Disclaimer : 'You know you're right' belongs to Nirvana….
Author's note : Merry Christmas for all of you who celebrate it (^_^) and thank you very much for all
reviewers…..We're gonna see the story from Yoh's view this chapter…….so enjoy…..
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*sigh* "maybe I am………."
I walked to the front yard. It's so dark eventhough the lamps were on. Everybody who passed it would say that it's a ghosthouse….well, it IS a ghosthouse, anyway…I sighed again and took a step. And stopped. And one step again and stopped. An once again and again and………I realized that I've already stood in front of the front door. And for the third time this day, I sighed.
"What should I do if I meet her inside ?"
I tried to remember those lyrics before. It was so deep, dark and depressing.
'Why does she want to hear it ? Does she really feel in that way ? Have I ever done something that make her feels in that way ? If so, what have I done ?'
All questions tangled in my brain, which made me dizzy.
"Aww ~~ I shouldn't think 'bout these….My head's spinning….I guess I need an aspirin…."
I opened the door and walked in. There's no one who greeted me but silence.
"………….or not….."
I walked slowly along the corridor and up to the second floor. When I passed her room, I couldn't hear anything. I kept on walking 'till I reached my room. After thanked God that I didn't meet her, I walked into my room and found something very unexpected. A gift. With the words "Anna" written on it's tag. I stared unbelievably at it with slight pink on my cheeks. I took it and unwrapped it. And I had a cassette on my hand.
"….Nir..Nirva…Nirvana…..what's that ??……I never heard 'bout this band before……"
I looked for my walkman. It's on the table. I put the cassette in it, played it, and heard it with a curious look on my face.
I will never bother you
I will never promise to
I will never follow you
I will never bother you
Never speak a word again
I will crawl away from good
I got up and rushed to her room. But she wasn't there.
"Damn ! Where's she ?!"
I hurried to the living room, hoping that she's there.
I will move away from here
You won't be afraid of fear
No thought was put into this
I always knew it would come to this
The living room was empty too. Then I made a conclusion that she was not in here, in this house. I grabbed my coat and ran to every place I knew.
Things have never been so swell
I have never failed to feel
Pain……Pain……Pain………
I tried to search her in the cemetery, but there're only spirits there. So I rushed again with worries in my mind.
You know you're right……You know you're right……
You know you're riiiiight……
I accidentally went to Flame. I decided to enter and hurriedly met Ikki.
I'm so warm and calm insideI no longer have to hide
"Ikki !!"
I yelled at him. He saw me and greeted me but I cut him.
Let's talk about someone else
"Did the blonde girl that you've told me before buy this too ?"
I handed him the case.
"Oh, right! I forgot that! Yeah..she asked me to play two cassettes but she only bought one.."
Steaming soup against her mouth
"Okay! Thanks! Sorry to bother you! "
"Anytime, pal"
Then I ran again.
Nothing really bothers her
She just wants to love herself
I will move away from here
You won't be afraid of fear
"Where should I go ?! Where should I go ?! Where should I……"
I suddenly remembered one place. The park.
No thought was put into this
I always knew it would come to this
Things have never been so swell
I have never failed to feel
"Yeah…that's it! The park!!!"
I turned back and started to run despite the fact that I had almost lost my breath.
Pain…Pain…Paiiiinnn……
Pain…Paaaaiiiiinnnnn………
You know you're right…
You know you're right…
You know you're riiiight…
I didn't know how long nor how far have I been running. My feet were very tired and my stupid brain kept telling me that I couldn't make it. But I ignored it and kept on running.
You know you're right…
You know you're right…
You know you're right……
Pain……
Then I found her, sitting there on the bench.
I turned my walkman off and walked silently to her. She seemed to know that I was there but she didn't react anything.
Moreover, she didn't care.
"….Hi…you don't mind if I sit next to you?….."
No answer.
"……okay then….."
I sat beside her. She didn't even look at me.
"So………may I know what're you doing here ?…"
She stood up and walked away.
"H-Hey, wait a sec--!!"
I chased her and grabbed her arms.
"Hold on, missy, I don't think that you can just go away like tha-"
"Leave me alone"
She pulled her arms and continued to walk.
"W-Wait !! I can't just leave you alone like that !! What's with the song ?!!"
"Huh! You really don't understand, do you ?!"
"Understand ? About what ?"
"Just leave me alone"
She, once again, turned her back against me. But I grabbed her shoulder and hugged her. I didn't know what was in my mind, infact I couldn't even think of a single thing. I just knew that this girl needed a hug so I gave her.
But I was wrong. Totally wrong. She didn't need my hug. She didn't even need me.
"Take your hands off me"
"But Anna..I-"
"I SAID TAKE – YOUR – HANDS – OFF – ME !!!!!"
I let her go. What else can I do, anyway ? She stared at me with an angry look on her face.
"Don't – you – ever – bother – me – again, got that ?!! Now go !! I don't wanna see you again, I don't wanna meet you again and I don't wanna hear about you anymore !! Get lost, bastard !!!"
Then she left me there, alone, dumbfounded. I couldn't believe what she had just told me to. I mean, Anna ?! Told me to scat ?! And I thought she loves me !! I didn't know why, but I felt angry.
"Is that what you want ?! Huh ?!! FINE !!! Then go wherever you want !! I don't care !!! You heard me ?!! I DON'T CARE !!! BITCH !!!!!!"
But I knew those words didn't really come from my heart. With a complicated heart, I went home and all I could think was to see my best friend tomorrow.
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n.b: ugh….it's goin to be a long story……oh btw, if my English still sucks, I'm sorry cos I haven't found anyone who wants to edit it for me….but if one of you guys want to…then it'll be a big help….(^_^)