"Hey, how was school?" Elizabeth said as Ella stepped into the car.
"Fine." Ella said. "So?"
"So what?"
"Are you gonna answer my question?"
"Ella..." Elizabeth said. "I wanted to sit down so we could really talk about it."
"We are sitting down."
"You know what I mean."
"Sure." Ella said.
In the hospital.
"It's difficult...I don't know where to start, I don't know what you know already."
"What do you mean?"
"A lot has happened the last few months of her life."
"When did she die?"
"10 october 2007, she was only 19."
"How did she die?"
"She had an accident."
"What kind of accident?"
"She was in a carcrash."
"What was so difficult about telling me that?"
"You don't know the whole story yet. It was suicide."
"Yeah right. Rachel would never do that! That's such bullshit!"
"I knew you were gonna say that! I knew it! Let me finish my story okay? Don't interupt me. She had left Jennifer once more, and she had moved in with her boyfriend. They weren't really happy, married, and were gonna have a baby, who wasn't healthy."
"What? Rachel was pregnant and married? No way, she would have told me!"
"No she didn't. She wrote a letter to me. Sending the first 5 diaries. I took the letter with me. I want you to read it when we go home, okay? I don't want you being upset when we are at the OB. Okay?"
"Fine, but I still don't believe it was suicide." Ella said and she ran away. Elizabeth stopped her and they went upstairs to the OB.
OB
"Hi, Elizabeth. Ah, I see you took your daughter with you. Nice."
"Yeah, she wanted to see the baby."
"Good, you know the drill."
Elizabeth laid down on the table. Ella was still standing at the doorstep.
"Come over here, sweety." Elizabeth said.
"No, I'm fine here." Ella said.
"See for yourself." Elizabeth said.
"Okay lets see...." Dr. Coburn said. "Ah there the baby is, it's clearly visible. You want to know the sex?"
Ella slowly moved towards Elizabeth so she could see the screen.
"Do we El? Do we want to know the sex?"
"I'm still mad." Ella said.
"Fine." Elizabeth said. "No, I don't want to know the sex, it's gonna be a big surprise!"
Ella was now so close she could see the screen. "What's that?" She asked, looking at dr. Coburn. "That's the heart."
"And that?"
"That's the legs." Elizabeth said.
"I didn't ask you." Ella said.
"Fine..FINE Ella!" Elizabeth said mad. "Get out! Get out of the room! If you can't talk to me, get out!" Elizabeth stood up, wiped the jelly of her tummy and pushed Ella out of the room. "I'd love to watch my baby, your brother or sister, together with you. But not like this. Damn it Ella! I was having such a good day, and you ruine it. You should have let me make the decision, but you really wanted to know what happened to her. Stupid, stupid me. I wish I'd never told you. Here, the letter. Go on, read it. I hope you'll be satisfied after you read it and I hope we can talk to eachother again. Now get out of my face."
Ella took the letter and walked away.
Dear Elizabeth,
There are things to say, and it's not going to be easy.
I have been writing diaries, for Ella. She can read them when she is old enough. I started them a year after Dad died and I am going to stop today. I send you the first 5 notebooks with this letter, the other one I'll post soon.
I have had a pretty rough time. I left Jennifer once more. I left her about 3 months ago. I met this really cute guy at a party. He drove me home that evening and I asked him to come in and have a drink. Well, I guess you know what that means, asking someone in for a drink. I'm taking the birthcontrolpill, and he didn't have any condoms on him, so we decided..you get the point.
That was 5 months ago. .I found out I was pregnant 4 months ago, I thought I could keep it a secret. But no. After a few weeks Jen saw right through me. "Are you pregnant?" I told her I was. She asked me who's it was and I told her. "That creep?" She said and that was it, she always had comments on my boyfriends, like Craig was such a hottie. I didn't wanna see her anymore. So I ran away, and Tom(my boyfriend) and I live together now. He had his own place already so it was easy for me to move in. We got married last month.
Problems keep coming. I keep having fights with Jennifer and you and me don't talk to eachother anymore either. I had an OB appointment yesterday, another problem.
You probably know I have been doing drugs since I was 13. So it's very hard to stop, just because you're pregnant. I tried, I really did, but I couldn't. So yesterday I heard my baby wasn't healthy. And she would probably have disturbance and god knows what else. She, yes it's a girl. I already gave her a name, so I can talk to her. Liz.
When you get this letter, I probably won't be here anymore, if everything went right. I'm taking my little girl with me. Life is so miserable, I don't know what to do anymore.
This is probably for the best.
Tell Ella, Kay and Mel, I love them.
Please don't grieve. It's for the best.
Rachel.
Ella was upset, didn't know what to say. All she knew was that her mom was right, like always. She had been stupid not to believe her. She had to go upstairs to apologise.
"Fine." Ella said. "So?"
"So what?"
"Are you gonna answer my question?"
"Ella..." Elizabeth said. "I wanted to sit down so we could really talk about it."
"We are sitting down."
"You know what I mean."
"Sure." Ella said.
In the hospital.
"It's difficult...I don't know where to start, I don't know what you know already."
"What do you mean?"
"A lot has happened the last few months of her life."
"When did she die?"
"10 october 2007, she was only 19."
"How did she die?"
"She had an accident."
"What kind of accident?"
"She was in a carcrash."
"What was so difficult about telling me that?"
"You don't know the whole story yet. It was suicide."
"Yeah right. Rachel would never do that! That's such bullshit!"
"I knew you were gonna say that! I knew it! Let me finish my story okay? Don't interupt me. She had left Jennifer once more, and she had moved in with her boyfriend. They weren't really happy, married, and were gonna have a baby, who wasn't healthy."
"What? Rachel was pregnant and married? No way, she would have told me!"
"No she didn't. She wrote a letter to me. Sending the first 5 diaries. I took the letter with me. I want you to read it when we go home, okay? I don't want you being upset when we are at the OB. Okay?"
"Fine, but I still don't believe it was suicide." Ella said and she ran away. Elizabeth stopped her and they went upstairs to the OB.
OB
"Hi, Elizabeth. Ah, I see you took your daughter with you. Nice."
"Yeah, she wanted to see the baby."
"Good, you know the drill."
Elizabeth laid down on the table. Ella was still standing at the doorstep.
"Come over here, sweety." Elizabeth said.
"No, I'm fine here." Ella said.
"See for yourself." Elizabeth said.
"Okay lets see...." Dr. Coburn said. "Ah there the baby is, it's clearly visible. You want to know the sex?"
Ella slowly moved towards Elizabeth so she could see the screen.
"Do we El? Do we want to know the sex?"
"I'm still mad." Ella said.
"Fine." Elizabeth said. "No, I don't want to know the sex, it's gonna be a big surprise!"
Ella was now so close she could see the screen. "What's that?" She asked, looking at dr. Coburn. "That's the heart."
"And that?"
"That's the legs." Elizabeth said.
"I didn't ask you." Ella said.
"Fine..FINE Ella!" Elizabeth said mad. "Get out! Get out of the room! If you can't talk to me, get out!" Elizabeth stood up, wiped the jelly of her tummy and pushed Ella out of the room. "I'd love to watch my baby, your brother or sister, together with you. But not like this. Damn it Ella! I was having such a good day, and you ruine it. You should have let me make the decision, but you really wanted to know what happened to her. Stupid, stupid me. I wish I'd never told you. Here, the letter. Go on, read it. I hope you'll be satisfied after you read it and I hope we can talk to eachother again. Now get out of my face."
Ella took the letter and walked away.
Dear Elizabeth,
There are things to say, and it's not going to be easy.
I have been writing diaries, for Ella. She can read them when she is old enough. I started them a year after Dad died and I am going to stop today. I send you the first 5 notebooks with this letter, the other one I'll post soon.
I have had a pretty rough time. I left Jennifer once more. I left her about 3 months ago. I met this really cute guy at a party. He drove me home that evening and I asked him to come in and have a drink. Well, I guess you know what that means, asking someone in for a drink. I'm taking the birthcontrolpill, and he didn't have any condoms on him, so we decided..you get the point.
That was 5 months ago. .I found out I was pregnant 4 months ago, I thought I could keep it a secret. But no. After a few weeks Jen saw right through me. "Are you pregnant?" I told her I was. She asked me who's it was and I told her. "That creep?" She said and that was it, she always had comments on my boyfriends, like Craig was such a hottie. I didn't wanna see her anymore. So I ran away, and Tom(my boyfriend) and I live together now. He had his own place already so it was easy for me to move in. We got married last month.
Problems keep coming. I keep having fights with Jennifer and you and me don't talk to eachother anymore either. I had an OB appointment yesterday, another problem.
You probably know I have been doing drugs since I was 13. So it's very hard to stop, just because you're pregnant. I tried, I really did, but I couldn't. So yesterday I heard my baby wasn't healthy. And she would probably have disturbance and god knows what else. She, yes it's a girl. I already gave her a name, so I can talk to her. Liz.
When you get this letter, I probably won't be here anymore, if everything went right. I'm taking my little girl with me. Life is so miserable, I don't know what to do anymore.
This is probably for the best.
Tell Ella, Kay and Mel, I love them.
Please don't grieve. It's for the best.
Rachel.
Ella was upset, didn't know what to say. All she knew was that her mom was right, like always. She had been stupid not to believe her. She had to go upstairs to apologise.