Disclaimer: NigHtEyeZ don't own Saiyuki. Damn it.
AN: *Gasp* What the heck is this??? C-chapter... four??? =.=;; (Please enjoy, ne?)
~*~*~ Innocent Eighteen ~*~*~
Chapter four
"KUSO!" Sanzo yelled suddenly and startled everyone in the room. He gritted his teeth and stare at his burnt thumb.
"Humph, what a careless corrupted monk." Gojyo said sarcastically. He received death glares from Sanzo, Hakkai and Goku. Konzen was rubbing his temple. Good thing he'll be leaving those dumbass (excluding Goku) two days later. Then he remembered Kenren and Tenpou. The headache grew.
Hakkai smiled and took out a plaster. "Don't get all mad at the lighter because it's raining outside, ne Sanzo?" (AN: Sounds familiar?) He took Sanzo's hand delicately and... *SLAP*
All eyes turned onto Goku who had just slapped Hakkai's hand away from Sanzo's. The little saru had angry and jealousy flashing inside his golden orbs. He treated Hakkai like an enemy these few days and no one really knows why. The saru usually loves to hang out with this brother- like person.
"BAKA SARU!!!" *THWACK* Sanzo smacked Goku on his head with the almighty paper-fan-of-doom. Goku grabbed his head with both hands and winced. Sanzo had hit him extra hard this time. "Apologize to Hakkai. NOW!!"
Goku stared up at his guardian with those sad golden eyes. Is it because Hakkai was included in this argument that made Sanzo so mad at him? Goku clamped his mouth shut. He wasn't going to heed Sanzo's command this time.
Seeing the monkey acting more childish and stubborn then usual made Sanzo angrier. He continues to whack the defenseless monkey on the head until Konzen blocked his paper fan "What is the fucking matter with you?!" Konzen shouted.
Sanzo pointed his gun at Konzen. "That's enough, Sanzo." Hakkai gently but firmly pushed the monk's upraise arm down.
This is it. It was now or never. "I'm leaving with Konzen." Goku announced.
The room was quiet for a full three seconds. Even Konzen wasn't informed that Goku had agreed to go back with him. "WHAT THE FUCK?" Gojyo was the first to talk/curse. Hakkai was looking guilty for some reasons. The blond haired god hugged Goku who had his eyes glued on Sanzo.
The two people out of five stayed quiet and motionless. Golden against violet, their gazes were locked. Goku trying to search for any sign hidden beneath those cold eyes that he loved, Sanzo deciding if his pet was telling a lie or had his greatest fear came true.
"Get out, all of you." Sanzo plopped onto a chair and buried his face with both hands. He then leaned back and frowned when he saw none of them moved. "I said, get the fucking hell out."
Gojyo rolled his eyes sarcastically and shrugged. He walked out first. "I'd rather face an ugly woman than a flaming beautiful monk." He had to dodge two bullets shot directly at him. Hakkai followed next.
Konzen took Goku's wrist. "Goku, you stay." Came Sanzo's commanding tone. It took a while for Goku to assure Konzen that he'll be fine and Sanzo wasn't going to eat him up before the over-protective god walk out the door.
It was a pregnant silence when Sanzo and Goku were left alone. Both of them were looking anywhere, except each other. Goku found the cracked tiles he was standing on amusing and Sanzo was looking outside the window. Which was a bad idea since it was raining.
Goku had expected this. It was what he wanted, to be alone in a room together with Sanzo. There is too much question, too much holes in their relationship. It was time to sort things out. Once and for all, he was going to get all the answers he need.
"Why did you do that to Hakkai?" The monk finally opened his mouth to talk. If Sanzo wasn't guessing wrong, Goku's action had proven him to be jealous. But Sanzo knew his guess was wrong. Goku doesn't have 'that' kind of love for him. Or else why would the saru want to leave with Konzen?
The boy was dumbstruck. He just told his beloved guardian that he was leaving and Hakkai was ALL he cares about??? The sour feeling crushed his stomach. Goku pressed his lips together and hesitated to tell the truth. But he did anyway. "Because I don't want him to touch you."
Sanzo couldn't believe his ears. Since Goku's voice was so soft, he barely could hear the boy's words. He swallows the lump in his throat. No, he would not make a mistake this time.
He would not misunderstand Goku's words for affection. The monkey was just possessive about his owner, Goku wasn't jealous of Hakkai. Sanzo didn't want to get his hope high. "You have Konzen. Why can't I have Hakkai?"
After hearing his guardian, Goku felt his world darkened. So he was right, Sanzo loves Hakkai. That thought just added more acids into his already soured stomach. Goku clutched his hands into fist. It was time for the last and main question. "Can I leave with Konzen then?"
[Please... no matter what you do.]
Sanzo kept his mouth shut. He was thinking of the right words to say.
[Please, don't let me leave your side.]
The blond opened his mouth but quickly shuts it again.
[I want to stay with you. Sanzo.]
His beloved guardian looked away. "You're old enough to make your own decision."
That was not the answer that Goku wanted to hear. Sanzo continue his speech but he wasn't listening to anything. His mind still lingers on that unsatisfied answer. Little did Sanzo know, he already used up his last chance of keeping Goku.
"...Goku?"
Finally realizing his name being called several of times, Goku snapped out of his trance. Sanzo was looking at him with a so-called worried face. The pain inside his little body was killing him. Goku felt like screaming, throwing a tantrum, cover his ears and shut the whole world out. But what he really wants to do, was just cry.
Goku smiled. It was something like Hakkai's, a smile being forced out and so painful to look at. "Fine. I don't want to hear anymore from you. I'm leaving with Konzen. And I hope you and Hakkai can 'enjoy' yourself when I'm gone."
The boy opened the door to leave. "Goku!" He stopped when Sanzo called him. But instead of listening to what Sanzo had to say, Goku talked first.
"For all those years of bringing me up and keeping me as a pet, I, Son Goku will never forget about your kindness." Without waiting any longer, Goku walked out of the door and closed it in a jiffy. Emotions were threatening to burst out anytime now. But he told himself that he wouldn't cry anymore.
He had enough. That wasn't the Genjo Sanzo he loves.
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Why didn't he stop Goku from leaving yesterday? It was too late to regret it now; Goku is going to leave him forever when tomorrow comes. Sanzo glanced down at his mug of beer. The others were having dinner in a restaurant down town. He didn't want to go. It reminds him too much that this'll be the last ever meal he was having with Goku.
He had forgotten that to him, beer doesn't wash away his troubles. But heck, who cares? Sanzo finishes the huge mug of beer in a single gulp. Before he can get another beer, someone sat down beside him and took away his mug. "You should stop drinking."
Sanzo was about to give the nosy person a punch in the face, he stopped in time when he saw this 'person' was actually Hakkai. "What are you doing here? Leave me alone."
Ignoring his cold words, Hakkai smiled. "Do you want to go through the same thing we did the last time you were drunk?"
Flashback
"S-Sanzo..." Hakkai managed to moan out. He was already half-naked with his shirt lying motionless somewhere on the floor. He noticed that Sanzo had stopped kissing him. Not wanting the 'fire' to die down, Hakkai moved his hands swiftly to remove Sanzo's clothing.
He couldn't, as Sanzo had pushed his wandering hands away. The monk got off of him. Sanzo picked Hakkai's shirt from the floor and gave it back to the man with an expressionless face. At first, Hakkai doesn't get it. Wasn't Sanzo oh-so-eager to get into his pants just a few seconds ago?
It struck him. "You mistook me for Goku, didn't you?"
Sanzo took a seat in a chair by the table and calmly lighted a cigarette. There was no need to answer the question since they already both knew the correct answer. If Hakkai hadn't called his name, Sanzo might have done something unforgivable. (a.k.a Have sex with Hakkai)
Hakkai felt beaten. Even when Sanzo is drunk, Goku was still the only person he cared about. He was defeated by an eighteen years old teen. "He must have meant a lot to you, even if you deny it."
Sanzo puffed a cloud of smoke out. His cold violet eyes soften a little at the thought of his baka saru. "I remember the first gift he gave me. I've thrown it away though. Imagine how embarrassed I was to get flowers from a little boy."
He paused to take another smoke. "The saru was upset. He thought his gift meant nothing to me. But what the saru didn't know was that a certain stupid-blond-haired monk who went to the dumpster at midnight to reclaim the flowers."
Hakkai had a genuine smile on his face, he now understands that he could never take Goku's place.
"That's how much the saru mean to me, Hakkai." If the room was a little brighter, Hakkai could see the miracle upon miracle, Sanzo's smile.
End of Flashback
"Did you forget what you had confessed to me that night?" It was because of that confession; Hakkai had decided to give up on Sanzo. "If he really means that much to you, why are you letting him go?"
Sanzo had a throbbing headache by now. What he needed now wasn't Hakkai's lecture. "Stop asking me that! I've been asking myself the same thing for the past twenty four hours!" He pointed his gun at the bartender and threatens to shoot the innocent fellow if he didn't get beer in one minute.
"So what have you concluded after twenty four hours?" Hakkai apologized to the bartender with a polite smile and continue his questioning. "You aren't going to tell me that suddenly Goku means nothing to you again, are you?"
"It doesn't matter anymore. The fucking fact is he loves Konzen. Not...me." Sanzo leaned heavily on the table. "Are you satisfied now? Get the fucking hell away from me and let me drink in peace." For the first time ever, Sanzo hoped to be deep in sleep until tomorrow afternoon.
~*~
Stepping out of the inn and into the warm silent night, Gojyo stretched his arms. Dinner was pretty gloomy with only Konzen acting like his usual self. Hakkai, Goku and himself had been too quiet for their own good.
Goku had visibly become moodier when Hakkai excused himself from the table. It was obvious to the saru Hakkai was going to look for the only person not present for dinner. "Eh?" Gojyo lifted an eyebrow as he saw another figure under a tree nearby.
"Oi. Baka saru." Gojyo walked towards Goku. He was surprised that the boy didn't even argue back saying that he isn't a monkey. Goku was actually gazing at the dark sky. "Didn't you hear me?" Getting a bit fed-up of being ignored by the golden-eyed boy, Gojyo poked Goku's forehead.
The saru blinked. "A re? Gojyo?" He smiled. "What are you doing here?"
Goku was becoming more like Hakkai. Gojyo can't decide whether to hit Goku in the head or to kiss the stupid saru until he loses that pathetic smile. He did neither. Instead, he settles down to ruffle the boy's soft light brown hair, causing the boy to squeal and giggle.
That was the saru Gojyo loved. After a while of teasing Goku, they finally sat down on soil ground. "Gojyo?" Goku continued when the red- haired man nodded. "Could you take care of Sanzo when I'm gone?"
It somehow breaks Gojyo's heart to see Goku so devoted to Sanzo. "No. Why should I baby-sit the corrupted monk?"
Seeing that his request wasn't granted, Goku kept his mouth shut for the next few minutes. Gojyo can't stand the silence. "Baka, why did you have to leave with Konzen??" He carelessly blurted the question out. It had been haunting him for quite some time.
As if Gojyo had stepped on a painful spot, Goku frowned and lowered his head. He doesn't want to leave. But he had too. Watching Hakkai and Sanzo together will be the end of Son Goku's fragile heart. The sooner he was gone, the faster he's broken heart will heal.
"Because Sanzo didn't stop me." Goku sighed and continues to torture himself. "He didn't ask me to stay. He doesn't want me around. He doesn't need me. Just like the flowers I once gave him, I mean nothing to him. I-I just can't stay any more."
Unknown to Goku, Gojyo had shifted closer to him. "What if I tell you that he was lying all the time?" A long time ago, Gojyo had fallen and given up his love for Goku. He knows the baka saru's brain is too small to contain both him and Sanzo.
A small light of hope shines down on Goku. "Eh?" Gojyo leaned closer to his ear.
"What if... Sanzo was lying? Do you believe that Sanzo has desires to pin you down on the bed more than once? To ravish that tiny lips of yours? To just hear you scream his name in pleasure?" The more naughty things Gojyo was saying, the redder Goku's face was getting.
"Aa!! Ero-kappa! What are you saying??!!" Goku tried to hide his redden face with fake anger. He pounded on Gojyo's chest to add the affects.
It went quick and smooth as Gojyo planned. He grabbed Goku's wrist and then kissed the saru's pouting lips. Goku was completely stoned even after Gojyo had stopped the kissing. "I've got to go now, it's almost dawn."
Gojyo stood up and walked away. He has an important meeting with a certain stupid-blond-haired monk.
Staring at Gojyo's shadow disappearing, Goku lifted a finger to touch his lips. He could feel the fiery taste of Gojyo's lips. Man, that ero- kappa sure can kiss... Wait!! Why did Gojyo kissed him???
Goku couldn't think any further as his sensitive ears caught footsteps behind him. He jumped off the ground and snapped around to face his intruder, who was actually Konzen.
"Can't sleep?" Konzen asked. Goku relaxes his tense body and nodded in reply. "Me too." Tomorrow morning, they will be leaving. The spell will wear off and he will return to heaven. WITH Goku.
The thought of having Goku all to himself and not sharing the little saru with someone who looked like him made Konzen feel all tingly inside. He took Goku into his embrace. "You'll come with me, won't you?"
//Sanzo didn't stop me. // Goku wrapped his small arms around Konzen's waist.
//What if Sanzo was lying? // He lifted his head to see a pair of violet eyes so full with love and tenderness. There was no way he could hurt this man the same way Sanzo had hurt him. Goku buried his head onto Konzen's chest. [It's over, Sanzo. Stop haunting me.]
"Yes."
~*~
"Ch'. So this is where you're hiding at, stupid corrupted monk." Gojyo said with a very sarcastic tone. Such a stupid hiding place; suitable for a stupid timid monk. "Drinking all your sorrows away? Heh, old fashion."
"Gojyo, quit it." Hakkai can't help it but to speak up for Sanzo. The man himself wasn't even in the condition to take out his gun and point it at Gojyo. He lay still, sprawled on the table, sending a message that nobody can move him.
Well, that was until Gojyo grabbed his robe from behind and forced him to get up. "I have enough of you and that saru. Why can't you two just stop playing hide and seek already??"
Fiery red eyes stared into lazy violet ones. Sanzo didn't even bother to stand up straight. All that supported him from collapsing on the floor was Gojyo's strong arms.
"What are you..." Hakkai was startled, he never expected Gojyo to get so angry all of a sudden. He stood up in order to break them apart.
"Stay where you are, Hakkai!" Gojyo barked. "This isn't the Sanzo I know anymore. He needs to wake up." With that, Gojyo raised a fist and punched Sanzo's chin. Sanzo flew backwards from the impact and his back smacked the wall. It was a good thing the pub was already empty.
The heavy blow from Gojyo seemed to work. As Sanzo pushed himself up again, there was anger taking over the lazy look he had.
"Let's have a bet. If I win this fight, I get Goku." Gojyo hissed. He charged at Sanzo for the second blow.
Hakkai shuts his eyes. He can't bear to watch Gojyo hurting Sanzo but he knows Gojyo is right. Sanzo needs to wake up. There was total silence. No crashing sounds, no grunting or moaning in pain from either Sanzo or Gojyo. Hakkai forced his eyes open.
Gojyo's fist was wrapped inside Sanzo's hand. He did not succeeded in the second punch. "What do you understand?" Sanzo spoke each and every word aloud. His anger burned by the second. "He never has feelings for me. I can't stop him from leaving."
As quick as a flash, Sanzo return a full blow at Gojyo's stomach, causing the man to stager backwards and wince in pain. Gojyo's breath became harsh and uneven, but that didn't stop him from talking. "That is exactly why he's leaving. BECAUSE YOU DIDN'T STOP HIM!!!!"
There was some kind of shocked and surprised expression on Sanzo's face. But it disappeared just as fast as it appeared. "Shut the fuck up and fight."
~*~
The sky was grey, ten more minutes till the sun rises. "Ano, where are we going, Konzen?" Goku turned to look at the inn, which was getting further and further. He was not worried where is Konzen planning to take him. Goku trust him.
"No where. Remember Goku, do NOT let go of my hand when the sun rises." Konzen warned him again. If they were not having any skin connection, then Goku will not be able to go back with him.
Goku nodded and stared down at his small hand hidden inside Konzen's. There was no goodbye to be said. He wouldn't allow himself to say his last goodbyes to Gojyo, Hakkai...especially not Sanzo. A dreaded feeling conquered his chest. At least, he wanted to see Sanzo for the last time.
//Goku. // He's ears perked up and he looked back excitedly. Nope. No one was there. It was his imagination. He lowered his head in disappointment. Konzen, seeing Goku had somewhat slower his pace, turned back too. "What is it?"
"N-nothing." They continue to walk.
//Goku. // He frowned hard, trying to decide whether it was the voice in his head or... Goku's heartbeat quickens as he turned around again. "Are you okay, Goku?" Konzen tightens his grip on Goku's hand.
Goku smiled to assure him. Even though he was dying to kick himself for his stupidity. There was no one there. Who was he hoping for anyway? "I'm okay."
It was only a few more steps before 'it' called him again. "Goku."
Somehow, he knew this wasn't the voice in his head. He slowly turned back and found what was he hoping for. His sunshine.
Sanzo tried hard not to stumble or fell down as he clutched his stomach. How many bruises were hidden underneath his robe, he did not want to think about it. He made a mental note to kick Gojyo's ass again after he's done with this baka saru.
~*~
(Back in the bar)
Beyond the broken tables, chairs and broken beer bottles were two men. Gojyo smoked on a cigarette while Hakkai was trying to heal his open wounds. Sanzo was much better at causing his opponent physical pain compared to Gojyo.
"I didn't know you like that idiot." Gojyo yelped as Hakkai 'accidentally' pressed his wound.
Hakkai smiled with a ping of evil. "I didn't know you were interested in small kids too, Gojyo." It made the red haired man blush. The whole bar became quiet again.
After a while, Hakkai had completed his task. He heaved a sigh and wiped the sweat on his forehead away. "You should stay and rest."
"Are you kidding? Stay here while all the interesting stuff are happening outside??" Gojyo stubbornly tried to stand up he almost stumble backwards and fall on his butt if Hakkai hadn't caught him.
They were in an embarrassing position now. Gojyo was practically hugging onto Hakkai and their faces were inches apart. Breathing became a very hard thing to do for Gojyo. How come he never noticed those brilliant emerald eyes of Hakkai's?
Suddenly, Hakkai buried his head onto Gojyo's shoulder. "Oi! What-"
"Stop pretending that you're not hurt!" Hakkai had no intention of moving away from Gojyo's warm body at all. "Loosing Goku hurts. I understand. You're not alone, Gojyo. You're not alone."
The fire in his red eyes died down. Tears brimmed his eyes. Why is Hakkai always right? Gojyo returned the hug. Always remember, he is not alone.
~*~
"What do you want?" Konzen frowned and tried to block Goku's view from Sanzo who was standing ten or more steps away from them. "Stay away from Goku."
Sanzo glared at him. "Listen. I'm drunk, hurt, tired and fed-up. So let's make things simple. Goku stays, you leave."
The boy was surprised upon hearing his name. Sanzo... Sanzo wants him to stay? "We have gone through this already, Genjo Sanzo. The boy is willingly leaving with me." Konzen glared back at him.
"I've changed my mind." There was a small tug at the corners of Sanzo's lips. He had a confident smirk. His eyes averted from Konzen to his beloved Goku. "You promise to stay. I found you and you belong to me. I'm asking you to stay. Please."
Both blond held their breaths and eyed Goku in union tension.
The boy was anything but calm. He looked at Konzen, then at Sanzo. What is he going to do??? He shuts his golden eyes to calm his frantic heart. He must make the right decision. Now!
It seemed like ages when Goku finally opened his eyes again. He glanced at the hand that he was holding. Then lifted his head to study Sanzo's expression. His golden orbs full of love and affection that the older man always hardly notice. He smiled.
And shook his head. "Goodbye Sanzo." Goku lowered his head and turned to walk away with Konzen's hand still in his. He had given up on Sanzo.
Sanzo had dropped his smile. This wasn't in his prediction. The sky was turning into light orange and Goku had his back towards him. This was it. He was going to lose Goku forever.
The spell begins to take its place; Konzen can feel it. But he was unhappy. He tried to ignore the tears rolling non-stop down Goku's cheeks.
"Goku, " The boy stopped but did not turn back. He doesn't want the person he loves to see his tears. "Do you remember the time when you asked me if I love you?"
Goku gritted his teeth trying hard not to tremble too much. He already knew that answer. Sanzo loves Ha- "I do not love Hakkai."
The moment stopped for Goku as the truth is out. "I will give you an answer. If you stay." Are his ears playing tricks on him again or is Sanzo... Goku turned back swiftly. He was right.
There stood the great priest, Genjo Sanzo, in tears. Sanzo didn't bother to wipe away the wet streaks on his face. He wasn't ashamed to let Goku see how weak he is. In fact, without Goku, he is weak. "Don't go."
Goku would give anything up to just wipe the desperation from Sanzo's face. He loosens his hand from the tight grip. "Konzen." He whispered softly. "I'm sorry."
What happened next was a blur, Goku rushed towards Sanzo. He didn't saw the pain look Konzen had, he didn't saw Konzen slowly disappearing in thin air, what he had in his eyes was Sanzo, and only Sanzo.
The monk collapsed on the floor as Goku flung his little body onto his bruised one. Sanzo's body was yelling in pain as the saru had landed precisely on his wounds. "Bak-"
"Sanzo!" Goku had his arms around Sanzo's neck and hugged the man with all his might. "I was so scared of leaving." His childish and needy action melted Sanzo's harsh words.
To his ultimate surprise, Sanzo returned the hug and kissed Goku's temple. "I won't let you leave me again."
~*~
[Why? Why did Goku choose the other man? Shit. When I wake up from this stupid unconsciousness, I'm going to use that freaking spell again. This time I'll take Goku back by force! Just you wait Sanzo...]
//Konzen //
[Huh? Who's calling my name?]
//Konzen //
[Argh! Stop whining already! Correction, the first thing I'm going to do when I wake up from this stupid unconsciousness is to find the owner of that voice and give it a nice punch or two.]
//Konzen!! Wake up!! //
[Alright already!! Shut up!]
~*~
Konzen flutter his eyes open. Just to be greeted by familiar golden ones. "Konzen!!!" Goku yelled.
The blond haired god slowly sat up and rubbed the back of his head. He was confused, didn't he left Goku to Sanzo? But the Goku smiling brightly at him had long hair and he was wearing his usual clothes. Goku hugged him tightly.
Konzen finally noticed that he was inside his own room and his own bed. "Ah, he's awake?" Another voice joined in.
"Ken-nii-chan! Ten-chan!" Goku called out Konzen's worst nightmare duo. The General and Marshal both had sly smiles on their face.
"So what happened? Where were you those two weeks?" Kenren asked eagerly first.
Konzen eyed him wearily. "Don't you think you should report to me about this first?" He pointed a finger at Goku.
Pushing up his glasses, it was Tenpou's turn to speak. "Li Touten kidnapped Goku. When you were gone, we finally have some news about Goku and found him the next day. I guess the spell thing didn't work."
"Li Touten?" He would deal with this bastard later. Everything is so confusing. But there was one thing he was sure and wanted to do it right now. He looked at Goku who was devouring Konzen with his hungry eyes. "We'll talk later. Get out of my room." Without breaking the eye lock, Konzen demanded.
"But..." Kenren started. Tenpou cleverly clamped the not-so-smart General's mouth and pulled him out of the room.
"Ne Konzen, where have you been? I missed you." Goku pouted and didn't seem to mind when Konzen pinned him down on the bed.
"You were gone for one month, do you know how badly I need you?" Konzen's hands works swiftly as he unbuttons Goku's shirt. He crushed the blushing boy's lips with his own. The room went silence except for a few soft moaning. Of course, not forgetting Kenren and Tenpou eavesdropping outside.
End of Chapter four
AN: Hope this chapter's not so bad, I had to squeeze two chapters into one, that's why it's so long. Oh yeah, when I said I couldn't continue this fic, it was because my school holidays are almost over and I'm going to a boarding school.
But since I'm such a die-hard Saiyuki fan, I might as well finish off what I've begun. *Smiles* Of course, I couldn't continue without my awfully cool reviewers!! Luv you guys! I wouldn't know what I was writing without you guys reviewing. ^____~
The next and final chapter (chapter 5) is full of useless...LIME!!! *Hooray!!!* Does anyone actually like to read lime? I know I do!! If you don't, then don't worry. Because chapter five hardly have anything to do with 'Innocent Eighteen'. But then again, the fic would be much complete if you do read it. It'll be up before the 3rd of January 2003. Happy New Year!!!!!!
A few thank you notes
Morikawa Sei: *Bad Hakkai, bad!!* Hehehe... It's not really that complicated now, ne? Thank you for your review!
cutie-pie16: Well, Sanzo and Goku are (sort of) together now. I'm happy for them. (Wait, ain't I the one who made them break up?) *Hits head against coconut tree* Thank you for asking me to continue, I appreciate your support. Oh and ganbatte in your fic too!! I love them all!
chris: Don't worry, your not blabbering. ^___^ I'm very happy that you want me to continue. Arigatou!!!
Gokugurl: I like your fic 'Of Golden Eyes'!! You are a great writer!! I mean you're so good at lime scene that I almost had nosebleed! (Seriously!) I have to remember to add your story into my favourite!! *Writes mental note.* Thank you for your review!
black luna: Sorry to make it hasty, but I didn't really now where did the past Goku went... so I made Li Touten kidnap (Or is it monkeynap?) him. Bwuahahaha!! *ahem* Anyways, hope you like lime... @_@
stresser: Thank you for wanting me to continue it. I know the angst hurts, but hey! What better way to make happy endings happier? *Smiles* I'm always in a good mood! Thanks again!
Anonymous: I like this. This is an anonymous review. 'You're right. It sucked. And I will *not* get started on your grammar.' First of all, thanks for agreeing the ending in chapter three sucked. You're truthful! Second, THANK GOD you will *not* go through my grammar mistake. Ehehe... *Smiles in embarrassment* Third, why don't you leave your name and e-mail address this time? (Chicken?)
Aki Rei: The way Sanzo and Konzen fight over Goku made them darn OOC ne? Don't you agree? Anyway, sank you for the review!! But I must confess 'Innocent Eighteen' ain't much of a good fic.
Jessica: Arigatou! Arigatou! Arigatou!
Star-chan: Gomen! I didn't mean to confuse you about the room thing!! Here's a short explanation. Goku forgets to lock the door and went to Sanzo's room. Sanzo getting drunk and all went to Goku's room to find a sleeping Hakkai (Whom he thought it was Goku in his room). Goku woke up half way through the night and went back to his own room to lock the door. *Gasp* He saw 'them'!!! Glad you still like it! SANK YOU!!!!
dark seraph: Wow! You like the OOC??? Thank you soooo much for not minding the OOC I've out in the Saiyuki characters. *Snif* *snif* and thank you for your support!! Damn you know how to make me feel so happy. ; _ ;
Saiyukifan: You have asthma? Oh my god!! (Kidding, ^_^) You really have a great imagination! Thank you for not allowing me to stop this fic (or else I really would have). Oh, and past Goku didn't run away, he was kidnapped!!! Anywayz, I know this chapter actually sucked. (No, really. I've read it twice and I was like... ugh.) But I promise there be lotsa 'action' (Trying hard below NC-17) in the next chapter!
Ewen: Another great author! I love your fic 'the gay pervert's curse' absolutely hilarious!! Gojyo in love with Goku was actually not in the plan, but it seemed so right!! So I DID made a Gojyo/Goku pairing. I almost die laughing about 'The Little Engine' part. And damn, it works so good! Thanks for sharing that secret! Arigatou!
Windyhurrice: Lovely nick. I'm so honored to receive your first Saiyuki review! ^____^ (WAH!!!!!!) That must be the longest review I ever received. Cool! Ano, I'm not very good at long thank you notes, so as Sanzo-sama said 'let's make things simple'. You have reviewed, and I, thank you!!
M-i: No, your questions are not stupid or weird. I really liked the way you review. It makes me consider the missing part of this fanfic. You're such a great help! And thank you for making me continue the fic. I hope this chapter answers your questions! Arigatou!!
Chris pwure: Hehehe, of course Sanzo and Goku make a good pair! *Waves infamous flag of 'Sanzo x Goku forever!!!'* Sad? Erm... ah... I dunno... But then, at least we have gotten rid of Gojyo and Hakkai knots. Hip hip hooray!! Thank you for reviewing!
Gokugurl: Ano... (looks 13 reviewers up) are you the same person? Well, sank you again!! ^____^ Excuse my stupidity, but what is 39 and 83??
syazery: Your wish is my command? Sank you for the review!!!
Gemini: If Sanzo be more nice to Goku, everyone will say he's OOC (Although I can imagine that cute picture of Sanzo sucking on Goku's thumb *Snickers*). I don't know if it's good or bad to do so... And I like the idea of messing things up completely like you suggested. Gaiden Goku going to Sanzo and stuff (Great imagination you have). But yeah, as you review, it's too messy and too hard for me to write that. But anyways, I love your review!!! Thank you for calling the fic 'wonderful'!! *Gives you a huge bear hug*
gallatica: Uh-huh. Poor Goku... poor Sanzo... (Bad NigHtEyeZ!) Right, I think as you review, Konzen is OOC in this fic. Sorry if it bothers you. Gomen!! Ehehehe... Don't mind me, sometimes I think my fic sucks and sometimes I think I should get an award for it. (Yup, the award of 'The Most Stupidest Saiyuki Fic of The Year') Well, thanks a lot for the review. I hope you enjoy chapter 4 too!!!
s@yUki: A re? Tenpou? Kenren? Ahahaha... I almost forgot about those two adorable deities! Merry Belated Xmas to you too! Oh and, Happy New Year!!! Thanks for leaving a review!!
That's about it. I'm going to start typing chapter five now. *close eyes ad pray* God, please help me to get rid of the writers block. I need to finish it in two days flat!!! Ja~~ .
AN: *Gasp* What the heck is this??? C-chapter... four??? =.=;; (Please enjoy, ne?)
~*~*~ Innocent Eighteen ~*~*~
Chapter four
"KUSO!" Sanzo yelled suddenly and startled everyone in the room. He gritted his teeth and stare at his burnt thumb.
"Humph, what a careless corrupted monk." Gojyo said sarcastically. He received death glares from Sanzo, Hakkai and Goku. Konzen was rubbing his temple. Good thing he'll be leaving those dumbass (excluding Goku) two days later. Then he remembered Kenren and Tenpou. The headache grew.
Hakkai smiled and took out a plaster. "Don't get all mad at the lighter because it's raining outside, ne Sanzo?" (AN: Sounds familiar?) He took Sanzo's hand delicately and... *SLAP*
All eyes turned onto Goku who had just slapped Hakkai's hand away from Sanzo's. The little saru had angry and jealousy flashing inside his golden orbs. He treated Hakkai like an enemy these few days and no one really knows why. The saru usually loves to hang out with this brother- like person.
"BAKA SARU!!!" *THWACK* Sanzo smacked Goku on his head with the almighty paper-fan-of-doom. Goku grabbed his head with both hands and winced. Sanzo had hit him extra hard this time. "Apologize to Hakkai. NOW!!"
Goku stared up at his guardian with those sad golden eyes. Is it because Hakkai was included in this argument that made Sanzo so mad at him? Goku clamped his mouth shut. He wasn't going to heed Sanzo's command this time.
Seeing the monkey acting more childish and stubborn then usual made Sanzo angrier. He continues to whack the defenseless monkey on the head until Konzen blocked his paper fan "What is the fucking matter with you?!" Konzen shouted.
Sanzo pointed his gun at Konzen. "That's enough, Sanzo." Hakkai gently but firmly pushed the monk's upraise arm down.
This is it. It was now or never. "I'm leaving with Konzen." Goku announced.
The room was quiet for a full three seconds. Even Konzen wasn't informed that Goku had agreed to go back with him. "WHAT THE FUCK?" Gojyo was the first to talk/curse. Hakkai was looking guilty for some reasons. The blond haired god hugged Goku who had his eyes glued on Sanzo.
The two people out of five stayed quiet and motionless. Golden against violet, their gazes were locked. Goku trying to search for any sign hidden beneath those cold eyes that he loved, Sanzo deciding if his pet was telling a lie or had his greatest fear came true.
"Get out, all of you." Sanzo plopped onto a chair and buried his face with both hands. He then leaned back and frowned when he saw none of them moved. "I said, get the fucking hell out."
Gojyo rolled his eyes sarcastically and shrugged. He walked out first. "I'd rather face an ugly woman than a flaming beautiful monk." He had to dodge two bullets shot directly at him. Hakkai followed next.
Konzen took Goku's wrist. "Goku, you stay." Came Sanzo's commanding tone. It took a while for Goku to assure Konzen that he'll be fine and Sanzo wasn't going to eat him up before the over-protective god walk out the door.
It was a pregnant silence when Sanzo and Goku were left alone. Both of them were looking anywhere, except each other. Goku found the cracked tiles he was standing on amusing and Sanzo was looking outside the window. Which was a bad idea since it was raining.
Goku had expected this. It was what he wanted, to be alone in a room together with Sanzo. There is too much question, too much holes in their relationship. It was time to sort things out. Once and for all, he was going to get all the answers he need.
"Why did you do that to Hakkai?" The monk finally opened his mouth to talk. If Sanzo wasn't guessing wrong, Goku's action had proven him to be jealous. But Sanzo knew his guess was wrong. Goku doesn't have 'that' kind of love for him. Or else why would the saru want to leave with Konzen?
The boy was dumbstruck. He just told his beloved guardian that he was leaving and Hakkai was ALL he cares about??? The sour feeling crushed his stomach. Goku pressed his lips together and hesitated to tell the truth. But he did anyway. "Because I don't want him to touch you."
Sanzo couldn't believe his ears. Since Goku's voice was so soft, he barely could hear the boy's words. He swallows the lump in his throat. No, he would not make a mistake this time.
He would not misunderstand Goku's words for affection. The monkey was just possessive about his owner, Goku wasn't jealous of Hakkai. Sanzo didn't want to get his hope high. "You have Konzen. Why can't I have Hakkai?"
After hearing his guardian, Goku felt his world darkened. So he was right, Sanzo loves Hakkai. That thought just added more acids into his already soured stomach. Goku clutched his hands into fist. It was time for the last and main question. "Can I leave with Konzen then?"
[Please... no matter what you do.]
Sanzo kept his mouth shut. He was thinking of the right words to say.
[Please, don't let me leave your side.]
The blond opened his mouth but quickly shuts it again.
[I want to stay with you. Sanzo.]
His beloved guardian looked away. "You're old enough to make your own decision."
That was not the answer that Goku wanted to hear. Sanzo continue his speech but he wasn't listening to anything. His mind still lingers on that unsatisfied answer. Little did Sanzo know, he already used up his last chance of keeping Goku.
"...Goku?"
Finally realizing his name being called several of times, Goku snapped out of his trance. Sanzo was looking at him with a so-called worried face. The pain inside his little body was killing him. Goku felt like screaming, throwing a tantrum, cover his ears and shut the whole world out. But what he really wants to do, was just cry.
Goku smiled. It was something like Hakkai's, a smile being forced out and so painful to look at. "Fine. I don't want to hear anymore from you. I'm leaving with Konzen. And I hope you and Hakkai can 'enjoy' yourself when I'm gone."
The boy opened the door to leave. "Goku!" He stopped when Sanzo called him. But instead of listening to what Sanzo had to say, Goku talked first.
"For all those years of bringing me up and keeping me as a pet, I, Son Goku will never forget about your kindness." Without waiting any longer, Goku walked out of the door and closed it in a jiffy. Emotions were threatening to burst out anytime now. But he told himself that he wouldn't cry anymore.
He had enough. That wasn't the Genjo Sanzo he loves.
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Why didn't he stop Goku from leaving yesterday? It was too late to regret it now; Goku is going to leave him forever when tomorrow comes. Sanzo glanced down at his mug of beer. The others were having dinner in a restaurant down town. He didn't want to go. It reminds him too much that this'll be the last ever meal he was having with Goku.
He had forgotten that to him, beer doesn't wash away his troubles. But heck, who cares? Sanzo finishes the huge mug of beer in a single gulp. Before he can get another beer, someone sat down beside him and took away his mug. "You should stop drinking."
Sanzo was about to give the nosy person a punch in the face, he stopped in time when he saw this 'person' was actually Hakkai. "What are you doing here? Leave me alone."
Ignoring his cold words, Hakkai smiled. "Do you want to go through the same thing we did the last time you were drunk?"
Flashback
"S-Sanzo..." Hakkai managed to moan out. He was already half-naked with his shirt lying motionless somewhere on the floor. He noticed that Sanzo had stopped kissing him. Not wanting the 'fire' to die down, Hakkai moved his hands swiftly to remove Sanzo's clothing.
He couldn't, as Sanzo had pushed his wandering hands away. The monk got off of him. Sanzo picked Hakkai's shirt from the floor and gave it back to the man with an expressionless face. At first, Hakkai doesn't get it. Wasn't Sanzo oh-so-eager to get into his pants just a few seconds ago?
It struck him. "You mistook me for Goku, didn't you?"
Sanzo took a seat in a chair by the table and calmly lighted a cigarette. There was no need to answer the question since they already both knew the correct answer. If Hakkai hadn't called his name, Sanzo might have done something unforgivable. (a.k.a Have sex with Hakkai)
Hakkai felt beaten. Even when Sanzo is drunk, Goku was still the only person he cared about. He was defeated by an eighteen years old teen. "He must have meant a lot to you, even if you deny it."
Sanzo puffed a cloud of smoke out. His cold violet eyes soften a little at the thought of his baka saru. "I remember the first gift he gave me. I've thrown it away though. Imagine how embarrassed I was to get flowers from a little boy."
He paused to take another smoke. "The saru was upset. He thought his gift meant nothing to me. But what the saru didn't know was that a certain stupid-blond-haired monk who went to the dumpster at midnight to reclaim the flowers."
Hakkai had a genuine smile on his face, he now understands that he could never take Goku's place.
"That's how much the saru mean to me, Hakkai." If the room was a little brighter, Hakkai could see the miracle upon miracle, Sanzo's smile.
End of Flashback
"Did you forget what you had confessed to me that night?" It was because of that confession; Hakkai had decided to give up on Sanzo. "If he really means that much to you, why are you letting him go?"
Sanzo had a throbbing headache by now. What he needed now wasn't Hakkai's lecture. "Stop asking me that! I've been asking myself the same thing for the past twenty four hours!" He pointed his gun at the bartender and threatens to shoot the innocent fellow if he didn't get beer in one minute.
"So what have you concluded after twenty four hours?" Hakkai apologized to the bartender with a polite smile and continue his questioning. "You aren't going to tell me that suddenly Goku means nothing to you again, are you?"
"It doesn't matter anymore. The fucking fact is he loves Konzen. Not...me." Sanzo leaned heavily on the table. "Are you satisfied now? Get the fucking hell away from me and let me drink in peace." For the first time ever, Sanzo hoped to be deep in sleep until tomorrow afternoon.
~*~
Stepping out of the inn and into the warm silent night, Gojyo stretched his arms. Dinner was pretty gloomy with only Konzen acting like his usual self. Hakkai, Goku and himself had been too quiet for their own good.
Goku had visibly become moodier when Hakkai excused himself from the table. It was obvious to the saru Hakkai was going to look for the only person not present for dinner. "Eh?" Gojyo lifted an eyebrow as he saw another figure under a tree nearby.
"Oi. Baka saru." Gojyo walked towards Goku. He was surprised that the boy didn't even argue back saying that he isn't a monkey. Goku was actually gazing at the dark sky. "Didn't you hear me?" Getting a bit fed-up of being ignored by the golden-eyed boy, Gojyo poked Goku's forehead.
The saru blinked. "A re? Gojyo?" He smiled. "What are you doing here?"
Goku was becoming more like Hakkai. Gojyo can't decide whether to hit Goku in the head or to kiss the stupid saru until he loses that pathetic smile. He did neither. Instead, he settles down to ruffle the boy's soft light brown hair, causing the boy to squeal and giggle.
That was the saru Gojyo loved. After a while of teasing Goku, they finally sat down on soil ground. "Gojyo?" Goku continued when the red- haired man nodded. "Could you take care of Sanzo when I'm gone?"
It somehow breaks Gojyo's heart to see Goku so devoted to Sanzo. "No. Why should I baby-sit the corrupted monk?"
Seeing that his request wasn't granted, Goku kept his mouth shut for the next few minutes. Gojyo can't stand the silence. "Baka, why did you have to leave with Konzen??" He carelessly blurted the question out. It had been haunting him for quite some time.
As if Gojyo had stepped on a painful spot, Goku frowned and lowered his head. He doesn't want to leave. But he had too. Watching Hakkai and Sanzo together will be the end of Son Goku's fragile heart. The sooner he was gone, the faster he's broken heart will heal.
"Because Sanzo didn't stop me." Goku sighed and continues to torture himself. "He didn't ask me to stay. He doesn't want me around. He doesn't need me. Just like the flowers I once gave him, I mean nothing to him. I-I just can't stay any more."
Unknown to Goku, Gojyo had shifted closer to him. "What if I tell you that he was lying all the time?" A long time ago, Gojyo had fallen and given up his love for Goku. He knows the baka saru's brain is too small to contain both him and Sanzo.
A small light of hope shines down on Goku. "Eh?" Gojyo leaned closer to his ear.
"What if... Sanzo was lying? Do you believe that Sanzo has desires to pin you down on the bed more than once? To ravish that tiny lips of yours? To just hear you scream his name in pleasure?" The more naughty things Gojyo was saying, the redder Goku's face was getting.
"Aa!! Ero-kappa! What are you saying??!!" Goku tried to hide his redden face with fake anger. He pounded on Gojyo's chest to add the affects.
It went quick and smooth as Gojyo planned. He grabbed Goku's wrist and then kissed the saru's pouting lips. Goku was completely stoned even after Gojyo had stopped the kissing. "I've got to go now, it's almost dawn."
Gojyo stood up and walked away. He has an important meeting with a certain stupid-blond-haired monk.
Staring at Gojyo's shadow disappearing, Goku lifted a finger to touch his lips. He could feel the fiery taste of Gojyo's lips. Man, that ero- kappa sure can kiss... Wait!! Why did Gojyo kissed him???
Goku couldn't think any further as his sensitive ears caught footsteps behind him. He jumped off the ground and snapped around to face his intruder, who was actually Konzen.
"Can't sleep?" Konzen asked. Goku relaxes his tense body and nodded in reply. "Me too." Tomorrow morning, they will be leaving. The spell will wear off and he will return to heaven. WITH Goku.
The thought of having Goku all to himself and not sharing the little saru with someone who looked like him made Konzen feel all tingly inside. He took Goku into his embrace. "You'll come with me, won't you?"
//Sanzo didn't stop me. // Goku wrapped his small arms around Konzen's waist.
//What if Sanzo was lying? // He lifted his head to see a pair of violet eyes so full with love and tenderness. There was no way he could hurt this man the same way Sanzo had hurt him. Goku buried his head onto Konzen's chest. [It's over, Sanzo. Stop haunting me.]
"Yes."
~*~
"Ch'. So this is where you're hiding at, stupid corrupted monk." Gojyo said with a very sarcastic tone. Such a stupid hiding place; suitable for a stupid timid monk. "Drinking all your sorrows away? Heh, old fashion."
"Gojyo, quit it." Hakkai can't help it but to speak up for Sanzo. The man himself wasn't even in the condition to take out his gun and point it at Gojyo. He lay still, sprawled on the table, sending a message that nobody can move him.
Well, that was until Gojyo grabbed his robe from behind and forced him to get up. "I have enough of you and that saru. Why can't you two just stop playing hide and seek already??"
Fiery red eyes stared into lazy violet ones. Sanzo didn't even bother to stand up straight. All that supported him from collapsing on the floor was Gojyo's strong arms.
"What are you..." Hakkai was startled, he never expected Gojyo to get so angry all of a sudden. He stood up in order to break them apart.
"Stay where you are, Hakkai!" Gojyo barked. "This isn't the Sanzo I know anymore. He needs to wake up." With that, Gojyo raised a fist and punched Sanzo's chin. Sanzo flew backwards from the impact and his back smacked the wall. It was a good thing the pub was already empty.
The heavy blow from Gojyo seemed to work. As Sanzo pushed himself up again, there was anger taking over the lazy look he had.
"Let's have a bet. If I win this fight, I get Goku." Gojyo hissed. He charged at Sanzo for the second blow.
Hakkai shuts his eyes. He can't bear to watch Gojyo hurting Sanzo but he knows Gojyo is right. Sanzo needs to wake up. There was total silence. No crashing sounds, no grunting or moaning in pain from either Sanzo or Gojyo. Hakkai forced his eyes open.
Gojyo's fist was wrapped inside Sanzo's hand. He did not succeeded in the second punch. "What do you understand?" Sanzo spoke each and every word aloud. His anger burned by the second. "He never has feelings for me. I can't stop him from leaving."
As quick as a flash, Sanzo return a full blow at Gojyo's stomach, causing the man to stager backwards and wince in pain. Gojyo's breath became harsh and uneven, but that didn't stop him from talking. "That is exactly why he's leaving. BECAUSE YOU DIDN'T STOP HIM!!!!"
There was some kind of shocked and surprised expression on Sanzo's face. But it disappeared just as fast as it appeared. "Shut the fuck up and fight."
~*~
The sky was grey, ten more minutes till the sun rises. "Ano, where are we going, Konzen?" Goku turned to look at the inn, which was getting further and further. He was not worried where is Konzen planning to take him. Goku trust him.
"No where. Remember Goku, do NOT let go of my hand when the sun rises." Konzen warned him again. If they were not having any skin connection, then Goku will not be able to go back with him.
Goku nodded and stared down at his small hand hidden inside Konzen's. There was no goodbye to be said. He wouldn't allow himself to say his last goodbyes to Gojyo, Hakkai...especially not Sanzo. A dreaded feeling conquered his chest. At least, he wanted to see Sanzo for the last time.
//Goku. // He's ears perked up and he looked back excitedly. Nope. No one was there. It was his imagination. He lowered his head in disappointment. Konzen, seeing Goku had somewhat slower his pace, turned back too. "What is it?"
"N-nothing." They continue to walk.
//Goku. // He frowned hard, trying to decide whether it was the voice in his head or... Goku's heartbeat quickens as he turned around again. "Are you okay, Goku?" Konzen tightens his grip on Goku's hand.
Goku smiled to assure him. Even though he was dying to kick himself for his stupidity. There was no one there. Who was he hoping for anyway? "I'm okay."
It was only a few more steps before 'it' called him again. "Goku."
Somehow, he knew this wasn't the voice in his head. He slowly turned back and found what was he hoping for. His sunshine.
Sanzo tried hard not to stumble or fell down as he clutched his stomach. How many bruises were hidden underneath his robe, he did not want to think about it. He made a mental note to kick Gojyo's ass again after he's done with this baka saru.
~*~
(Back in the bar)
Beyond the broken tables, chairs and broken beer bottles were two men. Gojyo smoked on a cigarette while Hakkai was trying to heal his open wounds. Sanzo was much better at causing his opponent physical pain compared to Gojyo.
"I didn't know you like that idiot." Gojyo yelped as Hakkai 'accidentally' pressed his wound.
Hakkai smiled with a ping of evil. "I didn't know you were interested in small kids too, Gojyo." It made the red haired man blush. The whole bar became quiet again.
After a while, Hakkai had completed his task. He heaved a sigh and wiped the sweat on his forehead away. "You should stay and rest."
"Are you kidding? Stay here while all the interesting stuff are happening outside??" Gojyo stubbornly tried to stand up he almost stumble backwards and fall on his butt if Hakkai hadn't caught him.
They were in an embarrassing position now. Gojyo was practically hugging onto Hakkai and their faces were inches apart. Breathing became a very hard thing to do for Gojyo. How come he never noticed those brilliant emerald eyes of Hakkai's?
Suddenly, Hakkai buried his head onto Gojyo's shoulder. "Oi! What-"
"Stop pretending that you're not hurt!" Hakkai had no intention of moving away from Gojyo's warm body at all. "Loosing Goku hurts. I understand. You're not alone, Gojyo. You're not alone."
The fire in his red eyes died down. Tears brimmed his eyes. Why is Hakkai always right? Gojyo returned the hug. Always remember, he is not alone.
~*~
"What do you want?" Konzen frowned and tried to block Goku's view from Sanzo who was standing ten or more steps away from them. "Stay away from Goku."
Sanzo glared at him. "Listen. I'm drunk, hurt, tired and fed-up. So let's make things simple. Goku stays, you leave."
The boy was surprised upon hearing his name. Sanzo... Sanzo wants him to stay? "We have gone through this already, Genjo Sanzo. The boy is willingly leaving with me." Konzen glared back at him.
"I've changed my mind." There was a small tug at the corners of Sanzo's lips. He had a confident smirk. His eyes averted from Konzen to his beloved Goku. "You promise to stay. I found you and you belong to me. I'm asking you to stay. Please."
Both blond held their breaths and eyed Goku in union tension.
The boy was anything but calm. He looked at Konzen, then at Sanzo. What is he going to do??? He shuts his golden eyes to calm his frantic heart. He must make the right decision. Now!
It seemed like ages when Goku finally opened his eyes again. He glanced at the hand that he was holding. Then lifted his head to study Sanzo's expression. His golden orbs full of love and affection that the older man always hardly notice. He smiled.
And shook his head. "Goodbye Sanzo." Goku lowered his head and turned to walk away with Konzen's hand still in his. He had given up on Sanzo.
Sanzo had dropped his smile. This wasn't in his prediction. The sky was turning into light orange and Goku had his back towards him. This was it. He was going to lose Goku forever.
The spell begins to take its place; Konzen can feel it. But he was unhappy. He tried to ignore the tears rolling non-stop down Goku's cheeks.
"Goku, " The boy stopped but did not turn back. He doesn't want the person he loves to see his tears. "Do you remember the time when you asked me if I love you?"
Goku gritted his teeth trying hard not to tremble too much. He already knew that answer. Sanzo loves Ha- "I do not love Hakkai."
The moment stopped for Goku as the truth is out. "I will give you an answer. If you stay." Are his ears playing tricks on him again or is Sanzo... Goku turned back swiftly. He was right.
There stood the great priest, Genjo Sanzo, in tears. Sanzo didn't bother to wipe away the wet streaks on his face. He wasn't ashamed to let Goku see how weak he is. In fact, without Goku, he is weak. "Don't go."
Goku would give anything up to just wipe the desperation from Sanzo's face. He loosens his hand from the tight grip. "Konzen." He whispered softly. "I'm sorry."
What happened next was a blur, Goku rushed towards Sanzo. He didn't saw the pain look Konzen had, he didn't saw Konzen slowly disappearing in thin air, what he had in his eyes was Sanzo, and only Sanzo.
The monk collapsed on the floor as Goku flung his little body onto his bruised one. Sanzo's body was yelling in pain as the saru had landed precisely on his wounds. "Bak-"
"Sanzo!" Goku had his arms around Sanzo's neck and hugged the man with all his might. "I was so scared of leaving." His childish and needy action melted Sanzo's harsh words.
To his ultimate surprise, Sanzo returned the hug and kissed Goku's temple. "I won't let you leave me again."
~*~
[Why? Why did Goku choose the other man? Shit. When I wake up from this stupid unconsciousness, I'm going to use that freaking spell again. This time I'll take Goku back by force! Just you wait Sanzo...]
//Konzen //
[Huh? Who's calling my name?]
//Konzen //
[Argh! Stop whining already! Correction, the first thing I'm going to do when I wake up from this stupid unconsciousness is to find the owner of that voice and give it a nice punch or two.]
//Konzen!! Wake up!! //
[Alright already!! Shut up!]
~*~
Konzen flutter his eyes open. Just to be greeted by familiar golden ones. "Konzen!!!" Goku yelled.
The blond haired god slowly sat up and rubbed the back of his head. He was confused, didn't he left Goku to Sanzo? But the Goku smiling brightly at him had long hair and he was wearing his usual clothes. Goku hugged him tightly.
Konzen finally noticed that he was inside his own room and his own bed. "Ah, he's awake?" Another voice joined in.
"Ken-nii-chan! Ten-chan!" Goku called out Konzen's worst nightmare duo. The General and Marshal both had sly smiles on their face.
"So what happened? Where were you those two weeks?" Kenren asked eagerly first.
Konzen eyed him wearily. "Don't you think you should report to me about this first?" He pointed a finger at Goku.
Pushing up his glasses, it was Tenpou's turn to speak. "Li Touten kidnapped Goku. When you were gone, we finally have some news about Goku and found him the next day. I guess the spell thing didn't work."
"Li Touten?" He would deal with this bastard later. Everything is so confusing. But there was one thing he was sure and wanted to do it right now. He looked at Goku who was devouring Konzen with his hungry eyes. "We'll talk later. Get out of my room." Without breaking the eye lock, Konzen demanded.
"But..." Kenren started. Tenpou cleverly clamped the not-so-smart General's mouth and pulled him out of the room.
"Ne Konzen, where have you been? I missed you." Goku pouted and didn't seem to mind when Konzen pinned him down on the bed.
"You were gone for one month, do you know how badly I need you?" Konzen's hands works swiftly as he unbuttons Goku's shirt. He crushed the blushing boy's lips with his own. The room went silence except for a few soft moaning. Of course, not forgetting Kenren and Tenpou eavesdropping outside.
End of Chapter four
AN: Hope this chapter's not so bad, I had to squeeze two chapters into one, that's why it's so long. Oh yeah, when I said I couldn't continue this fic, it was because my school holidays are almost over and I'm going to a boarding school.
But since I'm such a die-hard Saiyuki fan, I might as well finish off what I've begun. *Smiles* Of course, I couldn't continue without my awfully cool reviewers!! Luv you guys! I wouldn't know what I was writing without you guys reviewing. ^____~
The next and final chapter (chapter 5) is full of useless...LIME!!! *Hooray!!!* Does anyone actually like to read lime? I know I do!! If you don't, then don't worry. Because chapter five hardly have anything to do with 'Innocent Eighteen'. But then again, the fic would be much complete if you do read it. It'll be up before the 3rd of January 2003. Happy New Year!!!!!!
A few thank you notes
Morikawa Sei: *Bad Hakkai, bad!!* Hehehe... It's not really that complicated now, ne? Thank you for your review!
cutie-pie16: Well, Sanzo and Goku are (sort of) together now. I'm happy for them. (Wait, ain't I the one who made them break up?) *Hits head against coconut tree* Thank you for asking me to continue, I appreciate your support. Oh and ganbatte in your fic too!! I love them all!
chris: Don't worry, your not blabbering. ^___^ I'm very happy that you want me to continue. Arigatou!!!
Gokugurl: I like your fic 'Of Golden Eyes'!! You are a great writer!! I mean you're so good at lime scene that I almost had nosebleed! (Seriously!) I have to remember to add your story into my favourite!! *Writes mental note.* Thank you for your review!
black luna: Sorry to make it hasty, but I didn't really now where did the past Goku went... so I made Li Touten kidnap (Or is it monkeynap?) him. Bwuahahaha!! *ahem* Anyways, hope you like lime... @_@
stresser: Thank you for wanting me to continue it. I know the angst hurts, but hey! What better way to make happy endings happier? *Smiles* I'm always in a good mood! Thanks again!
Anonymous: I like this. This is an anonymous review. 'You're right. It sucked. And I will *not* get started on your grammar.' First of all, thanks for agreeing the ending in chapter three sucked. You're truthful! Second, THANK GOD you will *not* go through my grammar mistake. Ehehe... *Smiles in embarrassment* Third, why don't you leave your name and e-mail address this time? (Chicken?)
Aki Rei: The way Sanzo and Konzen fight over Goku made them darn OOC ne? Don't you agree? Anyway, sank you for the review!! But I must confess 'Innocent Eighteen' ain't much of a good fic.
Jessica: Arigatou! Arigatou! Arigatou!
Star-chan: Gomen! I didn't mean to confuse you about the room thing!! Here's a short explanation. Goku forgets to lock the door and went to Sanzo's room. Sanzo getting drunk and all went to Goku's room to find a sleeping Hakkai (Whom he thought it was Goku in his room). Goku woke up half way through the night and went back to his own room to lock the door. *Gasp* He saw 'them'!!! Glad you still like it! SANK YOU!!!!
dark seraph: Wow! You like the OOC??? Thank you soooo much for not minding the OOC I've out in the Saiyuki characters. *Snif* *snif* and thank you for your support!! Damn you know how to make me feel so happy. ; _ ;
Saiyukifan: You have asthma? Oh my god!! (Kidding, ^_^) You really have a great imagination! Thank you for not allowing me to stop this fic (or else I really would have). Oh, and past Goku didn't run away, he was kidnapped!!! Anywayz, I know this chapter actually sucked. (No, really. I've read it twice and I was like... ugh.) But I promise there be lotsa 'action' (Trying hard below NC-17) in the next chapter!
Ewen: Another great author! I love your fic 'the gay pervert's curse' absolutely hilarious!! Gojyo in love with Goku was actually not in the plan, but it seemed so right!! So I DID made a Gojyo/Goku pairing. I almost die laughing about 'The Little Engine' part. And damn, it works so good! Thanks for sharing that secret! Arigatou!
Windyhurrice: Lovely nick. I'm so honored to receive your first Saiyuki review! ^____^ (WAH!!!!!!) That must be the longest review I ever received. Cool! Ano, I'm not very good at long thank you notes, so as Sanzo-sama said 'let's make things simple'. You have reviewed, and I, thank you!!
M-i: No, your questions are not stupid or weird. I really liked the way you review. It makes me consider the missing part of this fanfic. You're such a great help! And thank you for making me continue the fic. I hope this chapter answers your questions! Arigatou!!
Chris pwure: Hehehe, of course Sanzo and Goku make a good pair! *Waves infamous flag of 'Sanzo x Goku forever!!!'* Sad? Erm... ah... I dunno... But then, at least we have gotten rid of Gojyo and Hakkai knots. Hip hip hooray!! Thank you for reviewing!
Gokugurl: Ano... (looks 13 reviewers up) are you the same person? Well, sank you again!! ^____^ Excuse my stupidity, but what is 39 and 83??
syazery: Your wish is my command? Sank you for the review!!!
Gemini: If Sanzo be more nice to Goku, everyone will say he's OOC (Although I can imagine that cute picture of Sanzo sucking on Goku's thumb *Snickers*). I don't know if it's good or bad to do so... And I like the idea of messing things up completely like you suggested. Gaiden Goku going to Sanzo and stuff (Great imagination you have). But yeah, as you review, it's too messy and too hard for me to write that. But anyways, I love your review!!! Thank you for calling the fic 'wonderful'!! *Gives you a huge bear hug*
gallatica: Uh-huh. Poor Goku... poor Sanzo... (Bad NigHtEyeZ!) Right, I think as you review, Konzen is OOC in this fic. Sorry if it bothers you. Gomen!! Ehehehe... Don't mind me, sometimes I think my fic sucks and sometimes I think I should get an award for it. (Yup, the award of 'The Most Stupidest Saiyuki Fic of The Year') Well, thanks a lot for the review. I hope you enjoy chapter 4 too!!!
s@yUki: A re? Tenpou? Kenren? Ahahaha... I almost forgot about those two adorable deities! Merry Belated Xmas to you too! Oh and, Happy New Year!!! Thanks for leaving a review!!
That's about it. I'm going to start typing chapter five now. *close eyes ad pray* God, please help me to get rid of the writers block. I need to finish it in two days flat!!! Ja~~ .