Emily pulled her long brown hair into bun and made sure that the
halter top she had on showed off her new bellybutton ring, and that her
denim skirt was strait. She was going to Jakes with Ned to see the bands
that they had. It didn't sound like the most entertaining thing in the
world but it would be a hell of a lot better than going to the rave.
She took a quick glance at her clock and saw that she still had some time to kill before Ned was supposed to pick her up so she took a seat at her dresser and pulled her journal out of a drawer and began writing.
July 03, 2000 Entry #: 2
Dear Diary, Juan and I are over. Forever. I don't care how many song he dedicates to me, or if he gets down on his hands and knee's and begs me to take him back I won't. I don't feel anything for him. I don't even remember what I once felt for him. He's a loser. You will never guess what he accused me of. He accused me of sleeping with Lucky. Whatever! I would neve sleep with Lucky. Not in a million years. He's like me brother. Juan is always so jelous of things that aren't there. Now, at least when I got jelous it was for good reasons. That's something else that's different about Juan and Zander, Juan is always flirting with other girls while Zander makes me feel special, like I'm the only girl in the room. I've never felt that way before. I hope I feel that way again soon. -Em.
Emily closed her diary, put it back where she got it, and then made her way downstairs. "Hey you guys."She said walking into the living room "Well Emily, don't you look spiffy. You gotta date with Juan tonight?"A.J. asked taking a drink of vodka and she stiffened up. "No Junior."Ned said coming in from out side, "She is coming with me to view some new acts over at Jakes. You ready to go?" "Very ready."
The ride to Jakes was very quiet until Juan's name was brought up. "So, I called Juan earlier and asked if he wanted to come with us and he told me that you broke up with him? You want to talk about it?"Ned asked. "Not really."Emily told him "To bad 'cause we are. Just days ago you were head over heals in love, and now you break up with him?" "Ned, things between Juan and I have been going down hill for a while. I was at the end of my rope. I couldn't let him control who I talked to, while he got to go out and flirt with any girl in a three block radius." "You were the only girl for him Emily. I've seen him around you." "Ned can we choose a new topic please?"
Over at Jakes a band was on stage doing a sound check while Zander ordered himself a beer and took a look around. He checked his watch and saw that the rave would be starting soon. 'This is it.'He thought. 'Everything is going to be different.' He felt guilty though, that Emily would be there without anyone to help her out. Even though she didn't know him know, a part of him felt responsible for her. She was the love of his life and the possibility of anyone hurting her felt awful to him.
"Zander!"his drummer Jimmy yelled from the stage,"We're ready for a sound check." Zander sat his beer down on the counter and made his way up there.
Half-an-hour later Ned and Emily finally got to the club, just as the first band was about to get on stage. They found an empty table near the stage reserved for them, and took a seat.
"I can't believe how packed this is."Ned whispered "It's like we're going to see an American Idol concert rather then just some no name bands."Emily whispered back.
Zander and the rest of his band came on the stage and began to set up. Emily's heart began to race as she saw his face. That face was etched into her mind. Everything about him, his eyelashes, the way his hair fell just right over his eye, and his smile was perminently memorized in her mind. She would replay it when ever she got sad or lonely. Confusion suddenly filled her mind, as she wondered why he wasn't at the rave. Something must of happened. But what? What would make him of came here this time, but not then?
"Hello everyone."He said with a sultry tone in his voice and Em was jerked back into reality, "We are 'October Pie' and we're the first group performing tonight. I hope we don't suck to bad."
Jimmy and Lance, the basist, played the intro and then Zander started singing.
"It's been a while Since I could hold my head up high It's been a while since I first saw you It's been a while since I could stand on my own two feet again It's been a while since I could call you But everything I can't remember as fucked up as it is all may seem the consequences that I've rendered I've streched myself beyond my means"
Before she knew it Emily was singing along, knowing every word by heart. Feeling her knee's get weak whenever Zander smiled, or looked in her general direction. She wasn't the only girl in the audience, many girls cheered him on, and she could tell that he was loving it.
"It's been awhile Since I could say that I wasn't addicted It's been awhile since I could say I loved myself as well It's been awhile since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do But all that shit seems to dissapear when I'm with you But everything I can't remember As fucked up as it all may seem The consequences that are rendered I've gone and fucked things up as it may seem The consequences that I've rendered I've gone and fucked up things again Why must I feel this way Just make this go away, just one more peaceful day
It's been awhile Since I could look at myself straight I've been awhile since I said I'm sorry I've been awhile since I've seen the way the candle lights up your face But I can still remember just the way you taste But everything I can remember as fucked up as it all may seem to be I know it's me I cannot blame this on my father he did the best he could for me
It's been awhile Since I could hold my head up high And it's been a while since I said I'm sorry..."
Jimmy played the last line again while Zander's eyes were glued to Emily, and her eyes were glued to him. She smiled at him slightly nibbling on her bottom lip, and his heart skiped a beat.
Later that night, as Ned and Emily were listening to the winning band playing an on-core, she caught sight of Zander sitting alone at the bar, nursing a bear.
"I'll be right back."She whispered into Ned's ear, and then walked over to the bar.
"I'll have a coke."She told the bartender and then turned to Zander. "You did a wonderful job." she said "Thank you."
The band on stage began playing Slide by the Goo-Goo Dolls and the bartender gave Emily her coke.
"This is going to sound weird, and if you don't want to I can totally understand but...do you want to dance?"Zander asked licking his lips. Emily was caught off guard by his question, but accepted anyways.
He took her hand and they walked to an empty corner. She put her arms around his shoulders and he put his arms around her waist. Their bodies moved in sync with each other. Zander could feel Emily's heart beating just about as fast as his was.
'Is this really happening?"Emily thought. 'Or is this just a dream?'
Before either of them knew it the song was over. They both stood silently for a moment not looking at each other. Zander coughed, Emily pushed a strand of hair that fell out of her bun behind her ear. They both seemed to be savoring the silence, knowing that anything that they had to say would change everything. Then knowing if she didn't do it know, she would loose her nerve, she pulled a folded napkin out of her pocket and and slipped it into his hand.
"Please read it."she told him, kissed him on the cheek and then turned and hurried back over to Ned.
Zander,who could still feel the feeling on Emily's lips as he unfolded the napkin and written on it was: Zander, There are some things that need to be discussed. Meet me at the park, near the entrance tomorrow at two.-Emily.
The next afternoon Zander sat on a bench waiting for Emily. He had his journal open and was trying to write down what exactly happened the previous night.
7/4/00 I saw Emily last night. She was at Jakes w/ Ned. When I was about to leave she gave me a note that told me to meet her here, at the park. Does she remember? And if she doesn't then why was she there last night and why did she tell me to meet her here? I wanted to kiss her. From the first moment that I saw her last night I wanted to take her in my arms and never let her go. Just keep her with me forever.
"Zander!"Emily called running up to him her brown hair, which was pulled back into two braids, bouncing behind her."I was afraid you weren't going to come." "I'd go anywhere you asked."he told her. She took a seat on the bench, turning her body so that she could look at him. "Why weren't you at the rave last night?" "I should be asking you the same question." "So you remember huh." "As do you."
Emily laid her head on Zander chest, and he wrapped his arms around her. "How?"Emily asked "I don't know."he told her
She hadn't relized just how much she missed the way that she felt when Zander held her. Feeling his breath on her neck, and the way his hands felt on the small of her back, it was a feeling of protection. A feeling of protection that she hadn't relized just how much she had missed.
"So, why don't you tell me what's been going on since we last saw each other."Zander asked
For the next half hour the two of them caught each other up on there lives. Emily told him how rehab was going, Zander told her about getting fired by Sonny. They compared movies that they had seen, books they had read. And for the first time that afternoon it felt like nothing had changed.
"A Walk To Remember!?"Emily asked in complete shock. "You, Zander Smith, liked A Walk To Remember?" "Come on drop it." "I'm trying, but I gotta know if we're talking about the same movie. Mandy Moore, Shane West. She's the---" "She's the daughter of the town preacher he's the bad boy. Yes, that's the right movie."
Emily moved on to Zander's lap and sat facing him, "How did you get in?"She asked, "'Cause you're way to cool to go in by yourself. Did you bribe a group of tween's that you found at Kelly's to go with you to see it?" "You're so freakin' hillarious."he joked. "So, where---what's going to happen to us now?"she asked in a small child-like voice changing the topic . "I don't know."Zander told her, "But I do know that I'm leaving Port Charles." "What!?"she said shocked. "Not forever."He assured her,"But at least for the summer." "Where are you going?" "Florida." "I'm gonna miss you." "I'm going to miss you too. But, I will be back. I promise you."
She took a quick glance at her clock and saw that she still had some time to kill before Ned was supposed to pick her up so she took a seat at her dresser and pulled her journal out of a drawer and began writing.
July 03, 2000 Entry #: 2
Dear Diary, Juan and I are over. Forever. I don't care how many song he dedicates to me, or if he gets down on his hands and knee's and begs me to take him back I won't. I don't feel anything for him. I don't even remember what I once felt for him. He's a loser. You will never guess what he accused me of. He accused me of sleeping with Lucky. Whatever! I would neve sleep with Lucky. Not in a million years. He's like me brother. Juan is always so jelous of things that aren't there. Now, at least when I got jelous it was for good reasons. That's something else that's different about Juan and Zander, Juan is always flirting with other girls while Zander makes me feel special, like I'm the only girl in the room. I've never felt that way before. I hope I feel that way again soon. -Em.
Emily closed her diary, put it back where she got it, and then made her way downstairs. "Hey you guys."She said walking into the living room "Well Emily, don't you look spiffy. You gotta date with Juan tonight?"A.J. asked taking a drink of vodka and she stiffened up. "No Junior."Ned said coming in from out side, "She is coming with me to view some new acts over at Jakes. You ready to go?" "Very ready."
The ride to Jakes was very quiet until Juan's name was brought up. "So, I called Juan earlier and asked if he wanted to come with us and he told me that you broke up with him? You want to talk about it?"Ned asked. "Not really."Emily told him "To bad 'cause we are. Just days ago you were head over heals in love, and now you break up with him?" "Ned, things between Juan and I have been going down hill for a while. I was at the end of my rope. I couldn't let him control who I talked to, while he got to go out and flirt with any girl in a three block radius." "You were the only girl for him Emily. I've seen him around you." "Ned can we choose a new topic please?"
Over at Jakes a band was on stage doing a sound check while Zander ordered himself a beer and took a look around. He checked his watch and saw that the rave would be starting soon. 'This is it.'He thought. 'Everything is going to be different.' He felt guilty though, that Emily would be there without anyone to help her out. Even though she didn't know him know, a part of him felt responsible for her. She was the love of his life and the possibility of anyone hurting her felt awful to him.
"Zander!"his drummer Jimmy yelled from the stage,"We're ready for a sound check." Zander sat his beer down on the counter and made his way up there.
Half-an-hour later Ned and Emily finally got to the club, just as the first band was about to get on stage. They found an empty table near the stage reserved for them, and took a seat.
"I can't believe how packed this is."Ned whispered "It's like we're going to see an American Idol concert rather then just some no name bands."Emily whispered back.
Zander and the rest of his band came on the stage and began to set up. Emily's heart began to race as she saw his face. That face was etched into her mind. Everything about him, his eyelashes, the way his hair fell just right over his eye, and his smile was perminently memorized in her mind. She would replay it when ever she got sad or lonely. Confusion suddenly filled her mind, as she wondered why he wasn't at the rave. Something must of happened. But what? What would make him of came here this time, but not then?
"Hello everyone."He said with a sultry tone in his voice and Em was jerked back into reality, "We are 'October Pie' and we're the first group performing tonight. I hope we don't suck to bad."
Jimmy and Lance, the basist, played the intro and then Zander started singing.
"It's been a while Since I could hold my head up high It's been a while since I first saw you It's been a while since I could stand on my own two feet again It's been a while since I could call you But everything I can't remember as fucked up as it is all may seem the consequences that I've rendered I've streched myself beyond my means"
Before she knew it Emily was singing along, knowing every word by heart. Feeling her knee's get weak whenever Zander smiled, or looked in her general direction. She wasn't the only girl in the audience, many girls cheered him on, and she could tell that he was loving it.
"It's been awhile Since I could say that I wasn't addicted It's been awhile since I could say I loved myself as well It's been awhile since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do But all that shit seems to dissapear when I'm with you But everything I can't remember As fucked up as it all may seem The consequences that are rendered I've gone and fucked things up as it may seem The consequences that I've rendered I've gone and fucked up things again Why must I feel this way Just make this go away, just one more peaceful day
It's been awhile Since I could look at myself straight I've been awhile since I said I'm sorry I've been awhile since I've seen the way the candle lights up your face But I can still remember just the way you taste But everything I can remember as fucked up as it all may seem to be I know it's me I cannot blame this on my father he did the best he could for me
It's been awhile Since I could hold my head up high And it's been a while since I said I'm sorry..."
Jimmy played the last line again while Zander's eyes were glued to Emily, and her eyes were glued to him. She smiled at him slightly nibbling on her bottom lip, and his heart skiped a beat.
Later that night, as Ned and Emily were listening to the winning band playing an on-core, she caught sight of Zander sitting alone at the bar, nursing a bear.
"I'll be right back."She whispered into Ned's ear, and then walked over to the bar.
"I'll have a coke."She told the bartender and then turned to Zander. "You did a wonderful job." she said "Thank you."
The band on stage began playing Slide by the Goo-Goo Dolls and the bartender gave Emily her coke.
"This is going to sound weird, and if you don't want to I can totally understand but...do you want to dance?"Zander asked licking his lips. Emily was caught off guard by his question, but accepted anyways.
He took her hand and they walked to an empty corner. She put her arms around his shoulders and he put his arms around her waist. Their bodies moved in sync with each other. Zander could feel Emily's heart beating just about as fast as his was.
'Is this really happening?"Emily thought. 'Or is this just a dream?'
Before either of them knew it the song was over. They both stood silently for a moment not looking at each other. Zander coughed, Emily pushed a strand of hair that fell out of her bun behind her ear. They both seemed to be savoring the silence, knowing that anything that they had to say would change everything. Then knowing if she didn't do it know, she would loose her nerve, she pulled a folded napkin out of her pocket and and slipped it into his hand.
"Please read it."she told him, kissed him on the cheek and then turned and hurried back over to Ned.
Zander,who could still feel the feeling on Emily's lips as he unfolded the napkin and written on it was: Zander, There are some things that need to be discussed. Meet me at the park, near the entrance tomorrow at two.-Emily.
The next afternoon Zander sat on a bench waiting for Emily. He had his journal open and was trying to write down what exactly happened the previous night.
7/4/00 I saw Emily last night. She was at Jakes w/ Ned. When I was about to leave she gave me a note that told me to meet her here, at the park. Does she remember? And if she doesn't then why was she there last night and why did she tell me to meet her here? I wanted to kiss her. From the first moment that I saw her last night I wanted to take her in my arms and never let her go. Just keep her with me forever.
"Zander!"Emily called running up to him her brown hair, which was pulled back into two braids, bouncing behind her."I was afraid you weren't going to come." "I'd go anywhere you asked."he told her. She took a seat on the bench, turning her body so that she could look at him. "Why weren't you at the rave last night?" "I should be asking you the same question." "So you remember huh." "As do you."
Emily laid her head on Zander chest, and he wrapped his arms around her. "How?"Emily asked "I don't know."he told her
She hadn't relized just how much she missed the way that she felt when Zander held her. Feeling his breath on her neck, and the way his hands felt on the small of her back, it was a feeling of protection. A feeling of protection that she hadn't relized just how much she had missed.
"So, why don't you tell me what's been going on since we last saw each other."Zander asked
For the next half hour the two of them caught each other up on there lives. Emily told him how rehab was going, Zander told her about getting fired by Sonny. They compared movies that they had seen, books they had read. And for the first time that afternoon it felt like nothing had changed.
"A Walk To Remember!?"Emily asked in complete shock. "You, Zander Smith, liked A Walk To Remember?" "Come on drop it." "I'm trying, but I gotta know if we're talking about the same movie. Mandy Moore, Shane West. She's the---" "She's the daughter of the town preacher he's the bad boy. Yes, that's the right movie."
Emily moved on to Zander's lap and sat facing him, "How did you get in?"She asked, "'Cause you're way to cool to go in by yourself. Did you bribe a group of tween's that you found at Kelly's to go with you to see it?" "You're so freakin' hillarious."he joked. "So, where---what's going to happen to us now?"she asked in a small child-like voice changing the topic . "I don't know."Zander told her, "But I do know that I'm leaving Port Charles." "What!?"she said shocked. "Not forever."He assured her,"But at least for the summer." "Where are you going?" "Florida." "I'm gonna miss you." "I'm going to miss you too. But, I will be back. I promise you."