Feeling Free
I know that last time, the Coyote Ugly thing was kinda weird, and believe me, it is not my style at all, but it does play a part. So, keep reading and thanks for the reviews!
Disclaimer: I do not own any characters, movies, or shows mentioned in this fic.
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Buffy walked in the back door after grocery shopping. Willow and Dawn were sitting down to dinner, there was no sign of Tara. She hadn't realized how long she had been out shopping. It was a pretty long time.
"Hey Buffy! Look at you being all Ms.Grocery Lady." Willow greeted her with a friendly smile and Buffy smiled back. "Lets put these groceries over here," Willow placed the bags on the counter, "and sit down and eat. This is my first real cookin meal. Aren't ya proud!?' Willow smiled and Dawn laughed.
"Ok, let me just put the ice cream away."
"Ice cream?" Dawn got up and walked over towards the bag. Buffy pushed her away.
"After dinner." Buffy gave her a glare and she went back to the table.
They all sat down and finished their dinner quickly. Dawn was the first to leave the table as she went upstairs to write in her diary. Buffy cleared Dawn's plate and hers off the table and washed the dishes. Buffy smiled to herself when she realized it was almost time to patrol. She wiped the smile off her face and turned to Willow.
"Great dinner Will. Beats the hotdogs and macaroni and cheese that we have been having for the past few days." Willow smiled and thanked her.
"Hey, Will, where's Tara?"
"Oh, she is over at the magic box with Anya. They have become close lately. It's good for her to have another friend."
"Yeah," Buffy added," I'm glad." Buffy looked at her watch and saw the time. "I gotta go. Off for the big patrol. You know, kick some demon ass."
"Yeah. You uh. are you going with.Spike?" Willow asked quietly.
'Well, yeah. Will, it's not. well, he's not, I-"
"Buffy, I get it. It's ok. It's just that you have been spending a lot of time with him lately."
"Well, he's changed." Buffy tried to defend herself.
"Yeah. He's in love with you. Love changes people. Everything he does, he does for you. A-and he seems like a great friend to you." Willow stated.
"Yeah, I-I really gotta go now." And with that, she left.
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Spike had been waiting in the cemetery for quite some time now. He had already staked one vamp, and chased away another. He started to wonder whether or not she would show. It would definitely make those good-byes a whole lot easier. He pulled his stake out of his pocket as he heard something move towards him. As it moved closer, he put his stake away. It was Buffy, he could sense her. She was cold, but smelled so warm.
"Hey." Buffy said to him.
"Hey yourself, your twenty minutes late, luv." Spike said.
"Yeah well, Willow had her cook-a-thon and I had to stay and eat." Buffy told him, "plus, we had a talk." Buffy added. She knew she shouldn't have brought it up, but she needed to.
"Oh yeah? What about." He was always happy to have Buffy talking to him. He loved everything that came out of her mouth.
"Love. How it makes people do things." Buffy looked at Spike, his head was down and his eyes were looking straight into the cold hard dirt beneath him. Buffy took in a deep breath.
"W- we also talked about you and me." she looked up at Spike, who's head had begun moving up. He was looking straight into her eyes, never flinching ".and love." Right after the words had left her mouth, she knew she had made a mistake. She looked down at the ground and moved the dirt in a circle. She was waiting for a reply.
Love. Right, he knew what she meant. That they were talking about him, loving her. How wrong it was, how it made her feel. She didn't love him, he knew it. He tried to tell himself that one day he might have a chance, but he knew he was wrong. He had no chance in hell. He looked up to see her moving her dark shoes in the dirt. He knew that he needed to say something, she was waiting for a reply.
"What do you mean, pet?" He managed to spit out a few words.
"When I said that it makes people do things, I mean good things. Well, what I mean is, uh Willow said that the things you do.well, that you do them for me. Is that true? Looking after Dawn, taking care of her while I was gone. Making small talk with my friends, who I know that you are not too fond of, saving our lives countless times? Do you really do all that for me?" Buffy knew she sounded selfish, and she didn't want it to come out that way. She just needed to know how much he truly loved her, if he would ever leave her. She wouldn't be able to stand losing another person that she cared about.
"Yeah, well, I guess Red was right. I made a promise to you to take care of the little bit. I would never be able to forgive myself if I had broken a promise to you. As for your chums, I-" He let out a sigh of relief as a vamp distracted the two of them.
Buffy battled the vamp for what seemed like an eternity while Spike was trying to figure out what to say to Buffy when this fight was all over. The vamp pushed Buffy so hard she flew back into Spike, who grabbed her tightly by the waist. She jumped up and blocked the vamp with her feet, then kicked hard, sending him flying a few feet back. Spike unwrapped one arm from Buffy's waist, holding on tightly with the other. He grabbed a stake from Buffy's front pocket, and strategically threw it towards the vamp, right through the heart. The vampire turned to dust.
Spike then moved his arm back to it's comfortable position around Buffy's waist. Buffy didn't flinch, which took him by surprise.
"That," Buffy began to speak as she turned around to face Spike, " was excellent." She finished her statement.
She looked up at Spike, he didn't move. Not one muscle in his perfect face even twitched. He didn't smile, he didn't roll his eyes, his face was still.and serious. She looked into his blue, gorgeous, penetrating eyes, which seemed like they go on forever. They were so deep and full of love. She had never noticed how beautiful they were. She smiled, took her hand, and placed on his cheekbone, following the distinctive curves in his face. A soothing feeling come over her. She looked down and saw his arms, still embracing her. She slowly looked up, and gently placed her lips on his.
It lasted only a second, but in that second he felt so alive. A warm feeling spread over his body, feeling her lips on his, holding her tightly. He didn't know if he was dreaming. No, he wasn't, his dreams could have never been like this. She removed her lips from his, and his chest pained. He was afraid of what she might say, maybe take it back. But she didn't, she just smiled.
Spike pulled her closer, and forced his lips on hers. She willingly took in the kiss. She moved her arms around his neck, and he felt himself smile slightly. She held the back of his neck and ran her fingers through is hair, he felt a slight tingle run down his spine. He felt her tongue begin to move towards his mouth, an he willingly opened, letting their tongues dance freely. He could taste her. It was better than anything he had ever imagined. She was so sweet, yet so simple.
She had never felt anything like this before. Something about it felt right. She never wanted this moment to end. His lips were cold, but they filled her with a sense of warmth. Her whole body was shaking, but she didn't care. She was holding and being held in the arms of the man that she lov-
She suddenly broke away from Spike and looked into his eyes. They turned from passion and love, to pain and confusion. She didn't know what to do. She knew what she was doing was wrong, but it felt so right. It was crazy, and that is why she trusted it. She smiled slightly, "Spike." She began to speak softly.
"Yeah, I know," Spike cut her off, "a moment, that's all it was, a moment. A slight lapse in judgment. Heard it before pet. And I know what is coming next. I am a monster, evil, I have no soul. No ability to love, you could never love me. So can we skip it, just this once, and say our good-byes." He felt himself on the verge of tears. Nothing had hurt as bad as this, now all he wanted were their good-byes.
Buffy knew she hurt him by breaking their kiss. He was right though, it was a moment, but not a lapse in judgment. It was a moment of passion, lust, of feelings finally being free without having to worry about the consequences, and she ruined it. One of the greatest moments of her life, and she ruined. She didn't want to make anything worse, so she agreed.
"Fine," As she said it, her bottom lip began to quiver. She turned her back to him before he could see, and she began to walk away. She stopped and turned her head slightly so she could see him out of the corner of her eye. He looked so broken. " but that wasn't what I was going to say."
She didn't know if that was the right thing to do or not, but she didn't care. She felt so awful, for him. She needed to give him something.
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I know that that was long, but hey. I also know it wasn't my best one, but hey. Please review.
I know that last time, the Coyote Ugly thing was kinda weird, and believe me, it is not my style at all, but it does play a part. So, keep reading and thanks for the reviews!
Disclaimer: I do not own any characters, movies, or shows mentioned in this fic.
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Buffy walked in the back door after grocery shopping. Willow and Dawn were sitting down to dinner, there was no sign of Tara. She hadn't realized how long she had been out shopping. It was a pretty long time.
"Hey Buffy! Look at you being all Ms.Grocery Lady." Willow greeted her with a friendly smile and Buffy smiled back. "Lets put these groceries over here," Willow placed the bags on the counter, "and sit down and eat. This is my first real cookin meal. Aren't ya proud!?' Willow smiled and Dawn laughed.
"Ok, let me just put the ice cream away."
"Ice cream?" Dawn got up and walked over towards the bag. Buffy pushed her away.
"After dinner." Buffy gave her a glare and she went back to the table.
They all sat down and finished their dinner quickly. Dawn was the first to leave the table as she went upstairs to write in her diary. Buffy cleared Dawn's plate and hers off the table and washed the dishes. Buffy smiled to herself when she realized it was almost time to patrol. She wiped the smile off her face and turned to Willow.
"Great dinner Will. Beats the hotdogs and macaroni and cheese that we have been having for the past few days." Willow smiled and thanked her.
"Hey, Will, where's Tara?"
"Oh, she is over at the magic box with Anya. They have become close lately. It's good for her to have another friend."
"Yeah," Buffy added," I'm glad." Buffy looked at her watch and saw the time. "I gotta go. Off for the big patrol. You know, kick some demon ass."
"Yeah. You uh. are you going with.Spike?" Willow asked quietly.
'Well, yeah. Will, it's not. well, he's not, I-"
"Buffy, I get it. It's ok. It's just that you have been spending a lot of time with him lately."
"Well, he's changed." Buffy tried to defend herself.
"Yeah. He's in love with you. Love changes people. Everything he does, he does for you. A-and he seems like a great friend to you." Willow stated.
"Yeah, I-I really gotta go now." And with that, she left.
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Spike had been waiting in the cemetery for quite some time now. He had already staked one vamp, and chased away another. He started to wonder whether or not she would show. It would definitely make those good-byes a whole lot easier. He pulled his stake out of his pocket as he heard something move towards him. As it moved closer, he put his stake away. It was Buffy, he could sense her. She was cold, but smelled so warm.
"Hey." Buffy said to him.
"Hey yourself, your twenty minutes late, luv." Spike said.
"Yeah well, Willow had her cook-a-thon and I had to stay and eat." Buffy told him, "plus, we had a talk." Buffy added. She knew she shouldn't have brought it up, but she needed to.
"Oh yeah? What about." He was always happy to have Buffy talking to him. He loved everything that came out of her mouth.
"Love. How it makes people do things." Buffy looked at Spike, his head was down and his eyes were looking straight into the cold hard dirt beneath him. Buffy took in a deep breath.
"W- we also talked about you and me." she looked up at Spike, who's head had begun moving up. He was looking straight into her eyes, never flinching ".and love." Right after the words had left her mouth, she knew she had made a mistake. She looked down at the ground and moved the dirt in a circle. She was waiting for a reply.
Love. Right, he knew what she meant. That they were talking about him, loving her. How wrong it was, how it made her feel. She didn't love him, he knew it. He tried to tell himself that one day he might have a chance, but he knew he was wrong. He had no chance in hell. He looked up to see her moving her dark shoes in the dirt. He knew that he needed to say something, she was waiting for a reply.
"What do you mean, pet?" He managed to spit out a few words.
"When I said that it makes people do things, I mean good things. Well, what I mean is, uh Willow said that the things you do.well, that you do them for me. Is that true? Looking after Dawn, taking care of her while I was gone. Making small talk with my friends, who I know that you are not too fond of, saving our lives countless times? Do you really do all that for me?" Buffy knew she sounded selfish, and she didn't want it to come out that way. She just needed to know how much he truly loved her, if he would ever leave her. She wouldn't be able to stand losing another person that she cared about.
"Yeah, well, I guess Red was right. I made a promise to you to take care of the little bit. I would never be able to forgive myself if I had broken a promise to you. As for your chums, I-" He let out a sigh of relief as a vamp distracted the two of them.
Buffy battled the vamp for what seemed like an eternity while Spike was trying to figure out what to say to Buffy when this fight was all over. The vamp pushed Buffy so hard she flew back into Spike, who grabbed her tightly by the waist. She jumped up and blocked the vamp with her feet, then kicked hard, sending him flying a few feet back. Spike unwrapped one arm from Buffy's waist, holding on tightly with the other. He grabbed a stake from Buffy's front pocket, and strategically threw it towards the vamp, right through the heart. The vampire turned to dust.
Spike then moved his arm back to it's comfortable position around Buffy's waist. Buffy didn't flinch, which took him by surprise.
"That," Buffy began to speak as she turned around to face Spike, " was excellent." She finished her statement.
She looked up at Spike, he didn't move. Not one muscle in his perfect face even twitched. He didn't smile, he didn't roll his eyes, his face was still.and serious. She looked into his blue, gorgeous, penetrating eyes, which seemed like they go on forever. They were so deep and full of love. She had never noticed how beautiful they were. She smiled, took her hand, and placed on his cheekbone, following the distinctive curves in his face. A soothing feeling come over her. She looked down and saw his arms, still embracing her. She slowly looked up, and gently placed her lips on his.
It lasted only a second, but in that second he felt so alive. A warm feeling spread over his body, feeling her lips on his, holding her tightly. He didn't know if he was dreaming. No, he wasn't, his dreams could have never been like this. She removed her lips from his, and his chest pained. He was afraid of what she might say, maybe take it back. But she didn't, she just smiled.
Spike pulled her closer, and forced his lips on hers. She willingly took in the kiss. She moved her arms around his neck, and he felt himself smile slightly. She held the back of his neck and ran her fingers through is hair, he felt a slight tingle run down his spine. He felt her tongue begin to move towards his mouth, an he willingly opened, letting their tongues dance freely. He could taste her. It was better than anything he had ever imagined. She was so sweet, yet so simple.
She had never felt anything like this before. Something about it felt right. She never wanted this moment to end. His lips were cold, but they filled her with a sense of warmth. Her whole body was shaking, but she didn't care. She was holding and being held in the arms of the man that she lov-
She suddenly broke away from Spike and looked into his eyes. They turned from passion and love, to pain and confusion. She didn't know what to do. She knew what she was doing was wrong, but it felt so right. It was crazy, and that is why she trusted it. She smiled slightly, "Spike." She began to speak softly.
"Yeah, I know," Spike cut her off, "a moment, that's all it was, a moment. A slight lapse in judgment. Heard it before pet. And I know what is coming next. I am a monster, evil, I have no soul. No ability to love, you could never love me. So can we skip it, just this once, and say our good-byes." He felt himself on the verge of tears. Nothing had hurt as bad as this, now all he wanted were their good-byes.
Buffy knew she hurt him by breaking their kiss. He was right though, it was a moment, but not a lapse in judgment. It was a moment of passion, lust, of feelings finally being free without having to worry about the consequences, and she ruined it. One of the greatest moments of her life, and she ruined. She didn't want to make anything worse, so she agreed.
"Fine," As she said it, her bottom lip began to quiver. She turned her back to him before he could see, and she began to walk away. She stopped and turned her head slightly so she could see him out of the corner of her eye. He looked so broken. " but that wasn't what I was going to say."
She didn't know if that was the right thing to do or not, but she didn't care. She felt so awful, for him. She needed to give him something.
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I know that that was long, but hey. I also know it wasn't my best one, but hey. Please review.