I'll find a way
You ain't gonna take me down no way.
Don't judge a thing until you know what's inside it
Don't push me- I'll fight it
Never gonna give in- never gonna give it up no
If you can't catch a wave then you're never gonna ride it
You can't come uninvited
Never gonna give in- never gonna give it up no
You can't take me I'm free.
Why did it all go wrong?- I wanna know what's goin' on
And what's this holding me?
I'm not where I'm supposed to be.
I gotta fight another fight
I gotta fight with all my might
I'm getting out, so check it out
Ya- you're in my way
So you better watch out.
Don't judge a thing until you know what's inside it
Don't push me- I'll fight it
Never gonna give in- never gonna give it up no
If you can't catch a wave then you're never gonna ride it
You can't come uninvited
Never gonna give in- never gonna give it up no
You can't take me I'm free. *
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I watch the woman that was once me talking to Mr. Jarred. She is quiet and calm. I watch her as she stays stoic as the bullet plants itself in her thigh. I see her looking down. Confused. She stares at the blood oozing from the hole in her leg. Suddenly, she falls.
I watch Jarred pick me up. He speaks to me in harsh tones. Sydney does not hear-she has lost consciousness. But I hear him.
"You dammed whore. I hate it when that damn CIA thinks they can fool me so easily. I am no idiot!"
I could become myself once more. But I won't. I can't take it anymore. Being Sydney Bristow rots my soul. I won't let her take me. Not again.
I made a choice to be where I am. To be able to watch myself as my life flys past and apart. I think, If I can't enjoy my life, why live it.
My father is what pushed me over. Although there was not a day in the past eight years I didn't consider leaving myself, what he told me just ushered me over the edge.
And going back is something I can't do. Not for Vaughn even. I can't handle myself anymore. Going back to myself would make me face my problems. But I can't. Everything is too screwed up.
Especially with this predicament. "What shall I do with you? Ms. priss?" Jarred sneered, "Ahh,...I know just the thing."
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A/N: The song is "You Can't Take Me" by Bryan Adams. It can be found on the Spirit: Wild Stallion of the Cimarron soundtrack. This chapter is an attempt at Sydney's POV-please tell me what you think-it was really hard to write!
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Chapter 4: Lost
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*Got to fight another fight- I gotta run another night
Get it out- check it out
I'm on my way and it don't feel right.
I gotta get me back- I can't be beat and that's a fact
It's OK- I'll find a way
You ain't gonna take me down no way.
Don't judge a thing until you know what's inside it
Don't push me- I'll fight it
Never gonna give in- never gonna give it up no
If you can't catch a wave then you're never gonna ride it
You can't come uninvited
Never gonna give in- never gonna give it up no
You can't take me I'm free.
Why did it all go wrong?- I wanna know what's goin' on
And what's this holding me?
I'm not where I'm supposed to be.
I gotta fight another fight
I gotta fight with all my might
I'm getting out, so check it out
Ya- you're in my way
So you better watch out.
Don't judge a thing until you know what's inside it
Don't push me- I'll fight it
Never gonna give in- never gonna give it up no
If you can't catch a wave then you're never gonna ride it
You can't come uninvited
Never gonna give in- never gonna give it up no
You can't take me I'm free. *
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I watch the woman that was once me talking to Mr. Jarred. She is quiet and calm. I watch her as she stays stoic as the bullet plants itself in her thigh. I see her looking down. Confused. She stares at the blood oozing from the hole in her leg. Suddenly, she falls.
I watch Jarred pick me up. He speaks to me in harsh tones. Sydney does not hear-she has lost consciousness. But I hear him.
"You dammed whore. I hate it when that damn CIA thinks they can fool me so easily. I am no idiot!"
I could become myself once more. But I won't. I can't take it anymore. Being Sydney Bristow rots my soul. I won't let her take me. Not again.
I made a choice to be where I am. To be able to watch myself as my life flys past and apart. I think, If I can't enjoy my life, why live it.
My father is what pushed me over. Although there was not a day in the past eight years I didn't consider leaving myself, what he told me just ushered me over the edge.
And going back is something I can't do. Not for Vaughn even. I can't handle myself anymore. Going back to myself would make me face my problems. But I can't. Everything is too screwed up.
Especially with this predicament. "What shall I do with you? Ms. priss?" Jarred sneered, "Ahh,...I know just the thing."
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