DISCLAIMER: I don't own BeyBlade. If I did, then everyone would probably want to kill
me sooner or later. LOL. Anyway I've kept you all in suspense long enough, so on
with the last chapter.
Chapter Fourteen - Death.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~GENERAL P.O.V.~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Kai was practicing with Tyson, Ray and Max. Hikari and Kenny sat watching. It was
Kai against Tyson. "Go big bwofa, Go Tyson!" Hikari sat cheering from the sidelines.
"Oh great, the little squirt likes Tyson almost as much as she likes me." Kai thought
as he launched his blade. "Go Dranzer!!! Attack with Fire Arrow." Kai yelled.
"Dragoon, counter with Phantom, Hurricane Attack!!!" Tyson yelled.
The blades collided and both landed outside the ring. "And it is a tie!" Maz said. Ray
just laughed. "Come on Tyson, isn't this a best of three?" Kai said to Tyson. Tyson
grinned. Both bladers prepared to launch their blades again, when Hikari started
yelling. "Grandfather, Grandfather." Hikari was jumping up and down. She actually
liked having a stern, serious, Grandfather. Kai's grandfather walked slowly, and
deliberatly. He finally reached them. "Kai, I have some bad news." He said. Kai
looked at him. He knew it had to be pretty bad, for his Grandfather to come and
interupt his training. Kai nodded. "See you later guys. Come on Hikari, we've got to
go." Kai said. Hikari frowned but she did what she was told. They left with their
grandfather and got into his car.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~KAI'S P.O.V.~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I walked into the house. Before I could ask any questions, Grandfather walked to his
study. I was about to call Hikari, but Grandfather stopped me. "No Kai. I must talk to
you first. You can talk to Hikari later." I was shocked. Usually, Grandfather would
allow Hikari to sit in, on the conversations that I had with him. As long as she was
quiet. I nodded and walked in to the study. I waited for Grandfather to close the
door and sit down. Then I sat down in the chair, that was in front of the desk.
Grandfather looked like he was bracing himself.
"Kai. I don't know how totell you this. I am not one to mince words, or try to soften
the blow. Your mother commited suicide in the prison." Oh god. I couldn't breathe. It
was too much. Before I could ask questions, Grandfather continued. "She slit her
wrists with a razor-blade. By the time they found her and rushed her to the prison
infirmary, she was dead. Her body is being brought here, to be buried, with your
father." Grandfather said. I was in shock. I thought it was all over. Now I have to deal
with another loss. I had no idea how I was going to tell Hikari. "I'm sorry Kai. I know
that she was a mother to you once. Even if she wasn't a good mother in the end."
Grandfather said. I saw him pull a letter, from out of a desk drawer. "She left this in
her cell, for you, Kai. I'll leave you to read it." Grandfather said, giving me the
envelope. I turned it over in my hands for a few minutes, after Grandfather left. I
took a letter opener and opened the envelope. I looked down at the delicate writing.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
My Dearest Son, Kai.
I don't know if I will ever have a clear moment like this again. I
truly regret the pain I've always caused you. I've loved you since you were born. I
never meant to hurt you, or make you feel worthless. I always wanted children, no
matter what I said to you when I was drunk. I love you very much. You and Hikari.
I thought about what I did to you. I didn't do it because I hated you. I did it because I
was hurting and angry. I was hurting because your father died, and I was angry at
the way my life had changed.
When your father commited suicide, I wanted to hate him, because he got to escape.
Because he left me alone to care for you. You looked like him, so I thought that I
could take my anger out on you. That by hurting you, I could somehow hurt him. I
know I was wrng now. This is the first clear moment I've had, since your father died.
For the first time, I have a clear head. I drank, to keep from getting a clear head, so
that I didn't have to think. I hate what I have become, and I hate myself for what I've
done to you,but I can't change it now. I can only do what your father did. Take the
cowards way out.
I had no right to treat you the way I did. I had no right to treat you like my personal
punch-bag or to make you feel worthless. I had no right to treat Hikari like she
didn't exist. You and Hikari were my reasons to live, but I've realised, that you'd
both be better off without me. I hope, more thananything, that you'll be happy and
safe, for the rest of your lives. I'm sorry that I haven't been more of a mother to
you.
All my Love. Forever.
Ma.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I felt the tears streaming down my cheeks. I didn't think I'd feel this much for Ma. I
felt so much pain in my heart. I stopped crying. I got up and read the letter again,
before putting it back in its envelope. I decided that I'd keep it in my journal, along
with all the other photo's that I had.
I got up and went to put the letter in my room. When I came downstairs, I found
Hikari, sitting on a swing, in the garden. She looked totally serious. almost as if she
knew what was coming. I sat down on the swing next to her. We just sat for a few
moments. "What's rong big bwofa." Hikari said to me. Her big eyes looked at me
intently. I sighed. How could I tell her that her mother died.
"Hikari, you know I said that Ma wouldn't be around anymore?" I said. Hikari
nodded. "Well, Ma's gone to a pretty place, where she'll be at peace." I started. "But
she won't be able to come back. For a very long time." I said. "For how long." Hikari
said. She didn't understand what I was saying, and I couldn't blame her. "I'm afraid
she can't come back, ever." I said. She looked at me. She nodded and looked at me.
"Do you have to go to, Kai." Hikari asked me. She looked like she was scared. "No
Hikari. I will always be here with you?" I answered her. She smiled. "Good, at least
you're not going to leave me." Hikari said. Sometimes I wonder if Hikari was really a l
ittle girl. Or an adult, that looked like a little girl.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Two weeks later. I held Hikari's hand, as I watched my mothers casket, being
lowered into the ground. I felt really strange, almost empty. Like I had cried away all
my tears, and didn't have anything left to give. I only remembered the good times I
ad shared with Ma at this moment. I could never forget that she had been my
mother once.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
It had been two months since my mothers death. There was six months until the
World Championships. Mr Dickenson said that there was a tournament being held in
London. We all thought that it was a good idea to compete in another tournament
before the Championships. It was good practice.
Mr Dickenson said that I could bring Hikari along with me. Hikari was so hyper when
I told her that she fell off of a chair, and nearly fell out of a window. Well at least I
didn't have to leave her on her own.
Tyson had been acting very strangely since Mr Dickenson told us that we were
going to London. When I asked him about it, he just said that he was allright. The
others were bothered too, by the way Tyson was acting. But I figured that what ever
Tyson was bothered about, he'd tell us when we got to England. So I guess that
everything's gonna be allright.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
ME: Hope you enjoyed it. Oh and by the way, I AM writing a sequel. Tragic Past -
Tyson's Story.
Kai: Don't forget to R&R.
ME: Oh I'm gonna make Kai my Muse. Anyways. Thanx to everyone who reviewed.
me sooner or later. LOL. Anyway I've kept you all in suspense long enough, so on
with the last chapter.
Chapter Fourteen - Death.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~GENERAL P.O.V.~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Kai was practicing with Tyson, Ray and Max. Hikari and Kenny sat watching. It was
Kai against Tyson. "Go big bwofa, Go Tyson!" Hikari sat cheering from the sidelines.
"Oh great, the little squirt likes Tyson almost as much as she likes me." Kai thought
as he launched his blade. "Go Dranzer!!! Attack with Fire Arrow." Kai yelled.
"Dragoon, counter with Phantom, Hurricane Attack!!!" Tyson yelled.
The blades collided and both landed outside the ring. "And it is a tie!" Maz said. Ray
just laughed. "Come on Tyson, isn't this a best of three?" Kai said to Tyson. Tyson
grinned. Both bladers prepared to launch their blades again, when Hikari started
yelling. "Grandfather, Grandfather." Hikari was jumping up and down. She actually
liked having a stern, serious, Grandfather. Kai's grandfather walked slowly, and
deliberatly. He finally reached them. "Kai, I have some bad news." He said. Kai
looked at him. He knew it had to be pretty bad, for his Grandfather to come and
interupt his training. Kai nodded. "See you later guys. Come on Hikari, we've got to
go." Kai said. Hikari frowned but she did what she was told. They left with their
grandfather and got into his car.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~KAI'S P.O.V.~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I walked into the house. Before I could ask any questions, Grandfather walked to his
study. I was about to call Hikari, but Grandfather stopped me. "No Kai. I must talk to
you first. You can talk to Hikari later." I was shocked. Usually, Grandfather would
allow Hikari to sit in, on the conversations that I had with him. As long as she was
quiet. I nodded and walked in to the study. I waited for Grandfather to close the
door and sit down. Then I sat down in the chair, that was in front of the desk.
Grandfather looked like he was bracing himself.
"Kai. I don't know how totell you this. I am not one to mince words, or try to soften
the blow. Your mother commited suicide in the prison." Oh god. I couldn't breathe. It
was too much. Before I could ask questions, Grandfather continued. "She slit her
wrists with a razor-blade. By the time they found her and rushed her to the prison
infirmary, she was dead. Her body is being brought here, to be buried, with your
father." Grandfather said. I was in shock. I thought it was all over. Now I have to deal
with another loss. I had no idea how I was going to tell Hikari. "I'm sorry Kai. I know
that she was a mother to you once. Even if she wasn't a good mother in the end."
Grandfather said. I saw him pull a letter, from out of a desk drawer. "She left this in
her cell, for you, Kai. I'll leave you to read it." Grandfather said, giving me the
envelope. I turned it over in my hands for a few minutes, after Grandfather left. I
took a letter opener and opened the envelope. I looked down at the delicate writing.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
My Dearest Son, Kai.
I don't know if I will ever have a clear moment like this again. I
truly regret the pain I've always caused you. I've loved you since you were born. I
never meant to hurt you, or make you feel worthless. I always wanted children, no
matter what I said to you when I was drunk. I love you very much. You and Hikari.
I thought about what I did to you. I didn't do it because I hated you. I did it because I
was hurting and angry. I was hurting because your father died, and I was angry at
the way my life had changed.
When your father commited suicide, I wanted to hate him, because he got to escape.
Because he left me alone to care for you. You looked like him, so I thought that I
could take my anger out on you. That by hurting you, I could somehow hurt him. I
know I was wrng now. This is the first clear moment I've had, since your father died.
For the first time, I have a clear head. I drank, to keep from getting a clear head, so
that I didn't have to think. I hate what I have become, and I hate myself for what I've
done to you,but I can't change it now. I can only do what your father did. Take the
cowards way out.
I had no right to treat you the way I did. I had no right to treat you like my personal
punch-bag or to make you feel worthless. I had no right to treat Hikari like she
didn't exist. You and Hikari were my reasons to live, but I've realised, that you'd
both be better off without me. I hope, more thananything, that you'll be happy and
safe, for the rest of your lives. I'm sorry that I haven't been more of a mother to
you.
All my Love. Forever.
Ma.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I felt the tears streaming down my cheeks. I didn't think I'd feel this much for Ma. I
felt so much pain in my heart. I stopped crying. I got up and read the letter again,
before putting it back in its envelope. I decided that I'd keep it in my journal, along
with all the other photo's that I had.
I got up and went to put the letter in my room. When I came downstairs, I found
Hikari, sitting on a swing, in the garden. She looked totally serious. almost as if she
knew what was coming. I sat down on the swing next to her. We just sat for a few
moments. "What's rong big bwofa." Hikari said to me. Her big eyes looked at me
intently. I sighed. How could I tell her that her mother died.
"Hikari, you know I said that Ma wouldn't be around anymore?" I said. Hikari
nodded. "Well, Ma's gone to a pretty place, where she'll be at peace." I started. "But
she won't be able to come back. For a very long time." I said. "For how long." Hikari
said. She didn't understand what I was saying, and I couldn't blame her. "I'm afraid
she can't come back, ever." I said. She looked at me. She nodded and looked at me.
"Do you have to go to, Kai." Hikari asked me. She looked like she was scared. "No
Hikari. I will always be here with you?" I answered her. She smiled. "Good, at least
you're not going to leave me." Hikari said. Sometimes I wonder if Hikari was really a l
ittle girl. Or an adult, that looked like a little girl.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Two weeks later. I held Hikari's hand, as I watched my mothers casket, being
lowered into the ground. I felt really strange, almost empty. Like I had cried away all
my tears, and didn't have anything left to give. I only remembered the good times I
ad shared with Ma at this moment. I could never forget that she had been my
mother once.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
It had been two months since my mothers death. There was six months until the
World Championships. Mr Dickenson said that there was a tournament being held in
London. We all thought that it was a good idea to compete in another tournament
before the Championships. It was good practice.
Mr Dickenson said that I could bring Hikari along with me. Hikari was so hyper when
I told her that she fell off of a chair, and nearly fell out of a window. Well at least I
didn't have to leave her on her own.
Tyson had been acting very strangely since Mr Dickenson told us that we were
going to London. When I asked him about it, he just said that he was allright. The
others were bothered too, by the way Tyson was acting. But I figured that what ever
Tyson was bothered about, he'd tell us when we got to England. So I guess that
everything's gonna be allright.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
ME: Hope you enjoyed it. Oh and by the way, I AM writing a sequel. Tragic Past -
Tyson's Story.
Kai: Don't forget to R&R.
ME: Oh I'm gonna make Kai my Muse. Anyways. Thanx to everyone who reviewed.