This Is How You Remind Me Chapter 3, a yu-gi-oh fanfic

[Raine] ok! It's still less than 24 hours since I started typing up the fist couple of pages I wrote on paper a while ago...and... I'm working on Chapter 3!!! (I'm sooo proud of my self!!!!) hey! And they are re-playing the top 101 songs that they played last night this afternoon.. Yay! I get music while I work! *Singing* I..I feel so alive...so alive...for the very fist time...for he very fist time...and I think I could fly...

[Yami Raine] you better keep writing this little one, don't get stuck!

[Raine] I'll try not to!

[Yami Raine] Raine doesn't own Yu-Gi-Oh! If she did...she would probably die of happiness...and then ... she wouldn't be able to write...and I would have no light...even though she is an annoying onna

[Raine] Yami R.! I told you, keep calling me an onna and I won't let you watch gundam wing any more!

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Now... to all my reviewers (at least the ones I had when I wrote this ^_^; I'm getting more as I write, so if you aren't here, wait 'till the next chapter, ok? ok!) thank you all soooo much! I totally love you guys. *Big teary eyes* you guys said such nice things! You all give me the motivation to keep writing, and I thank you from the bottom of my heart.

to lilkraziegrl: okie dokies, here some more for ya!

to Yami Tsuki Tenshi: thank you! *eeps* no! not a chibi ryou...don't you people know I can't say no to a chibi ryou? *sigh* of course I'll write ya more ^_^ thank you so much ^______^ I went to bed for a bit, and now I'm back with some more...maybe I'll make less mistakes since I'm more awake now ^_~

to white-silver : yeppers! Thanks so much for the review!

to Dark Lady Setsuna: how soon is soon? ^_~ I'm updating right now ^_^

to IrishJade: I know...it was getting to me how well it worked...other wise, I wouldn't have started this while I'm in the middle of another Yu-Gi-Oh! fic... and thank you for the compliment!

to loanshark: thank you! here's some more for you!

to Gin Ryu-chan: *eyes get big as saucers* you really liked it all that much? oh thank you, thank you, thank you!!!

to i love bakura (and yami i love bakura): thank you so much ^____^ here is some more for ya!

to Ryouluver4evr: thank you so much! I do feel bad hurting poor 'lil Ryou tho :'( he's just too kawaii to hurt...

to Promise : Thank you sooo much ^___^

to bakurasgirl: no need to beg, I love writing this!

to ShannaraGirl: have I heard of Stone Sour? Yeppers! I've heard a few of their songs on the radio, and so far I like them ^___^

to dilanda: I know what you mean, I love reading them too ^_^; it's kinda weird to be writing one tho, after reading soooo many!

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'Thoughts'

"Talking"

/Ryou to Bakura/

//Bakura to Ryou//

{Yugi to Yami Yugi}

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Bakura woke up to find he had fallen asleep in his soul room, sitting on the floor with his head on the bed. He got up and stretched muttering a string of Egyptian curses at the pain in his back. 'What possessed me to sleep like that?' Bakura shook his head to clear it then, giving one last glance to Ryou's angelic form still asleep on his bed, departed from his soul room for the real world, desperately hoping that there would be no doctors awaiting him.

Instead of a doctor, he managed to find Yami Yugi, whom he just happened to have the luck of bumping into as he materialized. He gave the pharaoh a cold stare. Yami Yugi glared back.

"I think it is more than time you explained, just what the hell happened to him, tomb robber" yam's eyes narrowing even more at the fiend before him.

"This time, it is not my fault Pharaoh" Bakura said, eyes blazing with anger.

"Then who's is it? Ryou's?" Yami thundered back 'causing Bakura to bristle.

~I've been wrong, I've been down~

"He was attacked coming home from school by some idiot" Bakura practically screamed, "who's soul is now a happy member of the shadow realm" his voice dropping to a dangerously insane calm near the end. "The idiot's friend has either been dragged off, or had emptied the contents of his veins onto the pavement, I would expect the latter, which he more than deserves for touching. My. Hikari.!!!"

Yugi's eyes widened slightly at the possessiveness of Yami Bakura's words. He looked back and forth between the bed and the fiend a few times, hope shining in his eyes. Only to be extinguished as Bakura pushed past him and Yami, heading towards the door.

"Where you going" Yami asked, still slightly awed by the white-haired spirit's speech.

"Does it matter?" Bakura sneered, stalking out of the door of the hospital room.

{Will he be ok?}

{{Ryou will get better, you heard the doctor this morning Aibou}}

{Not Ryou, Bakura...}

{{Him? why wouldn't he be, he's been ok for over 5,000 years, why should things change now?}}

{I..I don't know, I just thought maybe..I don't know perhaps he's changed?}

{He saved Ryou}

{He seemed concerned for Ryou, though, he stayed here all night}

{...I guess so}

{I...I don't know, I just thought that maybe...}

{{Not every one can love everyone like you do little one, people just don't seem to be capable of it}}

{All the more reason for me to hope ^_^}

Yami Yugi just smiled at his light who had sat down in a chair next to the bed, to await Ryou's waking up.

'Oh Yugi...tell me what will happen when you grow up, how much pain can one person take, will you be able to take it, can you live in this world? I will protect you little one, I will protect your love.'

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Bakura walked down the street towards that bar, chocolate eyes full of anger, confusion and pain. He swiped at his pale hair as the morning wind blew it into his eyes. Growling softly as the wind continued to make the pale strands dace about his face, Bakura rounded the corner to find the bar closed. Muttering more Egyptian curses he continued walking down the street heading towards Ryou's house where, if he remembered correctly, he still had some beer... somewhere... he opened the door to Ryou's home, and closed the door behind him, walking first to Ryou's room to search for some clean cloths, as his were still covered in blood. The house had a cool, unlived in feeling to it, yet, it seemed very much like home to Bakura. He tossed these thoughts aside as he dug through Ryou's closet 'weak. Wanting a home like that is weak, I can live where ever, home is place, a word for the weak'

'Ryou is weak' his mind reminded him

'Pathetically so' he replied to it

'You like him though'

'He is too weak'

Bakura pulled on some clean jeans and a dark green shirt, deciding that he was going to have to take Ryou shopping sometime soon, these cloths just didn't cut it.... he walked passed the bathroom, the bandages were still sitting there on the counter where Ryou had left them in the rush to get ready for school. Frowning Bakura walked into the kitchen and pulled out his hidden beer, going with the age old tradition of 'if I can't do anything about it, I might as well get drunk' (A/N: I don't suggest drinking. it doesn't solve your problems)

He remembered now how much he hated bottles as he struggled to open the top, Egyptian curses coloring his efforts. Finally he managed to get the top off and taking a long drink sat down to his thoughts.

'He wanted to die'

'I pushed him to thoughts of suicide'

'What was I thinking?'

'I just wanted to protect him, Goddamnit'

'I wanted him to be stronger, so no-one could hurt him'

'Is that so horribly wrong?'

"Well is it!" He yelled at the kitchen cabinets, a tear slipping from his dark eyes and falling to land upon his lap. Bakura brought a shaking hand up to touch his face, the sight of the tears fascinating him.

'Am I really so weak, that I would cry?'

'He's alive, it's not like he died or anything'

~Been to the bottom of every bottle~

~These five words in my head~

~Scream "are we having fun yet?"~

~Yet?, Yet?, Yet?, no no~

He finished off the bottle, feeling even worse than before.

'So why the hell am I crying?!?!'

Wiping furiously at his tears. He fought to drive them away. Trying to, by sheer force of will, stop the torrents of water that flowed across his cheeks, leaving dark spots on his shirt and jeans.

' I vowed not to cry again, ever!!'

~Never made it as a wise man~

~I couldn't cut it as a poor man stealin'~

'Never again! My tears were only for her, my dear, dear mother.'

'I vowed never to cry again after she was gone! Never again!!!'

"Never again!" Bakura choked out. Wrapping his arms about his knees like a small child, as sobs wracked his body.

'I vowed never to care again, never to love, so I would never have to cry'

'So why does it hurt so much when I tell my self to stop caring?'

'Why can't I just let go of him?'

'Why?'

"Why?!?!" Bakura's hoarse scream echoed through out the empty house. And then, he gave in, sobbing into his hands. Crying for all the pain he had given to Ryou, for all the pain his father had given him. For the loneliness of 5,000 years, for the emptiness he had nurtured in his heart all these years, and for the small boy he left in the hospital, the one thing that he now knew he would gladly give up his life for.

~And this is how you remind me~

~This is how you remind me~

~Of what I really am~

~This is how you remind me~

~Of what I really am~

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Latter that evening and back at the hospital Ryou woke up in his Yami's Soul room. With a sigh, he returned to his physical body, opening his eyes to Yugi sitting in a chair next to the bed, a concerned look on his face.

"Hey, how are you doing Ryou-kun?" Yugi asked in a soft voice.

Ryou gave a weak smile "did you catch the number of the truck that hit me?" he asked softly, his eyes sparkling in amusement. Yugi giggled softly as Ryou sat up slowly, putting his weight on the arm that had escaped the damage of the blade. He was used to pain, his Yami had taught him how to cope with life even when he was wounded. 'I can do this' moving slowly he brought his legs around so he was sitting on the bed with his legs dangling off the side. A small cart next to the bed held a cup of water, which he took in his good hand and drank appreciatively, the paper feeling in his mouth and throat receding.

Yugi watched him carefully, as if he was afraid to look away, for fear that Ryou would manage to fall off of the bed or some such thing. Ryou smiled at Yugi.

"I'm not that badly hurt" he said softly "I actually think I can manage walking and such if I need to"

Yugi looked at the pale boy suspiciously "are you sure? Those cuts look rather painful and you lost allot of blood, you should probably stay in bed."

"I'll be ok" Ryou said adding the best smile he could muster to the end of the statement

"The Pharaoh's little lap dog is right" Bakura said from the doorway. He had taken a shower and looked his evil old self, though he was still grumpy from his earlier arguments with himself.

{No, Yami... I think it's against the rules to hurt people in a hospital}

{...............We are leaving before you do something stupid}

Yugi slipped out of the door leaving the two snow-haired boys, who were so caught up in each other that they never noticed him disappear.

Ryou looked at his Yami, sensing the remaining anger through their link. Bakura met his stare looking straight into his lighter half's eyes, only to find fear and confusion in those eyes, which quickly looked away. Sighing to himself, Bakura looked down at his shoes.

//..I'm sorry Ryou// he whispered softly into his light's head.

Ryou's eyes widened his head coming up to look his Yami in the eye; surprised by the pain he saw swimming in the other's brown eyes.

~It's not like you to say sorry~

~I was waiting for a different story~

//Ryou, I...I just wanted to protect you. I love you. Can you ever forgive me?// Bakura looked back down at his shoes, afraid of what Ryou would say, afraid of the answer that anyone would give under these circumstances.

~This time I was mistaken~

~For handing you a heart worth breaking~

~I've been wrong, I've been down~

~Been to the bottom of every bottle~

But Ryou wasn't anyone...he was Ryou, and his heart knew how to forgive, how to love, better than many other people's ever could.

"I forgive you" Ryou whispered softly. Slowly standing and taking a few wobbly steps towards Bakura. Bakura noticing his light's weakness, and the length of the IV cord, moved forwards to support Ryou with his arm, only to find Ryou embracing him tightly. "And I love you too Yami-chan" Ryou whispered softly, a few tears rolling down his cheeks. Bakura smiled gently at Ryou, brushing away the tears softly with the pad of his thumb. Slowly, Bakura leaned towards Ryou, capturing his lips in a soft kiss before putting his arms around his light, holding his close to his chest, taking comfort in the embrace, in the beating of their two hearts, both slightly pained, both a little confused, but they were together, and that was all that mattered.

~These five words in my head~

~Scream "are we having fun yet?"~

~Yet?, Yet?, Yet?, no no ~

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[Raine] well...that's a wrap

[Yami Bakura/Ryou] No more?

[Raine] do you want a sequel? We will just have to see what the readers think, if they want more, I'll write a sequel. Ok?

[Yami Raine] you better keep writing this little one, don't get stuck!

[Raine] I'll try not to!

[Raine] Yami R.! I told you, keep calling me an onna and I won't let you watch gundam wing any more!

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to lilkraziegrl: okie dokies, here some more for ya!

to white-silver : yeppers! Thanks so much for the review!

to Dark Lady Setsuna: how soon is soon? ^_~ I'm updating right now ^_^

to IrishJade: I know...it was getting to me how well it worked...other wise, I wouldn't have started this while I'm in the middle of another Yu-Gi-Oh! fic... and thank you for the compliment!

to loanshark: thank you! here's some more for you!

to Gin Ryu-chan: *eyes get big as saucers* you really liked it all that much? oh thank you, thank you, thank you!!!

to: i love bakura (and yami i love bakura): thank you so much ^____^ here is some more for ya!