"Feelings and Fears"
Chapter 2 - "I Try"
It's the night before. Rex was in his office, getting ready to leave. He took another look on Lynn's office direction - she hasn't come back. "I can't believe I didn't have a chance to talk to her yet." He thinks. "I wish I knew what she's thinking."
As he was leaving the office - he was the only one in there, Joe had left to buy dinner. "Damn it! Tomorrow I have to go court, I won't be able to see her until the afternoon." He said to no one. Then he thought, "I think I'll leave her a note. She'll like it." Then he went to her office and began to write.
"Yes. Perfect. She'll love this." Rex said to himself as he re-read the note for the tenth time. He looked through the desk for the perfect place to leave it. He decided to leave it right in front of the chair, so she would see it as soon as she sat down.
Lynn's silence was killing him. She had told him she didn't want him to feel obligated to call her the next day. However, he did call her, only to hear over ten times her voice on the answering machine. He left one short message. "Hi Lynn. It's Rex. Call me. I don't need to say why." Now, thinking about it, Rex thought the message was awful. He shouldn't have asked her to call him. Maybe it was not polite. "Why am I so confused?" He thought as he drove back home. "She's not the first woman I sleep with." He parked the car on his driveway. He got home and immediately checked his messages. Nothing. He sighed with disappointment. "I can't believe she's doing this." He calls Lynn again, but gets her answering machine one more time. This time he doesn't leave a message. He goes to his bedroom, sure it won't be easy to sleep that night.
***
The following day. Lynn is at her office. She has just read Rex's note. She's recalling all the thinking she did this morning and the day before.
7:00 a.m. Lynn has just dropped her kids at school. She's heading to her office, a million things on her mind. As she looks around, she finds a CD on the passenger seat. "Oh, Cassie," She thinks. She puts the CD on the radio. "How could I sleep with Rex?" She thinks in the meantime. The CD begins to play, as Lynn drives and thinks of mess her life is now.
On the radio, Macy Gray is singing.
"Games, changes and fears
When will they go from here
When will they stop
I believe that fate has brought us here"
Lynn smiles as Macy Gray goes on. "We had a perfect friendship. OK, not perfect." Lynn thinks. "But at least I knew what it was, I knew what I should expect." She sighs. "Now it feels like I don't have a ground to step on." She stops at a red light. "He did call me, though. Why didn't I call him back? Why didn't I pick up the phone last night when I knew he was calling." The light has already turned green but Lynn is so lost in her thoughts she doesn't realize it. She's awaken by the horns of the drivers behind her.
Macy Gray is still playing.
"I try to say goodbye and I choke
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you're not near"
Lynn smiles again as she listens to last words of the song. "I have to talk to Rex right now." She thinks as she parks her car and enters the office.
However, Rex was not there that morning. All she could do now was concentrate in the Gordon-Lewis case she was working on with Joe. "Joe. I thought no one could confuse more than you." She thought as he sat down in front of her to discuss the case.
TO BE CONTINUED...
Chapter 2 - "I Try"
It's the night before. Rex was in his office, getting ready to leave. He took another look on Lynn's office direction - she hasn't come back. "I can't believe I didn't have a chance to talk to her yet." He thinks. "I wish I knew what she's thinking."
As he was leaving the office - he was the only one in there, Joe had left to buy dinner. "Damn it! Tomorrow I have to go court, I won't be able to see her until the afternoon." He said to no one. Then he thought, "I think I'll leave her a note. She'll like it." Then he went to her office and began to write.
"Yes. Perfect. She'll love this." Rex said to himself as he re-read the note for the tenth time. He looked through the desk for the perfect place to leave it. He decided to leave it right in front of the chair, so she would see it as soon as she sat down.
Lynn's silence was killing him. She had told him she didn't want him to feel obligated to call her the next day. However, he did call her, only to hear over ten times her voice on the answering machine. He left one short message. "Hi Lynn. It's Rex. Call me. I don't need to say why." Now, thinking about it, Rex thought the message was awful. He shouldn't have asked her to call him. Maybe it was not polite. "Why am I so confused?" He thought as he drove back home. "She's not the first woman I sleep with." He parked the car on his driveway. He got home and immediately checked his messages. Nothing. He sighed with disappointment. "I can't believe she's doing this." He calls Lynn again, but gets her answering machine one more time. This time he doesn't leave a message. He goes to his bedroom, sure it won't be easy to sleep that night.
***
The following day. Lynn is at her office. She has just read Rex's note. She's recalling all the thinking she did this morning and the day before.
7:00 a.m. Lynn has just dropped her kids at school. She's heading to her office, a million things on her mind. As she looks around, she finds a CD on the passenger seat. "Oh, Cassie," She thinks. She puts the CD on the radio. "How could I sleep with Rex?" She thinks in the meantime. The CD begins to play, as Lynn drives and thinks of mess her life is now.
On the radio, Macy Gray is singing.
"Games, changes and fears
When will they go from here
When will they stop
I believe that fate has brought us here"
Lynn smiles as Macy Gray goes on. "We had a perfect friendship. OK, not perfect." Lynn thinks. "But at least I knew what it was, I knew what I should expect." She sighs. "Now it feels like I don't have a ground to step on." She stops at a red light. "He did call me, though. Why didn't I call him back? Why didn't I pick up the phone last night when I knew he was calling." The light has already turned green but Lynn is so lost in her thoughts she doesn't realize it. She's awaken by the horns of the drivers behind her.
Macy Gray is still playing.
"I try to say goodbye and I choke
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you're not near"
Lynn smiles again as she listens to last words of the song. "I have to talk to Rex right now." She thinks as she parks her car and enters the office.
However, Rex was not there that morning. All she could do now was concentrate in the Gordon-Lewis case she was working on with Joe. "Joe. I thought no one could confuse more than you." She thought as he sat down in front of her to discuss the case.
TO BE CONTINUED...